The sudden alarm clock interrupted our laughter, Yaoyao didn't sleep well that night, and her eyes were bloodshot.

She has been holding on, acting as if she is very energetic, but the tiredness and sluggishness revealed in her eyes still let me see her weakness.

This beautiful woman like a poem, in this best of years, should have enjoyed the care of her parents carefree.

Because of my accident, she had to endure the pain I had imposed on her, and my heart was full of guilt and self-blame.

I gently cupped her haggard face and pressed my lips on her forehead.

"Why don't you tell your little uncle, take a leave of absence to rest here today, and see that your eyes are as red as a rabbit."

"It's okay, I'm not sleepy, it's a big deal to wait until the company sleeps again." Hurry up and wash up and go to work, don't be late. ”

At this time, I haven't forgotten to be stubborn, and I don't plan to be polite to her, and bring the mirror on the cabinet to her.

Seeing herself in the mirror, Yaoyao was also obviously frightened, and looked at it in a daze for a long time. In the end, he suddenly sighed like a deflated ball, and without hesitation, he picked up his mobile phone and sent a message to his uncle.

After a while, the phone call from my little uncle came, and Yaoyao told her that she was not feeling well and asked for leave to rest.

The little uncle also asked the aunt to come and see her, but she was blocked by Yaoyao with a "old problem", and just told her to rest well.

It seems that everyone in the family knows about her "old problem", which also makes my heart gloomy for a while, how much pain she has experienced to make everyone accept this powerlessness.

"You can sleep here, and I'll buy you something to eat at noon." I had already changed my clothes and was about to go out, and whispered to Yaoyao.

"You go to work and leave me alone. I'll go home and sleep by myself, and you can rest at noon, so you don't have to run back. ”

Yaoyao responded to me and carefully arranged my collar, this picture has appeared countless times in my dreams. But when it really happened, I didn't have the joy of a dream coming true, but added a lot of worries.

"Obedient, just sleep here, don't run around. You haven't slept well all night, and when I'm gone, you can go to bed quickly, and I won't buy you breakfast. If you wake up hungry, there's still biscuits in the cupboard. ”

I opened the bedside cabinet, there were still a few packs of snacks that Yaoyao bought for me, I didn't want her to toss back and forth, so I could only let her take snacks to satisfy her hunger.

"Well, okay, you go quickly, you should be late for a while."

Yaoyao reminded me quietly, then kissed me on the cheek and pushed me out the door.

Although he was reluctant, in order to live, he could only walk towards the factory step by step.

I had been grinding at home for too long, and the time was already running out, so I had to run and move forward. When I rushed to the door of the workshop panting, my colleagues swarmed out of the workshop.

Before I could ask what was going on, I was pulled outside by Chen Kun, who was squeezed out of the crowd. When I walked out of the distance, Chen Kun told me mysteriously that there was a power outage and I had a holiday today.

When I heard this, I was secretly happy in my heart, this is really God help me. didn't have time to explain to Chen Kun, so Sa Yazi rushed towards the road where he came.

Just now, he was panting like an old cow after plowing ten acres of land, but he walked like a fly, and he didn't feel tired at all.

I came downstairs, bought a bunch of breakfast, and went upstairs with it in my hand. Standing in the doorway, my heart pounding rapidly.

Imagine what Yaoyao would look like when she opened the door and saw me, and the corners of her mouth unconsciously grinned at the back of her neck.

I tiptoed open the door, thinking that Yaoyao was sleeping soundly, but I didn't want her to be cleaning me inside and out with a mop.

I was also surprised to see that I opened the door and came in, and was bending down to drag her, and saw that my face was not good, as if I realized something.

Hurriedly came up with a smiling face, and then asked me in a low voice: "Why did you come back, didn't you go to work?" ”

I snatched the mop from her hand and set it aside, then slapped her on the ass. Gritting his teeth, he asked her word by word, "What am I asking you to do at home?" ”

She was beaten and was fighting back, but when she heard my words, she immediately became angry. Squeezed out a smile that was more ugly than crying, and said to me miserably: "Am I not unable to sleep? Seeing that your house is a little dirty, I'll clean it up for you. ”

Let her say this, but embarrassed. Whispering to her if she was hungry, she looked at the breakfast in my hand and nodded slightly.

I was trying to let her go out to eat after washing, only to find that the family didn't prepare a towel or toothbrush for her. I had to ask her to wait for me at home, so I quickly ran downstairs and bought her a new one.

By the time she had washed up, I had already taken out all the breakfast and put it on the table. Steamed porridge, soy milk fritters, fried rice noodles, in short, I bought a breakfast that I could see downstairs.

Yaoyao was not polite, picked up a bun and took a bite of it, as if she had some deep hatred with the bun. I quickly pushed the porridge in front of her and reminded her to eat slowly.

He swallowed the bun in his mouth, picked up the spoon and drank two sips of porridge. I watched from the sidelines, and I only felt frightened, the girl's appetite is so easy to feed.

I thought I had bought too much breakfast, but under Yaoyao's stormy attack, there was not much left. She burped, only to find that I didn't move, just looked at her stunned.

He smiled awkwardly, and then asked me, "Why don't you eat it, you eat it too." ”

When she returned to the table, she realized that she had eaten almost all the food she could eat, and the little scrap left was of no edible value.

Yaoyao, who was already embarrassed, was even more embarrassed now, her little face flushed, and she twisted and buried her head. I got up and put the table away, then took her little hand and led her into the room, looked at the bed, and motioned for her to go to sleep.

Yaoyao pouted, pointed to her slightly bulging belly and said, "I've just eaten enough, you let me rest, it's not good for my stomach to sleep now." ”

I thought about it for a moment, and she seemed to be right, but not reluctantly. He pulled her to sit on the edge of the bed, and then suddenly realized something.

"Didn't you eat last night?"

"I ...... all day yesterday"

Halfway through the conversation, she realized that she had lost her words, Yaoyao quickly stopped talking, and her words immediately made me figure out all the links yesterday.

This guy must have not eaten all day and wanted to find me to eat with him at night, but he never found me.

Thinking of the way she gobbled up just now, I slapped myself hard in the face, and the hot pain came, but it didn't make my guilt lighten in the slightest.

raised his hand and wanted to slap himself, but his hand was hugged by Yaoyao. She caressed my already reddened cheeks in distress, and tears flowed down her eyes again.

"Are you stupid, why are you beating yourself, does it hurt?"

Tears had already blurred my eyes, and I didn't speak, shaking my head and taking her into my arms. I can't describe how I feel at the moment, let alone excuse myself from self-blame.

If everything that happened last night had already hurt me, then when I knew that Yaoyao had been hungry and waited for me for a day yesterday, I didn't seem to feel anything.

I didn't feel a trace of pain, but I was so numb that I couldn't breathe and I didn't have consciousness. I just hugged her tightly, trying to use my strength to give her an answer.

I want to use this weakest expression to convey the strongest love, but even if I try to breastfeed, I still can't alleviate my guilt.

"I'm sorry, it's all my fault, I made you hungry for a day, and you have to worry about being afraid."

"It's none of your business, it's my own crankiness that makes me like this, it's my own stupidity. You must not hurt yourself again, it's really none of your business. ”

Yaoyao rubbed my cheek and comforted me, her tone slow, obviously carefully considering her words in her heart.

Looking at her cautious appearance, my heart was already flooded, and I couldn't capture a little emotion from my heart.

"I should have believed you, if I trusted you enough, it wouldn't have happened, so I don't allow you to hurt yourself again. You're punishing yourself for my mistakes like this and it's only going to make me feel worse, you know? ”

I didn't expect that at this time, not only did she not blame me, but she also used herself as a reason to excuse me.

I don't know if what she said about the crisis of confidence is true, but if I had been able to tell her when I got home yesterday, none of this would have happened.

I didn't dare to mention this matter, knowing that what I had made this time was an irreparable mistake, and no matter how much I did, I couldn't get the four hours I disappeared yesterday back to Yaoyao's side.

And everything Yaoyao experienced in those four hours can't be made up for, and I'm so numb that I don't feel it anymore.

My mind was also blank, and I didn't know what I should say or do next. Yaoyao in my arms was still sobbing softly, and the hand that caressed my face never stopped.

I couldn't do anything but hug her tightly, I couldn't do anything. I want to comfort her, I want to give her a sense of security, I want to review my mistakes with her, I want to admit my mistakes.

But these words were brewing in my heart for a long time, and at last I could not say a word, because I knew that the more I said now, the more she would blame herself.

We just sat on the edge of the bed, letting time pass over our sorrows, leaving wounds of varying depths.

I never imagined that one day there would be a girl who would not think about it because of me. I didn't come, I didn't dare to hope that one day I could meet a girl like Yaoyao who thought about me everywhere.

Her appearance satisfies all my imagination of the other half, she is beautiful and generous, smart and smart, mature and wise.

She would be careful to maintain my self-esteem and point out my problems harshly when I made mistakes.

She will take care of me in all aspects like a big sister, and she will hide in my arms like a wronged child and be sad alone.

She can follow me up and down the mountains and rivers in sneakers, and she will also wear high heels and follow my uncle to fight with the supplier.

She will realistically ask the aunt who sells vegetables for a discount of two cents, and she will also look forward to the future poetry and distance.

She is jealous of evil, but she also has a good heart;

She is in a hurry all day long, but she can be calm and calm when encountering problems;

She treats people like fire, but she can always maintain the right amount of proportion;

Her excellent appearance doomed her to face many temptations, but she always stayed true to her heart.

In the face of her excellence, I feel more and more like a clown. A clown who uses arrogance to cover up his inferiority complex, uses love as an excuse, but uses selfishness to hurt all the people around him who love him.

Remorseful and tears raining down, I reflected deeply on myself, and kept tearing the scars in my heart.

I don't know what to do, and I go deep. I don't know why we fell in love with each other, but the crowd was attracted to her at first sight.

I have always wanted to give her a happy and bright future, but I always inadvertently hurt her the deepest.

The past is vivid, but the future is out of reach.

In our finite yesterday, I have always been the one who took it, I have been the one who was given. And Yaoyao has always been the giver, she has been continuously transmitting energy and love to me.

While enjoying the happiness and stability she brought me, I assumed in my heart that I could give her happiness in the future, but I always neglected to take care of her in the present.

Because of low self-esteem, because of cowardice, because I can't face the unbearable in front of me, I have been choosing to escape.

I bet all my happiness on tomorrow, on the future, on the invisible hope and the untouchable vision.

I always believe that I have a great future, always hope that tomorrow will happen a miracle, and always promise the future.

But looking at Yaoyao, who was constantly sobbing in my arms at this time, I was grief-stricken. How can those stories of tomorrow and the future, those promises and expectations, those stories that will or will never happen, soothe the pain in the heart at this time?

The tomorrow I promised, how can I comfort Yaoyao, who is sad now, I think she must not have chosen to believe and love because of my promises.

I'm not even sure if I was the right choice to be in her life, or if it was the right choice for her to fall in love with someone as dangerous as me.

"Are you hungry, I have eaten all the breakfast just now, and you haven't eaten a bite." I was thinking about it when Yaoyao suddenly opened her mouth.

If I'm still in the mood to eat at this time, then my heart will be too big, and I shook my head gently.

"I ate it when I was downstairs, and the ones I just bought were for you." I told a little lie.

Yaoyao's eyes confirmed, and when she saw that I was really looking at her intently, she believed me. Then he covered his mouth and yawned, apparently sleepy.

I gently put her on the bed and motioned for her to close her eyes, and this time she didn't refuse, but obediently closed her eyes.

I sat next to her and watched her, the emotions in my heart were regathering little by little, and the sorrow was hanging over me.

She tried hard for a while, but she didn't fall asleep, then opened her eyes and said, "I can't sleep, can you sleep with me in your arms?" ”

I nodded yes, lay down next to her, put my hand on her pillow, and put my arm around her waist. The action is done in one go, and the car is familiar with the road.

She also put her hand on my hand on her waist, and after a while, there was a snoring sound, I didn't expect me to have such a powerful sleep aid function.

When I saw that I was going to sleep, I was about to get out of bed, but I didn't expect that as soon as I raised my hand, she twisted her body. I was so frightened that I quickly stopped my movements, gently closed my eyes and fell asleep with her.