This was the first time Iwass had seen Isabel cry and weep.

But there was no sadness or fear in her crying. Ivas can capture a kind of reassurance and warmth in it.

- The first thing that came to mind was the diary that Isabel had shown herself.

In the diary, in which the members of the "Du Lac" family left traces of their lives one after another, the first two sentences left by the nine-year-old Isabel were:

"I'm so scared ......"

"Daddy said, I can cry......"

At that time, Isabel was so lonely and frightened that she was immersed in the fear of death. She had no idea that Queen Sophia wanted nothing more than anything else to leave behind - from Isabel's point of view, the dying relatives were like a sharp blade hanging in the air, ready to fall at any moment.

She couldn't laugh anyway.

- and then we could only cry.

Later, even the "father" mentioned in the diary quietly escaped from the glass island. Isabel was completely alone.

It's like being on a cliff with only a single-plank bridge under your feet. Just look down at the abyss and you'll be dizzy and weak.

In the fear that he would die at some point, even his biological father chose to leave him. Isabel was able to maintain that pure and kind heart, and she did her best without being twisted by fear.

And the person who made that Isabel no longer fear and cry was Ivus.

Ivas rescued Isabel from the darkness and helped her put on the crown and become Queen of Avalon.

Since she is a queen, she must give people confidence. The queen does not have the right to cry, because she cannot show the slightest weakness in front of people.

Now the one who can make her cry out loud again is also Ehuas.

Ivas's gaze softened.

At first, he just comforted Isabel, laughed softly at her, and coaxed her gently. But at some point, he also felt his eyes moisten a little.

Ivas thought of something, too.

He thought of the scarf that Queen Sophia had given him, of the bright smile of Isabel on the day she painted her portrait for the first time, of the beautiful eyes that sparkled when Isabel handed him the diary.

After that, Ivas suddenly thought of the day the two first met.

also used the identity of "Lulu" to meet her as her biological mother "Anne Alexander".

Ivas remembered the gentle smile on her face when she carefully took "Little Ivus" from her bosom, and the lullaby she sang as she fell asleep softly.

…… Now that I think about it, maybe it's not that Lulu's lullaby is too effective. I almost hypnotized myself together.

Although Isabel's singing talent is indeed outstanding, she does not have the bonus of the path trait, and she is not enough to hypnotize Ivas easily.

I'm afraid it's because ...... Ivas had been longing for that kind of love.

Isabel's soft lullaby may not penetrate the heart of a restless man...... But for a heart that has been dry for a long time, it is a spring breeze and drizzle.

Wine is not drunk, everyone is drunk.

For Ivasse, the lullaby that "Lulu" sings when he coaxes "little Ivus" to sleep is also the bedside song he wants to hear from the bottom of his heart.

The summer evening breeze blows through the window and blows the wind chimes.

And he is being held in the arms of his mother, enjoying the carefree childhood happiness. There is no anxiety about the future in the eyes of the child, only hope for tomorrow.

Evas slowly hugged Isabel a little tighter.

Gradually, Eivus's reassuring voice stopped. Isabel's crying gradually stopped.

The two embraced quietly like this, and time flew by.

Sniffing the scent of the hair, feeling the warmth in his arms.

In his previous life, Ivas was also a person who had a father, mother, grandparents, and a grandparents.

He also had an enlightened parent and a happy childhood. In that ignorant childhood, he was much happier than this world Ehuas...... Many, many more.

His parents taught him a lot of knowledge about being a person or doing things, and brought him to develop a lot of good habits and a cheerful personality. His father would play games with him, while his mother would always cook good meals and tell him stories. His grandfather would take Ivas to play chess and fish, while his maternal grandmother would knit sweaters and make cotton clothes for him.

- until a great earthquake destroyed the entire world of Ivus, leaving him alone.

It's like Dickinson's poem.

She once said, "I could have endured the darkness if I hadn't seen the sun."

Eivus was once loved, and he also drank the elixir of happiness. His family were good people, and he grew from the bright world – until the sun went down.

- remembered.

Aihuas's eyes widened slightly, and his breathing stopped for a moment.

Those memories that he had deliberately forgotten were retrieved again. It's not that the seal is lifted, but it's more like finally opening the homework that has been saved for a vacation.

He had known about their existence for a long time, and even knew their general content, but he was still reluctant to face them.

Even before the earthquake, Eivas had a vague sense of unease. He had also seen insects crawling and seen toads on the streets. But he didn't take that fleeting uneasiness seriously. Only afterwards will I feel the heart-rending guilt and remorse.

- If only I had paid attention to these signs at the time. Ivas sometimes thinks so.

Woke up from a nightmare with cold sweat on his back.

It took many, many years for him to forget the guilt he felt at that time. But those loves, just like the traces he carved on the wall of his hometown when he was ignorant as a child, were deeply seared in his heart.

Perhaps it is precisely because Ivus has experienced such a good thing that he is now more eager for that kind of love; Perhaps it is precisely because he survives the disaster that he always subconsciously wants to sacrifice himself to help others after that.

Because he has suffered, he wants others not to go through it again.

Because I have felt that powerlessness, I want to control my own destiny;

It was only because he was saved then that he is always not afraid of self-harm today.

It was a subconscious desire for self-destruction.

Before Ivus awakened the memories of his past life, he always subconsciously chose to sacrifice himself to help others; He always runs away from the feelings and expectations of others, and is always unwilling to accept the love of others.

It's like retiring from the pit if your account is stolen, your pet will no longer have a pet when you die of old age, and your wife or husband will no longer get married when she dies...... What Eivas resists is the love of others; And at the root of it, he hated his weakness.

Because of this, Ivas always subconsciously keeps his distance from others.

And his adaptability to dedicate himself to and transcend the path today comes from this subconscious.

If Isabel is ornate and fragile glass, then Eivas is steel that is the outside but cracked on the inside.

- It wasn't emptiness, it was fear.

There is nothing you can do about the disaster that strikes again...... Fear that cannot save a loved one.

If so, then it is better to stop loving others. As long as you don't have it, you won't grieve because you lose it.

“…… I was scared too. ”

Evas realized in his heart and muttered in a low voice.

"What?"

Isabel didn't hear Ivace's words clearly, and asked with some confusion.

Her voice was muffled and hoarse from whimpering. But the soft voice is well-behaved.

"Nothing."

Ivus whispered, "I just suddenly realized...... In fact, the most timid coward turned out to be myself. ”

I've been encouraging Isabel to overcome her fears and watch her grow stronger.

But isn't this a projection of the fear in his heart onto her?

Her victory was her own victory, and she helped her to get back on her feet, just as she was helping her past self.

The courage that Ivas gave her is now the courage she gave to Ivace.

Even if Ivas remembered the past, he wouldn't be terrified by it.

The moment he realized this, the restless heart in Ivus's heart because he was facing the past gradually calmed down again.

In Ivus's pupils, red and purple achieve an unprecedented harmony and balance.

"Lulu."

He whispered another name for Isabel.

"Huh?"

Isabel was also a little confused, and shook her head and wiped her tears slightly from Ivus's shoulder before she looked up from Ivus's arms.

Evas, however, was just wordless, moving his hand lightly on her back upwards. The flowing blonde hair was between his fingers, and his outstretched hand gently cushioned the back of Isabel's head.

In an instant, Isabel knew what was going to happen next.

Her eyes widened slightly in surprise, her long eyelashes fluttering like butterfly wings, and her clear and turquoise eyes shimmered as bright as water. She closed her eyes and held her breath.

Ivus bowed his head and kissed lightly.

First the forehead, then the tip of the nose. Finally, the lips.

Isabel's soft waist bent back slightly, and Eivers's shoulders tightened tighter and tighter.

A slight touch, followed by a separation. Licking the bitter tears until he ran out of breath, he let out a low gasp.

(End of chapter)