When Shen Yun walked out of the KTV, it was already dark outside, Fang Feifei followed behind him, looking at his straight back, her brows furrowed.

"What's wrong with you? How did it change after answering a call? Who the hell called you? ”

Shen Yun stood still and didn't look back, "It's an old man." ”

"The deceased?" Fang Feifei looked at him unhappily and said suspiciously, "It can't be your former girlfriend, right?"

Shen Yun didn't speak, and Fang Feifei's expression became vigilant, "You even have an ex-girlfriend?" Why didn't you ever tell me? ”

"Not an ex-girlfriend." Shen Yun rubbed his eyebrows anxiously, "It's a classmate from before." ”

"Really?" Fang Feifei didn't believe his words, "Who is it?" Do I know each other? ”

"You don't know." Her entanglement made Shen Yun's eyes cold, "It's late today, let's go home first." ”

Fang Feifei grabbed him, "You make it clear!" If you don't make it clear, I'm not leaving! ”

Her arrogant and sharp words had never made Shen Yun so impatient as this moment, and when he looked back at her and touched the question in her eyes, he suddenly felt very tired.

"Then you can stay here."

He ignored her and walked straight out.

Fang Feifei looked at his back without looking back, and wanted to scold angrily, but her pride didn't allow her to scold the street like a shrew, so she could only watch him leave.

"Who the hell is it? Who is that person who can influence him? ”

She kept asking questions in her heart, but she couldn't find an answer.

Shen Yun returned home as quickly as he could, he opened the bookcase of old books, and found his former excerpt notes one by one, and he flipped through the pages page by page like crazy.

Finally, he found the poem.

The white bird hovers overhead

The holiness of the white clouds

……

Lovers hide in front of the embroidery

Dancing butterflies and chrysanthemums, pomegranates and bees

……

Lovers get taller

It sits in the middle of the wooden house

Completely clean and clean to feed the white horse of my childhood

The white horse bathes in the heavenly water

I followed the white horse to see the feathers of the crane

……

Choose the position of the sun

Take stock of the dusk

Leaning on a mountain song wrapped in leaves

Quietly weeping

Gradually fall asleep

……

The notebook was full of his handwriting, his handwriting at that time was not sharp, with a faint childishness, and there was another line of more childish small characters under the handwriting, hidden in the cracks of the notebook, so small that he had not noticed it at all.

- Although I can't understand what this poem is saying, but the whole poem feels a little sad, the poet seems to be in a distant dream, when he wakes up, there is no lover and no white horse around, he is alone, very lonely, some don't want you to like such a poem, you are so good, you should like to live a bright and happy life, so you must be happy.

Under the handwriting, there was no name, but Shen Yun already knew her name.

He stroked the line, and his heart was a little blocked.

He flipped through a few more pages and turned to another poem.

It is Zheng Chouyu's "Mistake".

She left a message below - I don't want to be your passerby, I want to be your returnee.

She also wrote this sentence very small and hidden, as if she was afraid that he would find out what was on her mind.

Because he was too far away from her.

……

You stand on the bridge and look at the scenery

The people watching the view are watching you from upstairs

The bright moon decorates your window

You decorate other people's dreams

……

- Today you took the first place in the exam, but I am still so biased, it is really too wasteful, I said to myself, when I will be admitted to the top ten in the class, I will write a love letter to you, on which I will write Shu Ting's poems, not "Farewell", I will write "To the Oak Tree", not to be a climbing Lingxiao flower, to become the kapok next to you, as the image of the tree and stand with you.

But in the end, he didn't see her letter.

The poem she wanted to say was read to him by his current girlfriend in the presence of the whole class.

If I love you—

It's not like a climbing flower

Show off yourself by your high branches

If I love you—

Never learn from the infatuated birds

Repeat monotonous songs for the shade of greenery

It's not just like a spring, it brings cool comfort all year round

It's not just like a dangerous peak, increasing your height and setting off your majesty

……

I must be a kapok near you

As the image of the tree stands with you

……

The person standing beside him was Fang Feifei, not her.

Somehow, his eyes suddenly turned red.

He turned to look through the love letters at the very bottom of the shelf, and he read them one by one, and finally he saw a pale green love letter with her handwriting on it.

——To Shen Yun

I graduated from junior high school, I still didn't get into the top ten in the class, it's a pity, but I was admitted to the same high school as you, which is also a success, and I think of seeing you again in the next three years, I am really happy, I decided to take the same class as you, and if you are single, I will take the risk of confessing to you.

Although I don't know if you will read this letter, but I will take it as a testimony of my determination, I hope you will not have a girlfriend by then, no one you like, and then I can stalk you, often played on TV and movies, scumbags want to catch up with the god of school, you have to stalk, although it is a bit shameful, but it should be useful to you, I am ready to stalk, what about you? Will you wait for me?

He didn't wait, and the answer she didn't get at the time, she knows it now.

Shen Yun thought to himself, what he liked was a proud and dazzling little girl, it was useless to stalk him, she used the wrong method.

But he couldn't say it, because he couldn't keep his composure.

Like the words she didn't speak.

When Fang Feifei read "To the Oak Tree", the little poem she read later was already resolute.

They missed out on the best years and the best relationships.

From then on, there was no possibility of starting over.

He had a lover who read "To the Oak Tree" to him, and she had people around her who were stalking her.

Fate is often so wonderful.

A well-designed plot will be rewritten by the unknown that you encounter unexpectedly, and those who desperately want it will always miss it lightly.

The rest, the sum of the zeros, is probably a fate.

Shen Yun closed the letter and put it in the excerpt.

Her begonia heart, his fate, should be settled in the song "To the Oak Tree".

If you have lost something, you will pay for it.

Shen Yun cleaned up the study and walked out quietly.

That night, he had a dream in which he saw a little girl named Yan Cha.

At that time, he was still in junior high school, and he was standing on the reading platform reading poetry, and she was sitting under the stage looking at him, her eyes were bright, as if the light of the stars was implied, like a shining star, and he noticed her at a glance.

"Those who love me in the world hold me by all means. Your love is not like that, your love is much greater than theirs, you set me free.

They never dared to leave me, lest I would forget them. But you, day by day, you haven't shown up yet.

If I don't call you in prayer, if I don't take you to heart, your love for me is still waiting for my love. ”

She only heard him say "your love is not like that, you set me free", but she did not hear him say "the days go by, and you haven't shown your face yet".

You are waiting for me, but you don't know that I have waited for you.

In the dream, he walked up to her with a certificate.

There was no Fang Feifei, no one else, just the two of them.

He stopped and read a "love letter" to her.

She smiled in response to his poem "To the Oak Tree," as she wrote in her letter.

Her voice is not as proud as Fang Feifei, but she has her own years of quietness.

"We share the cold waves, the thunderstorms, the thunderbolts; We share the mist, the stream, the haper. It's like being separated forever, but they're dependent on each other for life......"

Shen Yun woke up, it was pitch black outside, and he, who had always been calm and calm, suddenly felt a little uncomfortable.

It turns out that this is a pity.

There is no way to keep it, you can only let it go.

After the college entrance examination results came out, Fang Feifei decided to go abroad, before leaving, she was uneasy and didn't plan to break up with Shen Yun like in the plot, she wanted Shen Yun to wait for her, and when she returned with full honor, she would stand by his side again with the proudest attitude.

She thought Shen Yun would agree, because he was such an inclusive person.

But Shen Yun refused.

He chose to break up.

Fang Feifei was stunned, thinking of that phone call, and quarreling with him, thinking that he broke up with her because he was empathetic.

Shen Yun didn't explain, and he didn't want to explain.

In her heart, only others are sorry for her, and she is sorry for others.

She was always right, and he had no intention of arguing with her.

Fang Feifei didn't break up with him, her pride didn't allow her to be unilaterally given up by Shen Yun, she went abroad full of resentment, and stubbornly maintained her relationship with Shen Yun, wanting to go back to the past.

But everyone knew that she gave up Shen Yun for the sake of her future.

Her stalker is truly embarrassing.

People who know her have a very bad opinion of her.

Since you give up your lover for the future, you should give up completely, what kind of ability is it to break the thread? Standing up and standing up is simply self-inflicted.

Shen Yun didn't pay attention to her anymore, even if she returned from studying abroad and pretended to be gentle and wanted to start over with him, he didn't change his mind.

If he hadn't seen the extreme of liking someone, if he hadn't seen the warm tea in front of Jiang Can, he might have given her a chance, but he had already seen the best love, how could he accept her like this?

A person's life is too long.

It would be sad if you couldn't spend it with the person who voted for it.

He and Fang Feifei broke off and started a new life.

Fang Feifei resentfully looked for him several times, seeing that he had made up her mind, she married a rich businessman in a fit of anger and lived the life of a rich wife, but the good times did not last long, the rich businessman coveted her youth, and raised a lot of little lovers outside, over time, her life was not as happy as ordinary couples, but she did not divorce, her pride did not allow her to regret it, she chose a path to the dark, and no one cared about what happened later.

One night, Shen Yun had another dream in which Yan Cha died.

When Fang Feifei returned from studying abroad and chose to reconcile with Fang Feifei, she was in a plane crash and her bones were gone.

In the dream, Yan Cha did not fall in love with Jiang Can, she has always been by his side, whether it is him and Fang Feifei, or the years when Fang Feifei studied abroad, she has been silently waiting for him.

She scrambled comforting notes in his books, wrote him warm letters anonymously, and quietly brought him salt soda while he played basketball.

She had never forgotten him for a moment.

But he never noticed her.

He and Fang Feifei got married, they quarreled every day over trivial things, Fang Feifei's pride exhausted him, and their marriage fell apart after only one year.

When he moved out of the marriage room with Fang Feifei, he accidentally saw a pale green love letter.

Whether he opened the love letter in the dream, Shen Yun no longer knows.

He woke up, opened his eyes, and found himself standing on a high recitation platform, with a lot of small radish heads sitting in the audience, looking like junior high school students, and before he could come back to his senses, the shadow of "Gitanjali" appeared in his mind.

He seems to have returned to some point.

He did not recite, but ran towards the audience, and in a look of astonishment, ran to a little girl with a ponytail.

He pretended to be calm and stretched out his hand to her, introducing himself in the gentlest voice, he said: "Hello, my name is Shen Yun, Shen Congwen's Shen, Daoyun's poetry and beautiful Yun, it's a pleasure to meet you."