On the way home, Cheng Jianghai's heart no longer seems to be lonely, and his feelings are no longer bleak, but with a heartfelt warmth.

The glimmer of fire in the ashes of the heart shines on the longing friendship.

When he pushed the door open, he found that his father and sister were still waiting for him to eat, and he couldn't help but secretly feel ashamed.

Cheng Jiangshui raised his head and said softly: "Jianghai, I'm back!" Let's eat! ”

"Oh, I ate it!" Cheng Jianghai scratched his head wryly.

"Eaten? Where to eat? Cheng Jia'an frowned in confusion.

Cheng Jianghai responded without concealment: "I went to the snack street with a few friends to eat spicy skewers." ”

"Friends? Jiang Hai, you won't ...... again"

Cheng Jia'an trembled for a while, and subconsciously thought that Cheng Jianghai had made a group of fox friends and social gangsters. It's no wonder that he is so neurotic, it is really because the lessons and pain given by Zhu Sanxun and Lu Deshun back then were too profound, and he was worried that Cheng Jianghai would go astray again.

Seeing his father's worried appearance, Cheng Jianghai felt guilty, and hurriedly stepped forward to explain: "Dad, don't worry, it's not a messy friend, the classmates we reported to work with are all very good." ”

"Oh, really?"

Cheng Jia'an was a little relieved at this time, and reminded seriously: "You should pay attention when you make friends!" ”

Cheng Jianghai was a little frustrated by his father's hint, and responded weakly: "Well, Dad, I remember the lesson." ”

Seeing that the atmosphere was a little depressing, Cheng Jiangshui started a round on the side: "Okay, okay, it's not that you don't want to socialize, good friends can help each other and make progress together." ”

After listening to his sister's words, Cheng Jianghai suddenly changed his dejected appearance, became interested, nodded his head frequently, and said to Cheng Jiangshui with relish: "Yes, yes, sister, let me tell you, my two classmates are interesting, and the names are also strange, one is called Wang Yangxun, the other is called Tan Jun, and he also has a nickname, called Tan Nose, do you say strange......

The joy and excitement that could not be concealed instantly infected the father and daughter.

I don't know how long it has been, but the two of them saw Cheng Jianghai smile like a sun again. There seemed to be an illusion of rebirth in those gushing words, a kind of ease and comfort to break free from the bleak and dull mire, which made the father and daughter feel a sense of inexplicable relief at the same time. The two glanced at each other, and both of them had a smile on their lips, as if they were both happy that Cheng Jianghai could get out of the haze in their hearts.

Cheng Jiangshui's slightly haggard cheeks said with a soft smile: "Okay, good, if you can have a friend, cherish it." ”

Cheng Jia'an nodded deeply and Cheng Jianghai nodded earnestly: "Well, I know, I'll go see my mother." ”

"Go ahead!"

Cheng Jianghai turned his head to visit his mother, and Cheng Jiangshui said to Cheng Jia'an with a sigh: "Dad, I haven't seen Jiang Hai so happy for a long time, and he can say so many things to you at one time." ”

took a breath and sighed: "Yes, Jiang Hai's heart has been suffocated all these years, and I am also happy to see him like this." ”

Cheng Jiangshui looked back and smiled, his fair skin was a little relieved: "Dad, don't worry, Jiang Hai is really sensible now, and he has a sense of responsibility, this son will not disgrace you in the future." ”

"Hmm!"

Cheng Jia'an responded gently, his eyes were slightly sunken, and he seemed to be depressed again: "Jiang Shui, is Yi'an still like that?" It's been a long time since that incident, and he still can't keep up his spirits? ”

Cheng Jiangshui's pretty face suddenly became dim, showing his exhausted exhaustion, and the trace of sorrow was really unbearable: "I don't know, he has a lot of things buried in his heart now, and he doesn't want to tell me, maybe that incident hit him too hard." ”

Cheng Jia'an frowned and reminded gently: "You are husband and wife, husband and wife must understand each other, tolerate each other, and need to support each other and face difficulties together, so that life will be happy." Yi'an's level, I have to help you get through it. ”

Cheng Jiangshui's face was bitter and slightly aggrieved: "Dad, I know, I work hard." ”

Cheng Jia'an sighed sadly: "Hey! People, why do you always have to go through so many hurdles? ”

For a moment the two women fell silent, and there was a thick melancholy and sadness in the air. It has been a long time since He Yi'an was punished, and as Cheng Jiangshui said, this blow is unprecedentedly huge for He Yi'an. After the trauma, he was completely in a state of confusion and mental malaise.

It is best to describe it as a slump.

The grief-stricken Cheng Jiangshui has been patiently enlightening, just like taking care of his mother, persevering, and never giving up for a moment. However, she couldn't use gentle emotions to arouse He Yi'an's fighting spirit to start over, which made her feel heartbroken when she had nothing to do.

Late at night, Cheng Jiangshui returned to the dormitory of the archives again, and saw He Yi'an leaning on the bed holding a book, but his eyes were in a trance. Seeing Cheng Jiangshui enter the house, He Yi'an straightened up lazily and said hello shortly.

"I'm back."

"Hmm." Cheng Jiangshui gently sat down against the edge of the bed, looked at He Yi'an gently, and asked softly, "Are you okay with work today?" ”

He Yi'an pursed his lips, and his eyebrows were filled with endless gloom: "What's so good, it's just like that!" ”

Cheng Jiangshui pursed his lips lightly, stretched out his hand to support He Yi'an's arm, and said leisurely: "Yi'an, the number of times you go back to see your mother during this time is a little less!" ”

He Yi'an nodded listlessly: "Oh, I'll go over as much as I can when I go back, Mom's situation is okay for the past two days?" ”

Cheng Jiangshui paused slightly, and said with a little bitterness: "Yi'an, you know, what I want to say is not this, can I have a good talk with you?" ”

He Yi'an lowered his head, his pale cheeks showed a hint of interest, and refused: "If it's about work, then forget it, I don't want to mention it!" ”

Cheng Jiangshui's heart was full of misery, and his pure and elegant cheeks were full of worry. I don't know how many times he deliberately avoided it.

Now He Yi'an's bad momentum has a tendency to intensify, and she is so anxious that she really can't bear to see He Yi'an's completely decadent day. After thinking about it again, she felt that she still had to insist on enlightening the other party and do her best to be a wife.

"Yi'an, are you going to keep avoiding it like this? This is not the same you! Think about how energetic and confident you were when you just graduated from school, no difficulties were anything in your eyes, and you were full of hope and passion for the future. You will use your hope and passion to infect all those around you, including me. But why are you so depressed now? Could it be that a setback makes you lose your fighting spirit and forget your original intention? ”

A sad and sad voice was confided, but it did not move He Yi'an's lonely heart at all, but it was a little counterproductive, he waved his hand irritably, and sighed: "Hey, you're not me, you don't understand!" ”

Cheng Jiangshui did not give up, tried his best to restrain the sourness in his heart, and said softly: "Yi'an, we are husband and wife, how can I not understand you?" A fall does not mean eternal failure, we can still get up and move on, don't be so fragile, okay? ”

"Vulnerable? Yes, I'm vulnerable! ”

It was originally a word of relief, but it sounded quite harsh to He Yi'an. He let out a self-deprecating sneer and self-denied: "I thought I was a strong-willed and indomitable person. But in fact, I overestimated my patience and tenacity. Jiang Shui, I mistook myself and lived up to everyone's expectations. ”

Hearing that her husband was completely self-defeating, Cheng Jiangshui's heart was uncomfortable, tears suddenly swirled in her eyes, she bit her jade lip tightly, and choked up: "Yi'an, don't talk about yourself like that, okay?" You have not failed anyone, as long as you can be by our side, this is our greatest hope. ”

"Huh!" He Yi'an let out a sad laugh and said bitterly: "But you also saw it, what have I done in three years?" Nested in this dark place, I can't see a trace of the future, I can have a few three years. ”

Cheng Jiangshui touched the tears in the corners of his eyes, leaned over before, and earnestly grew: "Let's not be in a hurry, okay?" Think about it, we can survive such a hard time in the past, what else can't we get through? ”

He Yi'an shook his head gloomily, and said in great frustration: "But I'm a man, I know now that what I need is not only love and family, but also my own career." But now, my career is gone, what else can I do? I can only make a fool of myself. ”

The words full of withering and loneliness were like a cold sharp knife, piercing Cheng Jiangshui's heart fiercely, making her miserable and more like falling into a dark and hopeless abyss. Seeing that He Yi'an's once heaven-to-earth backbone had become so fragile, Cheng Jiangshui was sad for a while, and suddenly threw himself on his shoulder, crying: "Yi'an, we still have a lot of hope, don't give up on yourself so much, okay?" You make me don't even know how to live, Yi'an, can you give me some confidence? Don't do it again! ”

Tears slowly dripped from her worried eyes as his wife cried out in a sad and heart-wrenching cry. He Yi'an stretched out his hand tremblingly, stroked his wife's trembling back, and said bitterly: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, Jiang Shui, I'm sorry for you." ”

This night, the husband and wife hugged each other tightly, and they didn't say anything to each other, just comforted each other.

Even so, it is difficult to dispel the coldness of reality.

Cheng Jiangshui's exposition is not wrong, and He Yi'an's decadence is also forgivable, but what is the use of saying things easily, no matter how exciting, at the end of despair, how many people can really be free and easy......

The current He Yi'an, if he is put together with those staff who have to get by and live a chaotic life, I am afraid that there is no difference.

The highly talented students of the University of Lanzhou, the golden signboard of the archives, and the fragrant nest in the hands of the leaders......

When these dazzling halos are all picked up, and then the ambitions of the past are smashed to ashes, He Yi'an is no different from the general public now.

Go to work on time, get off work on time, don't say a word, don't care about one thing, it's ordinary and ordinary. This may be commonplace for ordinary people, but for He Yi'an, it is definitely a disaster with no end in sight.