Chapter 74
Lin Nuan couldn't help but tighten his hand holding the chopsticks.
When Lin Nuan mentioned Fu Huai'an to Bai Xiaonian, she still felt that a man like him was more compatible with a legendary woman like Chu Xun. Who knew that this idea would actually become a reality.
Fu Huai'an's elders also like Chu Xun. If the Chu family had already recognized him as their future son-in-law, then why did he still get engaged to Gu Hanyan?
Lin Nuan didn't understand.
She was even more unsure why he would go with her so easily to collect the certificate at the station the next day. If it weren't for Wen Moshen's sudden return, she would probably be Mrs. Fu. However, she didn't know anything about her husband.
Lin Nuan had both bitterness and fear in her heart.
She has long lost the courage to quarrel over a man. She sought a life full of peace and stability.
A man like Fu Huai'an can't give her this.
With Su Manman following Chu Xun, such an outstanding woman Lin Nuan could only look up at them.
She didn't want to know, even if she mustered up the courage to be with Fu Huai'an, maybe there would be girls like Su Manman or Chu Xun.
There is no shortage of women around Fu Huai'an.
Lin Nuan did not accept his impromptu game.
She also doesn't accept scandals or flirting.
Lin Nuan is indeed not suitable to be the wife of a man like Fu Huai'an. She couldn't tolerate her husband carrying her back, being reckless like Liang Mulan, so graceful and composed, closing one eye to see only what she needed to see.
So Lin Nuan would say that she would rather sleep with him out of desire than have feelings for such a man.
Grasping his affection is like taking off her armor in front of him. She liked him, but she didn't trust him, and she was worried that the heart she had worked so hard to repair would shatter into pieces the moment she carefully brought it to Fu Huai'an.
Her heart is too small to bear much.
"I hung up," Mr. Fu said as he hung up.
He pulled a cigarette out of the case and clenched it tightly with his fingertips. He asked Lin Nuan, "Are you willing to accept my flowers?"
Lin Nuan: "..."
She didn't expect him to play that game all of a sudden, and she couldn't give a proper answer.
She felt like her heart was stuffed with a cotton ball soaked in vinegar. She closed her mouth in silence.
"You're going to accept other people's flowers, so why would you take so long to think about it when answering my simple question?"
Fu Huai'an lit a cigarette with his fingertips. He bit the cigarette butt with his thin lips, staring at Lin Nuan's clear face with a deep gaze.
Her heart beat faster—it must have been his words, his gaze, or the way he lowered his head to light a cigarette.
Lin Nuan replied honestly: "If you ask me, I will probably say that I will not accept it." But if you did present the flowers to me, I would probably still accept it – and if I didn't, what a waste of flowers would go into the bin.
He put the lighter he was fiddling with on the cigarette case and said, "So you accepted the flowers that Liu Mingchen gave you today?"
Lin Nuan: "..."
Fu Huai'an was casting a fishing line, waiting for her to bite.
Lin Nuan couldn't take advantage of him in the conversation.
She clenched her chopsticks. Then she gently and slowly placed them in the bowl and reached for her glass and took a sip. It was then that she realized that she had finished her entire drink.
Fu Huai'an unhurriedly opened the water bottle on the table and filled the cup.
But Lin Nuan didn't have the courage to raise his cup and drink.
"Mr. Fu, for me, you and Liu Mingchen are different......"
Lin Nuan said after pondering for a while.
Hearing her call his name like this, he put the cigarette in the ashtray, half-closed his eyes, and said, "My ears are wide open."
He waited with anticrative anticrisy to hear the answer he wanted from her—what exactly was the difference between them.
"Mr. Fu is a very charismatic person. I have to admit that as a woman, it's easy to admire your success, maturity, and charm in your thirties......"
"What about you?" Fu Huai'an asked.
Lin Nuan paused. She understood what he meant, and looked at his deep, dark gaze with clear and innocent eyes, she nodded and said in a sincere tone, "I admire you too."
Even to the point of falling in love with him.
But she didn't say it out loud. Seeing the corners of his lips gently curl upwards to form a delicate and elegant smile, she felt an indescribable stirring in her heart.
She clenched her fists and said, "When I first met you, it was because of Tuan Tuan. But then Gu Hanyan became the reason why I started contacting you more often—the main reason was for Wen Moshen......"
The smile in Fu Huai'an's eyes gradually dissipated. He maintained an indifferent posture and listened to Lin Nuan's explanation.
"This time, I finally slept with you...... Lin Nuan paused, "It was purely out of impulse and desire, without any benefits and quid pro quo." But I know when and where to stop. Whether it's having sex with you or marrying you, it's not what I want.
"I don't want to be dumb with you, Mr. Fu, when I know exactly what I want. So I might as well make myself clear today......"
Lin Nuan looked him straight into the eyes, and the shyness he had felt in bed before completely dissipated, replaced by calm.
"The life I wanted was very ordinary. My spouse and I are about the same age and have common topics – so that we don't find ourselves in a situation where one of us leaves first and the other is alone in this world.
"He didn't have that many girls throwing at him. At most, he can have a few female friends that I am familiar with. We will match each other in terms of occupation and income, and no one is much higher than the other. Then we can buy a beautiful house together, and our monthly income will be enough for us to maintain our savings after deducting rent and living expenses. He would be excited for days, just for a sumptuous sumptuous meal for his annual anniversary. When I'm cooking in the kitchen, he'll be with me and chat with me – instead of answering the phone all day and leaving me to run boring errands on my own.
"He could finish the food I prepared for him and praise it a lot – instead of me going home and cooking a table of treats, which I had to do myself while he was out doing business. After a day at work, we can snuggle up on the couch and watch TV and talk about everything that's going on in the company. We can greet each other in the morning and evening and be each other's rock and companion.
Lin Nuan didn't say anything fast. She originally came from a broadcasting major and made sure that people heard every word she said clearly. Her voice was clear and full, melodious and harsh.
"The life I want is so ordinary, but Mr. Fu is such an extraordinary person. Maybe what I'm saying sounds futile, because you may never have thought about your future with me, or you do intend to get your marriage license with me like you did last time. But whether you're playing me or not, I'm not the right person for you.