When the basin bottomed out, the two of us hiccuped and stroked our stomachs. We looked at each other for a moment, then laughed in unison again.

We didn't eat at night, and we were really hungry, so we didn't care about anything. After eating it, I realized that we seemed to be a little too indulgent just now.

After sitting and resting for a while, feeling a lot more comfortable, we got up and left. Eating and drinking, we held hands and strolled through the streets under the moon.

The dim street lamps, the dappled light and shadow, the two happy villains each have their own thoughts, walking slowly. The ten fingers that clasp together us tightly, but it seems that something is between us, blocking us.

I didn't know how to take the initiative to stir up the topic, the cruel reality was in front of me, and I couldn't avoid it, and I couldn't change it in a short time.

Yaoyao just kept smiling at me, but didn't say a word. She had a relaxed expression and a resolute gaze, following my steps closely, without hurrying or slowing.

I knew I should say something to break the silence between us, but my mind was in a mess and I didn't have a complete idea.

Although after the last time Wu Kai and Wu's father explained, I have made a decision in my heart, no matter what, I must stick to this relationship.

But now I can't make commitments, I can't take responsibility, and I suddenly feel like I'm not a good place to be.

I know that in an uncertain future, I will always strive to move forward, but I am afraid that my efforts will not be rewarded as she wants, and I will not be able to become the person who can give her a future.

Now I am enjoying the sweetness of love, but I am worried that I will lose her one day. Wandering between these two emotions all day long, I can't live in fear.

I am now desperate for Yaoyao's encouragement and support, her recognition and affirmation, and her commitment to our future.

She has become an inseparable emotional support for me, and I have written her into all my future stories and imaginations.

The bright moonlight hazy the night, and my thoughts wandered between this vast heaven and earth. Shining like a star in the lights of the night sky, I wish there was a light that belonged to us.

"What do you think, frowning so tightly?" Yaoyao's sudden opening dragged me back. It seems that I didn't manage my emotions well and let my expression betray.

"It's okay, if you think of something unhappy, I'll adjust it, and I'll be fine in a while." I replied with a wry laugh.

"What is unhappy, saying it makes me happy." I thought that Yaoyao would comfort me after listening to my words, but I didn't expect this guy to make fun of me.

"Are you sure you're going to base your pleasure on my pain?" I gritted my teeth and asked her word by word.

"Hey, I just wanted to share your feelings." Yaoyao stopped, reached out and pinched my face.

Seeing that I was still staring at her angrily, I added: "Really, you have to believe me, I am a good person." ”

After speaking, he nodded to himself and affirmed: "Well, yes, I am a good person." ”

For her self-affirmation that there is no silver here, I felt a burst of amusement in my heart, and the gloomy mood just now was instantly disturbed by her.

Rubbing her hair, she said, "Hahaha, I believe in you, you are a good person." ”

She looked at me with a serious look on her side, biting her lip as if to make sure there was some sincerity in my words. It wasn't until I restrained my smile and nodded with a serious face that I restrained my momentum.

I opened my arms, and she obediently got into my arms when she saw this, and I lowered my head and whispered in her ear, "Thank you, I feel better now." ”

"You're welcome, if you are unhappy in the future, just tell the eldest brother, the eldest brother will cover you."

This guy, relying on himself to be a few months older than me, greets me as a younger brother every day, and thinks of himself as a good big brother at every turn.

The point is, I can't refute it yet, so I can only swallow this breath and let her be arrogant and arrogant in front of me.

The grievances in my heart are greater than the Pacific Ocean, but what can I do, people are in love and find a girlfriend, I would rather find a big brother to fall in love.

"Big brother, it's still early, where are we going next?"

"Let's go, big brother will take you to the road."

"Pressing the road? Crushed you to accompany you? I don't care. ”

"Don't grind, just follow me."

This is the momentum of the eldest brother, which instantly shocked my sense of resistance that had just surged, and I could only obediently bow my head and follow behind the eldest brother.

The lights were bright, the pedestrians were weaving, Yaoyao went all the way, and I followed closely. After walking for a long time, until I began to wonder if she was planning to sell me to the market, she finally stopped in front of a square.

The first time I saw this square, the huge square was bustling with people, so it was not lively. I don't know why she brought me here suddenly, and I was about to ask her when she got up and walked into the square.

I could only continue to follow her, towards the depths of the square. Yaoyao led her way through the crowd and sat down in the back corridor.

Seeing this, I had no choice but to sit next to her, and she took off her shoes and rubbed her feet. It seems that she has had a hard time, but even so, she insisted on bringing me here, and I can already guess what is going to happen.

However, Yaoyao didn't speak, just continued to rub her feet. I put down the bag in my hand and squatted in front of her, helping her relax her already stiff calves and soles.

Yaoyao bit her lip lightly, trying to maintain the calmness of her expression, but her slightly trembling legs still made me feel her pain. I could only lighten the force in my hand and help her rub her stiff muscles repeatedly.

I rubbed it for a long time, until my hands were sore, and she whispered, "It's okay, you can get up." ”

I knew she felt sorry for me, so I smiled at her, and my hand didn't stop. In fact, in a relationship, sometimes the real pain does not come from hurt and separation, but precisely the helplessness and powerlessness of love in companionship.

For example, at this time, I know that she is very tired and hard, but what she can do is very limited. So I can only continue to move my hands to reduce my psychological burden.

Seeing that I insisted, Yaoyao stopped stopping it, probably because my current actions really relieved her pain.

"I think you seem to have something on your mind lately, do you want to share it with me?" Yaoyao still spoke, and there was no euphemism, no detour, and she went straight to the core.

I opened my mouth, but I didn't make a sound, and when it came to my mouth, I didn't know how to get it out. I knew that she would be able to see my abnormality, even though I had tried to hide it.

It's just that at this time, I can't tell her about the chaos in my heart, the gains and losses, and I can't tell her my panic about the future.

"Is it our relationship that is bothering you?" Seeing that I didn't speak, Yaoyao continued to ask.

"No, of course not." I quickly excused myself, and then I tried to continue, but I fell into a speechlessness again.

"What's that, I see you've been worried lately, and I want to help you. But I don't know what you're going through, and I can't help if I want to. ”

Yaoyao's tone was a little helpless and anxious, and her eyes were full of eagerness and expectation. I can understand how she is feeling now, and of course I know how uncomfortable it is.

"I'm just worried, worried about our future, worried that I won't be able to give you happiness." I tried to keep my tone calm and not a little wavering.

After listening to my words, Yaoyao smiled "poof", then held my face and said to me with a serious face: "Fool, I don't need you to give me my future, and we need to create the future together." As for happiness, it's enough to have you. As long as I have you by my side, I am already very happy, so your worries are unnecessary. ”

Actually, I had expected her to say this, but her words did not make me feel less uneasy in the slightest, or even made me more uneasy.

Her understanding and tolerance did not become a reason for me to relax, but made me feel more urgent and more eager to prove myself.

In fact, Wu Kai and I have more children from the countryside like us, and we all have an innate inferiority complex in our hearts.

Especially in the face of Yaoyao and their children who grew up in the city, this inferiority complex is even stronger.

Although we don't want to, and we don't want to admit it, we instinctively feel that we are at a disadvantage when facing them.

So although I have always been relaxed and happy with Yaoyao, I always unconsciously put myself in a lower position, always hoping to make up for this gap by taking care of her.

So the more tolerant she is, the more I feel like I need to do more and the bigger the gap that needs to be filled. All my efforts were to hope that I could look at her at the same level, not look up.

The bustling city has always been a place we yearn for, as if as long as we enter the city, we have infinite possibilities.

Therefore, when the spring breeze of reform blew all over the motherland, countless young people rushed into the cities.

People like my parents and their generation spent half their lives adapting to life in the city, but they didn't fit in.

Our generation is younger, more cultured, and more accepting of everything in the city. But in essence, we still haven't left the countryside, we haven't left the countryside.

We have all kinds of identities in the city, but in our bones we all have a unified identity - peasants. We tried hard to get rid of this identity, but we couldn't let go of that local friendship.

We are desperately working in the city, trying to put down roots here, but it is difficult to integrate into the social life here.

We are still huddled in a small circle of classmates, colleagues, and fellow villagers, and we use the meager salaries we earn for our labor to maintain relative dignity in the city.

But no matter how hard you try, everything around you is constantly reminding you that you don't belong here. All your efforts are in vain, and in the end you will have to leave.

In the days I have spent with Yaoyao, I have always had such a voice in my heart reminding me that I am not from the same world as her.

So my heart is always full of fear and insecurity, and I always want to work hard to prove, to make amends, to catch up.

I can't tell her any of this, so I can only fight with myself in my heart and work hard by myself.

So when she said these words, my heart couldn't be calmed even more, and I became more entangled and struggling.

Yaoyao's meaning is very clear, she is love first, I guess that's why she chose me.

In fact, I also hope that I can relax and enjoy the sweetness of love, but the reality makes me have to think more.

The life of my father made me have a deep fear of poverty, and I am well aware of the limitations and hurt of feelings caused by a barren life.

I was still trying to convince myself to accept Yaoyao's point of view, and she had spoken again.

"I know you're under a lot of pressure, and I've seen your hard work and motivation during this time, remember I told you before why I chose to be with you?"

Yaoyao brings up the old story, of course I remember this, and this is why I have always been very glad that I left a good first impression on her.

Of course, this is also inseparable from the environment in which I grew up, although that land did not give me a rich material life, but it carved kindness and simplicity into my blood and bones.

That's why she didn't show her naked desire when she met Yaoyao, and it also gave her the opportunity to see a more sincere me.

"Actually, at first I just thought your eyes were very clear and clean, not as naked as when other people looked at me."

Yaoyao obviously didn't really want to test whether I remembered her reasons, she gave the answer herself, and she was looking at me with a sincere face at this time.

Because I was still squatting in front of her and massaging her legs and feet, she looked down at me with a resolute look in her eyes and a somewhat serious expression.

"Later, when I got along with you, I slowly discovered more advantages in you, you are sincere, kind, and motivated. Of course, you are still very filial, although you rarely mention your parents, but I can see that you have always been very concerned about them. ”

Her eyes were like torches, and she had an accurate insight into my heart. Although the relationship between me and my parents has always been cold, the blood and family relationship that is thicker than water still makes us miss and care about each other.

As for the rest of her comments, I didn't feel particularly strongly about it myself, and I wasn't sure if she was telling the truth or just to comfort me.

However, when I hear others praise myself, especially if this person is still someone I like, my heart is naturally happy.

"We are all still young, the future is endless, as long as we work together, we don't have to worry about the future. You don't have to take all the responsibility on yourself, after all, this is the future of the two of us, not your own. ”

After saying that, he didn't forget to use his hand hard and pinched my face, which was a small warning to me. Yaoyao's words were like a heart booster injected into my body, making my blood gush hard.

As always, Yaoyao always gave me the greatest emotional care when I needed it, and her words also gave me more expectations for the future.

After receiving Yaoyao's affirmation and support, my heart settled down, and I stood up and hugged her in my arms. Yaoyao was also very obedient and let me hold her tightly, letting me enjoy the peace and tranquility at the moment.