When he came to the familiar adobe house, he turned his head to look at the messy and cold pile of briquettes piled in front of the door, a dirty cotton curtain hung on the door frame, and patches were still worn in many places, Cheng Jianghai's heart was sad.

Luckily, there was a light through the crack in the door. He didn't dare to knock on the door immediately, as if he was carrying fifteen rabbits in his arms, seven up and eight down.

Standing in front of the door, stomping from side to side, muttering incessantly, rehearsing the opening remarks after the meeting.

"Uh, hello Bao Xiaoqi...... Uh, I see you're not in good health, so I'll bring you some medicine...... Phew! What a nonsense is this......"

"Uh, Bao Xiaoqi, you're okay, I'll take a look at you, it's actually nothing...... Hey, that's not right......"

"Bao Xiaoqi, uh, thank you for calling the police for me, oh, and testifying to us, I just want to thank you...... Ay...... Why are you so cowardly when you say this! ”

Just when Cheng Jianghai was at a loss, I don't know if he heard the movement outside the door, Bao Xiaoqi suddenly opened the door, looked at each other, and both of them were stunned for a moment.

After a pause, Bao Xiaoqi frowned tightly and asked coldly, "It's you!" What are you doing again? ”

Cheng Jianghai instantly stammered, and a lump of embarrassed blush was derived to the base of his neck, and the opening remarks of the rehearsal just now immediately forgot about it, and stumbled: "I...... I'm here to ...... I'm here ......."

Bao Xiaoqi put down the door curtain indifferently, retreated into the house, and said indifferently: "You are not welcome here, you should leave quickly!" ”

After saying that, Bao Xiaoqi was about to close the door, Cheng Jianghai hurriedly stepped forward to resist the door, and said earnestly: "Xiaoqi, I have no malicious intentions, I just want to come and see you, we ...... Can we talk about the conversation properly? ”

Bao Xiaoqi turned her head away and didn't talk to Cheng Jianghai: "There is nothing to say between us!" ”

Cheng Jianghai suddenly stammered again: "I, I...... I'm ......."

"Forget it, let's go!"

Bao Xiaoqi pushed the door hard again, trying to push Cheng Jianghai out of the door.

"I'm sorry!" Cheng Jianghai suddenly spoke.

Bao Xiaoqi raised her head in surprise, and her beautiful cheeks showed a little stunned: "What did you say?" ”

Cheng Jianghai gritted his teeth, squeezed his body into the door again, and said with guilt on his face: "Xiaoqi, I'm sorry for you, can you let me in and talk to you......"

The sincere apology seemed to hit Bao Xiaoqi's weakness in an instant, making her strong refusal soften, her body was embarrassed to get out of the way, and her heart trembled for a while, just like Cheng Jianghai's spitting and spitting: "You, you...... Come on in. ”

This is the first time Cheng Jianghai has walked into this dark and poor house, which can be said to be a snail house with four walls, and then look at Bao Xiaoqi, whose face is swollen and scarred, Cheng Jianghai has mixed feelings and is at a loss.

At this time, Bao Xiaoqi suddenly pretended to be indifferent, sat on the broken sofa, lit a cigarette for himself first, and then cocked Erlang's legs, with a thick color of wind and dust, and said with a grin.

"Find a place to sit on your own, I don't have anything to entertain you, do you smoke?"

"Oh, no...... I won't! Cheng Jianghai waved his hand and sat opposite him tremblingly.

Bao Xiaoqi secretly glanced at the unforgettable face, her fingertips trembled slightly, forcibly suppressing the sorrow surging in her heart, but on the surface, she pretended to be bohemian, and sneered: "Hehe, is it? I didn't expect you to be quite pure! ”

Looking at the other party's appearance of swallowing clouds and spitting fog, Cheng Jianghai's heart was faintly sour, and he said hesitantly: "You...... When did you learn to smoke? ”

"When?"

Bao Xiaoqi let out a cold and piercing laugh: "Hehe, maybe it was in the year when my grandparents died, well, maybe it was when I had nothing and could only live on subsistence, or when I had no food to eat and could only follow a few gangsters on the streets, hehe, I don't remember!" ”

Cheng Jianghai clenched his teeth tightly and said hesitantly: "You...... Why are you with Zhu Sanxun and those people, you know, they are all bad people who do all kinds of evil. ”

Bao Xiaoqi hooked the hair on the side of her ears, and didn't mind showing the scars that were originally covered under the hair in front of Cheng Jianghai.

She snorted self-deprecatingly: "Cheng Jianghai, don't look at me with such eyes!" What happened to the bad guys? The bad guys can at least give me a bite to eat, so I don't have to compete with the wild dogs on the side of the road! Hehe, when you worry about an empty belly every day, who can you care about who is good and who is bad? ”

Cheng Jianghai's heart was sour again, he moved forward a little bit, and persuaded him: "You are still so young, you can find a job, there is no need to be entangled with these people." ”

These words are really a bit whimsical, and I want to curse lightly.

With a bang, Bao Xiaoqi stood up, anger, resentment, and bitterness gushed up in unison, and the cigarette butt slammed on the ground, roaring hysterically: "Cheng Jianghai, don't you teach me with this kind of lofty tone, don't I want to live a normal life?" Don't I want to feed myself with my own hands? I just want to work, but who wants me? ”

"I'm following Zhu Sanxun, let me tell you, I'm with more men! I'm now a broken jar, I'm a broken shoe that everyone hates, a broken flower and willow in the eyes of a serious man, what can this be? You can see me clearly now, right? This is who I am now! ”

A heart-wrenching madness, a sad self-defilement, the scars on Bao Xiaoqixiu's face became even more poignant and hideous, which made Cheng Jianghai heartbroken and couldn't bear to look at it directly, he stood up tremblingly, and said painfully: "Xiaoqi, you ...... You don't want that. I know, I know you're hating me! ”

Bao Xiaoqi felt a fierce twitch in her heart, and sneered bitterly: "Hehe, I hate you, what do I hate about you?" What do you have to hate me? ”

For a while, Cheng Jianghai's heart was like a knife, and he said sadly: "I know that it was my entanglement, my ignorance, and my ruthlessness that dragged you down back then, so that you became like this step by step." ”

Cheng Jianghai's words full of guilt did not soothe Bao Xiaoqi's broken heart, but aroused her endless resentment, she waved her hand violently to stop Cheng Jianghai's words, and said angrily: "Cheng Jianghai, I repeat, you don't need to pretend to be noble here, and you don't need to be pitiful, I and you are not people on the same road." You're done, that's it, let's go! ”

"Xiaoqi, I'...... I'm not done yet. ”

Cheng Jianghai didn't move his steps, under Bao Xiaoqi's crazy anger, he calmed down, looked at Bao Xiaoqi's cold eyes sadly, took a deep breath, and said leisurely: "Do you know? How did I get over all these years, because of my arbitrariness and willfulness, because of my repeated teachings, my mother lay in bed for seven years, and finally left me. ”

"All these years I have lived in self-blame, remorse and pain, and I have paid the worst price in the world for the mistakes I have committed. I'm a disaster, and I've hurt my mother, my father, my sister, my brother, and myself......"

"I can't forgive myself, I can only bury myself in the sand, be an escaping ostrich, trying to pay off my debts but finding that I can't pay anything back. I thought I had hurt enough people, but it wasn't until I saw you that I realized that you were the same person I had hurt before! ”

Every sentence and word seems to be full of Cheng Jianghai's unbearable past, crying blood.

In the words that came to the story, there were many stories that shed tears.

At the same time, the end of the world has fallen into people, and how can they not understand the pain.

But even if she was shocked, Bao Xiaoqi still gritted her teeth strongly: "You...... You think too much, I have nothing to do with you! ”

"No, it matters!"

Cheng Jianghai took a step forward, looked at Bao Xiaoqi with burning eyes, and said sincerely: "If it weren't for my wanton entanglement, you would be a good student and have a bright future." ”

"It's me, who harasses you in vain, so that you can't study with your heart, and it's me who dragged you into the water. It's also me, without a word of explanation, just leaving indifferently, even in the same middle school, I am deliberately avoiding you. I know, your heart hurts, it was I who made you lose your confidence and hope in life, and it was my fault that hurt you! ”

The past passed through my heart one by one, and the long-suppressed sadness came back to my heart, Bao Xiaoqi's tears couldn't stop flowing, she sat down on the sofa sadly and gracefully, and said silently: "Don't say it, don't say it again!" ”

Cheng Jianghai squatted down gently, his eyes were full of tenderness: "Xiaoqi, I actually wanted to say sorry to you, I'm really sorry!" ”

Bao Xiaoqi shook her head painfully, cold tears filled her cheeks: "Don't say it anymore, it's too late." I don't need your apology anymore, I don't have any extravagant hopes anymore to get to this point, and I'm the only way to fend for myself. ”

"Cheng Jianghai, but I still want to thank you, thank you for drawing a successful end to my unbearable past. You'd better go, we'll never see each other again. ”

Cheng Jianghai said earnestly: "Xiaoqi, let me do something for you, okay?" ”

"Huh."

Bao Xiaoqi let out a sad wry smile, turned her head, tears froze on her cheeks, her painful eyes were thick with grayness, and asked, "Do something?" Is it for you to make up for the guilt in your heart? Or for the sake of your old classmates, stretch out your hands of relief and pity me? I don't need it! ”

Cheng Jianghai said gloomily: "You know, that's not what I said?" ”

"Hehe, that's not what you mean, what else can you mean?"

Bao Xiaoqi mocked in frustration, as if she had lost faith in everything that was to come.

Cheng Jianghai's eyes suddenly showed a firmness that he had never felt before, as if he didn't have the slightest hesitation at all, and blurted out: "I want to say, let me take care of you, ...... for the rest of your life"

This sentence was like a hammer that could smash anything, hitting Bao Xiaoqi's heart hard, a shock, a dizziness, Bao Xiaoqi's face changed suddenly, his eyes widened, and he looked at the other party incredulously: "Cheng Jianghai, you ...... Do you know what you're talking about? ”

Cheng Jianghai looked back at the other party resolutely and nodded earnestly: "I know!" ”

Bao Xiaoqi flinched for a while, curled up in the sofa, and said with trembling lips: "You...... Are you crazy, do you know what kind of woman I am? Do you know how awkward my existence is? Do you know what a ridiculous promise you're talking about now? ”

Cheng Jianghai nodded, and did not shy away from his eyes when he recognized the truth: "I know, I know everything, I even know a lot of ......, but in my mind, you are still you, the one I liked back then!" ”

Bao Xiaoqi was dumbfounded, with a strong suspicion: "You...... Are you pitiful? ”

"No!"

Cheng Jianghai shook his head gently, but there was indomitable firmness in his bitter words: "It's me who is hateful, it's fate that is sad, lovely...... It's you! ”

"Cheng Jianghe, you ......"

At this moment, Bao Xiaoqi cried, drunk, and stupid.

At this moment, her world may no longer be the darkness that cannot be seen, and it is no longer the cold and cold to the bone, because there is a light, a fire, and a pair of hands, so that hope is no longer despair, and there is still hope for the future.

All of this comes from the name that he has never forgotten - Cheng Jianghai.