What is "good"?

Where is the "good" yardstick?

Chu is beautiful with bee waist, Tang is beautiful with plumpness, Han is beautiful with lip points, and Zhao is beautiful with Yan behavior...... This is about the body, which is the external "good", and the inner "good" is difficult to say. That is the "good" in the eyes of every individual, and it is so different that it is impossible to say.

It has been said that a good woman is a "school" for training men.

I disagree. A good woman is a good woman, and a good woman is not a "school".

In my memory, bad women can also raise good men; Conversely, good women also give birth to bad children...... This cannot be generalized. I won't give examples here, because such examples can hurt.

As I said, camels are the ones who "understand" women the most.

In this regard, camels have three magic weapons: one is the "fishing method". The method of camel fishing is different from others, his focus is not on the "fish", he just keeps baiting and feeding the nests, he wants the "fish" to take the bait by itself. The second is the "alternative law". It's called being different, or as it is now called, "showing off your personality." I remember one time, at a party before graduation, the camel suddenly came up to a girl unexpectedly and said, "Please, dance." The girl was ugly, sitting at a table at the very edge, peeling oranges and eating them. Perhaps, knowing that no one would invite her to dance, she kept peeling oranges and eating them, with a pile of orange peels in front of her and her hands covered with juice...... The girl clasped her hands together and looked embarrassed. She said, I can't jump. And he said, I will take you. She said, I really can't jump. But the camel still stretched out his hand again and signaled: Please. The two of them froze there. For about half an hour, the camel stood in front of her with that hand outstretched, persistently...... At last the whole room looked at him, but he was still standing in front of the girl. The girl was so forced that she was about to cry. The camel smiled stiffly and said, "Please, get up." The girl said with tears in her eyes...... Why? The camel said, "If you don't get up, where will my face go?" When he had pulled the girl up, just in time for the end of a piece of music, the two of them had jumped three steps, and the camel turned and left. In fact, what he wants is an effect: the attention of the audience. The third is the "Law of Suffering". Camels are the best at talking about personal experience and suffering...... That's not much to say.

According to the camel, Wei Lili was caught by him using the "fishing method". She is the only woman who can ignore the camel's disability and truly love him.

Wei Lili was born in a cadre family, with two older brothers, and there is only one baby daughter in the family. But since Wei Lili fell in love with camels, she went through several slanderous and slanderous tribulations, and after the camels were dismissed, she bravely resigned from public office and chased to Beijing without hesitation. Back then, we fell for Lao Wan and nested like rats in Beijing's underground fortifications...... Whenever she is cornered, the only reliance is Wei Lili. At that time, Wei Lili worked in a magazine in Beijing and secretly helped us. Even the camel said that the 300 yuan earned from selling "details" was given by Wei Lili...... I also found out later. The camel has been hiding from us. The four of us men, during the years in Beijing, had a period of poverty, and we barely survived by relying on Wei Lili's part-time job. Wei Lili has never said this to anyone in the past.

Later, the camel decided to develop in the south. Wei Lili quit her job again and came to Shenzhen with him. Wei Lili originally studied foreign languages and was a top student in the Department of Foreign Languages. After she came to Shenzhen, she studied accounting at the Television University by herself according to the needs of a camel company, and passed the accountant qualification examination again and again...... Finally, he got the certificate of senior accountant. In the company in Shenzhen, Wei Lili, as the chief financial officer, has been helping the camel inconspicuously. The camel's talent is excellent, which is what Wei Lili is most obsessed with him. But the camel is an impatient person, and often jumps like thunder, and initiates a frenzy to deny his relatives...... It just so happened that there was a Wei Lili behind him. Wei Lili has a good face, a good temperament, and a sweet voice. Her smile is like a good medicine, and the way she asks questions is like a spring breeze, she will say: Yes? Is that so...... Every time after the camel goes crazy, with Wei Lili's appeasement behind the scenes, things have room to turn around.

A woman with a good character has the upper hand in her dealings with men. I also knew that it was only in front of Wei Lili that the camel would bow his proud, always high head. The camel is a very contradictory person. He usually speaks loudly and impassionedly, but as long as he faces Wei Lili, he will appear very kind, and his voice will drop immediately. Sometimes, like his little daughter-in-law, he will be careful in front of Wei Lili...... Maybe it was the natural motherhood in Wei Lili that nourished him? Maybe it's the very pure thing in Wei Lili that is infecting him? Perhaps, in his heart, there is still some self-shame meaning...... Whenever the camel circled in front of different women, he could accurately say the words that moved the women. However, every time in front of Wei Lili, he always seemed a little hesitant and a little powerless. In front of Wei Lili, every time the camel said a lie, it was like a slap in the face, and he looked very shy. Later I learned that it was the disadvantage, or moral disadvantage, that made the camel an "actor" in family life. A very good, versatile "actor". can make a woman with high taste love him to such an extent, it can be said that the camel's performance is almost in the realm.

Remember, once, on the phone, the camel said: we are in a meeting......

Wei Lili said: Really?

The camel said, "Old Wu is also there." What do you say to him?

Wei Lili said: No need. You all have to pay attention to your body and don't stay up all night.

The camel said: Old Wu, Mr. Wu, I was still praising you just now.

Wei Lili said: Really? People are polite to you.

The camel said, "Say a word to him?"

Wei Lili said: No need. Greet him on my behalf.

…… After hanging up the phone, the camel turned his face and said, "What are you laughing at?" INTERVIEWER At that time, the two of us were lying on the massage table in a bathing center in the provincial capital, doing a full body massage.

It can be said that half of what the camel does is unknown to Wei Lili. If Wei Lili found something wrong, she would be relieved as soon as the camel explained. Of course, emotionally, camels are also very attentive to details. In the newly bought apartment of Camel, there is a large refrigerator with a layer for ice cream. This is specially prepared by the camel for Wei Lili. Wei Lili loves ice cream. Wei Lili often happily said to people: There are twelve kinds of ice cream in my refrigerator. You can say that Wei Lili is simple. But Wei Lili's love is real and pure.

For her beloved, Wei Lili has always paid attention to maintaining his image. Every time she goes out, every piece of clothing on the camel is taken care of by Wei Lili herself. In the past, camels were not very particular, but since coming to Shenzhen, the image of camels has changed greatly. His suits are serialized one by one, divided into spring, summer, autumn and winter. Of course, there is also the credit of Little Joe here. Little Joe is learning clothing. It is said that Wei Lili seems to have natural hostility and vigilance towards Xiao Qiao. When they met in the company, the two women, across the office, often looked at each other, and secretly competed in dressing...... In general, the two get along well and are still decent.

What makes me confused is that I don't know if Wei Lili knows about the camel's "that little thing"? This is very unjust for a woman. Supposedly, she should have heard of it, too. However, whether in public or private, Wei Lili has never challenged him.

Wei Lili also suffered. A woman, when she is deeply in love with a man, will sacrifice everything for him. But when it comes to children, she can't bear it. I remember late one night, Wei Lili suddenly called me, she cried on the phone and said: Teacher Wu, you persuade Guodong, this time, I must give birth to the child...... Listening to her words, I was stunned, not knowing what to say. Wei Lili cried and said: He always talks about career, career...... But we ...... I've had three abortions. I'm afraid I won't be able to give birth again...... At the time, I tried my best to reassure her. Immediately after that, I called the camel and I said, "Do you want to be a dog?" The camel said disapprerovingly, "Don't listen to her." What is the aftermath? I said, "I tell you, you have to keep my daughter-in-law healthy!" The camel was stunned and said, "Who...... I said, "Aren't you going to be my family?" Your daughter is born quickly. The camel said, "Hang the ashes, and you have only given birth to a daughter." Mine is a son! I said, "Wow." I like my daughter. If you have a daughter, you will recognize me. The camel said, "You want to be beautiful."

As a friend, or as a brother who has been through hardships together, I would obviously be unkind when I say that the life of a camel is a performative component. Perhaps, this is his way of deliberately compensating for his physical deficiencies...... Yes, he has been secretly embellishing and making up for congenital physiological defects. In this regard, he surpasses even normal people. I had secretly observed him. Whenever he walked down the street, no one could tell that he was disabled. He deliberately shows the integrity of his external form, and he even deliberately shows a kind of casual and free appearance. Even in the company, few people knew that he had a disability.

Objectively speaking, there is a lot of charm about the camel. Just as I was about to part ways with the camel, I still had a lot of respect for him. The camel's greatest strength is his eloquence. He has an extraordinary ability to persuade. His face is dyed with a very simple sorghum red, which is the kind of natural red that shines from the plateau sun, and the dark is translucent red, giving people a natural sense of trust and sincerity. When he burns, his brows are furrowed, and his eyes emit a terrifying light, which must burn you at the same time, and he will not stop if he does not set you on fire. Every now and then, he sits there, looking into your eyes, as if he wants to pluck his heart out for you. He could go on and on for two, or even three, or four hours...... Every word he said was rendered to a certain extent, extremely inflammatory, and well-founded, and you can't help but believe it.

Now, Wei Lili is pregnant again. Wei Lili is very determined to give birth to the child. A woman, once she makes up her mind, it is something that nine cows can't pull back. Three days ago, Wei Lili suddenly separated from the camel. One of the closest people to the camel quietly left him on the grounds of giving birth...... This adds to my concerns.

So, for various reasons, I decided to resign.

That evening, after returning to Shenzhen, I went up to the 49th floor of Shenzhen International Trade Center with my camel again and sat face-to-face on the elegant seat of the revolving restaurant. After drinking for a while, when I had a showdown with the camel, the camel didn't answer me at first, he said: It's better to be in Shenzhen. I love this place.

Yes, Shenzhen is an emerging city for immigrants. Walking on the street, no one knows anyone, no background, no origin, no speculation...... It is a place where people can relax their emotions and be free of mind. I also said: Yes.

The camel said, "Where is home?" Where there is money and women, there is home.

After that, we sat in silence with our eyes facing each other......

After a moment of silence, the camel said, "Brother, do you have to resign?"

The camel said, "If you really want to go back to the past and insist on being a bitter child, I will not stop you."

The camel said, "Now we can't go back." If we take a step back, we will be poor again. Not to mention, we will still owe a lot of debts, debts that will not be repaid in our lifetime...... How do you say?

And the camel said, I have shown thee all the bottoms. It must be listed, and there is no way to survive if it is not listed. We're just raising one or two people to speak for us...... I'll listen to you, in moderation. Are you scared?

I said, "Brother Luo, if you go far, you can't go back."

The camel said, "Don't worry, you'll be back." He will come back. As long as Magnolia Hall is listed, a game of chess will live...... When the time comes, you say, what are we going to do with the money? The camel was excited as he spoke. He said: Brother, if I have 100 million yuan in my hand, I will take out 500 million yuan to build a water cellar for our fathers and villagers in the western mountainous areas, and every family will build a water cellar. If I have 10 billion yuan in my hand, I will spare 500 million yuan and build a large reservoir so that the villagers in the west will not lack water to eat for generations. If I had 50 billion, I would blow up the Tanggula Pass...... When the camel said this, he burst into tears again.

I looked at the camels, and the passion of the camels struck me again. I almost surrendered again. I've always believed in camels. I believe every word he says. However, in recent years, his ambition has become too great, and he has gradually released something that scares me and cannot be explained. I think that if the money reaches a certain level, it can buy off a county or a province...... What should be the result? I don't dare to think about it.

At last the camel saw that I had made up his mind and said, "Tell me, brother, what do you want to do?"

I said: Brother Luo, I am different from you, there is someone behind me.

The camel was astonished and said, "What do you mean?"

I said, "It's not a matter of two sentences...... There are eyes behind me.

The camel was very alert and said, "What do you want to do by hanging ashes?"

There was one more important reason why I broke up with the camel: he had a "knife" hidden in his body. The "knife" I am talking about is not a knife in the ordinary sense. It was a "safe" he rented in the bank. This safe contains some of the secrets of the Twin Peaks Corporation's dealings. I think we're brothers in trouble. Even if it was me, the camel still retained a trace of wariness...... I said, "I don't do anything." Read some books and take a break.

The camel said, "That's good." The position is still reserved for you, and you can come back at any time. If the shares don't move first, it's still yours, and we'll talk about it after it's listed. In addition, I have hired you as a senior consultant of the company, for life. Brothers...... Take care.

After all, we are brothers who have been through hardships together, and the camel is still benevolent. Before I knew it, tears welled up in my eyes......

I said, "Okay." You take care too.

The camel said, "Don't be angry." Remember, it's on twenty-four hours a day, and I'll call you anytime.

Wei Lili is such a good woman.

I want to say that a woman like Wei Lili is very rare.

Only she and the camel knew that I was leaving Shenzhen.

On the morning of my departure, I heard a knock on the door. Very polite kind. When I opened the door, I saw a "waiter" standing at the door (the term "waiter" came from Hong Kong). The waiter was pushing a luggage cart with a large cardboard box with a cross silk flower on it...... The waiter was a young man, and he said in Cantonese: "Hello, sir, your surname is Wu?"

I said, "No." The surname is Wu.

Then he mumbled a string of words...... I don't understand. But I know that he asked me to sign for it. So, I signed the receipt he was taking.

The waiter bent down and carefully carried the cardboard box into the room for me and placed it on the table...... That's when he looked at me. That glance is meaningful. I was amazed and thought, what's wrong with this young man? But before I could figure it out, he had already stepped back and politely said goodbye.

When I stood alone in front of the cardboard box, I realized that it was flowers.

There is a note pasted on the cardboard box, and the handwriting on the strip is beautiful and neat, which is Wei Lili's: Abyssinian rose. It is produced in Ethiopia, the "roof of Africa". Suit: 25 kinds. Flowering period: 60 days. Quantity: 100 flowers.

I was stunned. "Boom" in my mind, this is the Abyssinian rose I'm looking for?! That's what I promised...... of Plum Village. As I said, Ribai went to Africa. It is really produced on the roof of Africa, in faraway Ethiopia...... I looked at the airmail markings on the carton and was amazed: it was first flown from Ethiopia in Africa to Amsterdam in Europe; Later, it was flown from Amsterdam in the Netherlands to the Hong Kong flower market in Asia...... The human heart is made of flesh! This affection is too heavy, I really don't know what to say.

I touched the carton with my hand, but it suddenly retracted again. The carton is still cold. Abyssinian roses are flown in refrigerators that travel across three continents at constant temperature and relative humidity. I looked at the note on the carton again, although the words were Wei Lili's handwriting, but the signature was: Luo Guodong.

Remember, when he said goodbye to the camel, he didn't mention the roses. Camel has been busy with many matters related to backdoor listing, and he can't take care of it...... Obviously, this was done by Wei Lili. Wei Lili is always a woman standing behind a man.

I carefully opened the carton and took out a rose from inside. The rose stem was cool, and there was a little bit of dew on the petals, a little bit of exotic earth. I stuck the rose in a glass jar, poured a little water, and looked at it carefully. I saw the petals slowly stretching in the air, a little bit charming. Gradually, the fragrance of flowers overflowed, and the intoxicating, faint dark fragrance was like alcohol. Heh, that's what I used to say...... Abyssinian roses. I even wanted to give this rose to Wei Lili as a token of appreciation. But I didn't.

Even at this time, Wei Lili, who is pregnant, still did not forget to help the camels...... It was she who ordered Abyssinian roses for me for the camels. This is the kindness of a good woman. I made a note of it.

I looked at the roses in the box, ninety-nine Abyssinian roses from Africa...... Mixed feelings for a while. yes, to be honest with you, I miss Plum Village. Umemura is a woman I will never forget for the rest of my life.

But, Umemura, where are you?

In my memory, Umemura is still the most beautiful.

Umemura has appeared in my dreams countless times. Standing in the golden sun, her figure was slender, and her skin was like a white jade tree full of red cherries...... For a while, my shadow was always floating in front of my eyes, and she said: Come, let me warm you.

That's it. It's such a sentence that I will never forget for the rest of my life.

I remember that night, we lay head to head...... She said, "Touch me." Touch me. It was nice that I leaned against Umemura and stroked her delicate, satin-like skin inch by inch. At that time, I was so confused that I just knew: OK. This "good" is transmitted from the hand to the heart. The skin of Plum Village, the smell of Plum Village, completely flooded me. Maybe it's because my hands are hot, and Plum Village's skin is cool and smooth to the touch, or it's like jade...... That's nice. In my heart, her two breasts were like light bulbs, and they burned me all at once. She was like a physical flame, a cool flame, a liquid flame with a surging light, and the light of the flame engulfed me. Later, I cried, and my face was full of tears. She took me in her arms, her head resting on her full, supple, smooth breasts that were creamy and scented with chilan. She said: Don't be sad. Let's ...... It's also good to lie down. At that time, what she conveyed to me was a kind of mother's will. My mother died when I was born, and it was like I was lying in my mother's arms for the first time. At that time, I really wanted to shout: Mom.

To be honest, this is the warmest embrace I've ever experienced. In my eyes, Plum Village is like a virgin. I love her, but I was forced by "phone calls" from my hometown and had to stay away from her.

Regrettably, there has been one phone call since the separation...... Since then, there has been no news of Plum Village. I've tried to contact her, but she's never heard from her. Of course, on those days, I drifted first in Beijing and then in Shanghai...... Running around for a living all day long, I can't take care of so much. I'll be honest with you, I'm not pure. During my years in Shanghai, I also fell in love with people and had a brief history of marriage. Do not say.

Now, I can finally make good on my promise. I carried this box of roses, ninety-nine Abyssinian roses, and set out on a journey to find Plum Village. I knew in my heart that no matter what the outcome, I had to find her. It's a man's commitment.

This time, I didn't fly, I was afraid that carrying back and forth would hurt my Abyssinian rose. Sitting on the train to the north, I looked at every woman with a good face, they were not Plum Village, they were too far away from the Plum Village in my heart. Every time I see a woman in a skirt, I see the two slender jade legs of Plum Village...... Occasionally, there are one or two, or the back, or the silhouette, or a certain habitual action, and anyone who is a little bit like Plum Village, I will watch for a long time.

Of course, I also had bad premonitions. After all, so many years have passed, and an empty promise is not enough to make a woman wait for so many years. Besides, I've heard some rumors vaguely...... However, I still hope that this may be the selfishness of men.

Do the math, how many years? When I returned to my former college, the row of poplar trees in front of the student dormitory had grown into a large tree. Yes, Umemura has long since left here. But my way to find Plum Village can only start from here.

The classrooms are still the same, and the dormitory in front of the playground is still the same, but the dormitory has long since changed. I met some younger-looking faces. Now, when I was standing on the playground of the academy again, looking at the row of student dormitories, I saw Plum Village walking towards me step by step...... It's an illusion.

I remember that the first news about Plum Village was told to me by Director Wei. In the evening of that day, I met Director Wei of the department on the playground of the college. Director Wei is out for a walk, and he has retired. Director Wei, who has retired, looks very old, and the whole person is leaked. Director Wei, who was once tall, majestic, and dignified, looked much shorter, like a thin old man who was dumb. He still habitually wears a soft peaked cap, wrinkles on his forehead, a pair of nearsighted glasses, and a small radio in his hand, listening to the news as he walks in small steps. I stood in front of Director Wei, a good old man worthy of respect. Back then, he repeatedly dissuaded me, saying that I was a scholar material. But I ......

I said, "Director Wei."

Director Wei didn't raise his head and said, "Oh oh." Did you listen to the news? There was water again in the south.

I said, "Director Wei, you don't know me, do you?"

Director Wei raised his head, looked at me in a daze, and said, "Which one?"

I took two steps forward and said...... It's me, Zhipeng. Wu Zhipeng.

Director Wei said, "Oh, Zhipeng? Ah...... Zhipeng, Zhipeng. How many years has it been...... I heard you're on an Audi? Looks like I shouldn't have stopped you back then. You're on the right track. Gone good wow. You look at these students now, one by one...... He shook his head, stretched out his hand, and said: This school doesn't look like a school anymore, and the condoms are hanging on the tree!

I said, "Director Wei, are you okay?"

Director Wei said: It hurts. Aches all over the body. Alas, the main thing is that the heart hurts......

I said, "What's wrong?"

Director Wei shook his head and said: It's not your sister-in-law, who is obsessed with ghosts and raised a "deer", which makes me angry.

I was surprised and said: Deer? The academy still allows deer to be raised?

Director Wei said angrily: What "deer"? Illegal fundraising. How many years have I been accumulating that little money...... Let her use it to buy "deer". Painting bread to satisfy hunger, there are really things in this world that paint bread to satisfy hunger! A company, also said to be a large company, pulls people everywhere to raise funds to buy shares, there are tigers, deer, and rabbits, saying that they are raised for us, and they don't have to care about anything, and dividends are distributed annually...... As a result, the people ran away and the company was also seized. By the end, two boxes of toilet paper were divided...... I was so angry that I was hospitalized for more than a month.

What is Trend? That's the trend. In the trend, it's hard to be alone. Director Wei's family has been diligent and thrifty all their lives. Director Wei's wife had to weigh the amount of a green onion when she bought it, but she took out all her savings to buy a "deer". People told her that deer antlers, deer blood, venison, and deer whips were all valuable medicinal materials; When the deer is raised, it can also give birth to fawns, and the fawns give birth to fawns...... In addition to the high interest, the principal will be recovered in three years and doubled in five years. So Director Wei's wife subscribed to the "No. 9 Sika Deer". The result is a "deer" written on paper, the number "deer". Moreover, listening to Director Wei's tone, he is not the only one, many teachers, and many cadres have also bought ...... Director Wei patted his knee and said: There is no return for all your money!

I didn't know how to comfort him. I didn't even dare to tell him what I had been like all these years......

Director Wei said: How good it was when you were there. Energetic ...... You're on the right track.

I said, "Yes." At that time, it was still uniformly distributed......

Director Wei said: Yes. Unified distribution. In that class, there was a female student who was so beautiful. It's a pity.

My heart was pounding. I said, "You're talking about Plum Village, right?"

Director Wei said: Yes. Plum Village. It's called Plum Village. Looks so good. In the past few years, I have never seen such a beautiful girl again.

I said: Meicun her, which unit has she been assigned to?

Director Wei said: You don't know? When she was about to graduate, she was punished.

I was stunned and said, "Why?"

Director Wei said: This matter is still handled by me...... If you want to put it aside for now, maybe it's nothing. At that time, the college was very demanding...... However, it is also a punishment that has been memorized, and the student status has not been kept.

I asked eagerly: because ......

Director Wei said: If a person is beautiful, there are some problems with his character...... When she was about to graduate, there were a lot of people chasing her. I also heard that at first, she was good friends with a cadre of the provincial party committee, and I also saw that guy, who wore a beige T-shirt and often took an Audi car to pick her up at the gate of the college. Later, she got along with someone who wrote a few lines of love poetry. It is said that the two met on the train and corresponded frequently...... Later, she and the poet secretly rented a private house and simply lived together. Here, the "T-shirt guy" is looking for her everywhere like crazy...... Later, the "T-shirt guy" chased down the poet's unit through a relationship and found out that the poet's family had a wife. As a result, there was a lot of trouble, and the poet was dismissed by their unit...... It's a mess anyway.

Then, Director Wei said unexpectedly: This little woman still hooked me with her eyes.

I was stunned: hook ...... Hook you?

Director Wei said: No. That day, the sun was shining through the window, and she was wearing a beige short skirt with black dots, and her legs were bare, and her whole body was ...... Yikes. She sat in my office that day, and I forgot something, maybe to keep her from graduating? Or the matter of the thesis...... She sat across from me, her eyelashes blinking, and she hooked people with the corners of her eyes...... To put it mildly, I'm so old that I don't dare to look at her. Why, that's that, right? Heart-pounding wow. I can handle it. If only young people ...... This woman.

I think, Director Wei is crazy? People are crazy. He is so old, how can he say such a thing to a female student?

I was silent for a while and said, "Well, what about later?"

Director Wei scratched his head and said, "It's too unusual, I heard that I got married again." With that, who is that......

After bidding farewell to Director Wei, I had mixed feelings in my heart.

It was Wuligang No. 17 Courtyard.

It is a mixed courtyard in an urban village. It is said that this is where Plum Village once lived.

In the provincial capital, I found one of my former students, who was also the best classmate in Meicun. This classmate, Qiu Yan, stayed in the provincial capital to work after graduation. She brought me here.

In recent years, the city has been expanding, the roads have been extended, and the villages in the suburbs of the past have become the last "fortresses" in the city that are about to disappear. The peasants (now citizens) have become the first to get rich in the city by selling their land and renting out their houses. Wuligang is one such village. Qiu Yan told me that in such a village, the loudest thing is the sound of mahjong.

I walked around the urban village, and the streets and two rows were full of rental stalls. One by one, the stalls are full of snacks, fruits, and groceries. There are loudspeakers hanging on the side of the street, selling tofu and music, rock, folk music, and jubilant; Not far away, there are newly opened Internet cafes, telephone bars, song halls, hair salons and the like. But in such a street market, there is sewage everywhere, melon seed skins and so on. There are also people sitting on the side of the street, playing mahjong while munching melon seeds. Everything looks messy and vibrant, but it still feels like a village market.

Qiu Yan led me into an alley, stretched out her finger, and said, "The third window on the right." Back then, Meicun rented this courtyard.

This is a patio courtyard, the building in the courtyard is temporarily connected on the basis of the old house, all the open space in the whole courtyard is connected, like a watchtower, a total of five floors, each floor is separated into a very simple small room, there is only a small light bulb of 15 watts in the room, and the water pipe and toilet are shared in the courtyard...... It is rented out to those who have moved to the city to work. There was also a dog on a leash in the yard, and the dog barked.

Qiu Yan said: On the third floor, Meicun rented a small room on the right hand side of the third floor. Maybe it's been a long time, and I asked some residents, but no one remembers such a person......

Qiu Yan said that back then, Meicun rented a small room here and hid in such an urban village. Later, it was also here that Plum Village secretly cohabited with a poet who claimed to be "a poet who came from Bayan Kala Mountain".

Qiu Yan told me that the two of them stayed here for a total of 46 days. It was still winter, and it was too cold. Umemura once wept and told her that one day she and the poet sat face to face, with their hands in each other's armpits, reciting Shelley's poem: "Winter has come, will spring be far away?" Later, the two of them couldn't stand the cold, so Mei Cun ran to the street and bought a small electric stove to keep warm. Unexpectedly, there was an incident and a fire. That day, the two went to watch a movie together, the Soviet romance film: "Station for Two". I forgot to turn off the electric stove when I left. When I came back, the fire truck had blocked the road in the urban village, red lights flashed everywhere, and sirens sounded everywhere! The two didn't care at first, why are there so many people? Whose house caught fire? As soon as I arrived at the gate of the courtyard and saw a yard of water, I was immediately stupid...... Later, the landlord made them lose money. The poet from Lanzhou had no money, only a "mouth". Or Plum Village, ran back to the academy and borrowed money from everywhere. Fortunately, there were not many valuable things in the house, so I lost a cabinet, a table, and electrical appliances to others, and lost a total of 2,060. On a snowy day, the poet was detained by the villagers in that small courtyard. According to Plum Village, after the poet was detained, he was still reciting poems to Plum Village through the iron window lattice. The poet grasped the iron railing of the window lattice with both hands, and recited aloud to Plum Village over and over again: "Count the almonds, count the bitter, let us wake up, count yourself (this is a poem by a foreign poet)......" and so on, which moved Plum Village's eyes to tears. Plum Village had no choice but to run around looking for someone to borrow money to ransom people...... In the end, he lost the landlord's money to let the poet go.

Qiu Yan said that Meicun's elopement ended in embarrassment.

It is clear to me that the Plum Village living here is certainly not for the money. If it was for money, she wouldn't be living here. I know that a beautiful woman like her must have a lot of people chasing her. What is she hiding in such a humble urban village, and even giving up her four-year college diploma?

Qiu Yan, a female classmate, said that at that time, there were many people chasing Meicun. Not only did someone give her flowers, but there was also someone who wrote a blood book. A student from the army, when he was about to graduate, wrote a blood letter to Plum Village, and pasted it on the wall outside the dormitory door...... It is said that the child who lived in the family courtyard of the provincial party committee, the young man surnamed Xu who wore a yellow T-shirt, not only gave roses, but also drove an Audi car to wait for her at the school gate every day...... But it still couldn't impress her.

Qiu Yan said: Meicun moved to Wuligang at the beginning to hide from a person.

I asked: Hiding from whom?

She said: It's the one surnamed Xu. The man was sending roses and writing blood letters...... Of course, there are other reasons as well.

I said: What is the reason?

She said: Once, Umemura quietly told me that she was waiting for someone.

My heart moved and I asked, "Who are you waiting for?"

She said: Umemura didn't say.

I asked: Why did the college expel her?

Qiu Yan said: Teacher Wu, don't listen to those people's nonsense...... Umemura is actually a very nice person, especially kind. To be honest, she's so pretty. At that time, there were many people chasing her, and even I couldn't help but be jealous of her. I guess Umemura has been trying to find someone she truly loves, and she has been waiting for "this person" for a long time. Later, she also quietly went to Beijing. After returning from Beijing, she was depressed for a long time...... Later, the poet came after him. According to Meicun, they met by chance on the edge of the Yellow River. This man's name was Kushui (later I learned that it was a pen name), and he was a poet. I didn't study as a graduate student, and walked the Yellow River on foot with my backpack alone...... Somehow, it moved Plum Village all of a sudden. How so? Perhaps, Umemura is trying to avoid the ...... surnamed Xu The two of them are getting better.

Qiu Yan said: Actually, the poet originally studied archaeology. After four years in college, I didn't think my major was good, and then I had a whim, I wanted to walk the Yellow River on foot, saying that I wanted to be a great poet like Li Bai...... So he gave up school and went to the Yellow River alone. At that time, he was reported in the newspapers. In fact, people are ugly, wear a pair of nearsighted glasses, are thin like monkeys, and have buckteeth...... Why did Umemura fall in love with him? I really don't understand.

Qiu Yan said: Meicun is still too soft-hearted. Once, I couldn't hold it back, so I chased after her and asked, what do you love about him? Didn't you just publish a few poems in the newspaper? It's so ugly, and the teeth are still hanging out...... What do you love about him?

I asked: What did she say?

Qiu Yan said: Guess? Mei Cun said that Kushui was an aspiring young man, and he walked the Yellow River on foot to create a huge book about the Yellow River. She also said that Kushui loved her so much that he wrote her a lot of poems, a whole hundred poems! I said, so what? Umemura said, "He recited a hundred poems to me one by one." He said that if he didn't see me, he would be crazy. Jumping Hukou Waterfall. It's true. That's what he said. Umemura said that there was a poem that brought tears to her eyes when she heard it: "Little hands don't belong to me." Love, I'm coming. I once thought about separating each other's souls, but the names Kushui (the poet's pen name) and Umemura were like the cry of the violin, shaking the strings of sorrow...... "Umemura said, you don't know, just because of this poem, she cried all day...... Teacher Wu, do you say she is naïve or not?

I know that there are many strange people in this world. There are also many seemingly normal people who do some strange things that ordinary people don't understand. It was when I had that childhood...... After reading some more books, I understood. Everyone carries their own history, or privacy, with their own. There are times when you can't say clearly. Maybe just a single thought can change a person's life.

I asked, "Is she married to the poet?"

Qiu Yan shook her head and said, "Didn't something happen later?" It was a mess. The poet, whose hometown is in Gansu, seems to be a very poor place, and he still has a wife at home...... In this way, the city is full of storms. This "bitter poet", due to the influence of walking the Yellow River on foot, after publishing some poems, was hired to work in a poetry magazine, and soon after finding a job, he came to Meicun. Later, as soon as these affairs were disturbed, some people found out that some of his poems were plagiarized by foreigners...... So the poetry magazine dismissed him. The academy also expelled Umemura. But Meicun didn't know that he had a wife at home...... What if your name is Plum Village?

I said, "Listen, why is it so messy?"

Qiu Yan said: It's chaos. So many men, encircling and suppressing a beautiful woman, how can it not be messy? Think about it, one year, during the Mid-Autumn Festival, there was a bed of mooncakes piled up in her bedroom, and I don't know who gave them.

I said, "What the hell is she...... What kind of man do you want to marry?

Qiu Yan said: Then I don't know. There's something very idealistic about her. Umemura is so kind that the poet conquers her at once. But later, when she found out that Kushui's poems, especially those written to her, were all plagiarized, Mei Cun suddenly despaired...... As a result, she picked and chosen, but in the end, she still married the one surnamed Xu.

I asked: Huh? That's it...... Children?

Qiu Yan said: Yes.

I ask again: is that the "yellow T-shirt"?

Qiu Yan said: It's him. It happened to be when Umemura was cornered. As for him, he kept chasing, chasing the tightest. It is said that after the fire, Meicun borrowed money from everywhere, and although her stepfather was a high-ranking cadre, he was paralyzed after retirement and had no money to help her. There was really no way, so she had to go to this surnamed Xu...... Think about it, how embarrassing is that?! Later, when the two got married, I went. On that day, at a banquet held in a five-star hotel, Mei Cun looked very happy, wearing a white wedding dress, and went to each table with the man to toast...... At the time, I was stupid. She hid around, and in the end, she married someone else.

I said, "As long as you're happy, that's fine."

Qiu Yan said: What is happiness? Two years, less than two years later, divorced.

I asked: Why?

Qiu Yan hesitated and said, "Who knows."

After a while, Qiu Yan said: I remembered. Once, Meicun came to me and cried and said: I really can't get by. He was like a thief all day long, and he tried me and the poet in Wuligang every other paragraph...... I told him everything, and he still didn't follow.

I said, "What happened?" Where did she go after that?

Qiu Yan said: I heard that after she divorced, she married a painter again.

I was silent.

In order to find out the whereabouts of Meicun, I took the plunge and went to see the man surnamed Xu again.

We met in a teahouse. The provincial capital is now also rising to drink tea. Here, the so-called tea drinking is actually a way of leisure or communication, and there are not many people who really come here to drink tea. Tea is a medium here, and people mostly come here to play cards, talk about business, or go on dates. The decoration here is luxurious, the mood is elegant, and the atmosphere is good. Nowadays, drinking tea has also become a fashion, or a fashion of the period.

This surnamed Xu, I inquired about his situation on the side. His name is Xu Yanjun. Xu Yanjun was originally the son of a cadre in the provincial government, and his father used to be a department-level cadre in a key department. So Xu Yanjun had a period of windy and rainy days. He has changed three units successively, and when his father still has power, he can transfer wherever he wants. He worked first at the newspaper and then at the television station. Later, he was transferred to an import and export company. In those years, foreign trade was invigorated, and he also went to sea to work as a manager of a company. Later, catching up with the transformation of state-owned units into enterprises, the state-owned company became a motherless child, and gradually could not compete with private enterprises, and the company collapsed as it did it. Since his father retired, life has gone from bad to worse.

When the man walked in, he was dressed in casual attire with a bag in his pocket, looking lazy. Judging from his expression, he can vaguely distinguish the past when he was clear-eyed, and he used to be a very handsome guy. But now everything is going sideways, his head is bald, he has a beer belly, and he looks bloated and fat. It seems that although the posture is still there, the inside has collapsed.

I got in touch with him through Little Joe. So, at first, he seemed very enthusiastic, and handed over a business card when he entered the door (at first glance, he knew that it was the way of a "leather bag company"). He said: Mr. Wu, you are a big company, take care of it.

We sat down and drank tea. When I mentioned Plum Village, he suddenly became very vigilant and said, "You, what are you looking for her?"

I said, "I heard that she is good at foreign languages, and our company needs a translator."

Xu Yanjun blurted out: Don't look for her. That's a rotten person.

I asked: How......

Xu Yanjun said incoherently: This woman has a bad style. Messing around with people...... A.

I looked at him and wanted to punch him hard in the face! What kind of man is this? How can you say that to a woman who was desperately chasing at the beginning?

I said, "You...... Listen to whom?

At the beginning, Xu Yanjun's tone was still a little cynical, he said: To tell you the truth, I am her ex-husband. That's what I've played. At that time, I chased her for four whole years, and after getting married, she still ...... It's not like that. Then, the hatred in his heart overflowed all of a sudden, and he gritted his teeth and said: What a slut! I've been good enough for her. I'll give her whatever she wants, but she's still not satisfied, she carries me behind her back and hooks up with others.

One glance at him, I can conclude that he had excellent conditions in his early years and was a good boy...... But now, when he is middle-aged, he has lost the protection of his father, so he wants to break the can. The words are full of hatred. But he didn't have the time, or the conditions, to go bad. He's just a bad mouth.

I sat there in silence, my heart fluctuating for a moment, not knowing where to start. Yes, Umemura once followed such a man...... Umemura, are you worth it?

Unexpectedly, as he spoke, he didn't know which nerve he touched, and Xu Yanjun actually shed tears. He said...... In those years, I often went abroad, and every time I came back from abroad, I brought her gifts. At that time, there was no shortage of electrical appliances in our house, and they were all imported. When I went to Japan, I brought her "Shiseido" cosmetics. To Russia, I brought her caviar from the Black Sea. When I went to the United States, I ate frugally (I ate instant noodles that month) and bought her a "LV" women's kun bag on Star Avenue in New York...... Suffice it to say, I don't have anything to be sorry for her.

I said, "Well, what does she want?"

Xu Yanjun suddenly said: Is there any beer? Can of beer. I only drink "Qingdao".

I waved my hand and the waiter served me a beer...... He opened the beer, drank it with a clatter, and after drinking two cans of beer in succession, he said, "For women, it's like raising fish." Tropical fish. The water temperature should be particular, the air should also be particular, and the fish food should be even more particular. You get the idea, right? However, you see, the fish in the Yellow River, or the fish in the small ditch, are not so poor, as long as there is water, it can live...... For example, if I marry this woman now, if you beat her three times a day, she won't run.

After placing six empty beer cans in front of Xu Yanjun...... He still said with a grudge: "That woman, rotten person." She's obviously not a virgin. She wasn't a virgin for a long time. In her early years, she was also raped by her stepfather...... She has been hiding it, and I tried her to try it. Before, she was always pretending to be tall in front of me. I want you to coax you all day long, but it's actually all pretending. It's different when you go out, you go out and dress up in a fancy way, that's to hook people. She seduces people with her eyes. You would never have imagined that she would be in the same league as an ugly person. mixed with a "bucktooth", and the "bucktooth" still has a wife at home...... That's what I figured out. When I think about it, I can't get angry, who is it?

Xu Yanjun also said: I said that she was cheap for a reason. Do you know what position she sleeps in? She had to hold something to fall asleep. When I went to bed at night, she always hugged one of my arms, and my arm was numb. Otherwise, she couldn't sleep. If one night she didn't have something in her arms, she would pull at the sheets, and she would pull them all together...... Also, she married me for the 2,600 yuan. She messed around with others, rented a house in an urban village, and lived with others. Who knew that the two of them were messing around, and the bed was overturned. In the middle of the night there was a fire and the man was detained. Also said to be a poet, fart. That's a big rascal...... She had no choice but to come to me in desperation.

I said, "Then you ......

Xu Yanjun said: I asked her to write a letter of guarantee. She wrote me a letter of guarantee. I still have that guarantee...... As a result, she ran away with someone.

I asked: Who did you run with?

Xu Yanjun said: Painter. A painter.

I don't want to hear him say any more. I asked: Umemura, she is ...... now Where is it?

Xu Yanjun said: Then I don't know. When she divorced, she said that she didn't want anything and left the house. He said he didn't want a penny, but he secretly took the passbook away.

I said, "Have you ever met her again?"

Xu Yanjun said: No.

When I was about to break up, Xu Yanjun handed me a business card, and he said: Mr. Wu, I have now run a film and television company. If you want to make a promotional film, you can come to me.

I nodded.

Xu Yanjun walked to the door, turned around again, and said: By the way, the painter's surname is Yan...... If you see Mei Cun and give me a word, she can come back if she is desperate.

I looked at him stunned and said, "Aren't you ......?"

Xu Yanjun said: Left. Just left. Boring.

In Beijing, I found the painter surnamed Yan again.

This painter is already very famous in the capital, and his pen name is: Yan Jiutian (seems to have the meaning of "catching the moon").

In his studio, the painter Yan Jiutian sits on a rosewood chair from the Qing Dynasty with a large pipe in his mouth and "Kangxi Year". Even in the capital, Beijing, not many people can afford to sit on such an antique chair.

Yan Jiutian's studio is full of oil paintings, which are all his works. The most attractive thing is the picture of a nude woman. On the red velvet couch, a slender naked woman sits half-lying and half-leaning...... As soon as I saw it, I knew that it was a work modeled after Umemura. Yan Jiutian held a cigar in his hand and said, "They bid three million for this painting, but I didn't sell it."

Looking at this painting, I was stunned for a long time......

Later, as soon as I heard that I was going to buy paintings, Yan Jiutian's words box opened and he talked eloquently.

Yan Jiutian said, the woman in the painting, I first met her on the train. The first thing I took a look at was her hands. Her hands grow too well. I was obsessed with her hands. On the train, I said to her, "Can I see your hands?" She subconsciously shrank back. I said, I'm a painter from the Beijing Fine Art Academy. No malice. Only then did she slowly and slightly shyly put her hand back on the table. I unceremoniously took her hand and looked at it for a long time. Her ten fingers were like onion fingers, clean and well-proportioned. I asked her, "Do you play the piano?" She smiled, laughing and shaking her head. There is no flaw on her hands, her nails are shiny, the veins of her palm prints are clear, the white is red, and the light on the back of her hand seems to be plated with a layer of glaze. I took out the sketchbook I had with me, drew it down immediately, and showed it to her. She smiled. Yan Jiutian said: This is art.

Yan Jiutian said that when she stood up, I suddenly found that she was not only good at hand. She has a slender figure, a good waist and a good hips, and she is a natural picture book...... I said, "Would you like to be a model?" She shook her head. And I said, "So leave me the address, and maybe, when I pass by, I will come to you." I saw that she hesitated, and there was a sign of refusal. I said, I really have no ill intentions. In this way, before getting out of the car, she left her address.

Yan Jiutian said that after returning to Beijing, for about a month, I always had those hands shaking in front of my eyes. Her hands are so good...... I think it was inspiration. My hands shake at the thought of her, and really, I have an irrepressible urge to create. So, I bought a plane ticket and went to her. It was only then that I learned that she was married. But her marriage was unhappy, and I could see it in her eyes at the time. She wasn't happy.

Yan Jiutian said, that day, I invited her to the hotel. The two of us asked for a seat in the western restaurant and sat facing each other. Someone playing the piano next to it, Little Strauss's "Blue Danube", the atmosphere is very good. But this time, she seemed silent. She didn't say a word, just sat quietly. At that time, I looked at her and immediately fell in love with her. When she didn't say a word, she had a noble, dreamlike feeling, very dignified, very melancholy, very beautiful, like poetry. I told her that I wanted to use her as a model and create a painting. She smiled, and her smile was a little bitter. I said, really. I really need help creating a painting. The name of the painting is "Spring". Don't mind, I don't draw anywhere else, just your hands. She smiled slightly and said, "I know, to be a model for you painters, you have to strip naked." I repeatedly assured her that I would only draw her hands, and I would draw her jade hands. Nothing else, no harm to her. I also said that if you need money, I can give it. Unexpectedly, she said: I don't want your money. If I say yes, I don't want a penny. You made me think about it.

Yan Jiutian said: I stayed in that city for three days, and I met her three times in total. Every time we met, we talked very well, she likes literature and art, so I talked to her about literature and art. I talked to her about the Renaissance, Van Gogh, Picasso, Rodin, Shakespeare, Leonardo da Vinci, Gauguin, Repin, Matisse, Dürer...... Every time I talk about her smiling, a man appears. The man was her husband. Her husband quietly followed her, spoiling the scenery every time. One day, her husband rushed in with two young men and said he was going to beat me up, saying that I had seduced his wife...... Later, when I saw that it didn't work, I took the initiative to quit. But I still left her an address and a phone number.

Yan Jiutian said, in fact, at that time, I was already obsessed with her. Not only do I love her form, but I also love her voice. She speaks quietly, sweetly, and magnetically. I asked her, and I said, "You're a southerner, aren't you?" Her mother, she said, was a southerner and married to the north. I couldn't help but go again. I secretly went to see her five times. At that time, I saw her as a goddess. Really, I think of her as a goddess...... Until the last time, she still hadn't said yes to me, and she was still hesitating. Finally I said, "I don't think you're happy...... She said, "Yes?" I said, "I see you're struggling." Is it interesting for you to live like this? She said, "What's interesting?" I said, "Would you like to come to Beijing?" If you want to get out of the city, I can help. She didn't speak. She was just silent.

Yan Jiutian said, I didn't expect that half a month later, she came. She came into my studio alone. After that, she silently stripped off her clothes and said, "You can paint."

Yan Jiutian said: When she stripped naked, she was so beautiful. It's so beautiful that it makes people shudder. I was stunned when I saw her...... So, I changed my mind, and I decided to paint a big painting, and the title was called "The Gaze" at first, and then changed the name. I can honestly say that the mother of art is women, and art is to be nourished by women...... This painting is the result of many years of hard work.

Yan Jiutian said: At first, I just wanted her to be a model for me...... Later, she told me that her husband tried her every day like a thief. She was so unbearable that she got divorced. At this time, I just sympathized with her plight. After that, it should be said that I was obsessed with her for nine days. I am intoxicated by her beauty. I was obsessed with her curvy body, so we ...... Married. Frankly speaking, I married her for the sake of art and to complete this painting. At that time, the marriage was sloppy. Man, huh? I painted the first draft, and she painted it for six months...... The painting has been revised several times, and it took me almost a full five years to complete, and the name of the painting is now "Autumn".

Yan Jiutian said, I, a model, came to Beijing for less than four months, and her belly was revealed. Obviously, I'm sure, this is not my child. But I didn't dislike her, I still let her give birth to the baby...... At that time, I was already planning to open a household registration for her, and I had to open a household registration for two people. You know, the indicators for entering Beijing are very difficult to do. In order to get her an account, I gave away several of my paintings...... At that time, I was drawing her, and I had nothing to say. Later, unexpectedly, she began to interfere with me. I'm a painter, and of course I have to use all kinds of models. A painter, a great painter, how can there be no woman? What about not having a model? But she didn't let other models enter the door, she said: You draw me. Am I not enough for you to paint? What is this called? I'm a painter, so I can't just use one model. In short, we are starting to have contradictions. The contradictions are getting deeper...... Later, she ran away alone with the child.

Yan Jiutian said, I admit, I have been fascinated with her for a long time. But people, especially women, can't get too close, once they get close, centrifugal force will be generated, and all kinds of problems will be revealed...... Later, when the divorce came, she made a mess, very unspeakable, completely like a shrew. Speaking of feelings, she took the letters I wrote to her, a total of thirty-two, as evidence, and took them out in public in court to blackmail me. She also said to the people in the court that I used to kneel before her...... Am I kneeling to her? Joke, I fell in front of the "god of beauty". It is my worship of art and the worship of physical beauty. Now there is no such "beauty" in her. Hmph, she saw that my paintings have sold well in the past two years...... She said that she wanted child support, and she calculated more than one million for me at once. Phew, do you think I'll give it to her? I won't give her a penny. In front of the judge, I said, "I want child support, right?" I give, I can give. But there is one thing, he must be my child. As long as it's my child, I'll give as much as you want. Let's go DNA.

Yan Jiutian said, at that time, this was it. I mentioned this one, and I cured her at once. She insisted on not doing DNA, and she didn't ask for money anymore. She said that for the sake of the child, she was afraid of hurting the child...... Phew, she's afraid that when the time comes, once the DNA results come out, she will hurt herself. She fell. A woman, once fallen, is terrible. For a while, she was like a little she-wolf, calling me every night, crying and fussing, and I had no inspiration at all. She couldn't make a plan, and she had another plan. Later, she said that she didn't want anything anymore and wanted this painting. Do you think, I'll give it to her? This is my creation, my five years of painstaking efforts, and it is a work of art! Will I give it to her? Later, I thought about it, and I really felt a little sympathy for her...... But when I called again, I couldn't find her.

The words of the wild goose for nine days are like needles, pierced into my heart one by one! I don't know what to say, I have nothing to say.

Before leaving, two people entered Yan Jiutian's studio...... At this moment, Yan Jiutian suddenly stood up and said in a loud voice: You have been looking at my painting. I know you love this painting. But I don't sell it. Don't say a million, jokes. Five million, ten million are not sold. Let's go, you can go.

I was stunned for a moment. Suddenly, I realized that those two people were here to buy paintings...... This is a trick of the merchants. A famous painter also became a businessman. Actually, I inquired with people, five years ago, only four or five years ago, he also sold his paintings of Yan Jiutian for 1,000 yuan. Now, he opened his mouth wide and dared to say 10 million.

I couldn't help but laugh. Yan Jiutian didn't know that after Magnolia Hall was listed, I was worth 100 million and 600 million, and I could buy this painting. But this kind of person, forget it.

Seeing that I smiled, Yan Jiutian was a little unnatural. He deliberately turned his face up and said arrogantly: art is priceless.

During the days of searching for Plum Village, the roses I carried, ninety-nine Abyssinian roses, withered one by one.

The petals are getting darker day by day...... In the end, the ninety-nine roses were left with only a rod.

To be honest, I was disappointed. I know that I will never be able to find the plum village of the past again. Plum Village is fading away in my mind day by day...... I don't know why, but at the end of the day, I just wanted to see her, and that's it.

In a period, when a person is confused, he will do many ridiculous things.

I said that I had fallen. During those days of searching for Plum Village, one night, when I was bored, I walked into a song hall by mistake. In this neon-lit cabaret, led by a waiter, I went up to the red-carpeted second floor. Turning a corner on the second floor, the waiter led me to a large glass window, and I was stupid. It was a huge glass window, and behind it was a large room with mirrors on all sides, and in such a room with huge mirrors, I saw hundreds of girls at once. It's all girls in miniskirts with their belly buttons exposed. Each girl has a number plate around her waist...... The waiter was holding a plate, and there was a bunch of small white labels made of plastic, and the number was written on the white label, and the waiter said, "Sir, you order one."

At that time, I hesitated for a moment, and in front of many girls, I ordered a girl who looked a little like Plum Village in figure and appearance. The waiter opened the glass door and shouted: No. 12, plum blossoms, go with the guests...... When she walked into the KTV room with me, I asked her name again. I said, "What's your name?"

She said: Plum blossoms. My name is Plum Blossom.

I said: Is it Plum Village?

She said: Plum blossoms. The plum of the plum blossom.

I said, "You're pretty tall, where are you?"

She said: North.

I said, "Where is it to the north?"

She said: Why don't you just have fun, check your account?

I'm dumbfounded.

She looked at me and said, "Heilongjiang."

I said: Northeasterners?

She smiled and said, "Yes, the pimple in the northeast."

After a moment, I said, "Your name is ...... Umemura, right?

She said: Plum blossoms.

I said, "Let's call it Plum Village."

She said: Plum blossoms. Sir, do you have a problem with your ears?

I said: Plum Village.

As I spoke, I took out a stack of 100-yuan tickets from my pocket and put them on the table one by one, and when I put the fifth one, she looked at me and said, "Okay." Plum Village is Plum Village. This name is not good, bad luck.

I shouted: Plum Village. - Calling her "Plum Village", in fact, I don't feel comfortable in my heart.

She said, "Brother, what about me?"

I called again: Plum Village.

She answered in a loud voice, saying, "Oh! Brother, good brother, I'm Plum Village. I am Umemura.

For a moment, I had mixed feelings...... blurted out: Have you had plastic surgery?

She was startled and said, "How do you know?"

I looked at her silently, and I always felt that something was wrong with her features...... But I, it's just a feeling, an indescribable discomfort.

But suddenly, her voice lowered, and she said: Brother, don't dislike me, my life is not good.

I asked: What's wrong?

She said: When I was a child, when I was a confinement baby, I was only more than a month old, and my mother went to work in the field. A mouse fell from the shed, and the rat gnawed at the tip of my nose...... Later, after another two months, my mother went out again and spread a mat in the yard, and I lay on the mat. You guess, the pig, our pig, jumped out of the pen and bit my ear again...... You say, why am I so unlucky?!

I'm surprised, how could a girl have such an encounter? Why, even rats bullied her? And the pigs, and the pigs also deceived her...... A person is killed twice, if not fate, then what?

She said: I have been studying hard since I was a child, and I thought that one day I would earn money and I could have plastic surgery. When I was nine years old, my nose was dripping after a fever, and my mother sent me to the county hospital, where the doctor told me that plastic surgery could be done on my nose and ears, and only in Beijing. Since then, I have made a note of ...... I came out of college to do this for plastic surgery. I'll tell you the truth, I've done it three times. Three more times. The doctor said that if you do it three more times, you can make a beautiful face...... People can't be faceless, right?

So, all night, I was with "Plum Village......

"Plum Village" said: Brother, we have foreign wine here, French, 1,61 bottles, you either? "Plum Village" said: Brother, I'm thirsty, let's go to the fruit plate? This one is cheap, eighty. Or, come to the box of "hand-in-hand", pure juice, which is only sold on the plane, one hundred and sixteen. "Plum Village" said: Brother, do you want to come to beer, "Qingdao" or "Carlsberg", or "Blue Ribbon"? "Plum Village" said: Brother, why do you sit all the time and don't dance? Get up and jump one. Dancing a song and turning over a red card (fifty). I know that my brother is a big boss, and he is not short of this money...... "Plum Village" said: Brother, you don't sing or dance, what do you mean by sitting so old? Get up, get up, brother...... Brother, do you want me to come out? I'm a college student, and I usually don't come out, and it's expensive.

I really want to cry without tears. This "Plum Village" is not Bimei Village, I don't call her Plum Village anymore. She's not a plum village...... She's just a girl who works hard to make money for plastic surgery. But she's not a bad person.

Maybe it was because of the decoration of the private room, maybe it was because she drank two cans of beer under her strong promotion, I sat on the sofa in the private room, and I only felt a little dizzy, and the smell of plastic was in the air. The private rooms are newly renovated, the wallpaper is plastic, the tea table is plastic, the sofa is plastic (filament), the chandelier is plastic, and the TV is plastic...... The smell was in the air, and it smelled terrible. This is an era of plasticization, and people, clothing, food, and things are all plasticized. I suddenly couldn't help but want to laugh.

"Plum Village" said: Brother, aren't you laughing at me?

I don't know what to laugh at, I just want to laugh.

"Plum Village" said: Don't look at my nose. I don't have a crooked nose, do I? I have a tray in my nose, imported fiberglass, not big, a little bit...... After a while, I had a minor operation and it was removed.

I laughed.

"Plum Village" said: Are you still smiling? Still laughing?

I was still laughing, tears coming out of my eyes.

"Plum Village" said: Brother, you miss Plum Village, right? I am Umemura. I'm Umemura. - The little sister sits on the bow of the boat, and the older brother walks on the shore......

I stood up and said, "Stop singing." You're not Plum Village.

Later, when I was almost desperate, by chance, I found three diaries in Umemura.

It is said that Umemura went abroad. Before leaving the country, some of her things were hosted by a friend...... In these three diaries, Umemura recounts her mental journey in detail. In this regard, I will pick out ten articles, and show them to you without any evaluation:

May 7

The W class was so good, the whole trapezoidal classroom was full of people. He quoted Abraham Lincoln: "The most beautiful thing in life is his friendship with others." "I'm going to be on the side of all the right people, to be with them when I'm right, and to leave them when I'm wrong."

…… I knew he was watching me. He stood on the podium of the trapezoidal classroom, his gaze melancholy. There was something indescribable in his gaze. Just like I did when I was a kid. It's like that: with a longing, a timidity, a curiosity, a sense of guilt...... And reserved.

September 16

W runs on the playground.

I've thought about it many times. He was a very hardworking man. Running around the playground for 400 meters, his footsteps slowed down when he turned the corner, and his rhythm slowed down, stepping on the ground, as if he was looking for something, as if he was looking for someone to talk to...... The slowest part was when he was about to reach the door of the dormitory, and it was at this time that he almost stopped. But he didn't stop, just paused. I can feel it. Is he looking at me?

In the middle of the night, in my sleep, the door of the dormitory suddenly rang...... All six of us woke up, and each of us said, "Who, who?" But no one answered. Footsteps, thumping footsteps, ran away. I knew it was him. Only I know, it must be him.

I bumped into him several times on my way to the dining room, and he pretended to be nothing...... It's funny. When I greeted him, he was a little sloppy. I'm not going to expose him. I feel a little sorry for him.

I love to hear him. He told me every book he read...... He has such a good memory. When he said "Kakuei Tanaka", "Sisyphus", "Pompidou", "Eisenhower", "Roosevelt", "Achilles", "Nixon", and "Bloom" in "Ulysses", he raised his head slightly, as if he was contemplating.

Two people, just sit like that, talk about the book, talk about the people and things written in the book, how good.

October 21

W is leaving.

Before leaving, he told me about his countryside and his childhood...... That feeling of helplessness touched me all at once. I've been scared, too. I know what it's like when people are afraid. He reminded me of my childhood, in the dark night, when a black shadow pounced on you, that black shadow was like a big bird that came out of nowhere, a big bird panting and covering me all over, I was really scared...... At that time, I clenched my teeth and said nothing. My mother was in the next room, but I didn't dare call her. At that time, I was like a baby called Tian Tian Ying.

He said that he once said to a hot brick: Mom, warm me...... It's heart-wrenching to sound like.

This sentence is this sentence that keeps me awake at night. I kept my eyes open and thought about it all night...... I was really impressed by him. In the middle of the night, I got out of bed and walked around the playground for a long time. I thought, just let me warm him. Let me warm him with my body. My body is not clean, but my heart is clean.

That night, he said, let me wait for him. When he returns, he will give me Abyssinian roses......

It was like a dream. Is there such a rose in the world?

……

January 16th

It's snowing. Light snow.

K is coming. K came from the Great Northwest with a head of snow on his head......

A lot of people ask me, how can you like him? Such an ugly person, why do you like him? I can't answer. He was a poet. Originally, he studied archaeology, but he read and read, and when he was about to graduate, he resolutely stopped studying and "read" the Yellow River. He told me: The Yellow River is a big book! A poet, only a poet, can have such courage. The two of us met on the banks of the Yellow River. At that time, he was walking the Yellow River on foot with a bag on his back, eating and drinking, long hair and a shawl, like a savage...... Actually, I don't care about his appearance, it's his will, his poetry, that conquers me. I didn't even look at him much, or I didn't dare to look at him, and every time I looked at him, my heart ached. His pen name "Kushui", this is the first time I have heard of such a pen name. There was something heartbreaking in his gaze. And the knife mark on his brow, no one believes it, and that knife mark is also the reason why I like him. Really, it was an indescribable melancholy, desolation, and pain. He's like a mirror, he can reflect something inside me. Also, the hundred love poems he dedicated to me, such as the one: "When I see you/My heart prostrates on the ground/Descends to the dust/In the dust bears the fruit of poetry/Dedicate to my dear ones...... such as "There is no one in the house/Only dusk/You will appear at the door/Dressed in a plain white dress/As if weaving fabric for you/It is the flying flotsam in the sky." ”…… That's nice!

In addition, K has a smell on his body. I can't tell what it is, but every time I'm with him, I feel very calm, comfortable, and calm. It's something I haven't encountered in years...... A person is with a person, and he has a smell on him, a smell that can make you fascinated, and that is the smell of his sweat. It's strange that in front of him, when I smell such a smell, I have the feeling of crying, a feeling that I can dream in his arms. When you are with him, your heart hurts. Strangely, it is this pain that calms people. I can snuggle up in his arms like a kitten and a puppy, listening to his poetry and napping...... In my childhood, I fell asleep in pain.

……

February 1

Eventually, I broke up with K.

Breaking up is also a relief...... Of course, he deceived me first (I was told that most of his poems were plagiarized from foreigners. At first, I didn't believe it. When someone put the evidence in front of me, and I confronted him with a book of poems, he said, this is not plagiarism, it is a testimony of love), which I cannot forgive. That's why the two of us broke up.

Later, I had to admit that I had hurt him again.

Because of me, X chased him to Lanzhou, went to the poetry magazine to sue him, and sued K for the editing job that he had so hard to get. He was dismissed from the unit...... It's not my intention to hurt people like this. I hate myself, how can I be such a person?

In this issue, I am looking for someone I love, someone who can lean on his shoulder and can talk to him...... But what can I do?

X chased me for four years. Sometimes it's not easy for him. Think about how many phone calls he made and how many roses he sent in four years, I can't remember it...... I hated the ringing of the phone. But day by day, month by month, year by year, someone keeps calling you, someone remembers you all the time, what else do you want? What else can you do? The BP machine he gave me would "drop" from time to time, as if a person was tied to the waistband of his trousers...... You annoy it. You annoy the "dripping" sound, but when you need it, when you are helpless, the sound really works. The more you listen, the more intimate you feel. Walking on the road, with a "drop", you will be very stable in your heart. Besides, now you don't even have a place to stay, and there is a situation at home, like that...... That's it.

What if not? At least, he loves me.

June 3rd

I can't get by anymore. It's only been a little over a month since we got married, and we started arguing.

X says he loves me. He couldn't live without me. But in the middle of the night, he would wake me up, pull me out of bed, face to face, and judge me.

I became a "thing" in his eyes. became a "thing" in his pocket. According to him, it is a kind of "thing" that the thief is worried about. He kept asking me about my time with K, and he asked every detail in detail...... It's painful. Actually, I told him a long time ago, and I told him everything. But he still won't give up. I really can't live this day.

One night, while falling asleep, he suddenly said, "Wait, I have a friend in the Security Service who heard that he has a new polygraph there." I'm going to borrow it for a while. I slept in a daze and broke out in a cold sweat! I asked: What for? He said, "Test you." See if what you're saying is a lie. And he said, "Are you afraid?" You wait. Otherwise, you should confess, hurry up and explain honestly. Save time to be passive. It's a modern device, you can't hide it. I woke up at once and said, "What shall I explain?" He said, "You know it yourself." I said, "Didn't I tell you everything?" He said, "I didn't make it clear." You must have something to hide. You should always know the truth of frank leniency, right? I said, "Please, don't push me anymore." If you push me again, I'll jump off this floor. He was stunned for a moment and said, "You jump." I watched you jump. But I'm really desperate! When I jumped to my feet, he jumped up again, hugged me, knelt on the ground, and kissed my toes...... Repeatedly apologized and said: He swore to God and promised not to do this again.

However, within two days, everything was the same as before.

I can't stand it anymore. I asked to sleep in a separate bed with him, but he firmly refused...... How can you live when you meet such a person?

……

March 1

I met Y on the train.

Y is a painter. Gentle. Said my hands are good, he wants to draw my hands...... For some reason, I left the address to him. I can't tell. People, sometimes, really can't tell. Maybe I'm a bad woman. It's like X said.

A week later, Y came and stayed in the hotel. When I answered his call, I suddenly felt the urge to cry, as if I had met a loved one. I didn't know Y at all, we only met once on the train. However, I feel that he is a relative, and I feel like a relative. How so? I'm not divorced, what kind of person am I?

When we met in the western restaurant, Y gentlemanly and thoughtfully pulled me out of the seat, and after I sat down, he sat down again. There is music around, nice music and a nice atmosphere. Y said he was going to create a painting and wanted me to be his model. He kept praising me. He said: Beauty is an art. Beauty is for all human beings...... I'm in a trance.

March 8

Just a week later, Y came again.

I went to see him quietly like an underground worker. I also hate myself, am I shameless?

During this meeting, he told me a lot about the art world, which sounded very fresh......

Y said: Picasso's early paintings are blue, the kind of pale blue, childlike blue, three-dimensional blue, like a blue moon rising in his heart. At that time, he had love in his heart. Did you know that love is a power...... Later, he became the originator of Impressionism, and the blue is not blue, it is the blood of blue, and there is anger in it. Later, his painting style continued to change, his paintings were no longer readable, he cut life into pieces, trying to highlight an absurd impression, or feeling, he painted feelings.

Y said: Van Gogh was different from him. It has to do with character, Van Gogh's paintings are violent. Van Gogh was also an impressionist painter, but Van Gogh's heart was full of pathos and desire, and he had a foundation in his heart. For example, blue, he also paints blue, the light is extremely bright, and his "Iris" is extremely blue, which is suffocating. His paintings are getting more and more intense, the large and large color clusters, the crazy color clusters, the flame that is about to burn out like a flame in "Sunflowers", is the last brightness. When a person has to burn himself out, he will have such emotions. So he later went crazy and cut off one of his ears.

Y said: In this world, the best painter is Dürer. Dürer's "Praying Hand" makes people shudder. There's also a true, very vivid story here. Dürer was originally a printmaker, the carving was excellent, and his hand painting was the best in the world. Every tendon and every vein in your hand is alive, and you can feel the hot blood flowing in the veins of the bulging muscles, which are a pair of labor hands, scarred hands...... That hand can speak.

Y said: I want to draw your hands. I'm going to draw your hands, it's a pair of beautiful hands, it's the ultimate in beauty. When I closed my eyes, I remembered your hands, the lines were so delicate, so plump, even the blue veins were bright, and the nails were shiny and ruddy. I also want to add the freehand element of Chinese painting to the painting, because every finger of you is a poem, or a piano, or a music, giving out the call of beauty, this is a masterpiece of God, and I must let it remain...... This is my responsibility. You must promise me. I pray that you will answer me.

I really don't want to admit it, but since this meeting, I've really been conquered by him. I was hooked on him. I said to myself, maybe this is the person you're looking for in your life. I found him.

July 9th

Today, I received another letter from Y.

In those days, there were very few people who wrote letters. Even fewer people write letters with a small letter. Y's letter was written on rice paper with a red grid and a scent of ink...... Faith cannot be kept at home, but it becomes evidence of my sin when it is placed at home. I can only store it at Koyuki's house for the time being...... Every time, I have to run to Xiaoxue to read the letter. Hello little snowman, she gave me a key to collect love.

I counted the letters he sent, and there were thirty. In each of his letters, there are very fiery sentences. He said, "Come on." Locked in a cage, the flowers will wilt. People live for a lifetime, let beauty open to the fullest.

In the letter, he said: Everyone has the right to choose their lifestyle.

In the letter, he said: I will let future generations remember you. If you can leave a beautiful painting to future generations, that is eternal life.

At the end of each letter, he draws a swallow with a peach-shaped heart in its mouth......

It's time to make up your mind.

November 7th

In Y's studio, I am willing to dedicate my life to his art......

However, as he was drawing, he suddenly hugged me. He said he wanted to experience it. He experienced it with his tongue, and he licked my whole body with his tongue, and I felt like I was back in my childhood...... At that moment, I couldn't tell what it was like. Perhaps, at first, I was a little scared and a little flustered, but later, I couldn't stand it anymore. I said, "You have me."

And so, after three days in his studio, I became his man. He said he loved me. I'm his guy anymore.

This is what I do. I'm still a little scared. I'm afraid I'll be ...... "thing" again.

But...... I'm pregnant.

August 4th

I think I'm finally able to settle down. I finally found a man I liked and he liked me. I'm willing to let him draw me. Like he said, I'm willing to turn into watercolors to moisten his brushes...... After that, live a good life with him, wash him, cook for him, and give birth to children...... Our child is about to be born.

But......

But......

But......

February 7

Is this love? This...... Is it love? I can't take it anymore, I can't take it anymore.

Why does an artist, a person who talks about conscience and compassion all day long, hate a child so much?

I have found many times that in the middle of the night, he got up from his bed alone and secretly went to see the child, and he looked at it for hours. He held a flashlight, and when the child was asleep, he used the flashlight to shine on the child's face, and looked at it again and again, and he said that he had two spins on his head, and all the men in his family had two spinders on his head, but there were no spines on the child's head. He said he had seen it, and the boy didn't have a spin on his head...... Then he concluded that it was not his child.

I found out that he, an artist, secretly pinched the child...... He has such a dark mind and such a narrow mind, how can he live this day?!

After reading these diaries, you say, is this still the plum village in my mind?

But I still want to see her. I won't die if I don't see her with my own eyes. I even thought that if Heaven had eyes, he should let us meet them. You say, don't you?

As I said, I am a disbeliever.

In the early years, no matter what setbacks I encountered in life, I never believed in those fates and the like, and I never asked someone to tell fortunes. At that time, I thought that if fate was predestined, it meant that all subsequent efforts were in vain. You have to resign yourself to your fate. What else? In another sense, if fate is not predestined, then you should do what you should do, and work hard. It doesn't have to be counted.

I also think that the so-called "fate theory" is actually a kind of anesthesia for people. Everyone who goes to see their fate has a more or less fluke mentality. For example, if you ask someone to tell a fortune, if you do it well, you will be secretly proud. If you don't calculate it well, you'll be saddened. This can all affect a person's mood. Therefore, I think that whether it is predestined or not, there is no need to calculate it. You are not counting fate, it is an attitude to life.

I'm a history student. In college, I also read a little bit of books on this subject, such as the Book of Changes. So I was even more firm in my opinion. I once argued with people that "you see," the I Ching talks about "variables." It is to the effect that the whole world, all things in the world, are in flux, contain a variety of possibilities, and the conclusion is "probable". Since the Book of Changes talks about change, it is a "theory of contingency", and the so-called "theory of fate" must be to talk about predetermination and "constancy" for people. So, where does "constant" come from? So, I don't believe in fate.

Later, I wandered a little bit again.

Yes, although the book "I Ching" talks about "change" in Yi Li, its conclusion should be "probable", and there are many possibilities...... However, under the action of external forces, in the ever-changing nature of things or substances, when a certain factor (or tendency) gradually grows into the main factor, will the "constant" we need appear?

Of course, this is idealistic.

The terrible thing is that this idealistic thing, which was once condemned to death in a historical period, has been resurrected in today's pluralistic age. It began to move from the ground to the streets, and gradually, social life was again shrouded in a kind of mysticism, which has been prevalent at the bottom of a vast social life, with extremely rich space and soil...... It doesn't matter if you believe it or not. It is a cultural presence.

I once told you that in my hometown, there was once a weirdo. His name is Liang Wufang, and he has sued for the rest of his life. But in his later years, by mistake, he actually became a "fortune teller". A few years ago, when I met him in Beijing, I saw him chasing a white-collar woman at a train station who wanted to tell someone's fortune, but was rejected...... It looks very embarrassed. But when I saw him again, there was a moment when I suddenly wanted to ask him to do the math.

I know, it's a thought. Actually, I don't believe him...... However, in the days when I was looking for Meicun, when I was most depressed, when I met Liang Wufang again in the provincial capital, I invited him to a meal on a whim. After the meal, I said casually: Fifth uncle, you also pinch me?

Liang Wufang took two sips of wine, squinted his eyes, and said: Report the eight characters.

I know a little bit about the "eight characters" he refers to, which refers to the year, month, day, and hour of a person's birth. At the time, I was stunned for a moment. At that time, I was no longer comfortable with camel practices. I think he's too ambitious...... Objectively speaking, I was bored at the time, and I had the attitude of giving it a try. I still have doubts about fate. So, instead of my birthday, I reported it as a "camel".

Unexpectedly, Liang Wufang said a word, which immediately stunned me! He said, "This is not your eight characters." This man is angry and restless. And the fate of the peach blossom, emotional drift.

I was surprised. Suffice it to say, I had been looking down on him until then. I even ...... But just such a sentence, like a bullet, shot me at once. I looked at him again, and his eyes were dizzy, blinking, and his gaze was cloudy. Does it mean that a person can see something when his eyes are cloudy?

I said, "Fifth uncle, just this person, take a good look."

Liang Wufang pondered for a while...... Say: Don't look at it. This person is full of fire. Sexual mania. It's burning up. But this person has a bad future. Hurry up, get out of him.

I'm a little skeptical. I asked: How...... What about the bad situation?

Liang Wufang said: This person has a disaster. Cataclysm. I'm afraid I can't hide from it.

At this moment, I blurted out. I said, "Pinch me again...... So, I immediately reported the date of my birth.

Liang Wufang thought for a while and said: You were born in Yinshi?

I said, "I don't remember either." Like, listen to the old uncle......

Liang Wufang said: Yes. I still remember that the fifth watch day was born in Yin.

Then he said, "Lose it." You're not like him. You're full of water. Although the water is big, it doesn't matter, the water is big. People with big water are smart. Besides, your god is fire. There will be a burning man by your side. Although water and fire are incompatible, the fire man is your nobleman, and he has the effect of both water and fire. Although it is good, it is not a place to stay for long......

I said, "Fifth uncle, I want to find a woman, how can I find her?"

Liang Wufang pinched his fingers and said: She is not yours.

I said, "I just want to ...... See the previous side.

Liang Wufang said: North. Look north.

At that time, I was blindfolded all at once.

I would say, sometimes, idealistic things are very scary. In just a few words, it knocks you down...... I sat there and was stunned for a long time.

I'm telling you, I once had a time when I was a fire-wanderer.

To be honest, although what Liang Wufang said shocked me, I still half-believed it. I thought, how can a person with such a bad fate see through all the changes in the world?

So, in those days when I couldn't find Meicun and was almost desperate, I plunged headlong into the pile of old papers.

For a while, I read a lot of books about fate...... After reading it, I was really surprised! God, the ancient sages spent so much energy studying the so-called numerology? The more you read the book, the more you read it. And there are many branches of the genre, which is simply a sea of smoke.

The reason why I read these miscellaneous books was originally for the purpose of falsification. I don't understand, why did the ancients spend so much time and so much effort to create such a vast sea of "text garbage" (if it is "garbage")? First of all, it is logically rootless. You can't, and you can't find a logical base point. Those sentences are like falling from the sky. A sentence and a life can be said by ordinary people.

Yes, how can these words alone define a person's life? Moreover, generation after generation of sages are spreading, interpreting, supplementing, and embellishing these seemingly unfalsifiable and unprovable things again and again. What are they doing this for?

During that time, I felt like I was in a daze, and I was completely trapped. Fell into the trap of these words...... What is incomprehensible is that in the various numerology theories I have come into contact with, all of them have curved pens, or "grass snake gray lines".

I read the books one by one, and the more I read, the more I read, the more confused I become. I found that every kind of book on numerology hides countless codes that are impossible to decipher, or according to numerology, it is called "the law of the world". It's designed to make you unreadable. It hides the most critical parts, the most important joints. Hidden in the incomprehensible multi-intentional text, hidden in one contradictory and contradictory whirlpool after another, you will be caught in an indecipherable numerological paradox. This is like one trap after another deliberately set by the ancestors, which makes people puzzled.

For example, according to the ancient Chinese experience: heaven and earth are divided into yin and yang, and yin and yang are divided into five elements, and the five elements are: gold, wood, water, fire, and earth. This is the foundation of ancient Chinese numerology. No matter how many "doctrines" there are, their foundation is the "Five Elements of Yin and Yang".

In the experience of the ancients, in ancient China, the year of the stem branch was used, and the ten days were matched with the twelve earthly branches, which was used as the calculation method.

The heavens are ten stems, divided into: A, B, C, D, E, G, G, XIN, NON, and DEC;

The land is divided into 12 branches: Zi, Chou, Yin, Mao, Chen, Si, Wu, Wei, Shen, You, Xu, and Hai.

Heaven is controlled by six or six, and the earth is numbered by ninety-nine, with the accuracy of the way of heaven, the sky has ten stems representing the ten days, the earth has twelve branches representing the terrain and objects, and the ten heavenly stems add twelve earthly branches, such as Jiazi, Yichou, and Bingyin...... The cycle of six times is a week, and the cycle of six times of a week is a year, and the husband is a reincarnation in sixty years.

According to the folk saying, this is called "transportation limit". The transportation limit is divided into: big luck, small luck, and passing year.

——The above is the positioning of time in ancient China.

From this extension: metal, wood, water, fire, and earth, which are geographically evolved into: east, south, west, north, and middle; Next, the ten heavenly stems evolved again: A and B Eastern Wood, C Ding Southern Fire, Gengxin Western Gold, Non Gui Northern Water, and Wuji Central Soil; The evolution of the twelve earthly branches is: Haizi Northern Water, Yinmao Oriental Wood, Siwu Southern Fire, Shenyou Western Gold, and Chenxu Chouwei Central Earth. Therefore, according to the interpretation of numerology, people live in this atmospheric field, or large magnetic field.

According to folk sayings, this is called "Feng Shui".

——These are the positioning of space in ancient China.

Well, now that we have the positioning of time and space, let's talk about the positioning of people, or a life phenomenon. In terms of human positioning, ancient China used the year, month, day, and hour of birth as the coordinate system. From this, I discovered that the philosophy of ancient China is the philosophy of the living. In the vast numerology theory, most of the things talked about are "life, prosperity, death, and absoluteness" and "official, wealth, India, and food", although it is "idealism", it does not include the happiness index.

As I said, I'm stuck in a pile of old papers. Originally, it was curiosity and wanted to falsify it. I just want to find a basis for all kinds of life phenomena, so as to prove that the vast text explanations of the ancients are unscientific.

But I fell into it all at once, deeper and deeper. At first, I was interested and a little obsessed. For a while, I was deciphering the "Goldbach conjecture", digging into the words of these ancients day and night...... Sometimes, in the middle of the night, I would suddenly jump out of bed and shout: I found the "key"! But when I woke up the next morning, it was still a pot of paste.

For example, the "Three Yuan Sutra" says: There are twelve months in each year, and in terms of aura, each month has a position of vitality and death. The first month is angry in the sub and decyl positions, and the dead air is in the noon and ding positions; In February, the anger is in the ugly and Gen position, and the dead air is in the Wei and Kun positions; March is angry in Yin and A, and dead is in Shen and Geng (both lunar calendars)...... This is talking about the aura, or the effect of the magnetic field.

I'm not afraid of your jokes, I've verified this. To prove all this, I bought five phones of the same model at once. I charged all five mobile phones, divided them into east, west, south, north, and center, and placed them in different directions in the room to verify the strength of the aura or magnetic field...... If you have a mobile phone, you can feel it in the room, and it's self-explanatory.

For example, the "Shenbai Sutra" says: "Yin Shi of Yin Wu Xu; Hai Mao Wei's Hai time; Shen Zichen's Shen Shi; "The time of the ugly" (that is, those who are born between three and five o'clock in the morning of the first month, fifth month, and ninth month of the lunar calendar; or those born between 3 and 5 p.m. in the 7th, 11th, and 3rd lunar months; or those who were born between 9 and 11 a.m. in the fourth, eighth, and twelfth months of the lunar calendar), which means that those who are born at this time in the month are called Jingde. All the gods are virtuous, and the three princes will be rich, and the fifth generation will not be poor. There is also a note that it must be broken without punishment. - That's hard.

Reading these words, I once sighed: If you can really live five lives without being poor, why can't people choose such a day to be born?

For example, the "Book of Yan Dongsuo" says: "Those who have a noble god of heaven and righteousness, turn evil into good fortune, and the Lord is blessed." "Jiawu Genggui is ugly, which refers to the year, month and day of birth in the lunar calendar, where there are the words Jia, E and Geng in the heavenly stem, and the earthly branch is ugly and unfinished; Yi Ji Gui is in Shenzi, which refers to the year, month, day, and hour of birth in the lunar calendar, where there are the words B and Ji, goodbye Shen and Zi; Bing Ding Gui is in Hai You, which refers to the year, month and day of birth in the lunar calendar, where there are the words C and Ding, and then see Hai and You. And so on...... It means that whoever is destined to bring the above noble appearances, in the dark, there are noble people to help, that is, blessed people.

For example, "Maxima" says: "A person sees Bingyin and Bingzi; Person B saw Ding Hai and Ding Chou; C people see Wuzi and Wuchen; Ding people see their own ugliness and self-esteem; Wu people see Gengzi and Gengshen; Xin people see 癸卯, 癸巳. It means to point out the year, month, day, and hour of birth, and whoever has such a conjunction. The year and the month are combined, and the first half of life is fulfilled; The day and the time coincide, and the second half of life is fulfilled; If the year is in season, then the whole life will be fulfilled...... By analogy, it is said that the lucky star is noble, the god of food is the same, and the law is blessed naturally. - This is also called Guiyu. If you compare and there is something inconsistent, who will you turn to reason?

For example, "The Theory of Searching for the Marrow" says: "Yin Shen Sihai Quan, angry for the five elements, is the third public." This means that if a person is born in the year, month, and day of his birth, he will be the life of a great official.

For example, "The Theory of Creation" says: "The meridian is full of five elements, and the text is a product, but it is inevitable that the wine will be unconscious." This means that if the birth year, month, day, and hour are complete, the article will crown the world, but it will inevitably be romantic. ——Seeing this, I can't help but be suspicious, and I really want to ask, which writer is Meridian Maoyouquan?

For example, "Bao Jianfu" said: "Chen Xu is not complete, the earth dwelling is in line with the four seasons, the four libraries are complete, it is said that the dragon is the sea, the noble Huang Shu, should be the respect of the ninety-five." This means that if the year, month, and day of birth are arranged in order, such as the Chen, Xu, Ugly, and Future, this is the best life in the world. - It's scary to put it that way. I wonder if there is such a person in the world today?

For example, "Jade Box" said: "The word Yinchen is a dragon and a tiger, and when people in this life call it a gathering of wind and clouds, the dragon roars and the tiger roars, and the blessing is the most prosperous." This is to say that those who are born in the year of birth and the words Yin and Chen are together, which is also called a little "mystery" hidden secretly. The Lord is blessed.

For example, "Luoluzi" cloud: "Yi Ding Xin sees the horse (noon), Ding Xin Xiang chicken (unitary), this is Zheng Langge, Tsinghua is wearing brocade clothes." "This means that whoever has B, D, and Xin in the year, month, and day of birth, will meet the word noon again; Where there are Ding, Xin, and Huang in the years, months, and days, and then encounter the unitary character, it is called an honest and honest official, and it is also the life of brocade clothes and jade food.

- If there is a corrupt official born in this year and this month, how can we explain it?

For example, "Xiangxin Fu" said: "When Jia Bing Geng meets Yin, Bing Geng Ren pushes to the middle, which is the first game of Jinyi, which is called a special gift of Jinyi." "This means that whoever is born with the words A, C, and G, will meet Yin again; or when the date of birth is C, G, and Ren again, it will be a good fortune and a good life.

For example, "Tianli Fu" said: "There is no poor Wuzi in the world, and there is no bitter Gengshen in the world." This means that a person born on the day of Wuzi and Gengshen is a person who will have food for the rest of his life and will not suffer. "Yuxiao Baojian" is another cloud: Gengshen, since the wood is the soul of the soul of the change, when the day of the living, like an extraordinary weapon.

Let me tell you, I once secretly checked the birth date of some acquaintances (that is, when indicating the date of birth)...... At night, when I can't sleep, I often think of the "plum village" in the song hall, and I am talking about the fake "plum village". If only I had her birthday. I'll be able to verify it. You think, she was only a month old, the tip of her nose was gnawed by mice, three months old, her ears were gnawed by pigs again, and she became a "escort" when she grew up...... Why is her life so miserable, why?! Is it just like what is said in "Dingzhen Fu": "The day and the year, the time and the month, the poor and lowly people all come out from here"? It's a pity that I don't have her "eight characters".

Frankly speaking, I have never found the key to unlock the science of horology, which is the so-called "method". It was as if I had fallen into a bottomless pit, trapped by the text trap of the ancients, and could never get out again. I was supposed to solve my confusion, but I let the "confusion" dismember me. During those months, I couldn't sleep night after night, and sometimes I felt that I was very close, very close, very close...... I'm about to take the crown jewel of physiognomy! However, when I opened my eyes, there were mountains of words in front of me, and I was dumbfounded.

Go deeper, read and read, read and read the absurdity:

For example, "Neutron in the Pot" said: Jiazhu is not Shen You, it is a broken word, hanging needle, and Jiazhu will damage the eyes; Failure to declare a heart disease. This means that if you have a person who has not completed the birth date, you may have eye damage or heart disease. This is simply because, such a glyph, and only because of the glyph, this is a "broken word" or belongs to a "hanging needle". - This kind of reasoning is really a bit far-fetched.

For example: "Dingzhen Fu" day: Ji Si Yi Si Ding Si people, named Qu Jiao, fate to meet the lord's wife. This means that the date of birth in the self, Yisi, and Ding Si are all interpreted in the glyph as "curved feet". Muster wounded his first wife. This kind of thing, once it is said, is hurtful. And it is absurd to use the glyph as the solution, which has nothing to do with fate.

…… Don't say it, right? I really don't dare to talk nonsense to you anymore. Maybe there will be a match, and if there is one and a half fulfillment, it will hurt.

To be honest, after reading so many books on horology and numerology, I raised my head and took a tight breath, but I still couldn't solve my doubts. Just like the book "Three Lives" said, in this world, from the numerology of yin and yang and the five elements, there should be ten days, which are the best and most prosperous days (I will not list them here). Numerology was developed by the ancients, if in a feudal society, the best life is the emperor, right? Then, those who were born in these ten days should have been the life of the emperor. However, looking through all the numerology, numerology books and examples, no emperor was born in these ten best and most noble days. Even people born on the same day, month, and year in the same year, or in the same mother, have very different fates, how can this be explained?

It can be inferred from this that the date of a person's birth does not affect a person's life. According to the theory of numerology, there are also the backs of great luck, the prosperity and decline of the passing years, and the coincidence of human chance. It can be seen that a person's acquired efforts are still very important.

There are so many words, and the ancient sages have spent so much effort to study it...... This is a paradox that can neither be proven nor falsified. The ancients, is there nothing to do? Perhaps, their doubts and incomprehension of fate are far greater than those of today. Perhaps, they have experienced too much suffering and sudden changes, and they are too afraid of the impermanence of fate, so they try to unravel it again and again. These words can only explain that in nature, the changes of the four seasons, the rise and fall of the aura or magnetic field of a certain place at a certain time, may have a certain impact on people.

However, when facing Liang Wufang, I was still a little confused that he could say such things. Is he divinistic? Where did he come from his divinity? Taking advantage of the opportunity I invited him to dinner, I once forced Liang Wufang to ask, and I said: Fifth uncle, tell me, who did you learn from and how did you calculate?

But Liang Wufang, squinting, no matter how he pressed to ask, he didn't spit out a word.

Later, I finally met Umemura.

A few years later, on a windy day, in a northern city, Meicun held a child in his hand and strode down a street......

That year, the wind and sand were strong, and on that road, the sky was gray, and I only saw a woman walking through the wind. At that moment, the whole world didn't exist, and it was like a gray curtain in front of me, and there was only this one woman in the curtain! A woman on the go. I had been looking for her for so long, and at this moment, she appeared. I froze. I was tempted to call her out...... Would like to. But I know in my heart that if I see Meicun again, it will be a disservice to her. I know that she has been divorced twice and is in the process of getting a third divorce...... This is something I can't accept. Then, all that's left is mercy.

yes, we can't go back. I can't go back to the past. Umemura can't go back.

I heard myself shouting: Plum Village...... But my throat was dry. I didn't shout anything. I just stood silent.

Umemura wrapped his head in a scarf and strode down the road, so to speak, I passed by Umemura.

That's not the Plum Village of the past. It was a woman with a resentful face, a middle-aged woman walking on the road. The child, who was about seven or eight years old, did not want to go, and she scolded angrily as she went...... She said loudly: Hurry up. How can you not die? But her hand was still holding the child's hand tightly.

I just stood on the side of the road stupidly and watched Plum Village walk past me...... She doesn't recognize me anymore. Just as Umemura passed me by, like an electric shock, it dawned on me that after many days, we were all looking for a cure for our fears. What exactly are you afraid of, that's not clear. I thought, perhaps, that Umemura was born to seek. She lives in the world to find a shoulder, or to put it more elegantly, to find a reliable harbor, a place where she is no longer afraid. But she didn't find it. Or rather, she's still on her way to search.

My thoughts stopped at this moment, and I didn't dare to go any deeper. I was carrying a chest with ninety-nine Abyssinian roses, dead and dry.

However, when she walked over, I was in a trance...... The person I saw just now, is she really Mei Village?

Later, when I saw the camel, he asked me, "Have you seen your plum village?"

I said, "See."

The camel said, "Did you send flowers?"

I was silent. The flowers have disappeared into the air...... If you owe it, you will never pay it back.

The camel said: Hang the ashes. Why are you so dead? Don't be so depressed. You know, when luck comes, the mountains can't stop it? He said, ", it's like picking up money, I made 10 million by peeing." After that, he talked eloquently again......

That was the last time I saw a camel, and two years later, the camel jumped off the eighteen-story building.