Chapter 45: I don't know the pain

Isabel's eyelashes fluttered slightly.

She snorted softly and slowly woke up from the slight shaking.

…… What just happened?

The memory of the last second is still stuck in the conversation with Ehuas.

Then she vaguely felt the whole world shake and wrinkle. It was as if a sudden shaking earthquake shattered everything, and as if a fragile and thin cardboard box had been washed away by a flood. She vaguely heard the terrible howl of a hurricane, as if she were in the middle of the battlefield and listening to the earth-shattering roar.

She shuddered, feeling great fear. As if the house she lived in was about to be destroyed by a tornado, the sense of crisis made her feel as if she was about to wake up in the next moment, but she heard a sigh again.

A voice as dry and hoarse as sand grinding down a throat sounded: "Go back to sleep." ”

So she fell into a deep sleep again.

When I woke up again, the remnants were like dreams, trance-like and unpredictable.

…… But she was already in a dream.

Do dreamers still dream?

Isabel fell into a brief moment of confusion.

"Her Highness Isabel."

It seemed to hear a voice, and Shafiya's voice came from outside the house.

Isabel immediately came to her senses, and her expression returned to her composure.

She tried to lift the covers and roll over to get up. At this time, I finally realized that it was not that I felt dizzy, but that the "house" itself was shaking.

- This is the ship.

Although she had never been on a boat, she instinctively realized what it was.

Why was he with Ivus just now, but the next moment he came to the ship?

…… Is it because I've lost my memory for a while?

A thought crossed Isabelle's mind, and she looked up at Shafiya with a somewhat melancholy gaze.

"Did you not sleep well, Your Highness?"

Shafiya whispered, "Do you want to go outside and blow the sea breeze?" ”

"I just...... Ivas came to mind. ”

Isabel shook her head slightly, crying.

It's certainly a show, too.

- Compared to waking up and falling asleep, I feel "lost" and "confused".

Feeling suddenly depressed and sad at night is relatively reasonable. Not to mention, now Isabel can barely be regarded as a princess of the dead country, and it is normal for her to be unable to sleep and think wildly.

Sure enough, Shafia didn't suspect anything wrong with Isabel at all.

She reassured, "It's going to be fine with Ivus." Wasn't Sherlock with him? ”

"But after being away for so long......"

Isabel's voice was full of emotion, and tears appeared in the corners of her eyes for a moment: "I want to see him!" Now I think-"

Seeing that this princess, who is usually very autistic, now shows such strong feelings and very few become willful, Shafiya just smiled bitterly, but she felt a faint joy in her heart.

It was the first time she had seen Isabel with such clear likes and dislikes.

Until then, Isabel had always been unclear about her attitude. Ask her if she's okay, and she'll nod her head lightly and won't say much. No matter what you give, you will accept it, and you will eat whatever you are fed.

She never refused, but she never seemed to be very happy.

Meg is tough and free-spirited, optimistic by nature, and has never cared much about the emotional problems of such children, nor can she understand them at all; George, on the other hand, didn't understand what girls thought, and to him there was no difference between a princess and a prince.

But Shafia, who is a half-elf, can empathize with Isabel. I feel sorry for this most vulnerable little princess.

As a half-elf, Shafiya Morgan's bloodline is quite pure.

Generally, the blood of half-elves is one-half, one-quarter, or even less...... And her pedigree is at least eighty percent or more. Because almost every generation of her ancestors will choose elves as their companions.

They were quite adoring their ancestor Morgan and did not even change their surname.

According to the Avalon tradition, after an ancestor became an apostle, descendants often changed their surname. Through this ritual, he shows that he has no intention of holding on to the glory of his ancestors, and that he will survive on his own strength in the future, and will never cause trouble to his ancestors or ask for help from his ancestors when they are in trouble—which is completely contrary to Star Antimony's idea of "remembering and inheriting the glory of ancestors forever".

The Morgan family is an exception.

Maybe it's because she didn't become a knight of the Silver Crowned Dragon, but instead became a fairy on the path of love, choosing to follow Shadow Tenji. Her descendants didn't hide the surname either—they generously inherited Morgan's name. In this way, he tried to purify the bloodline and restore the long lifespan and powerful talent of the elves.

In this case, Shafiya received a rather rigorous education from an early age. Not only to learn the language of Avalon, but also to learn the language, common sense, and understanding of the country, as if you were a pure-blood elf born in Avalon instead of a human being.

The elders of the family lived a long life, and even the great-grandfather was still alive and well. They have high expectations of Shafiya...... Because she has a good face and an elegant temperament, the elf features are very obvious. She also has full elven etiquette, and her accent is the same as that of the elves of the Church.

Even the elves of the Church can't tell if she's a human or not. If she gives birth to an elf again, she can be considered an elf in a similar way.

Shafiya used to be like a puppet, obeying the family's education and obeying the family's orders.

Delicate, cold and silent – silent, like a caged bird.

This is somewhat similar to Isabel, but different. She was not, like Isabel, who was suppressed by the shadow of death and thus sealed her mind. It's because she saw everything clearly at a young age and knew that she had no possibility of resisting at all, so it was better to accept the reality like this.

If you don't resist, you won't feel pain.

If you obey orders from the heart, then there will be no unhappiness; If you are dissatisfied, do your best to change reality...... By the time the dust settled, the original vision had already been missed. It's like a toy that you wanted when you were a child, but you don't like it anymore when you grow up. Does it make sense to wait until later to make money to buy toys?

Obviously, no.

So Shafiya chose another path.

"I don't like that thing anymore," she told herself. If you can't change reality, then change yourself.

She kept repeating it, constantly rewriting her own mind. Because of this, she reached the fourth energy level at a young age and came into contact with the fifth energy level of the authoritarian path...... thus stood beside Queen Sophia, who had just ascended the throne.

"Livestock are not domesticated because they are stupid, but because they are too smart."

The young queen's words pierced her heart deeply.

- In the end, she chose to rebel.

She is married to an unremarkable human.

It was his subordinate, an arbitrator in his thirties.

The other party did not have any special talents, nor did he have the apostolic blood of the founder's family. It's not a spirit of the heart. It's just because the other person loves him from the bottom of his heart and with all his heart - not the name of "Morgan", let alone the blood of the elves, but only himself.

"—From now on, I'm no longer Morgan!"

After fending off the Assassins from her family for the third time on her husband's behalf, Shafiya angrily disowned the Morgans.

Now, she looked at Isabel. It's like looking at your past self.

The depressed, silent, painless Isabel is just like Shafia when she was a child;

And now fully awakened, Isabel has her own will and likes and dislikes......

It's like Shafiya, who has learned of her fate and rebelled against her own bloodline.

The former queen taught her this experience.

And now she wants to give it back to her granddaughter.

(End of chapter)