Chen Jing was lying on the embankment, her stomach open. With one leg straight, the other leg lifts the knee above the knee of the other leg. The hands are open, the palms are upward, the Guanxiang flowers on the shore are grateful, countless small petals are falling like a drizzle, and the flowers rain and snow fall all night, on her body, her palms, on the grass, the streets and alleys are covered with a dense carpet of flowers at dawn. She doesn't cry, she doesn't laugh, she doesn't mess around, she doesn't grieve. Looking at the sky, the vision is deep and distant.

In the rest of her life, all the good memories of my sister can't match the deep impression left in my mind at that moment. And human memory is a sieve, sorrow slips out of the pores like fine sand, and all that remains is full, round happiness, like fruit, stored in the atrium, no matter how you rummage, you will not touch the pain in the depths. Chen Si's psychology has developed a strong sense of self-preservation, and since that cruel goodbye, she has not seen her sister again. didn't go to the morgue, didn't go to the funeral home, until she turned into ashes and was carried out by Chu Li, she had the courage to carry it over and hold it carefully in her arms. The Buddha was already connected before his death and after his death, and the memory after that night was no more. Many years later, Chen Si found that Dongguan's memories had gradually disappeared. My memories of my sister seem to have been omitted for three years, and another three years have been omitted. From leaving Yichang to returning to Yichang, many things gradually became difficult to remember, or I didn't want to think about them.

After Chen Si came back from Nancheng, he moved out of the small room of the two, did not go back, and lived in Chu Li's room. Xiao Ye opened her room for her and let her put some things in. She put Chen Jing's things in a small suitcase. His own things were scattered and mixed with Chu Li's things. But she slowly realized that the sieve of memory was two-sided. Whenever Chu Li appeared in front of him, the sieve was turned upside down. Happiness slipped out of the pores like fine sand, and all that remained was strange, cold and stiff sadness. This man has a terrifying magic, so that the moment he sees him, every moment after that, he will think of the dawn of the withering flowers. If it weren't for himself, how could my sister have been killed? She said early that she would leave Dongguan and return to Yichang. It's just that I'm indecisive, and I can't let go of the tenderness that is close at hand. Even Chu Li agreed that he should take his sister away. His former sanity turned into a curse that never faded, reminding himself that Chen Jing had lost it, and she had lost it because of you. From then on, she no longer wanted to see him. And as long as she didn't see him, she miraculously found that the sieve turned back. She only remembers her happy sister, but she can't remember Dongguan.

Because of this, she thought to herself that it was time for her to leave. She didn't have any reluctance, her heart was like a feather on a string, and there was no turning back. She didn't want to know who was the murderer and who did the evil, as if those were no longer important to her. She cooperated with the police investigation and collected evidence, but did not take the initiative to inquire about the case. Later, Chu Li told her who was arrested and brought to justice, but she just nodded, completely indifferent.

Let my aunt accompany Chen Yusen back to Yichang first. She quit immediately, and Linda just went through the motions to talk to her, politely expressed sympathy and immediately approved her departure. She didn't even inform the wonderful words that had just been produced in Shenzhen.

In the last week in Dongguan, when Chen Jing had passed away for twenty-five days, she walked into Chu Li's room, looked at Chu Li who had just taken a bath, and her heart turned upside down. She couldn't look him in the eye, stretched out her hands, hugged him, who had also lost a lot of weight, and said, "I love you." Then take off your clothes and take off Chu Li's clothes cleanly. Although the two get along day and night, they can't see it as well as they do at this moment, Chen Si is so thin that it is heartbreaking! There is no fat in the waist and abdomen, almost attached to the reserve, the ribs are like a comb, the collarbones are clear, the arms and shoulders are like a malnourished patient, and the once plump body has become withered. The next few days of life for the two became extremely simple, crazy lingering, dimly, sleeping, eating, lingering. Many nights, she got up quietly, and then cried in Xiao Ye's room next door, Chu Li hugged her back, and she went over again the next day. One evening, she was wrapped in a sheet and looked out the window. With her face to meet the sunset shining through the window, her body was extremely tired, she curled her hair behind her ears, and the sound of thumping kitchen utensils in the kitchen set off the ethereal of this dusk. Tomorrow is the last day, Chen Si's thoughts are extremely clear in an instant, and his emotions have become single, this week, the two of them are as ambiguous as newlyweds, and tomorrow, she will leave him. Ignoring the tears that flowed from her, she began to cry loudly in her room. The sound of the kitchen stopped for a long time, and Fang could feel the hesitation and confusion of the people there, and then it began to sound again.

"I'm leaving."

When Chen Si said this sentence with difficulty, Chu Li was as quiet as a child, silently raising his eyes as bright as a deer, but his eyes were as confused and panicked as a deer. The anomalies of the past few days, although he was slightly prepared, were far from expected. Chen Si worked hard to go to work together like a wife, get off work together, buy groceries together, cook together, sleep together, and get up together. There are smiles, there are tears, regardless of the speculation, doubt, and guidance of others.

He was speechless, and suddenly raised his head, Chen Si must have seen a glimmer of pleading and expectation in his sunken eye sockets. "I'll go back with you."

Chen Si shook his head. "Nope."

"Why?"

"I can't face you. I can't face myself. I was very uncomfortable, very uncomfortable. It was I who killed Jingjing, and if I had promised her to go back, there wouldn't have been so much going on. After a few years in Dongguan, I came here for her in the first place, but in the end I killed her. Even you asked me to take her back, I didn't listen, did you say it was my fault? ”

"How could this be your fault? Don't be cranky! ”

Chen Si shook his head vigorously until he looked a little nervous. "That's me! I forgot the roots, forgot the original intention, we are together, I think of her every day, sorry for her, guilt, I hate myself, I feel bad every day, I can't stand it, I really can't stand it. It's not fair to you either. This emotion of mine will be contagious to you. You are a sunny, positive person. I just want to go, leave Dongguan, leave you, I won't think of her. I'm a selfish person, and I realized that. Actually, I should have realized it a long time ago. At that time, she said that she liked you, and I was jealous, and I asked you to stay away from her, but it was actually selfish. I'm really bad, very bad. ”

"Will you feel better away from me?" Chu Li stepped forward and grabbed Chen Si's shoulder. "I've never been a sunny and positive person, and with you, I've become sunny and positive. Don't you know? “

"I want to try." Chen Si held Chu Li's face in both hands, kissed passionately and selflessly, and snatched warm and bitter teardrops with the tip of his tongue. "I love you. Hold me tight! Then he burst into tears.

"I'll go with you, we will go far, we will leave Dongguan, leave Hubei, we can go to many places, and we can also go abroad. All right? “

"No, don't you understand? When I see you, remind myself that I killed quietly! Why are you so stupid? If this continues, I won't survive. ”

After Chu Li got up the next day, Chen Si seemed to have suddenly recovered, becoming enthusiastic, and his eyes in the thick dark circles glowed with a resurgence of light. hugged Chu Li and kissed him non-stop. "Go to work, baby!"

Chu Li saw a bowl of noodles on the dining table, and two particularly beautiful fried eggs were placed on it.

"Let's eat!" Chen Si came out of the kitchen with a bowl of noodles and began to snort the noodles.

Chu Li gave her the eggs from the bowl, and Chen Si returned another one. When he went out, Chu Li took a deep breath of the fragrance on Chen Si's body and left the house satisfied.

After returning from work, Chen Si disappeared, not only was she gone, but all her luggage, shoes, and clothes were also gone. Chu Li ran into the next room, wrapped in a white cloth, and Chen Jing's urn was no longer placed on the suitcase in the corner. He desperately dialed Chen Si's phone and said that the phone had been turned off. The house was spotless, and Chu Li's clothes were neatly placed in a very feminine simple wardrobe, which should have been left by Chen Si. There was a wooden photo frame on the table, and there was a double photo in the double glazing, which was taken by the two of them by the old man by the Wuhan River, and the two laughed very openly. He ran to the kitchen, where the dishes and chopsticks had been washed and the water had been drained. In the bathroom, her makeup, towels, sandals, and combs were gone. When Chu Li saw the toothbrush, tears welled up. Chen Si embedded her toothbrush face to face in her own toothbrush, creating a hugging image. There was a sticky note next to it, and the handwriting on it was crooked, not quite like Chen Si's atmospheric and rough writing, but the handwriting was indeed written by her. "If I take away all my things, my future girlfriend won't be jealous." A smile was drawn next to it. Chu Li frantically circled around the room, he inhaled the air that the two had once breathed together, and Chen Si's fragrance gradually thinned. There was a sharp pain in his chest, like a sharp contraction of the heart, and gradually transmitted to his throat, nose, eye sockets, forehead, and hands trembled, and his eyes were blurred and almost blind. He sat limply on the ground, his eyes closed and his head lowered until his chin pressed against his chest to ward off the pain. He felt a ringing in his ears, and he could barely hear the soft knock on the door.

With the sound of the key turning in the lock hole, the door opened, and Chu Li looked up violently, only to find that it was Xiao Ye standing at the door. Maybe it was Chu Li's too crooked facial features that startled Xiao Ye. She looked at the almost curled figure in front of her and didn't say a word. After a while, he entered the door, turned around and closed the door and walked directly to the bathroom, put some water, soaked the towel in the water, wrung it out, and walked to the living room and handed it to Chu Li. Chu Li took the towel and wiped his face, forced himself to adjust his breathing, turned his back, and asked Xiao Ye why he came.

"I sent Chen Si to the station. She gave me a special explanation, come and see you. ”

Chu Li turned around and grabbed Xiao Ye's shoulder, "What about her?" Still at the station? You take me there! ”

"She's already in the car." Xiao Ye frowned, except for the last time she was at the funeral home, this was the second time she saw Chu Li's dejected appearance, and she couldn't bear to look at it. "She called me in the morning and asked me to pick her up and ......"

"And then?"

Xiao Ye said that when she came, Chen Si had already cleaned up, Chen Si had been crying, and it was useless to persuade her. It wasn't until later that Xiao Ye helped her move some of her things, and Chen Si asked her to wait for her in the car, and Chen Si didn't get down for a long time alone. She was a little frightened, and was just about to go up, when she saw her carrying a basin and a bucket, and took off her shoes and came down. Then I walked over to the trash can and threw it all away.

She looked a little dazed. Xiao Ye said, "I asked her if she wanted to find Brother Chu to send her together, she shook her head, looked at me with straight eyes and said don't inform him." “

Chu Li shook his head. "Did she tell you anything?"

"I didn't say anything along the way, but I thought, if it wasn't for something, she wouldn't have called me back, I happened to be out of school and helped my grandmother in the Houjie store, otherwise I would have missed her train when I came from Nancheng." Xiao Ye put the key on the table, walked to the kitchen and poured a glass of water. She started crying again in the car and didn't say anything until she got out of the car. When I got to the train station, I helped her move all her luggage, I asked her where she was going, and she said home. I was there with her, and I didn't dare to say anything, because she was very sad. Finally, before leaving, she spoke to me. “