The day before yesterday, I suddenly had a toothache, and the painkillers didn't work, so I took leave this morning to see a doctor, saying that my tooth was cracked.

The doctor said you must have bitten a hard object.

I said no.

The doctor asked how he was doing.

The schedule I said is very fixed, I go to work during the day, code words at night, and go to bed at 3 o'clock in the middle of the night.

The doctor continued to ask if he had been stressed recently and whether he was in good spirits.

I said big, very big, and in average spirit.

Especially in the past few days, I don't know how to write when I code words every day, and I am in a daze for a few hours in front of the screen, and my hair is starting to fall out.

The doctor said that's right, the pressure of work and rest disorder is also the trigger, your teeth will be inflamed if they continue like this, and the nerve will be picked, first take medicine to make up for it, and then make a crown, Chenghui 1,008...

After filling the teeth, the toothache dissipated, and the whole person was much refreshed.

When I got home and looked at the computer screen, the pressure came up again.

Teeth are just the mark, and the pressure of writing is the one.

But this book is really difficult to solve.

Recently, I feel very tired from writing, and I am really stressed.

At present, the book is booked for 5,000 yuan, but I always feel that I don't deserve this achievement.

The last book is 1,060, not a big hit, but it's basically the same, and this kind of achievement actually has a good side for new authors, that is, the pressure will not be great.

So the mentality at that time was actually quite relaxed, anyway, it was the first book, and I could write whatever I wanted, and I didn't have to think too much about whether the plot was reasonable, whether the characters would be plump or something, and it was a success after writing.

But now the results have increased by more than three times, and the number of words is tens of thousands of miles away to win the high-quality standard, and with it, the readers' requirements will be higher.

But my pen power is limited, and the character building, plot rhythm, etc., have not reached the level that I think, or readers think this achievement should be.

The point is that I don't have that much brain, and my talent is limited, so I can't summarize quickly and make rapid progress.

As a result, the feeling of unworthiness became more and more intense.

In this way, it is difficult to write, the number of words per day feels like constipation, and the number of words that is good is more than 10,000 words a day seems like a fantasy.

The pressure of updates, the pressure of the quality of the articles, the pressure of readers' disappointment, and the sense of gain and loss caused by the unstable results have made the whole person very depressed these days.

At noon, I thought that while I was on leave, the dental problem was temporarily solved, and I was not in the mood to write, so I took out the bicycle I hadn't ridden for a long time and went out for a walk, and went to Shaxian County, which I hadn't been to for a long time, to have a duck leg rice, and a pork belly duck soup.

As a result, not long after going out, the rain came down again, and soon it turned from drizzle to heavy rain, drenched into dogs.

was treated by God like this, and I went home and took a shower, and my head was much clearer.

I turned on the news on my phone and glanced at today's stock market, and suddenly I figured it out.

This thing, like stocks and futures, has a price discovery function.

Just because the price is high for a while doesn't mean you're really worth it.

After a long time, the price slowly stabilizes, and that is your real price.

I have limited talent, my pen skills are not high, I have not been in this industry for a long time, I don't have much time to write articles every day, the quality of my articles is also limited, and it is normal that I am not worthy of my current results.

So don't always think about how your grades are, whether you've been scolded by your book friends again, and how much you have to update every day.

The most important thing is to gradually improve your own value.

So I thought, I'm going to write it slowly, don't have too much pressure, it doesn't matter if the book's grades are high or low, or if it will continue to rise in the future.

The process of writing an essay is the process of learning.

Therefore, the text is not very good, and the learning is slow, and everyone is more responsible.

Don't worry about eunuchs, since I'm on the shelves, I will never be a eunuch.

Book friends are welcome to continue to mention if they have suggestions, and I will delete those who are hatted and abused + permanently banned, and I will not delete those who make suggestions.

That's it, take a nap, wake up and code again.