The world is gray.

Stumbled from a small place to Yanjing......

Along the way, he was the first in the class and the first in the whole school, but he fell on the last night before the college entrance examination.

I walked into the examination room with a fever, and I vomited and diarrhea halfway through the exam, and I only did half of the paper......

No one could have imagined ......

The boy who was once the most hopeful to go to Yan University will fall in the most critical exam.

Failed the college entrance examination!

It means that the rows of honorary certificates on the walls, the smiles on the faces of the parents who praise their son's growth when they are proud, and the voices of the villagers who praise the pride of the sky have all turned into a piercing voice.

Lin Cheng, who found out the score of the college entrance examination, looked at the results of the second line blankly, sat on a chair in the Internet café in the county seat like a fool, and sat all night.

The owners of the Internet cafes were so frightened that they called the police.

The man stared at the dark screen in a daze, maybe there was something wrong.

Falling from a great height and recognizing reality is an extremely painful thing.

Despair, like an ant, kept tearing at his heart, and for a long time, he locked himself in his room, repeatedly looking at those books in high school, reading like a demon crazy, repeatedly solving math problems that he had solved many times before, trying to let these things torment his spirit and make himself forget reality......

And then......

It's always going to be dark.

As the days go by, people always have to accept the reality.

He was at least admitted to Yanjing.

At least, study hard, still, can change your fate.

The college entrance examination can change fate, it is a carp jumping the dragon gate, but it is not the only dragon gate in life.

Ultimately......

He carried his bags and came to the big city of Yanjing in a daze.

The wind in the playground.

It's getting bigger......

He felt suffocation......

Uncontrollably yelling, he pulled his hair, laughed like crazy, and cried again.

He has always been convinced that knowledge changes destiny.

I am more sure that I can achieve results if I work hard, and if I am not serious enough, I will not work hard enough.

He desperately squeezed his space and time, and he didn't even have any social interactions, he shrunk himself into the library, dormitory, cafeteria......

He felt like a sword, constantly sharpening it over and over again, sharpening it until it was shiny, grinding until it came out of its sheath, and it was a blockbuster!

But the world is so unfair.

He has to work hard to go to the library to study, enriching all his knowledge.

Qi Haifeng, these people, but they exude the stench of capital, every day, he has a conflict with Qi Haifeng, he was pressed to the ground by Qi Haifeng and beaten hard, and was almost sent to the police station......

Although reconciled, he suddenly realized that he was out of step with the world.

Someone told him [A rich second generation like Qi Haifeng, who came to Yanhua to study, came to mix up his graduation certificate, and it was useless to study!] 】

Some people also told him [What's the use of studying like college, after you go out of society, you don't understand anyone's feelings, even if you enter some good companies, you will only be pressed to the bottom and be treated as a cow and a horse......]

【……】

Everyone told him to accept the harsh reality.

But he told himself that "knowledge changes fate!" He also told himself that "faith must be firm and no one can shake it".

He was eager to prove that he was right!

I am more eager to be a practitioner of the truth!

This desire is stronger than the moment when he took the college entrance examination, and he will not allow anyone to collapse his worldview anymore.

And then......

Semester 1.

The final exams are out.

He looked at the second grade, although it was also a first-class scholarship, but it was the second grade!

Zhang Sheng!

is the first ......

Zhang Sheng, who often asks for leave, actually took a very exaggerated score.

He is not far from Zhang Sheng's score......

However, in the second half of the first semester, Zhang Sheng took leave for three days and two ends!

Faith, for the first time, there was a rift, and from childhood to adulthood, his teachers told him that as long as he worked hard, he would have achievements.

However, no one has ever told him that there is a difference between people in intelligence, and of course, there are differences in learning methods.

After the second semester......

Zhang Sheng's leave is becoming more and more frequent, and he often can't see Zhang Sheng's shadow for three days.

After Lin Cheng saw this scene, he worked harder than last semester.

Then, everything seems to be going in a good direction......

There was a girl who often read books in the library with him, and I don't know who accosted the first sentence first, and over time, the two became acquainted.

The feeling of being in love is sweet, which makes Lin Cheng feel unprecedented happiness, the girl is cheerful and smiles beautifully......

Playground.

The wind is blowing harder and stronger.

Lin Cheng took off so much that there was only one pair of shorts left!

But he still roared like a beast, as if he wanted to run away with the last bit of strength and die on the playground!

The past came to his mind one by one......

He didn't know anything about love, so he easily sank, and then, with the money earned by his part-time tutor, he bought a mobile phone......

Since the advent of the iPhone 4, various domestic copycats have sprung up like mushrooms after a rain, and the price of some smart phones has become cheaper and cheaper.

I don't know when it started, the girl occasionally said "Wow, you and Zhang Sheng are roommates", which made him suddenly become a little vain.

I don't know when he started to tell Zhang Sheng's story inexplicably......

Zhang Sheng would often sit in the front row to study, and he would often meet Zhang Sheng in the library last semester, and Zhang Sheng would even ask him questions......

When he said these words, he was actually a little proud in his heart, in his life, he never thought that he could actually rely on such a sentence to amaze the girl.

He felt respected like never before, as if he was a chosen one, lucky and happy, as if everything had befallen him......

He started talking about Zhang Sheng a lot!

said that Zhang Sheng rarely came to class this semester, said that he did not have Zhang Sheng this semester, he felt that he was missing some goals, and he was a little lonely when he said that he had no opponents......

Vanity is swelling little by little, and he is sure that this semester, he should be able to reach the top!

"Wow, Lin Cheng, you're amazing!"

"Ah, you are so familiar with Mr. Zhang, when will you ask Mr. Zhang to have dinner together......

"Yes, Lin Cheng, the sisters in our dormitory all want to meet Mr. Zhang......"

“……”

When, Lin Cheng handed the photo of himself and Zhang Sheng to his girlfriend, he felt the adoration again!

Then, his vanity, which was satisfied like never before, even swelled to the top!

He almost said yes.

However, when he saw that Zhang Sheng had been making up for all kinds of knowledge of this semester these days, and even went out before dawn every morning, leaving early and returning late every day, he realized that he couldn't do this.

"Brother Sheng is studying, making up for this semester's knowledge, after all, he has been absent too much this semester, if he doesn't hold on temporarily, I'm afraid he will have to fail the course......"

"I can't disturb him......"

"You don't understand Brother Sheng, although Brother Sheng is very powerful now, but he has never given up studying, Brother Sheng and I, in a sense, are also the same kind of people......"

“……”

in the playground.

Lin Cheng finally got tired of running......

His throat was hoarse, tears kept flowing out, he laughed like crazy, his spirit was shocked like never before, and the beliefs, worldviews, and everything he once held on to collapsed in an instant.

The results for the second semester are out.

He's actually the second ......

Zhang Sheng is actually the first again, and the results in the test are so amazing......

Why!

He has worked hard for so long and accumulated for so long, but it is better for others to make up for it casually, and then take the test casually, and take the test easily?

"Hahaha, haha!"

"Hahaha......"

He laughed as he pulled his hair desperately, pulling several strands of it off, and then slammed his hand on his head.

"Boom!"

Faith collapsed.

What once held on to it has now become nothing.

The perception that "hard work can succeed" is like a joke, a big joke.

His cell phone was ringing, it was a call from the girl......

He picked up his phone and smashed it hard.

Then, thrash your head even harder!

As he passed by the entrance of the girls' dormitory, he heard a familiar voice.

Sometimes, it's really the same as written, a lot of things are too special blood! He heard the "familiar" voice chatting with his roommates.

"Sisters, I sacrificed so much for you, and committed myself to a nerd for so long...... You're going to give me some money too, right? ”

"Feelings? No kidding, I'm a native of Yanjing, if I bring such a boyfriend back, then I'm not ashamed to die? ”

"Go back to the country with him? Cutting hogweed? Go to pig farming? My mom found out and would have killed my ......."

"It's just for you to see Zhang Sheng and have a chance, so I worked so hard to please this nerd ......"

"Shhhh......h

“……”

Originally......

That girl approached him because he was a roommate of "Zhang Sheng", not because of Lin Cheng, how good he was at studying and how good he was......

It turned out that he was a clown, a clown through and through......

When the so-called love, the so-called study, the so-called dream......

Collapse overnight!

When all these years of hard work, it is a joke and a "nerd" from others.

When the original family is broken, when the inferiority complex of reality swells up in my heart, everything in front of me is all cracked, and finally it is completely shattered like glass.

Turned into a joke on its own.

If you do not see the light, then you will not fear the darkness.

If you haven't gotten it yet, you won't be afraid of losing it.

I don't know how long later, he finally stopped pulling his hair, but he stared at the sky blankly, dazed and cold.

It was at this time......

He saw Zhang Sheng walk up to him and look at him condescendingly.

His pupils suddenly bloodshot, he wailed in pain, and then stood up again like crazy.

"Why, why, why ......"

"Why, why ......"

He rushed at Zhang Sheng, grabbed Zhang Sheng's collar, and roared continuously.

But......

He didn't punch Zhang Sheng, it seemed that deep down, there was an instinctive respect and gratitude, but it was mixed with anger, hatred, and sadness, as if he was desperate for living in the same era as Zhang Sheng.

He finally couldn't speak.

"It's good to release the pressure!"

Zhang Sheng tidied up his clothes, looked at the release of his hand, lowered his head dejectedly, and smiled faintly.

(End of chapter)