Regardless of the quality of the book, as an author who fights the street, we have a correct attitude, and the amount of updates does not reach the flag under the testimonials on the shelves.

The rhythm and plot of this book have been very problematic since it was put on the shelves, and it can even be said that the story after forty or fifty chapters is completely two stories compared to what I thought before I opened the book.

Let's talk about me as a person, and then explain why this is happening.

Ben Po Street was born in a northern province, the economic conditions of the family are very poor, because of malnutrition when I was a child, the body development is not good, the whole person is relatively thin, all kinds of factors, I have low self-esteem, introverted to the extent that it can be said to be distorted before going to college.

I still remember when I was in art class in junior high school, my classmates all had a set of colored pencils, but I didn't have them. If I told my mom and dad, they would definitely buy it for me, because they never treated me badly in my studies, but I wanted to buy a set of colored pencils for ten yuan or more, and my family didn't have any money, so I never bought them, so I would take my pencils and draw them there in art class. Because of this, I was ridiculed by some girls.

The art teacher also made me feel sorry for me a few times because I didn't have a colored pen, but because Ben Po Street's junior high school grades have been very good, she didn't make it too difficult.

It looks like Ben Po Street is a maverick, doesn't it? Not really. In addition to being stingy, I have always been a very thoughtless person, and in layman's terms, I will do what others say.

When I was in elementary school and junior high school, I did what the teacher asked me to learn and assign homework to the students, and I had a strong execution ability, so before I went to high school, I was always the first or second in the class.

Why is this so? I later summed it up, that is, I couldn't see the disappointed eyes of the teacher that "you XX don't do your homework, and you are also a child who doesn't like to study".

Every time I was looked at by the teacher with this kind of look, it is no exaggeration to say that I can feel uncomfortable for several days, my food is not fragrant, and I feel like the sky is falling when I wake up from sleep.

Extreme low self-esteem and introversion have given me some potential for a people-pleasing personality, but it is not obvious.

When I got to high school, the symptoms diminished slightly because I was in a top class. The results of the students in this class are quite good, and in the year of the college entrance examination, two of the top ten in our class in the province were out. My grades went from being at the top of my class in junior high school to being in the middle of my class in high school, and I was no longer the focus of my teachers, and my potential as a people-pleasing personality was slightly suppressed.

In college, I was more liberal, and I became almost a normal person, just a little introverted.

For example, when someone is scattering things in the dormitory, the extroverted boy A will take the initiative to run to the person who scatters things and beg for it in a coquettish way (boy A is 1.85 meters and is the strongest person in our dormitory).

My performance was much more cramped, holding the phone in my hand and pretending to be playing, but in fact, Yu Guang had already glanced at the person who was scattered, and waited for him to come up and say a word before taking it, and then a series of thanks.

Some book lovers may say, author, you are a young man in your twenties, why are you so twisted. It can't be helped, I'm just that.

When I started my graduation project earlier this year, the potential of Ben's people-pleasing personality came to the fore again, and my supervisor was a very nice person, and she would point out anything that needed my attention, but I still couldn't do it well.

At the end of May, it was the last moment to submit my dissertation, and I had to revise the defense I had written every day, and during this period, I had daily phone calls with my advisor, and I also had a group meeting every few days.

The pressure of my graduation thesis, daily updates, and going to work at an internship company weighed on me at the same time, and I was anxious at that time. The comments I saw on the writer's assistant and the feedback from my instructor made me sensitive.

In the process of communicating with the instructor, what I was most afraid of was not that she would scold me.

If she really scolded me every day, I might have developed antibodies and raised the threshold in my heart, she scolded and let her scold, and I stood still.

What scared me the most was that she pointed out my mistake and chuckled, mixed with a sigh.

Just that tone of disappointment with me.

I don't know why, every time she laughs and sighs, I feel like I'm being abandoned by the whole world.

Back to this book, at the beginning of the book, my positioning of this book is to eat a long-term work of full diligence, it was originally a very unpopular subject, I didn't expect many people to read it, I wrote happily, and some book friends were comfortable reading it.

But I don't know what went wrong, the results of this book are so good that they explode, and they are the kind of good that I never dreamed of being so bold.

Originally, as a street fighter, if the results are good, he should naturally update more and make more money. But at the beginning of this year, under the pressure of going to school, graduating, and getting new book grades, the potential of that kind of people-pleasing personality has greatly emerged, and I began to pay close attention to the opinions of my book friends.

Originally, according to my plan, the protagonist will have a period of pit abduction and abduction journey, but some people say how can the reborn be so unqualified, so Ben Po Street urgently deleted this plot and began to enter the rugby system step by step and play to earn fame.

Because the results are too good, the rhythm of the plot and the period on the shelves are not well coordinated.

Even if I deleted the outline of the plot of the abduction, the free period has to be written for a month and a half to two months, that is, from mid-June to late June, according to the outline, before the shelf, it was almost the end of high school, just in time to enter college.

But the book friends were so enthusiastic that I jumped to Sanjiang after the second round, and then put it on the shelves on June 1st. This kind of conflict between the idea and the reality made me not know what to do, so I accelerated the progress, and after it was put on the shelf, I wrote a running account with no emotion and no ups and downs.

It's better to write well before putting it on the shelf.

As mentioned earlier, my personality is twisted and twisted, which is reflected in the fact that after my grades are good, my state is not as good as the ten days when I first opened a new book.

Seeing the rising average order every day, what I think about is not to write a good plot, but whether anyone will scold me when this plot is sent out, and whether those book friends who are chasing more will be disappointed, because I wrote such a thing.

In this kind of thinking, even if I sit at my desk at three o'clock in the afternoon every day and start to code, by the evening I will write only four or five thousand words, and the quantity is small and the quality has dropped significantly.

The situation has become more serious in the past few days, because of the two opinions about the length of rugby, I myself began to waver, and I didn't know what plot to write, so the number of words updated these days is not as good as before it was put on the shelves.

Today's situation is particularly serious, in order to code to 6,000 words, I set the alarm clock, get up at more than two o'clock in the afternoon to code words, but until 4:50 and almost 5 o'clock, there are only more than 1,500 words on the code word software.

Under normal circumstances, I can write at least three or four thousand words during this time, and the inconsistency between my ideas and reality makes me feel depressed, and I drop an enamel cup directly before going out to eat at five o'clock.

I have used this cup for more than two years, and I was distressed and uncomfortable after falling, and I didn't even finish the pork knuckle rice at night, and I didn't eat a few bites of rice.

In this case, it is not possible to specify, and there is no quality if it cannot be written in the future. I thought about it for a while in the evening, and decided to take two days off to sort out the outline, at least to make the plot after that, especially the plot about the rugby game, exciting and refreshing.

Otherwise, I'm sorry for the readers who spend money to read the book.

(End of chapter)