But Shen Zhiyun laughed softly, "I asked Mama Gui and Lan Yu not to tell my mother about this, for fear that she would worry too much." There are guards in Zhen Jingju, and you can't get in, so you took great pains to ask Shen Pingshan to pretend to be relieved, so that my mother knew about it and died of illness. It's not me who killed my mother, it's you, Jiang Xiushu, do you want me to feel guilty for the rest of my life and regret it for the rest of my life? ”

"Then you're miscalculated."

Shen Zhiyun stood up and brushed his sleeves, walked around Aunt Jiang and walked out.

Walking to the door, she stopped, opened her lips and said, "I won't regret your life for the rest of my life, but you have to be careful with your mind and don't regret it for life." After all, although Shen Zhize is gone, Shen Huiyi is not married, she has been staying in your yard to accompany you these days, but she is a good girl. ”

Aunt Jiang raised her head suddenly, "What are you going to do to Hui Yi?" Everything you get now is your retribution for what you have done to my son Zhize! You black-hearted, black-lunged thing! If you dare to ......"

Aunt Jiang crawled to the door as she spoke, trying to grab Shen Zhiyun, who was about to go out, like a vicious dog, with teeth and claws.

But her shouts were shut out, and it is estimated that she will never see the sun again in this life.

Jiang said that she had done too much to Shen Zhize, and now it was her retribution.

But she is not hurting innocent people at will, Jiang is Jiang, and Shen Zhize is Shen Zhize.

She worked hard to disguise, worked as a gentleman for a few years, pretended to achieve nothing, and looked like a swinger.

In fact, at first, it was just Mama Gui who said to her, "Childe is still young, don't be too outstanding, now Zhen Jingju can't protect Childe, and the old slave is afraid that the people in the second room will be jealous of Childe and secretly harm you." ”

She pretended to be a gentleman to protect herself, and when she was full of wings one day, she would no longer have to live cautiously.

It's just that Shen Zhize, although he has been able to read since he was a child, his heart is extremely bad, at a young age, he has abused and killed cats and dogs several times, and the slaves who know about it have been suppressed by Aunt Jiang.

She just gave a simple guide, but she didn't expect Shen Zhize to be a good way in terms of fun, and he was easily addicted to alcohol.

In addition, Shen Zhiyun pretended to be stupid and killed Shen Zhize, which made him feel that he was talented, so he indulged in his homework.

In less than a year, the person was wasted, like a piece of mud, and could not be supported.

"Childe." Lan Yu followed Shen Zhiyun worriedly.

Shen Zhiyun raised his hand to signal that he was fine, "Then don't let Shen Huiyi come to see the Jiang family again." ”

Lan Yu responded, "Yes." ”

"You don't have to follow me, there are still some important things in the court that I need to deal with." Shen Zhiyun said.

"Yes." Lan Yu wanted to say something, but still didn't say anything.

Shen Zhiyun returned to the study and sat on a chair, in front of him was still the book "Xuetian Miscellaneous Cases" when he left.

Irritable in her heart, she hated herself for not protecting her mother, so she should give a death order to the guards of Zhen Jingju, and no one should enter or leave Zhen Jingju if they came out.

In this way, Jiang will not let the Jiang family pry Shen Pingshan and let her mother die of illness because of her imprisonment.

Shen Zhiyun's elbows were propped up on the table, his hands covered his eyes, and he sobbed quietly.

Of course, she knew that Jiang deliberately provoked her, and intellectually her mother was angry, but Jiang used her to go to prison, how could it be regarded as her own mother.

But people are not grass and trees, flesh and blood, so how can she not be ashamed?

If she didn't act radically in the court, but acted in moderation and divided her duties, why did she have to plot with those Chao Party Zhou, why did she let herself be imprisoned, so that the Jiang family could take advantage of it, she was right, in the final analysis, her mother was angry with her.

Tears wet the palms of his hands, Shen Zhiyun sobbed, his shoulders twitched, and his heart felt like someone had wrenched a piece of meat, and it was dull and painful.

From now on, she never had a mother again......

In the next few days, in addition to being busy with the funeral, he also had to sort out the relics of the Shen Hai clan.

In fact, there are not many relics of Shen Hai's family, and the dowries brought by Shen Pingshan back then were all scavenged by Shen Pingshan, if her mother had the heart to keep some for herself.

It is not necessary to be robbed of the charcoal fire by the Jiang family in the winter after giving birth, and it is so cold that it is difficult for Zhen to live quietly.

She won't kill Jiang, she wants Jiang to watch, see how she is better, see how she is embarrassed, panic all day long, scared all day long, locked in the room, until time consumes her memory, making her blur the past and the present, the year and the month, the consciousness is cloudy, muddy, living as a waste, a madman.

At the time of Shen Hai's funeral, the Hai family still did not come to the capital.

Shen Zhiyun didn't let Shen Pingshan go to the funeral, Shen Pingshan couldn't wait for this, and he didn't forget to make a name for himself, claiming that he missed his deceased wife too much, and he fell ill, and he couldn't get out of bed, let alone go out of the funeral.

Shen Zhiyun sneered when he knew this.

Bai Bian scolded Shen Pingshan on the side.

Shen Zhiyun didn't bother to pay attention to Shen Pingshan, she was really exhausted, physically and mentally exhausted, and she had no intention or strength to deal with Shen Pingshan anymore.

The funeral is in the morning, and when the funeral is completed, it is not yet noon.

When everyone returned to the Shen Mansion, Lan Yu and Mama Gui continued to be busy together.

Bai Bian has also been busy these days, and when he went back, he didn't need him, so he went back to the house and fell asleep.

After getting up at noon, Bai Bian went out and went to Shen Zhiyun's study first, but found that he was not there, and then went to the bedroom, but he was not there.

Bai Bian touched the back of his head and squinted, he had just woken up, his consciousness was still blurred, and his whole spirit was still unclear.

He touched his hungry stomach, went to the kitchen of the small stove to find some food, and filled in his stomach first.

came out and walked around the yard twice, but I didn't find Shen Zhiyun.

Go to find Lanyu, "Have you seen where Childe went?" ”

Lan Yuzheng counted the writing rites of each family, was very busy, and said without raising his head, "I don't know, you can look for it yourself." ”

"I've been looking for it twice." Bai Bian propped up the table and stood.

Lan Yu raised her head at this time, "Are Yannan people following?" ”

Bai Bian patted his head, "Just woke up, look at my brain, I'll go find Yannan." ”

Lan Yu glanced at Bai Bian speechlessly, and lowered her head to get busy, "Hurry up, keep up with you, I have miscalculated the account, and I have to recalculate." ”

Bai Bian leaned forward, "What account?" Are you going to sit here and start as soon as you come back? It's so troublesome......"

The more Bai Bian spoke, the quieter his voice became, because he saw Lan Yu picking up the ink table with his left hand.

"Let's go, Sister Lanyu, you take your time."

Bai Bian took advantage of Lan Yu's anger and hurriedly turned around and slipped away.

Lan Yu lowered her head and continued to calculate, frowning and scolding him, "It's annoying." ”

Bai Bian went to find Yan Nan again, "Yan Nan, where is the son?" ”

"Out of the house." Yan Nan was reading an idle book with a pattern.

"Why don't you follow?" Bai Bian asked with a frown.

Yan Nan glanced at him, as if he was looking at a fool, "Childe said that there is no need to follow." ”

Bai Bian sat down angrily, "Didn't Childe say he wouldn't follow you?" Madame just left, Childe was in a bad mood, and you let him go out alone. ”

Yan Nan turned another page of the book, read it with relish, and dealt with Bai Bian casually, "Childe said that you don't need you, why don't you go back to the house and sleep?" ”

Bai Bian was dumbfounded, "I...... I'm ......."

"Go aside." Yan Nan said.

"Huh? What? Bai Bian didn't hear clearly.

"You're so annoying, go play." Yan Nan said indifferently.

Bai Bian covered his chest sadly, "You two by one...... It hurts my heart so much. ”

Yan Nan glanced at Bai Bian again, his eyes were speechless and disgusted.

"Okay, I'll go!" Bai Bian stood up with his head held high and strode out.

Those who know the times are Junjie.

But he didn't go out of the house to find Shen Zhiyun again, he knew that Gongzi needed to be quiet alone at this time.

In the evening, the sun gradually buried itself in the mountains.

The hoarfrost mountain is different in color, and the glow is pink, reflecting on the leaves, leaving a bright gold edge.

Shen Zhiyun sat on the stone, looking at the distant mountains and stratus clouds, the glow and the scenery, but there was no expression on his face.

A rock rolled over and rolled to her feet.

She didn't even have to turn her head to guess who was behind her, and no one was so idle except him.

"Spent an afternoon sitting here?" Gu Hanshu walked over and sat down.

"You and I just almost killed each other in the edict, so it's better to keep some distance." Shen Zhiyun indifferently refused to answer.

"On the mountain here, you still have to mention the affairs of the court, don't be too disappointed, fellow student." Gu Hanshu propped his hands behind him, and his body leaned back slightly.

"How can you not think about the affairs of the court? I've been thinking a lot lately, what are we people fighting for power for? I think I am not sincere in my heart, and I am not an official for the people, but I don't have much turmoil in my heart about power, I was originally for my mother to enter the office, but now I ......" Shen Zhiyun didn't say any more.

Gu Hanshu turned her head to look at her, she lowered her head, her eyes were swollen, the tails of her eyes were wet and red, the glow shone on her, and her side face seemed to be coated with a layer of hazy golden light.

"Aren't you sincere in your heart......" Gu Hanshu looked up at the sky, "If you are not sincere in your heart, then the matter of Chengzhou Academy compiling evil books a few years ago, is it also Yang Shilin who made you disobey the holy will?" ”

Shen Zhiyun turned his head to look at him, his lips moved but he didn't speak.

"Since it was for your mother before, then for yourself in the future." Gu Hanshu said in a relaxed tone, but it was like a small pebble, smashing into the calm lake, rippling layer by layer.

Shen Zhiyun looked into the distance again, "Myself? I don't know what I want for myself. ”

"Then take one step at a time, and one day something you want will appear, an object, a life, or a person." Gu Hanshu closed his eyes and said, the wind on the top of the mountain was blowing on his face, and it was very comfortable to be gentle and soft.

"What about you?" Shen Zhiyun asked.

"What am I?" Gu Hanshu talked.

"What do you want?" Shen Zhiyun turned his head to look at Gu Hanshu again.

Gu Hanshu did not speak.

Shen Zhiyun continued, "An object, a life, or a person? ”

Gu Hanshu smiled, he looked at Shen Zhiyun and asked rhetorically, "What do you think I want?" ”

Shen Zhiyun saw his dark eyes, but they were not as closed as the abyss's black eyes in the court, and now their eyes were clear and unmixed.

Shen Zhiyun didn't look at him, glanced at it and turned his head to look ahead.

Gu Hanshu thought that Shen Zhiyun was about to say, how do I know what you want?

"Anyway, before...... You really want to take the imperial examination. Shen Zhiyun also put his hands behind him, the sun in the distance was setting fast, and in a few words, the sky was a lot darker.

Gu Hanshu was stunned, "Is it ......?"

Then the two of them wordlessly looked at the pink red sun in the distance, waiting for the sunset in silence.

After a short time, the night completely fell and there was not a single sun in sight.

A cold wind began to blow on the mountain, and it was completely different from the cool and gentle breeze just now.

The two of them could stay in such harmony for so long.

Gu Hanshu stood up and patted his clothes, "Aren't you leaving?" There are big insects at night in the mountains. ”

Shen Zhiyun was still sitting still, "I can't say if I go down the mountain now." ”

Gu Hanshu went to pull Shen Zhiyun up, "Let's go, you go back to the ancestral hall and it's sad to pass, it's cold and there is no fire on the mountain, it's very dangerous." ”

Shen Zhiyun pulled himself up by him, "Yes, there is a fire fold." ”

As he spoke, he took out a fire fold from his waist and opened it, and as soon as he blew on it, a cluster of flames burst up.

Gu Hanshu took the fire fold in her hand, closed the lid again, and pinned it to her waist.

"Not anymore."

The corners of Shen Zhiyun's eyes twitched, and he made a mistake.

"That day, ...... Imperial Prison," Gu Hanshu spoke, "What do you mean when you say I'm dead?" ”

The two talked as they walked.

"I mean I dreamed you were dead." Shen Zhiyun explained.

"Are you crying? Is there sadness? Gu Hanshu asked.

"Yes." Shen Zhiyun was very honest, "I was sad to death in my dream." ”

This is the second time that Gu Hanshu has guessed wrong today, and he thought that Shen Zhiyun would deny it.

"I thought you'd say no." Gu Hanshu also said honestly.

"Why not? We're classmates. ”

"It's been a long time." Gu Hanshu sighed.

Gu Hanshu asked again, "Then how did I die in your dream?" ”

Shen Zhiyun recalled that when she first woke up, the dream was still very profound, so that she couldn't relax for a long time.

But after all these days, the picture and feeling have faded.

"Hmm...... It was soaked in water, and it was swollen and ugly. ”

Gu Hanshu opened his mouth again, but was slapped on the arm by Shen Zhiyun.

"Don't ask, it's scary to recall that dream at night." Shen Zhiyun was a little cold, hugged his arms and said.

Gu Hanshu walked closer to her, and said with a smile, "No, I just want to ask, do you have swollen eyes now?" ”

There was no doubt that he was slapped twice.

Shen Zhiyun pressed his eyelids with his hand, a very strange feeling, his fingers were cold, but his eyelids were hot.

"Gu Hanshu, you touch my eyelids, it's hot." Shen Zhiyun stopped, took one of Gu Hanshu's hands and put it on his eyelids.

Gu Hanshu's fingers were also cold, he felt the hot and soft touch on his fingers, and his heart moved, and he was a little stunned.

Shen Zhiyun couldn't see Gu Hanshu's reaction with his eyes closed, and he didn't hear a response for a long time, so he put his hand down and asked again, "Is it hot?" ”

Gu Hanshu nodded back to his senses, "Yes." ”

The moment his fingers were lowered, he could even feel Shen Zhiyun's eyes rolling.

"It's weird, I'm cold now, is it because I've been crying a lot lately?" Shen Zhiyun continued to put his hand against his eyelids, and the cold touch made his eyes feel very comfortable.

"Look at the road, it's not good to walk on the mountain road at night, and the road will turn around and fall." Gu Hanshu said as he took out the fire fold and lit it again, and walked down, the leaves blocked the moonlight, and it was easy to see the road clearly.