Wu Kai saw that there was no topic of conversation between the few of us, so in order to avoid embarrassment, he greeted a few uncles and pulled me into his room.

As soon as he entered the room, he fell headlong on his big outrageous bed, which was decorated by Wu's mother with her own imagination when Wu Kai was still in his hometown.

I was really shocked when I first came and the whole room was cartoon style. The walls are full of animals, the beds are filled with the same style of stuffed animals, and even the sheets and duvet covers are Disney-style.

Looking at my misguided look, Wu Kai just shrugged his shoulders at me and said, "In my mother's eyes, I am still the same as when they left." ”

Although there are no plush toys on the bed now, the animals on the wall are still there, and you can vaguely imagine what it once looked like. You have a satisfied smile on your face, I guess he must be very happy and stable at this time.

This kind of feeling, which can only be felt by being around family, can give us enough security.

Just as I was looking at him in a trance, Wu Kai said leisurely: "Sometimes I am in a trance, I don't know if these are true, such a big house, such a big bed, so many people come to the house every day to give gifts." ”

Speaking of this, Wu Kai paused for a moment, and then continued: "But it seems that it has nothing to do with me, my parents can just buy me a set of clothes to catch up with half a month's salary." I should feel very happy, but I always feel that these things are far away from me, and my heart is very unsteady. ”

I snorted coldly and said, "You're almost done, you don't have to get cheap and sell well with me, if it were me, I would have been crazy with happiness." You still have time to pretend to be pitiful here, don't play like this. If you don't want it, talk to your parents and we'll swap them. ”

Wu Kai ignored me and continued: "I know I should be content now, but every time I come back here, it feels like another world. Do you know? I sometimes feel like my parents are a little scared of me, and they are a little too cautious in front of me. ”

At this time, there was obviously a trace of choking in his tone: "Maybe it's because you haven't been by my side all these years and feel indebted to me." But I hope that they will be like other parents, scold me for nothing, or even beat me, and I feel more comfortable. ”

When he said that, I suddenly understood. We left-behind children have the same problems as our parents, and the long-term separation has added a layer of estrangement between family relationships.

Just like I don't know how to get along with my parents, Wu Kai has the same problem with his parents.

When they were separated, he was only a few years old, and he was still a real child in the eyes of Wu's father and Wu's mother. And now he has grown half a head taller than Father Wu, and he has the world he needs to face.

No matter how hard we try, the time we faced alone in our childhood when we needed to be accompanied is no longer able to go back, and the lack of love can no longer be bridged.

Just as the two of us were immersed in the memories of the past, Wu's mother came in and called us out for dinner. By the time we came out, everyone had already settled around the table, and we quickly washed our hands and sat down.

Looking at a large table full of wine and food, it seems that I have suddenly returned to the dinner table of my childhood reunion.

Father Wu first poured everyone full of wine, and then raised his glass and said: "It's rare that a group of our fellow villagers can still get together in Shenzhen, and today there is nothing else to reunite with us for the New Year." Let's raise our glasses, and we'll do one together. ”

As soon as the words fell, the people at the table stood up in unison, and all the cups touched together with a crisp tapping sound.

This sound was like the sound of clinking glasses, like beating war drums, and the uncles who were very restrained just now instantly came to their senses. One by one, they took turns clinking glasses with Wu's father and Wu's mother, and their mouths were full of words of gratitude, in addition to thanking them for their hospitality, but also taking care of them at work every day.

Occasionally, my uncles would raise a glass to me and Wu Kai, encouraging us to work hard, and not forgetting to remind us to hurry up and talk about love, get married and have children as soon as possible. Wu Kai and I naturally nodded and listened the whole time, after all, in front of these simple folks, we really felt the sincerity in their words.

The atmosphere of the New Year warmed up little by little in the clinking of glasses again and again, and the dishes on the table did not move much, but the wine was drunk a lot. Wu's father and Wu's mother are both strong enough to drink, especially Wu's mother, although she is in the shopping mall, she rarely goes out to socialize, and Wu's father is responsible for the entertainment.

Their amount of alcohol is almost negligible in front of Wu Kai, and Wu Kai's alcohol volume doesn't know where it comes from.

From the first time I drank with him, I was deeply impressed by him, and sat down at the table alone, calm and idle. When everyone was almost drunk, he began to take the initiative, stirring up a war everywhere and then easily drinking a table of people.

With Wu Kai, the son of the wine barrel, almost all the wine given to Wu's father and Wu's mother in the back was blocked, and only occasionally I felt that it was difficult to be hospitable before I drank a glass.

After the wine was drunk, the natural emotions began to rise, and several uncles rushed to talk about the hardships of their wandering. Naturally, they inevitably expressed their gratitude to Wu's parents again, in their words, if it weren't for Wu's parents' take-in, it would be difficult for people like them who have little culture and are so old to find a livelihood.

And almost every one of them has a family behind them waiting for their income to live, elderly parents and young children. It can be said that everyone carries the fate of the whole family, and it is precisely because of Wu's father and Wu's mother's care for many years that they have a place to live and a foundation for their lives.

In their opinion, Wu's father and Wu's mother run such a big industry and are so approachable. Naturally, it is commendable, and the key is to take less care of them on weekdays, so this group of simple people will look restrained in front of them.

If it weren't for the alcohol, I don't think they would have been able to express what they were feeling. In their minds, the way they express their gratitude is by raising their glasses again and again, and then repeating the words of gratitude.

At first, Wu Kai also took it all as ordered, and slowly his eyes began to blur, it seems that his wine barrel can't withstand the enthusiasm of these uncles.

I can only be forced to help Wu Kai block the wine, I know my ability, at most I can only help buffer. But looking at the smiles on the faces of Wu's father and Wu's mother, I really can't bear to let such a warm atmosphere cool down.

Mother Wu, who is smart and blue, is also worried that the two of us will drink too much, and she keeps dissuading her. But the uncles rarely had the opportunity to confess their hearts to the people who had helped them immensely, and naturally they said they understood, but their hands were frequently toasted.

Under the combined effect of alcohol and the pride of the uncles, the atmosphere at the dinner table is getting more and more enthusiastic.

As the clock on the wall approached zero little by little, my heart became more and more nervous. According to the past practice, 0:00 is considered the first day of the new year, and I naturally want to pay a New Year's greeting to my parents.

But at this time, I suddenly lost the courage to call them, I was afraid to hear their voices, and I was afraid that their thoughts would become my stumbling block.

But I have some expectations in my heart, looking forward to hearing the familiar voice, looking forward to telling them what I miss.

The people at the table picked up their mobile phones one after another and dialed the most important people, wanting to be the first to send them good wishes when the New Year's bell rang.

I also took out my mobile phone, flipped out the address book and looked at the two words of dad on the address book in a silent daze, these two words once carried all my childhood thoughts.

I even thought it was a very happy thing to be able to shout these two words, and I used to envy other children to have their fathers by their side. But these two words were so heavy that they weighed on my heart like a mountain, and I couldn't breathe.

These two words give us a special sacred blood kinship, and they also determine the inheritance between us. However, because of the separation, because of the father's woodenness and indifference, there seems to be something between us all the time.

It is this kind of barrier that has always made me crave this family affection, and the more I want it, the more disappointed I am in my father's performance. Under the psychological effect of this kind of can't ask for it, it makes me want to stay away from them even more, away from the oppressive family atmosphere.

This is why I did not hesitate to follow Wu Kai to Shenzhen in the first place, although my mother spent a lot of time convincing me to stay with them in Zhejiang. So that they could take care of me and make up for the regret of not being by my side for a long time in the past, but in the end reason prevailed.

Wu Kai looked at me looking at my phone in a daze, snatched my phone, and then dialed it over. Soon I heard Wu Kailang shouting: "Uncle and aunt, Happy New Year, I wish you an early year." ”

In terms of handling interpersonal relationships, I am indeed inferior to Wu Kai, probably because of the relationship between my growth environment. Growing up in such a scholarly family, he was naturally exposed to the words and deeds of his grandparents, uncles and elders.

Although he can't be said to be exquisite, it does feel very easy to get along with him. He can take care of many details very well, but I often struggle with my own sluggishness in the world.

After arguing with my parents for a long time, Wu Kai finally handed me the phone and gave me an encouraging look by the way.

I took a deep breath: "Happy New Year, old man, I wish you a New Year." "Ah, Happy New Year, come here and tell your mother."

Unexpected, unreasonable answer. I've become accustomed to it, and there really isn't much to talk about between our father and son, almost everything is conveyed through my father, and naturally this time is no exception.

"Xiaoyuan, the New Year is fast." There was a mother's voice on the phone, a little urgent. I've probably been waiting for this call for a long time.

"Happy New Year, Mom." After saying that, my consciousness suddenly went blank, and I didn't know what to say next.

Fortunately, at this time, my mother's voice came from the phone again: "Are you at Kaikai's house now?" ”

"Hmm"

"Be diligent in other people's homes, don't let your uncles and aunts laugh at you."

"Well, I know"

"Did you go to their house to buy something?"

"Bought"

"Then how much money did you spend, and do you still have any money? Do you want my sister to send some money to spend it? ”

"No, I have money"

"If you have money, you have to save some money, you can earn money now and know how hard it is to earn money. Save a little for yourself and save some money. ”

"Okay, I got it"

"Then you go to dinner, help me and my uncle and aunt bring a good one"

"Okay, goodbye mom"

"Goodbye"

I hung up the phone with a sense of relief, but my heart felt like it was empty. Although such an outcome was expected, when it really happened, the heart was inevitably hurt again.

I silently closed my phone and nodded at Wu Kai, signaling that his mission was completed. Wu Kai naturally saw my loss, patted me on the shoulder, picked up our glasses and touched them, and then handed me a full glass of wine.

I squeezed out an ugly smile and gasped as I looked at the wine in his hand, which was already overflowing. Wu Kai tilted his head, and then drank the wine in his hand, I felt like the duck that was driven to the shelf.

But at this time, I couldn't think about it anymore, so I could only stubbornly pass the glass in my hand to my mouth, and then tilt my head and pour all the wine into my mouth.

Suddenly, a spicy sensation began to spread between my mouth and nose, and I settled down and swallowed the wine in my mouth into my stomach with difficulty. The spicy sensation follows the esophagus, all the way down, sliding through the stomach, passing through the intestines, and finally staying in the lower abdomen.

As expected, after this glass of wine, I was instantly dizzy, and I felt that my body was out of control all of a sudden. The last trace of sobriety made me find a meaningful smile on Wu Kai's face.

I think he probably figured out that I was going to behave like this before he poured the drink. I took two deep breaths, trying to keep myself awake. But my increasingly blurred vision made it clear to me that all my efforts were meaningless in the face of alcohol.

Wu Kai poured me a drink, and I drank it in one gulp, and the feeling of dry mouth went down a little, and my consciousness also recovered a little.

I glared at Wu Kai viciously, he also knew it and didn't respond. Probably to see that I could still have an expression and know that I was okay, he turned around and went to drink with a few uncles with a glass.

Just after midnight, sporadic firecrackers rang out from time to time, reminding us that this is a special day called Chinese New Year's Eve.

In this way, I sat down in my seat, trying to keep myself awake. Wu Kai kept clinking glasses with a few uncles, and Wu's father and Wu's mother were busy serving food and pouring wine for everyone.

The noise continued until the second half of the night, and I couldn't know what time it was, and Wu Kai gently pushed me while half-asleep. I saw that several uncles had already gotten up and were ready to leave, although Wu's father and Wu's mother sincerely retained, but they had already made up their minds.

In the end, everyone could only get up and send them out, came to the side of the national highway to stop two cars, and asked the driver to send them to the dormitory safely. Dad Wu called his colleagues on duty in the company again, and explained that they would go back after a while to help settle them, and the four of us turned around and went back.

Although it was already the second half of the night, the sky was still lit up by exploding fireworks from time to time, accompanied by the sound of explosions. Wu Kai pulled my hand over his shoulder, his face full of unease.

I pulled my hand out and patted him on the shoulder, signaling to him that I was fine. I deliberately slowed down and fell a little behind Wu's father and mother, Wu Kai guessed that I had something to say, and also slowed down. Wu's father and Wu's mother didn't care, and walked straight towards the depths of the community.

I took out my cigarette, threw one to Wu Kai, and sat down on a marble bench on the side of the road. Wu Kai also followed, sat next to me, took the lighter in his hand, and lit a cigarette for me.

I took a deep puff and tried to spit out a smoke ring, but it didn't work. Watching the smoke rise little by little under the reflection of the street lamp, and then slowly disperse, the resentment in my heart seemed to be dissipated along with the smoke.

"Kaizi, thank you. Really, if it weren't for you and my uncle and aunt, I really can't imagine what I'm doing at this time, I guess I'm already broken down now. I really envy you, envy a family like yours, father and son, filial piety, family harmony and beauty. ”

Wu Kai ignored my affection, took two deep puffs of his cigarette, then threw the cigarette on the ground and crushed it with his foot. Then he picked me up and said, "Don't talk nonsense, what's mine is yours, you don't have to be envious, just make this your home if you like it." Let's go, go back to sleep, I drank a little too much today and have a terrible headache. ”

After speaking, he couldn't help but pull me to the house, looking at the two figures that gradually became clear under the street lamp, at this moment, I seemed to really have a home.