Lying on the hospital bed, smelling the unique smell of alcohol in the hospital, Sakuraba Haruka felt extremely low, she turned sideways and looked at the red little baby, she didn't feel happy because of this, and even felt a little ......

Disgusting.

Because, this child is not what she wants to give birth.

Abortion is nominally illegal in Japan, but in reality there are many people who secretly abortion.

But when Sakuraba Haruka found out that she was pregnant, it was already five or six months, probably because the baby's nutrient absorption was not enough, so her abdomen would not be too obvious.

And in five or six months, it will be very dangerous to try to kill the child again.

So she had no choice but to give birth.

Although there are many single mothers here, they are all deceived by scumbags, and in the end, they are both empty of people and money, leaving only a child.

But...... Those who have also experienced a relationship, and they ......

Haruka Sakuraba thinks that she has only graduated from college for a year and has only been looking for a job for a year, so she has to face such a fact now?

She only felt that her whole body was cold, and she had lost any hope for the future, only infinite despair.

……

It's just that, maybe it's because she doesn't want to die so early, and she's not the kind of person who would make particularly extreme choices.

Or rather......

She's a timid person.

She didn't dare to die.

So she finally held her child and brought it back to raise.

And the name Qianxue has no special meaning, it can only be said to be derived from a coincidence.

Chiyuki was the thousandth child born in that hospital this year, and it happened to be snowing that morning.

So, it's called Chiyuki.

Casual, but not aesthetically pleasing, it's already a good name for Haruka Sakuraba.

Where did she have the heart to choose such meaningful names for her children?

At the beginning, Sakuraba Haruka felt that she was really tortured by Qianxue, noisy in the middle of the night, incontinence, and high fever in the middle of the night, Qianxue's body was too weak, and she did not absorb enough nutrients in the maternal and fetal state, so that in the first year of birth, Sakuraba Haruka ran to the hospital dozens of times.

Medical insurance, bank loans, in short, for Qianxue's health, she threw all the money she could into it.

Sakuraba Haruka can't say how much she likes this child, but she just says that Chiyuki is more like a goal in her life. If Qianxue can't do it, then she probably will really muster up the courage to face her death.

So, she poured everything into Qianxue's body.

A year later, Qianxue's health began to improve, although the place where they live is still a cheap rent, and the surrounding neighbors are also dirty and messy, but unexpectedly, the people here are not bad, and when they learn that she has a child, they usually help take care of a little, such as helping her move things, and when they hear the child's crying at night, they will not come to complain about her or something.

This is one of the few times society has shown mercy to single mothers.

It's barely past in life, but at work, Sakuraba Haruka actually mixes well when she first enters the company, even if she has average ability, her education is not very good, and she never goes out to drink and socialize with her colleagues at night, but.

She's beautiful!

Big waves, good figure, and the collagen on the face has not been lost too much, Haruka Sakuraba is still naturally beautiful. And because she has given birth to a child, she also has a very special charm, so that many men will eyed her.

But the favor of the opposite sex is not a good thing for her, and Haruka Sakuraba has a very serious fear of men at this stage, or misogynistic tendencies. And with the increase in favor of the opposite sex, the jealousy of the same sex will definitely not be less.

In the workplace, the intrigue of those women, as well as the determination to sell everything for the sake of profit, promotion, and everything, is not something Haruka Sakuraba can compete with.

Therefore, soon, she entered a company, and she could mix well in the first two months, and in the later stage, other female colleagues would reveal that she was actually a single mother, and then persuade a large number of men to quit, and then spread rumors casually, saying that she had an inappropriate private life or something, and she could suddenly lower her reputation to the bottom. So he was resigned by the company's CEO, and then went to the next company, and so on.

It's not that she doesn't have a long memory, it's just that she really doesn't have such a high level of understanding, or rather, she is not very smart, so she can only keep eating and deflating in interpersonal relationships.

In the end, she was forced to have no choice, so she gave up going to work in the company, and chose to do odd jobs, using meager living expenses and subsidies from the government to make ends meet.

——

"Mom...... Mom. It was another ordinary morning, and Haruka Sakuraba, who was completely unemployed, stayed at home and went online to check some useful part-time job information, and was ready to go out for an interview.

However, when she was extremely focused, she heard Qianxue's milky voice behind her.

She quickly stopped what she was doing, and suddenly turned back to look at the little blonde girl. Her eyes are aqua blue, very beautiful, and her hair is like that of a princess in a fairy tale. However, such a little girl is wearing clothes that she bought back from a second-hand clothing store, and I have to say that Haruka Sakuraba still feels guilty and heartbroken.

But more important than that......

"Mom's ......"

Qianxue blinked, as if she was puzzled why she called this sentence, and the "huge" woman opposite showed an expression of joy and tears.

She stretched out her fleshy little hand and crawled in front of Haruka Sakuraba.

"Mom...... Mother. ”

Listening to her daughter's "mother" one after another, Sakuraba Haruka suddenly felt that her soul was touched, and she also stretched out her hand, gently picked up Qianxue, and then put it on her lap.

It's very light and small, and the body is the scent of the shower gel I bought for her, as well as a milk aroma unique to children. The moment she hugged Chiyuki, Haruka Sakuraba suddenly figured out a lot of things.

Anyway, this is my child, and since I gave birth to her, I have to be responsible, as a mother's responsibility.

"Chiyuki...... My daughter ......" Sakuraba Haruka still used very gentle strength to hold the only treasure in her arms.

"Mommy......" Chiyuki continued to repeat, but Haruka's hair on her neck was sunk in, causing her to feel itchy, so she suddenly giggled.

Haruka Sakuraba didn't know what she was laughing at, but she laughed too, with tears in the corners of her eyes.

——

Raising Chiyuki alone to the age of six, Haruka Sakuraba also experienced a lot of things during her time, and after experiencing a severe beating from society, she is now working odd jobs and saving money. After so many years of thrift, I can finally let Qianxue go to school in a stable manner.

It was supposed to be sent to kindergarten, but because Sakuraba Haruka really didn't have any money, so when other children were in kindergarten, Qianxue could only stay at home by herself, look at the scenery when she had nothing to do, and then wait boredly for her mother to come back from work.

Because Haruka Sakuraba loves her too much, she doesn't plan to let her do any housework at the moment, and these are also all inclusive of Haruka Sakurabi.

Qianxue just needs to stay there, and being a little baby is enough.

"Qianxue, you're going to school starting tomorrow, and there will be a lot of children of your age together, don't you expect it?"

Sakuraba Haruka changed Chiyuki into an elementary school uniform, and bought her a red leather schoolbag, as well as a yellow hat, looking at her cute appearance in uniform, and couldn't help but kiss her on the cheek after saying this.

My daughter is so cute!

"Will Mom come with me?" Xiao Qianxue seems to be a little resistant, because she usually hasn't had much contact with people, and even if she does, when she goes out with her mother, there will be some kind grandparents who come to greet her, and other children of the same age...... She's only met, but she's never communicated.

She was a little scared.

"Mom will take you to school, but if you do, you'll have to be on your own? But don't worry, Qianxue, I've already said hello to the teachers at the school in advance, let them take care of you more, if you really feel uncomfortable, you can also ask the teacher to call your mother, and your mother will definitely pick you up as soon as possible. ”

Feeling her mother's doting on herself, Qianxue can calm down a little, she is also a more sensible child, although she is not doing anything now, and her mother refuses to help with housework, but she will never make a fuss, and she will not pester her mother to buy her this and that, if she doesn't buy it, she will cry and make trouble.

Although Qianxue has no concept of money at present, she can roughly understand that her living environment is not good, and her mother is also a relatively poor person, so if she wants to be a good child, she can't ask too much, and she has to save her mother's worries.

"Okay, after taking a shower later, my mother will tell you a bedtime fairy tale, and we'll go to school tomorrow, okay?"

"Okay......" Xiao Qianxue nodded obediently, and let Sakuraba Haruka manipulate her limbs.

"Mom, can you sleep with me tonight?"

"Of course you can~"

——

After being coaxed to school by her mother, Xiao Qianxue also wanted to try her best to behave well, for example, to get praise from the teacher, so that her mother would know that she was working hard and going to school very seriously, and she might be much happier.

In fact, Qianxue, who had just entered elementary school, did mix well, and as soon as she entered, she was focused on by the teacher, and under the teacher's organization, she also made two little girl friends.

It's just that the good times don't last long, and some little boys think about bullying her when they see Qianxue looking beautiful. Expressing their liking in the form of bullying is a common method used by elementary school boys, and some can even be used until middle and high school.

Qianxue is very timid, and she will quickly avoid those boys who want to bully her, and the number of times she usually talks to boys is even rarer.

There are two little girls who will protect her and take the initiative to befriend her.

But...... After the other party's overtures, Qianxue didn't respond much, which led to their relationship gradually deteriorating.

The little girl usually has something to do and gives it to Qianxue to eat, and Qianxue will say thank you after eating, but there is no follow-up, because she is poor and embarrassed to ask her mother for money to buy snacks, so this part of the response is no.

Then she was invited to her house, and she went, but never in return.

Because her home is relatively small and dilapidated, she is embarrassed to tell others and is unwilling to let others go to her house.

After going back and forth like this, Qianxue originally had two good friends who could be deeply friends, and they all slowly left her for a period of time.

However, Chiyuki herself didn't know why, so she tried to ask.

But this is the answer.

"Qianxue, are you looking down on us?"

"No...... I just ......"

"Then you just don't plan to play with us at all, we hate you anymore!" Although children's dislikes and likes are very important, they are actually the same thing.

But Qianxue was too clumsy and didn't know how to explain and apologize further, which led to the end of their relationship.

And lost the umbrella of a few friends, Qianxue was often harassed by those boys at school, but after those boys harassed her for a while and found that she didn't react much, they gave up on her and turned to find other objects who reacted.

For a while, Qianxue, who was in elementary school, was isolated.

This is true in the first and second grades, but after the third and fourth grades, everything starts to look different.

Some children have a very rich family, so they will start to show off their wealth, showing off the gifts that their parents bought for them, because of the development of the times, mobile phones have advanced very fast, and now primary school students can also swipe their mobile phones, resulting in some of them also having rapid precocious maturity.

And Qianxue has nothing here, basically no friends, people are still timid, information is blocked, and her cold attitude has always made some girls start to hate her and target her.

——

Qianxue, who is already in the fourth grade, slowly begins to grow her mind, and when she comes home, she secretly sighs when her mother doesn't notice, but after all, she doesn't complain about anything.

At this time, Haruka Sakuraba was cooking in the kitchen and was very busy.

"Qianxue, I've got a bit of garbage here, can you throw it away for me?"

"Okay mom."

"Thank you."

"How are you at school lately?"

"Hmm...... It's okay, don't worry about me, Mom. ”

"No one bullied you, right?"

"Hmmm......"

"I knew that, after all, my family Qianxue is so cute."

Qianxue blushed a little embarrassed, she picked up the garbage bag given by her mother, and began to walk downstairs to the nearby garbage sorting area.

After throwing out the garbage, she was about to go home, but she unexpectedly saw the figure of a female classmate.

"Chiyuki Sakuraba? Do you live here? The female classmate was obviously very surprised, but she didn't expect that she, who usually behaved like a cold princess in the class, actually lived in this kind of ...... A dilapidated apartment building?

Qianxue didn't know how to reply to her, she only felt a little ashamed and embarrassed, so she trotted back to the apartment building, and her heart felt like it was about to jump out, which made her feel a little uncomfortable.

Originally, she thought it was just a small episode.

But she didn't expect that when she went to the class tomorrow, she began to be discussed by all her classmates about how dilapidated her family lived and laughed at how poor she was.

The young Qianxue felt this magnitude of malice for the first time. (End of chapter)