131 Anxiety and Emotional Treatment
Xiao Pa Ji held up a pair of small tentacles and shouted angrily to the sky.
As soon as it turned its head, it saw the clown puppet holding the [Happy] sign, still holding a comical and mocking exaggerated smile, as if it was laughing at it.
Xiao Pa Ji jumped up, scolded and scolded in his mouth, snatched the [Happy] wooden card from the clown puppet with his small tentacles, and held the wooden cards to pat the clown puppet's face again and again.
Xuan Yuan paid attention to Xiao Bang, who was losing his temper at the clown puppet.
He lay quietly on the ground for a long time before he slowly got up.
Clenched his fists, waves of anger, anger, and chagrin continued to rise from his heart.
It's almost uncontrollable, and I want to grab the bastard who designed this thing and beat him up.
At this moment, Xuanyuan finally understood.
Why do adventurers who try to conquer the dungeons of the Sky Tower say that they are almost mad when they line up?
It's just the first layer.
Xuan Yuan had already deeply felt the strong malice of the designer of the mechanism.
Deliberately make people let their guard down, setting up one series of traps after another in the last place where they are about to clear the level, and make people experience unacceptable and tragic losses and failures in the most unexpected ways.
Forcibly suppressing anger.
Xuan Yuan tried to calm down and get up, and even his breathing became a little heavier.
Seeing that Xuan Yuan had just finished 'cooking' the puppet's little snap, it also hurriedly jumped over.
Ran to Xuan Yuan's shoulder, waving his small tentacles and feeling indignant, although he couldn't understand what he was scolding, he looked quite angry.
Even if it's a little snap, after jumping so many times, the spirit is a little unbearable.
Xuan Yuan forcibly stabilized his mood and began to continue jumping up with Xiao Bang.
Maybe it's because the blow just now is too big, or maybe it's because I'm too angry.
Before Xuanyuan climbed to 90 meters, he began to make repeated mistakes.
There was one jump at about 60 meters and another fall at 70 meters.
Sitting on the ground, facing the durability of the white equipment that had plummeted to [54.6%], Xuan Yuan was both angry and sad.
He suddenly realized.
It's only his first day of attacking the Sky Tower dungeon.
The leather armor worth 12 jinnar has been consumed by him, and half of its durability has been consumed.
Take stock of the balance in your purse.
In addition to the 30 gold saved for tuition, Xuanyuan only had 16 gold, 85 silver and 40 bronze left in total.
It seems that you can still afford a white quality defensive suit.
Actually, after today's Sky Tower Raiders.
Xuan Yuan had already deeply understood why the most popular item in the archer training hall was the one called [Level 1 Strong].
If the normal body strength cannot match the default body strength inside the Sky Tower.
Well, he will have a long acclimatization time every time he enters the Sky Tower dungeon.
In addition, as the number of strategy layers in the Sky Tower dungeon increases, the difficulty of the various traps will also increase.
In this case, it is an impossible task to try to reach the ninth layer of the Sky Tower Dungeon in one go without completing the [Level 1 Strength] enhancement first.
If the strength of the body changes from day to day, it can cause the brain to misperceive the physical abilities, and even have a negative impact on combat effectiveness in everyday situations.
If you remove the 10 gold that will be spent on the [Level 1 Strong Form] training item, Xuanyuan only has about 6 gold left in the money he can really use, and he can't afford to buy a white defensive suit.
Xuanyuan calculated it before.
His monthly food expenses cost 4 gold and 20 silver, and after removing the living expenses, if there are some calculation errors or some other expenses, the money is no longer enough.
Worst of all, the entrance test to Kajias University will be held as scheduled a month later.
In the meantime.
If you remove today and the seven days of participating in the enhancement project, Xuanyuan only has 22 days left at most to attack the 9-story Sky Tower dungeon.
You can already know it according to the first layer.
The difficulty of the later layers will gradually become more and more perverted, and the 22-day strategy time alone is quite insufficient.
It is simply impossible to have time to go elsewhere to make money.
However, in this extremely bad situation, there is only one white quality equipment left on the body, and half of the durability has been consumed in the simplest first layer.
There is a lack of money and a lack of time.
At this time, Xuanyuan finally realized how perverted the difficulty of admission to Kajias University was.
The eligibility requirement to be able to participate in the test is perverted enough, and this requirement was originally intended for candidates who had awakened their talents in the previous year.
Xuanyuan naturally has a whole year less development time than others.
With an anxious mood, Xuanyuan kept thinking about these complex issues and future plans, and the more he thought about it, the more troublesome he felt, and the more he felt that he couldn't stop being irritable.
He unconsciously put his index finger in front of his mouth, bit it with his teeth, and kept thinking about countermeasures in his head.
What am I going to do?
Is it true that you can't pass the test this time?
How should I deal with President Harald when the time comes, after all, President Harald has also written me a letter of recommendation.
Do you really have to rely on a letter of recommendation to get in?
Xuan Yuan hates to do this, he hopes that he can enter the school fairly and pass the exam in a dignified manner, instead of relying on the back door and connections.
If he does not pass the entrance exam.
I'm afraid that if the letter of recommendation is delivered, Xuan Yuan estimates that at most he will allow himself to practice the power of the heart with the principal in secret, and it will definitely be impossible to admit him exceptionally, otherwise his identity will be completely exposed, and it will also bring trouble to others and himself.
At this time, Xuan Yuan thought again, it seems that he has made an appointment with Xinia to meet each other in the park this afternoon?
Thinking of this, he couldn't help but feel a little anxious.
Now the appointed time is getting closer and closer.
If you continue to grind in the dungeon of the Sky Tower, and there is no signal in the dungeon, I am afraid that you will directly release the Xinia pigeon.
However, he didn't even clear the first floor, so he just gave up halfway.
When you come back tomorrow, all the mechanics and even the level types on the first floor will be reset, and you will have to pay a huge price to rediscover your way, and the losses will be quite heavy.
Especially if you can't afford to buy equipment, and the only equipment you have has lost half of its durability.
Come to think of it.
A feeling of shame rose in Xuan Yuan's heart.
I don't know, how will he face Xinia later?
The other party obviously chose to teach at the university on this floating island because of himself.
As a result, it was such a result that I couldn't get into college, and I felt quite sorry for Sinia's heart.
The more Xuan Yuan thought about it, the more qi and blood kept surging to his face, making Xuan Yuan's face gradually appear painful.
Due to the thoughts of anticipation and worry, Xuanyuan had painful and anxious negative emotions in his heart, and a large number of negative emotions continued to erode Xuanyuan's remaining sanity.
Ever since Genyuan came to another world.
Xuanyuan, who can accept it calmly even in the face of life and death, has an unconscious reluctance to face it for the first time in the face of all kinds of complicated and irritating things, and even has a sense of fear of failure.
At this moment, Xuan Yuan even had a hallucination in his heart.
It was as if I had seen the disappointed look in President Harald's eyes, the great shame of being turned away from Kajias University, and the sad and regretful expression on Sinia's face.
In a trance, it was as if there were auditory hallucinations, as if someone was laughing at themselves wantonly with some kind of vitriolic laughter in their ears.
All kinds of chaotic thoughts, huge negative emotions that drown his heart like the sea, make Xuan Yuan seem to be the center of a storm at this time, trapped in an emotional storm composed of panic, despair, sadness, and irritability.
Seeing Xuanyuan's face, it gradually became more and more distorted and painful.
"Smack!" There was a crunch sound.
Xiao Pa, who had once again started to fight with the [Happy] wooden card in the clown puppet's hand, looked back in surprise.
It turned out that Xuan Yuan stretched out his hands and slapped both sides of his face.
He began to breathe deeply, focusing his attention entirely on his breathing.
As the attention is focused on the breath, the attention in the mind gradually focuses on the here and now, instead of watching the 'memory images' from the past that are constantly broadcast in the mind, and no longer playing the various 'bad scenes' about the future that keep appearing in the mind.
He is quietly aware of the present moment, and he is deeply aware.
At this time, I did not live in those 'scenes of memory', nor did I live in those 'pictures of the future'.
At this moment, he simply exists here, in this Sky Tower dungeon.
He's still breathing, he's still sitting here.
All his thoughts, his emotions, his expectations and fears were all illusory scenes that he had imagined in his mind.
In fact.
In reality at the moment, nothing is happening.
Attention was gradually withdrawn to the present moment, and Xuanyuan's manic heart gradually became calm.
Facing huge negative emotions.
Xuan Yuan didn't yell and scream, nor did he go around destroying to vent his anger.
He just sat calmly on the ground, silently cross-legged and began to meditate, connecting with his inner wisdom.
Maintain awareness of thoughts and emotions in your consciousness.
Silently aware of the waves of fleeting thoughts in your mind, and feeling the emotional impact triggered in your body again and again.
I don't try to control these thoughts, nor do I suppress these emotions that naturally come out.
Allow them to pop up and erupt one after the other.
Xuanyuan was only aware of them, feeling their impact on consciousness wave after wave, but he did not identify with them in any way.
At this moment, Xuanyuan is one with pure awareness.
It is no longer a flat boat that is involuntary in the turbulent current of thinking, nor is it no longer an undercurrent of fish and shrimp wrapped in the ocean of negative emotions.
It is as if it has become a rock of consciousness and condensation, clearly facing the violent impact of the mind, mind and body emotions, and standing still in place.
Neither resist nor greet.
Like an unremarkable reef on the beach.
Look at the sunrise and see the sunset; Listen to the ebb and flow of the tide and watch the clouds roll up.
The emotions and thoughts in his consciousness are like the violent thunder and dark clouds in the sky, but his heart is the blue sky that silently carries everything.
When the thunder dies down, when the dark clouds disappear, when all the noise has disappeared.
Only the blue sky is still the unstained blue sky.
(End of chapter)