Chapter 60: How Can I Possibly Want to Kill You?
Yes...
And the broken mirror.
Now it seems that throwing it away at will could also turn into a disaster.
Xu Chong felt hurt, and at the same time, another question came to mind.
Why do water ghosts go out of their way to help themselves?
Could it be ......
Xu Chong hesitated for a moment and asked, "Are you Xu You'an?" ”
“…… Why do you think that? ”
The water ghost was stunned for a moment, and his tone suddenly took on a bit of frivolity, as if he couldn't hold back a smile.
"If it's not Xu Youan, why are you helping me like this?"
Xu Chong frowned, and said in a deep voice: "Although Sun Yurong and Zhou Ze all said that Xu You'an was dead, I can't think of anyone else besides him." ”
"If he's still around, I'd love to see his face at this point."
The water ghost shook his head and smiled, and said, "Sun Yurong and they are not wrong, Xu Youan is really dead, I saw it with my own eyes, you don't need to doubt this." ”
"Dead ......"
Xu Chong was stunned and even more puzzled, "What is your relationship with him?" And why help me? ”
"Relational ...... Hmm, he treats me as a friend, and I treat him as an adversary? ”
The water ghost said that he was also a little unsure, and then his tone was slightly helpless, "Anyway, it's almost the same if it's not like this, as for why the helper... This is my deal with Xu Youan. ”
"Deal?"
Xu Chong was a little speechless.
This seems to be the second thief who has a close relationship with the third master.
And... Rival?
Which opponents?
It can't be a martial arts aspect, right?
"I know what you want to ask, but my acquaintance with him is a coincidence, and most of the things you don't know, I don't know."
After speaking, the water ghost waved his hand a little impatiently, "Okay, adults and children don't inquire about it, let's get back to the point." ”
Xu Chong: "......"
If it weren't for the fact that he couldn't beat it, he really wanted to lift the water ghost's hat.
"I'm not alarmist when I say you're in a state of mind."
The water ghost's tone became serious, "Zhang Youde was okay that time, but the most serious thing is this time." ”
"After dismantling Fu Wei's ability to resist, the most correct thing for you to do is to ask for information as much as possible, check and fill in the gaps in the entire plan, and then kill them."
"But you chose the most stupid way to use such an important opportunity to show off your might."
"Do you know how risky it is?"
"I think you know, but you did it anyway."
"Because, you sense that something is wrong with you, but you don't know what is wrong, so you can only use this method to try to alleviate it."
After speaking, the water ghost sighed faintly, "But you ask yourself, does this really work?" ”
“……”
Xu Chong was silent.
"Looks like you've agreed with me, so let's move on."
The water ghost nodded, pondered for a moment, and said, "As far as I can speculate, your state of mind problem is caused by two reasons, the first is the contradiction between conscience and words and deeds. ”
"Conscience and deeds?"
Xu Chong muttered, his eyes were a little strange, "What do you say?" ”
"You think that what you have done and what you have pursued is not worthy of the respect of the people at all, let alone being repaid by them."
"That's why the hanging beam failed."
"That's why after you become a canon, you will deliberately alienate the people."
The water ghost left no room for anything, and directly pulled out the emotions that Xu Chong had buried in the deepest part of his heart, and put them naked on the surface.
Xu Chong became more and more puzzled the more he listened.
There is nothing wrong with what the water ghost said, if he is still the same Xu Chong as before, then this point can indeed be established.
But he's not.
He didn't do it.
As for the deliberate alienation of the people later...... It's just that I want to get rid of the original persona.
It's okay, it's okay.
After pushing all the responsibility to the original, Xu Chong breathed a sigh of relief in his heart, and his face still remained solemn: "Nature is like this, this can't be helped, you still say second..."
"It's so by nature?!"
The water ghost interrupted sharply, "You still think you're doing the right thing?" ”
Xu Chong was choked by this sudden harshness, and said weakly: "Isn't it..."
"You!"
The water ghost pointed at Xu Chong, as if he was not lightly angry, and then put it down after coughing for a while, "Forget it, right or wrong is not something I can decide, let me tell you about your father." ”
"Him?"
When Xu Chong heard this, he immediately cheered up.
"His deeds in Canglong, you should have learned about it from Sun Yurong."
The water ghost's tone was a little low, with a hint of nostalgia, "As far as I know. When the people embraced him, they regarded him as a new parent, and when they hated him, they cursed him to death day and night. ”
"But from beginning to end, he has never wavered for half a point, and has always gone his own way."
"I asked him why he was like that, and he said he was just doing what he wanted, doing what he thought was right, and how the people treated him, that was the people's business."
"I didn't understand it at the time, until he didn't hesitate to leave the people of Canglong County behind and chose to die to save you."
"Always do what you think is the most correct at the moment, give up when you should give up, have a beginning and an end, and not be moved by external things."
"I think that's what a true conscience is."
Unity of knowledge and action?
Xu Chong thought thoughtfully, "I probably understand what you mean." ”
"That's good."
The water ghost bowed his head in satisfaction and continued, "The second reason is related to your martial arts realm, and this reason will aggravate the first reason... Are you now a Pulse Quadruple? Or five-fold? ”
"Five-fold."
Xu Chong was blunt.
"That's the biggest problem."
The water ghost nodded, "In fact, the state of mind can actually be counted as a kind of realm, and the reason why it has not been taken out separately is because under normal circumstances, the state of mind is more than strength. ”
"Normal?"
Xu Chong raised his eyebrows.
"Normal people are very slow to improve their strength, no matter how high their talent is, the speed of mood growth is faster than their strength."
The water ghost patiently explained, "But you are different, the foundation Xu You'an laid for you is too good, which causes your cultivation speed to be too fast, and your strength growth far exceeds your state of mind." ”
"Strength is more than state of mind...... Isn't it good? ”
Xu Chong was a little puzzled.
In his opinion, strength is real strength, something to settle down, what to do in the state of mind.
"Don't you feel that the good thoughts and evil thoughts in your heart about people are invisibly magnified?"
The water ghost asked rhetorically.
"This..."
Xu Chong was stunned for a moment, and then his face changed wildly.
He remembered one thing...... When he saw the cats and dogs shot by the Bloody Guard, he actually felt the urge to avenge them!
At the time, I didn't take it seriously, I just thought that the Bloody Guards deserved to die if they didn't tell me, but now I think about it......
Xu Chong shuddered, "What can I do to change this situation?" ”
"Self-cultivation, slow down the improvement of the martial arts realm, and try not to do anything with people."
The water ghost replied.
Xu Chong was silent.
If there was a choice, he didn't want to improve so quickly.
How good is it for the spiritual source to save for immortality?
But the problem is that there will always be all kinds of people and all kinds of things that will force him to improve.
After thinking about it, Xu Chong said: "I will try not to break through again, but there must always be a head, right?" When will I be able to let go of the suppression? ”
"It depends on you to feel it yourself, when you feel that your mind is clear and harmonious, and when you can break through the veins."
"The mind is clear, and the harmony is not hindered......"
Xu Chong chewed carefully, not quite understanding these two words.
"In the short term, the eyes of the imperial court and Taiping Dao will be focused on the vanished Wei Wuxie, and you will have a long time to solve this problem."
"Besides, if you don't have a noble status, why are you breaking through to the Tongmai? I can't play it again. ”
The water ghost stood up and walked towards the door, "Remember, try not to do it if you can." ”
Xu Chong's eyes moved slightly, almost instinctively, and he took this opportunity to see the appearance of the water ghost.
An extremely unfamiliar face, with a short beard, about forty or fifty years old.
Just looking at the face, it still matches this dress very well...
It's a pity that it's really not Xu Youan.
Xu Chong was slightly disappointed, and waited for the water ghost to walk to the door before he got up and shouted, "How can I find you?" ”
"Looking for me?"
The water ghost paused, slowly turned around, and his eyes seemed to pass through the hat, falling on Xu Chong's face, "I have said everything I should say, what are you looking for me?" ”
"You help me so much, I want to help you when I have the chance."
Xu Chong did not dodge or dodge, and looked at this gaze.
Time passes slowly.
After a long time, the water ghost sighed faintly: "You...... Do you want to kill me like that? ”
"Kill you?"
Xu Chong smiled and shook his head repeatedly, "You help me so much, how could I want to kill you?" ”
"No need to deny it."
The water ghost's tone was flat, "From the beginning to the present, even if I clearly expressed my intentions, you have never given up the opportunity to find and kill me. ”
"Not really."
Xu Chong frowned, and his smile disappeared little by little, "You should know that I got the Wuxiang Clothes, if the time is right......"
"To get rid of the household registration, your first choice should be Sun Yurong, who makes you believe more, not me."
The water ghost was unmoved, and turned his back again, "I don't know if this is due to your mood problem, or if you really want to kill me." ”
"But it doesn't matter, you probably won't see me in the future."
"May you survive in peace."