Chapter 214: Unresolved Decadence
Just as Cheng Jiangshui was standing with his heart full of concern, a familiar figure suddenly turned into the alley. Cheng Jiangshui never expected that the person who appeared in his eyes at this moment turned out to be Du Wanling, who was far away in Lanzhou.
Cheng Jiangshui's eyes narrowed in surprise: "Mom! ”
Du Wanling came, with a sense of exhaustion and trepidation. Cheng Jia'an also got off work, and the three of them sat together with sad expressions, speechless for a long time.
Why Du Wanling came, the reason is self-evident.
At He Yi'an's insistence, the two never revealed a trace of information about the accident to Du Wanling, let alone begged her to maneuver around and transfer herself out of the archives. In the final analysis, this is probably also due to He Yi'an's little remaining self-esteem, thinking about how pale and comical the promise he made in front of Du Wanling back then.
Under the repeated questioning of Du Wanling, who was at a loss, Cheng Jiangshui stumbled and confided in He Yi'an everything that happened.
At that moment, Du Wanling's heart was like a knife, she never imagined that He Yi'an would fall into such a sad situation.
Now that He Weiguo's dirty behavior of stabbing in the back has been completely exposed, one can imagine how desperate and helpless He Yi'an is at this moment.
After the silence, Du Wanling frowned, with a hint of unconcealable reproach in her tone: "The reason why I came here first seems to be right, Jiang Shui, in fact, these things happened in Yi'an, you should have told me earlier." ”
Cheng Jiangshui lowered his head guiltily and muttered: "Mom, I want to too, but I don't want to live or die, you also know him." ”
Du Wanling shook her head sadly, her vicissitudes of life on her cheeks with an indissoluble melancholy, and sighed: "He, he is still troubled by his self-esteem, for fear that others will look down on him, but I am my mother, can I hide this matter from me?" ”
Cheng Jiangshui raised his head, pursed his lips and said sadly: "Mom, I'm sorry, I didn't think it through." ”
"Hey!"
Du Wanling sighed deeply, and said with a sad face: "Forget it, you can't blame you for this, it seems that this matter is indeed a big blow to Yi'an." ”
On the other side, Cheng Jia'an, who was silent for a long time, was also worried: "Wanling, Jiang Shui and I have also persuaded him, but Yi'an, this kid seems to have gotten into a dead end, and he can't get out no matter how he persuades him, so it's okay if you come, persuade more." ”
Du Wanling hooked the hair around her ears, revealing a hint of exhaustion, and said bitterly: "I don't know if I can persuade him to come back, he also knows what He Weiguo is doing behind his back, hey, it's really worse now." ”
Cheng Jia'an frowned deeply, clenched his fists tightly under his hands, and his heart was uncomfortable: "Hey, what is Weiguo going to do, how can he do this to his own children?" I really can't figure it out. ”
Du Wanling smiled sadly, as if she had seen through everything, but she couldn't do anything: "What's there to figure out, he just wants to force Yi'an into a desperate situation, and then he can be forced to accept his arrangement." But Yi'an, this kid, how could he listen to him, this is a dead knot! So I didn't dare to tell him the truth, I was fanciful that one day their father and son would be able to tolerate each other and live in harmony, but I didn't expect it to turn out like this. ”
What kind of state Du Wanling and her husband are in now, Cheng Jia'an also knows it well. But from his heart, the family affection between father and son will never be completely extinguished, and he asked with a hint of hope: "Can the great country be persuaded again?" After all, it's my own child. ”
Du Wanling shook her head dejectedly, which could be regarded as shattering the last bit of hope in Cheng Jia's peace of mind, and after thinking for a while, she stumbled and proposed: "Wanling, or ...... If you want to think of something, help Yi'an change his job. ”
"I've also thought about this, now Yi'an is carrying a punishment on his back, this is a stain on him, I don't know if there is any unit willing to accept him here in Ganquan, plus there is a great country behind him, I'm afraid it won't be so smooth, I'll try."
The reason has been clearly stated.
are all people in politics, Du Wanling knows very well in her heart how many ups and downs He Yi'an's future career will face, and even worse, He Weiguo continues to obstruct behind his back. It's really hard to turn over in Ganquan, a place with a big palm.
In the silence, Cheng Jiangshui gritted his teeth, but as if he had made up his mind, he suddenly said: "Mom! If...... If Ganquan's side is not good at arranging this, then ...... Then transfer Yi'an back to Lanzhou. ”
"Jiang Shui, you!"
Du Wanling's eyes widened in surprise, she never expected that Cheng Jiangshui would take the initiative to beg her to let He Yi'an leave Ganquan.
Cheng Jiangshui's cheeks were as warm as water, with a little sadness, and he muttered: "I know, in this way, Yi'an and I will have to face separation, which is also a helpless thing." He's a career-minded man, and I really don't want to see him depressed like that. ”
Out of his heart, after repeatedly persuading He Yi'an to no avail, seeing him slowly depressed, Cheng Jiangshui really couldn't bear it.
As He Yi'an said, men need their own careers, and they can't always be tied to their side, guarding a hopeless one-third of an acre of land, and then wasting their time without accomplishing anything, which may not have a good result for anyone.
Knowing how to empathize and know how to let go at the right time, perhaps this is the way for husband and wife to live in harmony.
Cheng Jia'an on the other side nodded, and said in response: "Wanling, in fact, I have also discussed this with Jiang Shui. Ganquan is still too small, it is good to go to Lanzhou for development, and we will see what happens in the future. ”
Du Wanling was silent for a while, as if affirming the other party's suggestion, and said, "Otherwise, I want to find a way to get the river water to Lanzhou." ”
Cheng Jiangshui shook his head lightly and refused lightly: "No, there will be no one to take care of my mother when I leave." Besides, the matter of Yi'an has already made it very difficult for you, so I won't think about it for now. ”
"This!"
Du Wanling suddenly realized that she was at a loss to ignore Li Xiulan's condition, such a dilemma exists, how can He Yi'an leave! She sighed melancholy and said, "Hey, I'll ask Yi'an again about this!" ”
In the archives, I was in a daze until I got off work. He Yi'an walked listlessly on the way back to the dormitory, this kind of day was numb to him, it was a completely mechanical state of life, and it was strange to be able to lift half of his spirit.
"Yi'an!" Suddenly, there was a mournful call from behind.
He Yi'an turned his head, and suddenly found that Du Wanling was standing not far away, and her eyes were full of pity and regret when she looked at him.
"Mom!"
He Yi'an's lips trembled, he didn't expect his mother to appear in front of him in such a panic. The mother and son were sad and speechless, as if no amount of words could finish the sadness of the moment.
He took his mother to his dormitory and pushed open the creaky door. In the dim light, Du Wanling looked at the shabby furnishings, and a trace of sadness welled up in her heart. She trembled and rubbed the futon under the bed, and said to He Yi'an distressedly.
"Do you feel bitter?"
"I'm used to it, I don't feel anything?" He Yi'an smiled sadly.
"What about work?" Du Wanling looked at her son distressedly.
The other party's silence was better than sound, which made Du Wanling's heart ache for a while, and she said faintly: "When you came to Ganquan categorically, in fact, your mother was unwilling, which mother wants her children to stay away from her to suffer hardships." ”
He Yi'an looked ashamed and shook his head indifferently: "That's my own choice, I don't blame anyone." ”
Du Wanling took a deep breath, and her heart seemed to be blocked by a huge stone: "Yes, my mother told you at that time that the road was chosen by yourself, and you have to finish it with tears, and you can't regret it." But my mother wants to ask you now, Yi'an, to this day, do you regret it? ”
Asked again, but the artistic conception was completely different, He Yi'an's face was bitter, and he was suddenly a little speechless: "I...... I do not know! ”
"You! Hey......"
Du Wanling shook her head sadly, and was silent for a while before she said softly: "At the beginning, your father deliberately embarrassed behind his back, I knew about this, but I really didn't dare to tell you, I was lucky." I really don't want your father and son to go down the road of rupture like this, but ...... But in the end, you still know. ”
He Yi'an pulled the corners of his mouth self-deprecatingly, his already white cheeks became bloodless, and he said with a hint of suppressed anger: "I know the purpose of his doing this, don't you want me to pray to him to prove that my choice is wrong?" But I don't understand, as a father, it's okay if you don't care about and help, but why do you have to stick a knife in your back and fall into the well. ”
Du Wanling looked bitterly at He Yi'an's eyes that bulged forward because of anger, with a look of despair: "For you, he has already lost his mind, gone mad, and is hopeless." ”
"Forget it, he's done it all, what else can I say!" He Yi'an seems to have been completely disheartened by He Weiguo, and he doesn't even want to mention that name anymore.
Du Wanling hesitated for a long time, and then persuaded with a hopeful tone: "Yi'an, my mother just wants to discuss with you, so it's better to go back to Lanzhou." ”
He Yi'an was stunned, and the corners of his mouth twitched involuntarily: "Back to Lanzhou?" ”
Du Wanling looked at him with burning eyes, and nodded very affirmatively: "Yes, go back to Lanzhou, let's start again." ”
He Yi'an sat down dejectedly for a while, his blank eyes were dull for a long time, and then the corners of his mouth hung with a trace of loss that could not be concealed, and he shook his head slightly: "Mom, go back to Lanzhou, then what are I doing in the past three years?" Do you go back with failure, shame, and anger? This is not what he wants. Besides, I'm going back, what will happen to the river? What about this home? ”
Du Wanling leaned up, her anxious expression jumped on her face, and she hurriedly persuaded: "Yi'an, you have to be sensible!" You have a disposition in your file now. To put it mildly, your career in Ganquan has actually been blocked. If you go back to Lanzhou, you may be able to cover up these unfavorable factors, and you can also help your godfather in Lanzhou, which is nothing more than a temporary separation from Jiangshui. ”
He Yi'an drooped his head gloomily, like a deflated ball, and said depressedly: "Mom, I have failed so much in a small archive, what can I do when I go back to Lanzhou?" I just don't have confidence in myself anymore. ”
If she only heard He Yi'an's depression from Cheng Jiangshui's mouth, Du Wanling couldn't believe it, but now that she heard it with her own ears, she found that he was so decadent, Du Wanling said anxiously: "Child, how can you lose confidence in yourself, can't you get back on your feet after such a fall?" It's not like you! ”
"Yes, Jiang Shui also said so, I disappointed you." He Yi'an said sadly.
He Yi'an's mentality is completely like that of a terminally ill patient who gives up on himself.
In addition to the heartache, Du Wanling clenched her teeth and said firmly: "Yi'an, my mother will never be disappointed in you." Mom has decided, even if it violates her own principles of being a person and doing things, she will help you, let's go back to Lanzhou, okay? ”
He Yi'an shook his head in a panic, still with a refusal attitude, and said bitterly: "Mom, I promised to cross the river, I promised my godfather, godmother, I promised many people, what is it if I leave like this now!" Fail to keep the faith? Breaking a promise? Or do you prove your ignorance? That'...... Then I would look down on myself even more. ”
"But what future do you have if you go on like this?" Du Wanling asked worriedly.
"Mom, I'll try to adjust my state as much as possible." He Yi'an said with a somewhat gloomy look: "No matter what, I will not go back, even if the future is bleak and inactive, I don't want to be a person who breaks his word and gets fat and deviates from his original intention." ”
"But you ......"
He Yi'an raised his head, with a bit of stubbornness between his eyebrows, and said lightly: "Mom, you know me, what you don't want to do, you can't force it!" ”
"Hey!" Du Wanling sat down on the bed dejectedly, and a helpless sigh came out of her bitter lips......
At this moment, I really responded to the sentence: things are people, and everything is resting, and tears flow first.