"I'm sorry." Xiao Ran looked at the calm warm tea in front of him, and countless guilt suddenly surged in his chest.

Before separating from Deng Ruoxue, he came to find Wen Cha, and said such a thing, which was originally a taboo, but now that Wen Cha asked him, he felt even more gloomy.

He said with a grim face, "I will divorce her soon."

Wen Cha shook his head without changing his face: "No matter what happens to you and her, don't come to me."

Xiao Ran opened his mouth: "......"

Wen Cha continued: "Sheng Guangnian will never put me in this situation."

Xiao Ran couldn't say all the words anymore, because he saw Wen Cha's smile, bright and gorgeous, with a little pride.

He had never seen a smile like that on her face.

Even when they were most intimate, she only looked at him at most, smiling gently, with a faint smile, like a person in the shadows, seeing a glimmer of light that had not been seen for a long time, but because she had waited too long, she couldn't give much response.

She always followed him silently, accompanied him, and protected him, making him subconsciously ignore what she wanted, taking it for granted that as long as he turned back, he would always see her in a darker corner, she was still as silent as before, the same lonely and dead, only if he was willing to condescend to look back, she could leave the gloom that lasted all year round.

But now, seeing her smile, he finally realized that without him, she could be very happy, and she could say another person's name so dazzlingly.

It's like plants that encounter abundant sunlight and moisture, growing freely in the ubiquitous air.

He still remembers that when they were together, she always said: "You are so good, so talented, when I am with you, I always dare not let others know that I am your girlfriend, I am afraid of embarrassing you."

So, she always hid somewhere in silence, and didn't show up until he needed it, she never asked him for anything, nor did she want to transgress any of the limits he had set, the only time she was moved was when she was a senior, he didn't know if it was because of sympathy, or because she was too lonely, he finally said something like wanting to marry her.

He couldn't remember if she had laughed, maybe she laughed, or maybe she cried, or maybe she knew that what he said was only because of sympathy, and she was happy, but she never dared to expect too much.

However, he knew that at that time, she did not have such a light as now.

The smile is like a flower, and the light is bright.

There is an undisguised happiness in the corners of his eyes and in his bones.

He remembered her who was with him, and she would never have the temperature she had now.

He relied on and trusted her at that time, and in a corner of his heart, he looked down on her, he felt that she was his subordinate, a worm in a dark corner, and if it weren't for him, she would have rotted.

She is not the person he wants, and he should be with Deng Ruoxue's radiant and radiant woman, until he decided to marry Deng Ruoxue and break up with her, he only felt that he had lost a painless accessory.

However, those things that he ignored, and even belittled, finally gave him a taste of how painful memories really are.

What Deng Ruoxue gave him was unsparing pain, this heart-rending pain, but it will end one day.

However, what Xia Cha gave him was a trickle, long and subtle tingling, this pain, at first almost unfelt, slowly, they were superimposed, more and more, when they reached a load, he finally discovered.

There is no end to this kind of suffering.

They will only get deeper and deeper, and they will never end.

At that time, he finally understood that compared with the vigorous and in full swing love, what he wanted, from beginning to end, was the one who could accompany him and would not give up on him.

It's just that person, lost by him.

He thought he could get it back, because the worm had no friends, so she could only huddle in the corner and wait for him, if he didn't come, she would rot faster than before.

He turned back as fast as he could, wanting to give her a glimmer of light, to let her continue to live by his side, and he knew that she couldn't refuse such a light.

However, he realized that she was no longer lacking the ridiculous light of his stinginess.

It's no longer the bug in the corner that can't wait for dawn.

When she said the name of another person out loud, the happiness on her face was like a flower.

It turned out that she could also laugh, and he closed his eyes in a trance and sadness, and his heart was full of despair.

It's just that he never made her laugh.

"I'm leaving." He heard her say, without a trace of hesitation and reluctance, and walked out of his world like that.

He opened his eyes, and there was no shadow of her in front of him, only a cup of cold coffee, and told him that she had been here.

Xiao Ran stretched out his hand to cover his eyes, there was something in his chest, it was completely necrotic, and he was in pain.

"I'm sorry......" he heard himself say, I didn't mean to...... No...... Can you still believe it......

Whether it was intentional or not is no longer important, the important thing is that she finally left his world.

"Sheng Lightyear would never put me in this situation."

He laughed, yes, only someone like him who doesn't know how to cherish it will make her sad again and again.

He got up in despair, drove home, the roadside was overgrown with plane trees, when he was in college, there was a tree-lined road in the school, in the summer, she liked to pass slowly from the road, the light was swaying, the breeze was blowing, she would occasionally raise her head and say to him, if only time could be at this moment, she felt very relieved, at that time, his mind was full of Deng Ruoxue, and he had no time to pay attention to her words.

Later, at a celebration banquet, he was drunk, and when she helped him back to the house to clean up, she mentioned Deng Ruoxue while he was drunk, and cautiously asked him, when will he forget Deng Ruoxue and really be with her?

She thought he was drunk, but he wasn't drunk that night, he just didn't want to be sober.

He heard everything she said, but he didn't respond, he disliked her, but he was reluctant to her, at that time he felt that Xia Cha was as pitiful as himself, so that he would impulsively admit later that he wanted to marry her.

He thought it was charity, but he didn't know that it was when he finally compromised himself.

He had already relented, and he had long wanted to be with her.

No one willingly commits to someone they don't love for a lifetime.

It's just that he stubbornly thinks that he doesn't love her, and all promises are just pity.

Commiseration?

He finally stopped the car, covered his eyes and choked in despair.

How can he have any mercy for such a selfish person?

He came to Xia Cha because he had a dream, in the dream, he was not with Xia Cha, and married Deng Ruoxue as a matter of course.

He dreamed of the other side of Deng Ruoxue that had never been exposed, dreamed of everything she did to Xia Cha, and dreamed that Xia Cha died, just on the road in front of him, and was knocked to pieces.

He couldn't remember how he got to the cemetery, he knelt like a walking dead by the tombstone, never being able to touch her extravagant hopes.

He finally understood that it was Xia Cha who had always pitied him, and he had never really pitied Xia Cha.

He, like Deng Ruoxue, is a silk flower, and he has to live by others.

It's just that he lost his tree first.