Ji Yan looked at her quietly for a long time, hooked her lower lip, and responded in a low voice: "At first, it was hate, but then I slowly discovered that the reason why something like that happened actually had nothing to do with you." ”

He couldn't forgive himself, and he couldn't act as if nothing had happened.

As he spoke, he lowered the car window, took out a cigarette case from his pocket, took out one, lit it and took a puff, then raised his eyes to look at Xu Chenyin again, and said lightly: "Xu Chenyin, that incident is like a scar in my heart, it took me ten years, and finally there are traces of healing, don't tear it again, okay?" ”

"However, I am also in pain, and my heart has been hurting day and night in the ten years that I have been separated from you."

Xu Chenyin lowered her head and laughed lightly, tears slipped from the corners of her eyes, and flowed down her fair and delicate face: "I have always felt that if there is something that the two of us face together, it will be much better than you being alone now." ”

Facing together?

Her words made Ji Yan's expression stiffen, and even when the cigarette ash fell and burned on his hand, he didn't react.

And Xu Chenyin watched him quietly.

After a while, Ji Yan pursed his lips and said in a low voice: "Xu Chenyin, I told you about that matter, it will only make you suffer, and there will be no two people who will face it better together." ”

Whether it was in the past or now, if Xu Chenyin didn't know about that incident, he would never change anything.

Because he clearly understands that once Xu Chenyin knows about that incident, he will only blame himself more and suffer more than him.

What's more, he shouldn't be able to forget that incident for the rest of his life, and he can't convince himself to be back together with Xu Chenyin as if nothing happened.

Hearing this, Xu Chenyin eased his mind before continuing: "Ji Yan, that's just what you think, no matter what, I can bear it, and I ...... it."

"Get out of the car."

Ji Yan twisted his eyebrows and interrupted her.

Listening to his indifferent tone, Xu Chenyin's eyes became redder and redder, and she said in a somewhat hoarse tone: "Why don't you just refuse to believe me?" ”

"Because you broke your promise to me."

Ji Yan responded without hesitation, staring at her with a pair of dark eyes: "Is this reason okay?" ”

Xu Chenyin opened his mouth, his heart fell, and he was speechless.

When the smoke was in the car, and when she saw the hazy tears in her eyes, Ji Yan had a heavy tiredness between her eyebrows, and asked slowly: "Xu Chenyin, do you think there is still a possibility between us?" ”

"Yes."

Xu Chenyin nodded persistently: "There will definitely be." ”

When she said this, her face was flushed with drunkenness, and she had a delicate and serious look at the moment.

Ji Yan couldn't help but chuckle when he saw it, but his tone was still indifferent: "There will be in my dreams." ”

Xu Chenyin's head was heavy now, he blinked, and he didn't react for a while: "What do you mean?" ”

"Literally." Ji Yan said and unbuckled her seat belt, urging: "I'll send you back, don't delay my time." ”

“……”

The seat belt was unfastened, Xu Chenyin pushed the door and got out of the car like a gamble, she imagined that she could leave without looking back.

But the reality was to embarrass her, as soon as she got out of the car, her knees softened uncontrollably, and she squatted on the ground in an embarrassed position.

Listening to Ji Yan's footsteps from far and near, she couldn't help but feel a little secretly annoyed, knowing that she would stop tonight.

"Can you still walk on your own?"

Ji Yan walked up to her and stood in front of her condescendingly, with a little smile in his eyes.

Xu Chenyin looked up at him, her eyes were blurry, and her mind fused and overlapped the former boy and the current man.

She suddenly felt a little aggrieved in her heart.

I can't help but think of the scene in the past, the summer in Beijing is always hot and bizarre, but all this hot weather can't move the physical education teacher half a point.

"Eight hundred meters, no one can drop me, start the timer now."

As the whistle blew, the whole class, even if they were reluctant, could only take a step.

And she happened to have some signs of heat stroke that day, but because their physical education teacher is indeed a fierce look, she has witnessed that some female classmates are scolded for taking leave because of their menstrual period, and they are scolded and crying, and her faint feeling of dizziness is even less likely to ask for leave.

So she didn't rush to be scolded, thinking that it should be fine, but with the scorching sun and the accumulation of laps, she gradually began to lose her physical strength, and was gradually surpassed by the girls behind her one by one.

Just when she wanted to say to the physical education teacher to quit, she heard the voice of the physical education teacher's scolding: "Xu Chenyin, a speed like you is a drag on everyone, if you can't finish the remaining lap and a half within two minutes, then the girls in the class will run again with you." ”

For a moment, there was a grumbling.

"What, why!"

"Hey, can you hurry up?"

"What do you want to pretend to be pitiful!"

All kinds of noisy complaints and sarcasm rushed to her ears, and in order not to offend anyone, she could only hold on to her spirit and speed up her pace.

But in the last half lap, when she was about to see the dawn of victory, her eyes suddenly went dark and she fell straight on the plastic track on the playground.

There was a burst of exclamations on the playground.

She remembered very clearly that it was the young man who ran past the crowd to him, and under the surprised gaze of everyone, he picked her up horizontally, and ran all the way to the infirmary.

And a voice followed closely behind the young man: "Brother Yan, just now the popsicle is about to melt, I'll help you eat it?" I really helped you eat it! ”

She wanted to laugh when she heard this, but when she opened her eyes slightly, when she touched the young man's anxious expression, she suddenly felt a little stunned, and forgot all her reactions for a while.

In the scorching sun, the boy carried her and ran forward desperately, and she could clearly hear the sound of the boy's violent heartbeat.

At that moment, she seemed to feel that time passed very slowly, so slow that it was a picture that she would never forget in her life.

It was the first time she felt genuinely cared for by someone other than her mother.

And this person is still the teenager she had been thinking about before.

"Xu Chenyin, where are you uncomfortable?"

Faced with the teenager's worried questions, she sat on the bed in the school doctor's room, but she couldn't answer a word for a long time, only her eyes were red.

Just like now, in the face of Ji Yan's concern, the tears in her eyes could no longer fall uncontrollably.

Seeing this, Ji Yan couldn't help frowning, squatted down, looked at her at eye level, and asked in a gentle voice, "Where are you uncomfortable?" ”

Xu Chenyin sniffed, looked at him with teary eyes, shook his head and nodded, and said in a muffled voice: "Ji Yan, can you hug me?" ”