Under the shrine, the wife knelt three times and bowed nine times to pray sincerely......

One by one, Kim In-hyun saw it in his eyes.

He understands in his heart that he feels the taste of love, and it can't be dissolved. The heart is heavy and full of Qin Zijin.

But he doesn't say, he doesn't say the word "love".

Kim In-hyun and "love" seem to be at odds with each other, and they are inherently out of tune.

He didn't believe in love and didn't bother to talk about love.

Now he understood, he felt it, but ...... Don't want to say it.

Like a very deep and precious treasure, he doesn't want to say it, and he doesn't want to show it to others. Cover it and hide it, just know it yourself.

He is out of tune with "love", and he has never said "I love you" to Qin Zijin.

At the moment, I am paralyzed, and I don't want to talk about it.

The reason of adults, there are some things that dare not think deeply.

Even if Qin Zijin agrees to go home with him now, what can he guarantee? Is it guaranteed to last a lifetime?

He doesn't even have a male function, isn't he a scourge to Qin Zijin?

Alas, thinking of this, he is going crazy again!

What he loves or not, he can't say it, and he is ashamed to say it.

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The psychology of a patient is not the same as that of a normal person.

The patient's understanding of love is very sensitive and fragile.

Gains and losses are not necessarily good things.

Kim In-hyun's love is accompanied by sadness, concern, evasion, and reluctance.

The cut is still messy!

At the same time, he felt more intensely the pain of illness, which caused his back to stiffen, bone headaches, traumatic pain, and numbness in the lower half of his body......

Every moment is torture.

He felt that life was painful, love was painful, and he couldn't calm down......

(It wasn't until many years later that he was in tears when he recalled this time.)

Even after the age of 40 or 50, as long as he remembers that Qin Zijin put the electric heater at his feet, hugged him, and massaged his back...... Kim In-hyun would shed tears. ）

The long road of life,

It's the arrangement of fate,

It's a bumpy growth process,

It takes time, it needs to be settled, and it needs to be understood......

……

got on the plane,

Qin Zijin poured water as soon as possible, asked Jin Renxian to take medicine, and settled him to lie down and rest for a while.

Injured by a wound, he changed his prescription, and now he needs to take 8 kinds of medicine, so Qin Zijin sat next to him and read the drug instructions.

Dosage, indications, and possible side effects of each.

Qin Zijin looks carefully, and if he doesn't understand, he will look it up on the Internet, and he is born with intelligence, delicacy, and serious and focused mental power.

She is so serious in everything she does!

The voyage is short, after one hour and fifty minutes,

Arrive in country H.

I got off the plane and got a phone call.

Mrs. Jin meant: [Send Qin Zijin to Sleeping Island first, do the practice, and then take him home three days later. 】

Kim In-hyun became angry when he heard this, and he had an argument with his mother.

After hanging up the phone, Qin Zijin persuaded: "Don't be like this, Mom is also for your good, why don't I go to Anmian Island?" Came back in three days. The divination said that my birthday was not good, and my parents were inevitably anxious. I'll go and do something, and my parents will be at ease, don't get angry! ”

"Am I angry! Which eye of yours saw me angry? I didn't scold you, don't find fault! ”

The VIP passage they walked took, and the whole shook his echo, what a fierce roar!

After yelling at the words, he seemed to react, and collapsed and smashed his hand on the armrest of the wheelchair.

He had an injury on his hand, and he had just taken painkillers an hour ago, and when he applied some medicine, he started to make a fuss......

Qin Zijin pushed the wheelchair behind him and comforted: "Okay, okay, let's go home." I'm homesick, go back! ”

Kim In-hyun lowered his head silently, and did not say a word along the way.

The right hand supported his forehead, as if hiding his face and blaming himself, as if he was infinitely troubled.

Qin Zijin could clearly see behind him that the gauze that had just been changed in his palm was oozing blood again.

His body trembled slightly, an uncontrollable tremble, I don't know if it was because of anger or pain.

He is forbearing, fighting against the irritability of his heart.

He doesn't want to get angry, he really doesn't want to get angry! But I can't control it, what's going on?

His mania is not mild.

A person who can even harm himself, then his temper towards others, you can imagine how difficult it is to control!

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Kim In-hyun is true to his word,

In the days that followed, his temper was hard to hold!

When he couldn't help it, he would say, "You go out for a while, myself!" I want to calm down! You get out! ”

Qin Zijin went out and closed the door.

I could hear his irritable voice inside, and there was nothing to smash, so he smashed the pillow, the quilt, and his own legs......

Qin Zijin listened to the voice and looked at his watch, about the time.

Half an hour later, he stopped making a fuss.

An hour later, Qin Zijin went in and sent some tea and fruit, and Jin Renxian's attitude would improve significantly.

So strange,

Qin Zijin has consulted a psychiatrist and looked up questions on the Internet.

The onset of bipolar disorder is usually triggered by anger, quarrels, depression, and discouragement.

However, Qin Zijin was obedient to him and had no verbal stimulation.

He always has inexplicable seizures, once a day in the morning and once in the afternoon, just like there is a sneaky and evil fire, inexplicably wonderful!

What's going on?

Every time he was manic, Qin Zijin would always think about this problem outside the door.

In the past, every time he rehabilitated, he would be in a bad mood.

But recently, he has had external injuries and has no rehabilitation training at all, and he will be inexplicably angry when he lies in the house.

This condition is like a timed and fixed seizure.

What's going on???

The things of the world are most afraid of people with hearts!

Many major cases in history, minutiae, and the slightest loophole were finally solved, all of which were discovered by people with observation and care.

Qin Zijin made a table to record the time and duration of Jin Renxian's onset each time.

In just 10 days, she sensed something was wrong.

However, just speculation......

Qin Zijin was not sure, frowning and contemplating, thinking in all kinds of ways, maybe he was too careful?

diversification of mental illness,

Kim In-hyun's stinky temper is itself irritable and uncertain. When he came back this time, he didn't get angry with Qin Zijin, and he held it all day, did he hold it back?

At regular intervals, you must vent twice a day???

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Returning home from the temple, that day.

The car was parked outside the gate,

After a short pause, Qin Zijin was going to visit his grandmother first.

Because my grandmother was also sick, she was bedridden at home.

In the cold winter, the flowers and leaves in the small courtyard used to be lush in the past, but now they are withered and withered, and they are depressed.

The biting cold wind blew, Qin Zijin shivered, pushed the wheelchair, and walked briskly towards the courtyard.

Grandma's bedroom is on the 1st floor,

The accompanying driver and assistant lifted up a few stairs, and the wheelchair was directly pushed in.