045 Let's leave it at that
Fortunately, now everyone's attention in the family is on Fu Minxiu and Fu Minxun, the two newly married grooms, and no one has noticed the emotional changes in Shuangzhi in the past few days, which is a much-needed quiet for Shuangzhi.
She needs to slowly transition this relationship and memories by herself.
When she took advantage of the three days, she was alone in the house to precipitate her mood, she would not go out of her way to question Qin Zixuan, that was not what her character would do, but she had to let herself think clearly, think clearly, what to do next.
The experience of her previous life made her too unforgettable, and she also understood how hard it would be to pretend not to care about being betrayed, and even to love someone who didn't love her, and she wouldn't make the same mistake a second time.
On the fourth day, she pushed the door open, looked up at the blue sky, and let out a long sigh, finally knowing what she was supposed to do.
"Rong Lan, help me send this letter to Qin Zixuan." She took out a letter from her bosom and smiled lightly, as if she had not shut herself in the house for the past three days.
Rong Lan took the letterhead and looked at her girl worriedly, others may not know what Shuangzhi's mood is, but Rong Lan is clear, the girl has barely said a word in the past few days, as if she is isolated from the world, immersed in her own world.
"Girl, I can't believe what Qiao'er said, maybe ......" Rong Lan bit her lip, she didn't know how to continue, if that Qiao'er didn't hold her stomach, maybe it would be different.
Shuangzhi smiled lightly, "I know, go ahead, I'm fine." ”
Rong Lan took the letter and turned around and left, in fact, she really wanted to persuade the girl, which young master has no room in the house now, as long as Qin Gongzi treats the girl sincerely, even if Qiao'er is pregnant? In the end, she became the grandmother of the Qin family, and she was still a girl.
But she couldn't say it, she knew that the girl had been a little different from other girls since she was a child, and the girl probably wouldn't forgive Gongzi Qin, hey.
Just after Rong Lan went out to deliver the letter, Shuangzhi sat on the Taishi chair in the hall, wandering in space, remembering a lot of things about the past, and about half an hour later, Mu Qingying came.
Shuangzhi came back to his senses and looked at her with a smile, sure enough, the woman who got married was different, and her demeanor was a little more mature and charming, "Sister-in-law, don't you have to accompany your eldest brother today?" ”
Mu Qingying glanced at her with disgust, and her cheeks turned red. "He's going to be busy today."
Shuangzhi held Mu Qingying's arm, "So sister-in-law finally remembered my sister-in-law?" ”
Mu Qingying laughed, turned her head and glanced at Shuangzhi deeply, feeling that she seemed to be a little different from before, as if something had changed, but she couldn't say why, she just felt that Shuangzhi's eyes were precipitated with a distance that she couldn't understand.
"It's your eldest brother who told me, I must come to see you today, Shuangzhi, what's wrong with you these days?" Mu Qingying took Shuangzhi's hand and asked softly.
"What's wrong with me? Isn't it good? Shuangzhi smiled, she thought that no one had noticed her strangeness in the past three days.
"If you are good, why haven't you even looked for your eldest brother for the past three days? Your eldest brother asks you every day. Mu Qingying said.
"Am I not afraid of disturbing your honeymoon? Sister-in-law, don't think about it, I'm really fine. Shuangzhi suddenly had a sour nose, and when she thought that no one noticed her depression, it turned out that there was still a big brother who was silently concerned.
"What honeymoon?" Mu Qingying was stunned and asked.
Shuangzhi laughed dryly, "Sister-in-law, don't talk about me, let's talk about you, what's the matter, my eldest brother treats you well?" ”
When Mu Qingying heard this, her eyes were shy, "Little hooves, you know how to avoid topics." ”
Shuangzhi looked at her like this, and knew that the eldest brother should treat Mu Qingying well, and felt relieved, fortunately, Liu Miaoru did not leave any knots in her heart.
"Look at your smugness, listen to your eldest brother, Gongzi Qin is about to come to propose, and in a short time, you will also marry a wife, see how you make fun of me then." Mu Qingying saw the smile on Shuangzhi's face and knew that she must be laughing at herself, so she glared at her and teased her.
Shuangzhi's expression froze, the smile froze at the corner of her mouth, and she turned sideways, not wanting Mu Qingying to see her uncontrollable laughter, "I won't marry him." ”
Mu Qingying was stunned for a moment, and when she looked up, the sunlight passed through the window lattice, and was cut into bunches and fell on Shuangzhi's face, making her expression look unreal, "Shuangzhi, what did you say?" ”
Shuangzhi turned his head and smiled at Mu Qingying, "I said, I won't marry Qin Zixuan, I have asked Rong Lan to bring a letter to him, there is no need to come to propose marriage, I will not agree." ”
A smile as brilliant as a spring flower, eyes radiant in countless sunshines, the voice was unrelenting, but Mu Qingying felt ...... A heart-wrenching sadness emanated from those slightly curved bright eyes.
"Shuangzhi, what's going on?" Mu Qingying asked, she couldn't smile so brightly like Shuangzhi.
"Oh, it's not a big deal, it's just that I suddenly feel ......" Shuangzhi's voice stopped, his smile slowly faded, and his gaze stopped on the clear figure outside the door.
Mu Qingying stood up, "It turned out that Gongzi Qin was here." ”
Qin Zixuan's face was slightly pale, and his dark eyes were full of surprise and uncertainty, staring straight at Shuangzhi.
Mu Qingying looked at Shuangzhi, and then at Qin Zixuan, full of doubts, but still spoke, "It seems that Qin Gongzi has something to say to Shuangzhi, Shuangzhi, I'll go back first, and I'll come back to you later." ”
In the flower hall, only Qin Zixuan, who was still standing stiffly outside the door, and his eyelashes were lowered, and his lips were smiling.
Seeing him again, Shuangzhi suddenly knew what the pain in his heart was at the beginning, the faces of the past and present lives were intertwined in front of him, fused together, even though he knew that Qin Zixuan and the person in his memory were not the same, they were just similar in appearance, but ...... The same familiar pain still made her almost suffocate.
The surging sadness spread through her heart, and it was as if something had grabbed her throat, and she couldn't say a word.
He walked up to her and looked down at her, with hurt anger in his eyes, "Shuangzhi, what does this mean?" ”
His slender and white jade-like fingers were open, and it was the letter she asked Rong Lan to send him.
She lowered her head and tried her best to make herself smile, if she didn't work once, she would do it again, until she felt that she could smile calmly, she raised her head and looked at Qin Zixuan indifferently, "Qin Gongzi can't understand?" I thought the letter was clear enough. ”
"Why?" Qin Zixuan's eyes were red, and the letter in his hand had been crumpled by him.
Shuangzhi said softly, "There is no why. ”
"Double Solstice!" Qin Zixuan roared in pain, "Are you because of that Qiao'er?" Shuangzhi, I didn't have a heart, I went back from Qiandeng Lake that day, thinking that you were angry with me, so I drank too much wine, thinking that she was you, so I ...... Shuangzhi, I only have you in my heart, you know? On the way to Fujia, Rong Lan had already told him why Shuangzhi refused his proposal, and he really ignored that Qiao'er's scheming.
It's clearly two people, why are they so similar? Shuangzhi thought self-deprecatingly, when she arrived at this time, she could still compare Qin Zixuan with the one in her previous life.
"So you're going to drive Qiao'er out of the Qin Mansion?" Shuangzhi asked lightly.
Qin Zixuan was speechless for a while, and only after a long time did she say, "Shuangzhi, she has my flesh and blood...... At least she wants to give birth to the child. ”
She chuckled, "And then, you take her as a concubine again?" What about the future? Is there going to be more concubines around you? ”
Qin Zixuan looked at her in a daze, "You...... You don't want me to take a concubine, do you? ”
Shuangzhi shook her head, how could she put modern thoughts in ancient times, in the eyes of anyone in ancient times, three wives and four concubines were really common, if it wasn't for the memory of her past life, maybe she could also share her beloved with other women, but she couldn't do it after all.
"If you don't want to, I won't take a concubine in the future, okay?" Qin Zixuan said bitterly.
"Even if you don't take a concubine at first, what about later? Your mother will also ask you to take a concubine, Qin Zixuan, we ...... Forget it. "Double to whisper, resolutely authentic.
"Shuangzhi, how can you ...... How can you say it so easily, don't you have any feelings for me? Qin Zixuan's face was as pale as death, and she stared at Shuangzhi in disbelief, why could she say it so lightly?
"No, I...... I like you, so I can't stand that there are other women in your heart, Qin Zixuan, I don't want to bear the name of jealousy in the future, and I don't want to have a grudge against you in the future, do you understand? She knows better than anyone that the idea of monogamy does not work at all in ancient times, she does not dare to hope that her future husband is only her, but Qin Zixuan is different, he is the only man she has been tempted and in love in this life or even in her previous life, this sincere first love is extremely precious to her, so she would rather hide him deep in her heart than destroy this beauty with her own hands in the future.
Whether she is selfish or timid, she really doesn't have any confidence in the word promise, there are too many things that time can change, including love.
"If you don't want me to take a concubine, I won't take a concubine, Shuangzhi, what else do you want?" Qin Zixuan grabbed Shuangzhi's shoulders and screamed in a low voice.
"You can promise me a promise now, but what about later? I...... It is not a person who minds if his husband takes a concubine. As long as she doesn't love that person, no matter how many concubines he takes, she can treat him indifferently, but Qin Zixuan ...... This man who made her suffer the pain of two lives, she couldn't.
If she can't get him, she doesn't need to pursue the beautiful backside, and she doesn't have to care about the loss of love.
"You don't mind if your husband takes a concubine, but now you can't forgive me for having a girl?" Qin Zixuan asked hurtfully.
"Yes, I can't forgive, Zixuan, because you're different." Qin Zixuan, what I hope is that you can always freeze in the depths of my memory with warm and beautiful memories, instead of one day in the future, we will become unrecognizable.
She wants to be the person Qin Zixuan can't forget, she wants to be the best memory in his heart, what she couldn't do in her previous life, this time, she will do it.
"Double to ......" Qin Zixuan looked at her movingly, but he couldn't understand why she had him in her heart, but she refused to marry him.
"That's it, Zixuan."
That's it, each other has become the warmest and most beautiful memory in my heart, I don't have to worry about the changes of the years, I don't have to worry that one day the two will get bored, he will marry another woman, but she is an indelible memory in his heart, she will also marry another man, she will guard her heart, if she doesn't love, she won't mind how many concubines he takes, and he won't care if he has himself in his heart.
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This week, I decided to fight for the turtle's character to break out.,If there is a double change.,I'll remind everyone in the article~.