She thought for a long time, but she didn't answer him.

Jing Xuan has also been staring at her deeply, waiting for her reply.

After a long while, Chu Huan said softly: "Jing Xuan, I'll be honest with you, asking you like this at that time was just a casual reason to discourage you, in fact, even if you are willing, I don't dare to bet." ”

Jing Xuan was stunned, very unclear: "What do you mean?" ”

Chu Huan pulled his arm out of his hand, looked at him squarely, stared at him for a moment, and smiled slightly.

But her smile only made Jing Xuan feel cold.

Chu Huan said: "I am an extremely contradictory person, I don't believe in the so-called eternal feelings, you are obsessed with me now, that is, you are willing to give up everything for me, but it is just a choice to the depths of love now, and it cannot be proved forever." ”

"One day you don't have me in your heart, you will give up for what you gave up because of me, blame me for making you choose the wrong path, you will regret it, and you will blame me for causing you to lose everything, and in the end it will be the same."

Jing Xuan really didn't understand her.

He thought that what he was willing to give up would make her let go of her defense, but it turned out that it was all in vain?

Chu Huan said: "Jing Xuan, in fact, in the final analysis, it's just that I have a problem, what you do is meaningless, no matter what you do for me, the rejection in my heart still exists, and the two of us are still not suitable to come together." ”

It is she who is too pessimistic about the so-called love between men and women.

She has spent more than a decade witnessing the ridiculous and pathetic love-hate entanglement between her parents, and she has seen too many eternal but changeable departures between men and women.

She couldn't convince herself to trust any man, and she didn't want to expose her softest and most vulnerable side to anyone.

Because it's too dangerous.

It's her problem, don't blame him for the mistreatment and hurt at the beginning, this is just the most obvious reason.

Even if he was very nice to her from the beginning, it was actually the same.

It was the first time for Jing Xuan to feel so powerless when facing her.

If he thinks he is not good enough, if she doesn't believe enough, if she can't let go of her defenses, he can do more to make her trust and make her open up.

However, she is like this, calmly dissecting and revealing her heart, and destroying all his hopes.

No matter how good or bad he is, no matter what the reasons for the past, she just keeps her heart as solid as gold, as if no matter how hard he tries, no matter what the cost, he can't pry open the sealed door of his heart.

He was in pain, and after taking a deep breath, he said dumbly: "I still don't understand, what makes you so cold?" Is it because Chu Shuxiu once turned his back on your mother, so you beat me to death with a stick? ”

Chu Huan shook his head lightly and said with a light smile; "It's not them, Chu Shuxiu doesn't have any weight on me, so why should it affect me to come here?"

Indeed, only the lessons presented by the people you care about can make the witnesses take the precept and engrave it into the blood and bones, and Chu Shu will not cultivate it in her.

Jing Xuan persistently asked, "What is that?" You are still so young, it is the beginning of love, but your heart is like this, there is always a reason. ”

Only by knowing the reason can he untie the knot in her heart, and there will be hope between them.

It's just that Chu Huan was silent, lowered his eyelids and didn't speak.

There was obvious resistance on his face.

She didn't want to say.

Seeing this, the flame that ignited in Jing Xuan's heart became faint little by little in her silence and tended to be extinguished.

In the end, she turned around and returned to Fuyun Pavilion in silence, and the two of them, who had been acting as air on the side, silently followed.

He didn't keep up, and he didn't spend the night in Fuyun Pavilion tonight.

This desperate desire and rejection made the distance between the two people invisibly widen the distance that is difficult to cross.

After that, two days later, Jing Xuan didn't appear in front of Chu Huan again, except for sleeping, he usually had to stay here, and he had to eat three meals a day with Chu Huan, but now he didn't come.

It's one thing to be busy, the main thing is to be afraid of facing her.

Sensing that there was a problem between them, Princess Chang'an and her family tacitly became careful, and Princess Chang'an was in front of her, and even breathed lightly.

made Chu Huan speechless.

Two days later, Chu Huan made a request for Yao Ruo'an, and went to the Yanwang Mansion accompanied by Princess Chang'an.

Yao Ruoan also went, and it was Chu Huan who asked Donggu to send a message to let her go.

Today, Chu Huan not only has to recuperate the old princess, but also has to administer medicine and needles to Yao Ruoan, and fake pregnancy pulses and signs.

I stayed in King Yan's Mansion for most of the day, and lunch was used here.

During dinner, Chu Huan found a small piece of paper pressed under the soup cup, on which the word 'Ya' was written.

When Chu Huan saw it, his eyebrows jumped fiercely.

Fu Xi was waiting for her to eat, and when she saw that she had found a piece of paper under the soup cup, she was strange: "Princess, what is this?" Hey? How could there be such a small piece of paper under the soup cup? ”

Seeing that Chu Huan's face was wrong, she hurriedly said: "The princess forgives her sins, it must be that the people in the dining room are not doing things well, and the slaves and maids will ask them to be careful in the future." ”

As he spoke, he stepped forward and reached out to throw away the piece of paper in Chu Huan's hand.

Chu Huan put the small piece of paper in the palm of her hand when she stretched out her hand, raised her eyes to look at it, and ordered: "You go to the dining room, bring someone for me, and I will see her immediately." ”

Fu Xi sensed that something was wrong, and asked hesitantly, "Who does the princess want to see?" ”

Chu Huan stared at Fu Xi and said, "A rough maidservant girl named Wang Ya." ”

I was stunned.

She thought about it carefully, but she had no impression, she had been with Chu Huan for more than three months, and she had never found that Chu Huan had come into contact with such a person.

But Chu Huan wanted to see ...... by name

Obviously, the piece of paper just now has something to do with that Wang Ya.

Chu Huan's tone secretly added a bit of pressure: "You have to go immediately, bring her to see me immediately, you can report this matter to Jing Xuan afterwards, but before I see this person, you are not allowed to talk nonsense." ”

Seeing Chu Huan's expression so solemn, Fu Xi had to nod, but he didn't dare to delay, and he was busy.

Chu Huan looked at the piece of paper in his hand, and his eyes were cold.