With the company of books, life will not be so difficult. During the day, you and Chen Kun chased me to work in the workshop, and after work, they hid on a small stool in the garden downstairs to read. It seems that only by opening the book can I temporarily forget the endless unknown and fear.

I wandered in the rich spiritual world of the authors, and I also enriched my soul.

Chen Kun's anxiety is still increasing day by day, and Li Xiuying's large number of books are obviously not so easy to read, and I secretly laugh in my heart every time I look at his resentful gaze.

What makes it difficult for us to understand is that Li Xiuying is very calm in the face of Chen Kun's anxieties. As if everything had nothing to do with her. still follow him out to work, eat together, and go back to the dormitory together.

Then she rushed into the dormitory and there was no response, no matter how strongly Chen Kun expressed her dissatisfaction in her heart, she was indifferent. It seems that it is the cold words in the book that are in love with her at this time, not Chen Kun, a flesh-and-blood person.

I can't comfort Chen Kun for his frustration, so I can only occasionally accompany him to the Internet café to play games, so that he can vent his unhappiness.

I also helped him convey his meaning, but Li Xiuying was still unmoved and firmly chose to be with her books. In this regard, Chen Kun and I were very puzzled, but we could only look at each other and be speechless.

For falling out of favor, Chen Kun spent a lot of time getting used to it, and I was getting better, and I didn't have more energy to take care of his feelings, so I could only let him slowly calm his own heart.

He also tried to read a book with us, and within five minutes he was snoring thunderily next to me. I was so frightened that I hurriedly snatched the book back from his hand, for fear that the saliva from the corner of his mouth would drip onto the book and desecrate these great spiritual miracles.

Time flies, and in a blink of an eye, the Spring Festival is approaching. Wu Kai informed me early, saying that he was staying in Shenzhen with his parents for the Chinese New Year, and asked me what my plans were.

At this time, I suddenly woke up from the world of knowledge, and my parents had already informed me that they did not plan to return to their hometown for the Spring Festival, as usual. Because the house in their hometown is about to collapse, they plan to save enough money to go home and renovate it.

They asked me to go to Zhejiang to reunite with them, but I was used to being lonely, so I didn't know how to get along with them at this time, so I had to refuse them on the grounds that I had few holidays.

I plan to stay in Shenzhen for a few days during the holidays, and during this time, I read books attentively, and I rarely have time to look up at the changes in the outside world, and I want to take advantage of the Spring Festival holiday to go around.

I also truthfully told Wu Kai about my plan, and as soon as Wu Kai heard that I planned to spend the New Year alone, he immediately exploded. scolded me on the phone, scolded me for being wolf-hearted, counted the ancestors, and in short, summoned all the pitiful bad words in his heart to me.

I knew what he was worried about, but what he didn't know was that I had grown accustomed to this loneliness. When I'm alone, I feel more comfortable.

After an hour of pestering on the phone, Wu Kai finally compromised, but asked me to have a reunion dinner with them on Chinese New Year's Eve. He didn't want to be reunited, and I was miserable and miserable in the dormitory alone. After I promised countless times that I would definitely go, he hung up the phone in a huff.

As soon as I hung up the phone, Dad Wu's phone immediately called, and I looked at the call reminder and actually had a trace of panic. I didn't know how to pick up the call, I didn't know how I was going to turn down his gracious invitation.

This scholar, who seems to be weak in literature, almost made up for my lack of fatherly love in my entire three years of high school. Regarding the fact that Wu Kai's learning ability is not good, as Wu's father and mother who are full of peach and plums, they already know it.

So they didn't force Wu Kai to read any grades, but kept persuading him to live and grow in the way he liked, and to be a sincere, warm, kind and real person.

As for me, one of the few friends Wu Kai can really make friends with in school, Wu's father has been at home since he first met me in the dormitory.

In addition to his care and help in daily life, he also gave me a lot of advice and suggestions on learning and growth. He kept encouraging me that knowledge is the best weapon to arm myself.

It's just a pity that with my vision and insight, I can't understand his eagerness at all. He even put aside his constructive opinions and made what he thought was the right choice.

Sometimes I even feel that he is more like my father than my own father, and for me, who has been lacking in father's love and is in adolescence, the appearance of Father Wu is undoubtedly a huge comfort. He is like a needle that has given me endless strength in my stormy youth.

When I learned that I had given up the college entrance examination, Dad Wu persuaded me a lot with great pity, but in the end he also chose to support my decision and provided me with great help after I came to Shenzhen with Wu Kai.

So when I saw Wu's father's phone, I hesitated, I couldn't refuse such a father-like existence as confidently as I rejected Wu Kai.

The phone kept vibrating in my hand, and the ringtone was like a knock on my soul, confusing my mind again and again. I took a deep breath and picked up the phone like a generous warrior.

Immediately, Wu's father's angry voice came from the phone: "Xiaoyuan, I heard Wu Kai say that you are celebrating the New Year in Shenzhen this year?" ”

I mumbled a syllable out of my nose, like a child caught doing something wrong.

"Then you came to the house with Xiao Kai, why are you still alone? Are you still afraid that your uncle and aunt won't give you food? ”

Father Wu's tone obviously began to hurry, this middle-aged man, who had always been calm, was obviously anxious at this time, and my vision suddenly became blurred.

I sniffed, tried to calm my emotions as much as I could, and then defended: "Uncle, I have been very busy at work during this time, and I often work overtime, so I want to take advantage of the holiday to have a good rest." ”

I didn't dare to tell him that I didn't want to go to their house for the New Year because I was worried about disturbing their family's reunion, and I didn't dare to let him know that I was afraid to see their family's reunion and feel that I was alone.

"You kid, you want to rest, can't you rest when you come to us? You came here and asked your aunt to cook something delicious for you, and make up for it for you, seeing that you and Kaikai are now eating takeout every day, what kind of nutrition can you have? ”

Listening to the earnest and warm care of this noble and arrogant intellectual, my inner defense began to crumble little by little. I kept taking deep breaths and trying to adjust my emotions, knowing that I couldn't compromise at this time.

I really don't have the courage to feel the warmth of another family in this festival of reunion, because I have been for a long, long time, so long that I can't remember how long I haven't experienced such a moment.

I remember that the last time my family reunited was when I was in elementary school, and I didn't have to face the reality of poverty at that time. Because I didn't have the concept of poverty in my head, and of course because the living conditions in the village were similar at that time.

At that time, my father was still in the Northeast, and my mother was still diligent and willing to take care of my sister and me at home, while managing those few acres of thin fields.

The family lives a life of eating by watching God's face, and when the year is good, they can barely maintain the living expenses of the family. When the year is bad, he can only rely on his father's meager salary to make up for it.

Still, material deprivation did not stop our family from living a happy life. When I was young, my sister and I didn't know what poverty was, and my mother had never seen a color TV, refrigerator, or washing machine, so our lives were very peaceful.

I still lead our gang to commit crimes everywhere in front of my child king every day, giving the elders in the village a headache when they see me.

And my sister is also quietly wandering in the love world woven by Qiong Yao for her, looking forward to a beautiful love life.

My mother was happy with the crops in the field and the growth of my siblings, and the occasional negative emotions came from when the neighbors complained to her.

In the ordinary life, the Spring Festival is undoubtedly a rare moment of celebration, my father ended his work early because of the heavy snow in the north and returned to us.

The mother began to prepare all kinds of New Year's goods, and the chickens, ducks, geese and rabbits that had been fed for a whole year were all spared, and the big fat pigs in the pigsty were naturally also indispensable delicacies on the chopping board.

My sister and I have new clothes and shoes, New Year's gifts from my grandparents and grandparents, etc., all under her control.

As Chinese New Year's Eve approaches and the purchase of various New Year's goods is completed, it is also essential to clean up the house inside and out.

And, of course, my favorite – "opening the barn and putting grain", where peanuts, walnuts and other dried fruits that have been hidden in the barn for months are taken out and supplied in unlimited quantities.

Of course, this amount also depends on how much I eat, and I remember that for several years when my mother remembered the shriveled snakeskin bag, she would "beat" me up "hard".

For me, a family thief, my mother naturally knew about it, so she accepted this ending calmly. Then she tried to borrow a little supplement from a neighbor's house, or go to her grandmother to support a little, so as not to be enough to support the whole Spring Festival.

The Chinese New Year's Eve dinner (we usually call it a reunion dinner) is cooked by his father, and his machismo makes him rarely go into the kitchen, only on such an important occasion as the Chinese New Year's Eve dinner, he will wear an apron and walk into the kitchen.

After a busy day with his mother, he served a variety of delicious dishes and filled the large dining table in the hall.

After paying homage to the ancestors, the grandparents gave an order, and everyone raised a glass together to celebrate this important festival together.

My grandfather passed away when I was seven years old, and my impression of him is very vague, the only thing I remember is that he would say a few words to everyone every year before the Chinese New Year's Eve dinner.

I can't remember exactly what I said, but the image of my grandfather wearing a brand-new tunic from my mother or aunts, holding black-rimmed glasses, has always been imprinted in my heart.

And grandma is one of the few sources of warmth in childhood, and her loving eyes always reveal full love. For my precious grandson, he loves me even more, whether there is delicious food or fun, he is close to me first.

As soon as twelve o'clock arrived, my father and uncle would take our children and nephews out to set off firecrackers, ending this ordinary year with the sound of firecrackers, and looking forward to the arrival of the new year.

Of course, there will inevitably be fireworks for us to have fun with. After the firecrackers, they returned to the dining table to continue drinking and chatting, while the elderly grandparents stopped continuing the vigil and went back to sleep in the house.

A few of our brothers and sisters continued to set off fireworks in the yard, and when all the fireworks in our hands were burned out, the part we were most looking forward to was the beginning of the New Year's money.

In the red envelopes that grandparents leave for their uncles to keep in advance, there are usually a few to a dozen yuan of new money. When you open the red envelope, you can still smell the fragrance of ink, and my uncle and aunt will generally give one to two yuan because they have been working at home.

Dad worked outside the home, and he was very close to his cousins, so he would give twenty or fifty yuan to the other siblings, depending on the mother's bill.

My sister and I have been ten yuan for ten years, but at this time I don't care about his ten yuan, because the next uncle's red envelope is what we are looking forward to the most.

Compared with his uncle and father, the young uncle obviously caught up with the better time, and the education after graduating from junior high school was also a little talent at that time. Coupled with a flexible mind, he started a small business in Chengdu and lived a well-off life early.

So naturally, his red envelope has become the most anticipated by several of our children, especially me, because I am the youngest boy in the family. When I was born, I just happened to catch my uncle to go out to work, so my uncle was very kind to me, and I instinctively got very close to him.

If nothing else, he'd give each of his other siblings a hundred dollars, and mine two or three hundred.

Although this money will be confiscated by my mother tomorrow morning, she said, "I'm afraid that I will spend it indiscriminately, so I will collect it and buy school supplies." "In the blink of an eye, it became the oil, salt, firewood and rice at home.

And as compensation for me, she usually gives me *** guns or two boxes of firecrackers on the morning of the first day of the new year.

From the second day of the Lunar New Year, my parents would take us to visit relatives and relatives, from grandparents to aunts and aunts. Naturally, I inevitably received some New Year's money, snacks and candies, which became the reason why I looked forward to the New Year.

Unfortunately, it all came to an abrupt end after that Chinese New Year. Since their parents left with their sister, they haven't returned, and this is five years.

I don't remember what it should be like when a family is reunited, and I don't dare to face Wu Kai and their family reunion alone. So I could only grit my teeth, harden my heart and firmly refuse Dad Wu, no matter how he persuaded me, I still refused to let go.

I think my expression must be very hideous, even a little hateful. But because I was afraid to face it, I had to persevere.

Father Wu seemed to understand my unkindness, and in the end, he could only tell me like Wu Kai that I must go over to reunite with them on Chinese New Year's Eve.

I could only nod my head in agreement, and then hung up the phone hastily, because by this time I was already in tears and couldn't cry.