Doubts - Chapter 4.3
"You're such a monster. That bear man was right about you. She growled. Then it dawned on her that Andrx was right about Seif. Him? No, Sev is too sweet. Her Sephie was too good to be like this. He's not......
Deanna couldn't stop the tears welling up in her eyes. She had to cover her mouth with her hands so as not to make a sound. If the bearman is right, Sev should be killed? The thought was enough to break her. She already felt the loneliness creeping in again, and that loneliness was only eliminated when she took care of that cute little thing. The image of Sef being strangled ignited her imagination, and then he was stoned to death, or beheaded. Each time, she imagined what his lifeless corpse, his skinny arms and legs, lifeless eyes stared at. It would be fair. He's a little monster.
She didn't notice the kick coming, and when it hit her, it was enough to shatter the air in her lungs and throw her five paces to the ground. Another invisible kick cracked her skull, and a white, blinding pain sent her gasping and writhing.
"Cheer up, girl!" Agunn shouted. The woman's voice pierced through the gloom in her mind, almost waking her up. Aguna didn't sound desperate or scared at all; On the contrary, she sounds confident.
Deanna wiped the water from her eyes and rolled over to her feet. That's when the wolf sca
Walked out of the house. His light illuminates everything and distracts the demon, who seems to be completely obsessed.
The little bird child flew to Agunn and shouted, "Mother, I see Gabi! She's all right!"
"Of course, you little nasty!" We need you to make the light. Look at Deanna!" That's what happens when you run away like this. Arguna said, shaking her finger angrily at the little fairy. The little fairy looked terrified when she saw Deanna's wounds.
"We need Daddy!" The fairy thought for a moment and said.
"Stay here and make a fire, you abominable little bat!" Do you think mom doesn't play tricks? Well? Agnn asked.
"Ate it." The demon said, eyes fixed on the wolf sca
。 He walked around Agn, ignored her completely, and leaped to his feet to catch the birdboy. Wolf sca
He screamed, sounding a bit like an eagle's call, and barely flew in time. The demon jumped a few more times, then screamed in rage. It foamed at the mouth and slashed wildly around itself with its claws and tail, with no target.
Deanna dispelled the last haze, ignoring the pain in her body, and then ran to the demon and killed him while he wasn't looking. But before she could approach him, Agunn stepped forward gracefully, somehow avoiding the demon's claws and tail, and gently patted the demon's shoulder. The woman said something that Deanna couldn't understand, and a subtle force swept over her.
The demon immediately stopped moving, straightened up, and looked around with a puzzled face. He slowly turned around and looked around. He opened his mouth, baring his teeth, but there was no growl in his mouth. The demon was completely stunned.
Aguna sighed heavily, then bent down, put her hands on her knees, and gasped. Then she stood up again, nodded at Deanna, pointed at the demon, and made a motion that sounded like ripping off a chicken's head.
Deanna did not act immediately; For a moment, she was contemplating whether she was prepared to take another person's life. It didn't take much thought, though; This is not human. There is no love and kindness in him, only madness and viciousness, like the most ferocious beast. The feeling of his presence is enough to confirm this.
Agunn nodded more resolutely at the shadow, which looked around blankly, as if he didn't know where he was. He didn't even look like he was really seeing anything. It made him less scary. Deanna took a few deep breaths to focus and balance her energy. Then, she focused all her strength on her fists, what her father called "stone punches," and began to throw punches.
It has no connection. The demon instinctively stepped back, her punch dangling in the air. Their eyes met, and she saw consciousness flash back to them. She had waited too long.
"Do it again!" She shouted in despair and threw a few more punches; Most hit, but none were strong enough to cause damage. The demon regained consciousness and blocked her attack with a look of disgust on her face.
"It's not that easy!" Agunn shouted, not so much despair as anger.
"Anyway, do it!" Deanna replied. The demon turned to attack Agunn, but Deanna took advantage of the opportunity to kick him right in the ribs, throwing him off balance and nearly knocking him out. He yelled at her, a wordless cry that a baby might make.
He slowly walked towards her, his whole demeanor becoming more focused, he crouched slightly, his arms ready, his mouth wide open, revealing his sharp teeth. She feigned a low kick and tried to slam the demon's jaw, hoping to knock him out, but he waited for her.
He grabbed her fist with one arm, then approached her and picked her up before she slipped away. She jerked back, but he grabbed it, and when he saw his opening, he bit her neck and twisted to tear it away.
Only her training saved her. She instinctively tensed her neck, from her skin to her bones, exerting all her strength. The days of being stabbed with spears in those years were still good after all.
The demon wouldn't let go, biting and writhing to rip her neck off. Deanna twisted and poked his hands and wrists, but she couldn't escape.
Aguna crept over from behind, patting the demon's face intently as she had done before.
He froze, and Deanna pushed him away. He fell backwards, the back of his head slamming against the frozen dirt, and Deanna felt a thump in her stomach.
Seeing her chance, she jumped to her feet and landed on his forehead with her heels down, just between the two corners, smashing her forehead to pieces. His head cracked like a gourd.
She took a step back and shuffled her feet in the snow, trying to get the blood off. He's dead, and she's alive. She won...... But she was also the first time she had killed someone. The remaining vitality in her body could not withstand the sudden fatigue and dizziness; Her legs lost their ability to support her, and she sat down heavily.
Agunn stood above the demon, looking down at his broken body. Deanna frowned, not knowing whether it was out of disgust or pity. "No wonder Andrx hates them," Aguna said. Can you imagine, girl? Imagine being a poor soldier and having to face one of these things. ”
Seif...... Oh, my poor Seif...... Deanna struggled to resist the desperation that crept into her chest. Does Sev turn into a monster? Was Andlocks right about him? It's unthinkable, but still ......
For the first time since she found him, she wondered if maybe she should get rid of him. Now that she knows, maybe it's better to get rid of Seif. He wasn't even her real son—just a child she had chosen to save. Maybe she should give him back to her and forget about him completely. Many problems will be solved. She felt guilty at the thought of it, but she couldn't stop thinking about it. She loved him—she really loved him, and she was more sure of it now than ever—but the thought and the guilt that came with it lingered.
Deanna quickly stood up and rubbed her face to keep Aguna from noticing that something was wrong, as she didn't want to talk about it just yet.
Arguna nodded, turned and began to walk, expecting Deanna to follow. And she did.
They came to the mud hut where Galbi and the slave traders were hiding. Agna looked at it for a moment, then knocked on the wooden door with her knuckles. "Hello? She shouted. There was movement inside, but no one answered.
Deanna clapped her hands and said loudly, "There are people here, there are people here."
Aguna looked at her puzzled, and Deanna calmly explained, "You can't knock on the tent."
"What?"
"My tribe lives in tents. You can't knock on the tent. We applaud. ”
Agunn nodded wisely, then said, "Okay, let's knock on the door." Then, she suddenly burst into a rage and shouted loudly at the top of her voice: "If these bitches don't open this door and give me back my daughter's right to pee, I'm going to tear down this house and beat them to death one by one!" 10 !9 !8 !7 !”
The door was wide open, just big enough to push little Gabi out. Then, the door slammed shut, and Deanna heard the people inside holding the door. She felt like she was smiling at its effect, and the dark clouds in her heart began to lift. Just a little, but she does feel better.
Gabi's wrists were still tied. She looked groggy and disheveled, her blonde hair was in dire need of a bun, but Arguna hugged her tightly. She lifted Gabi's feet off the ground and squeezed them tightly together as the girl protested and tried to break free.
"Mom, stop! Untie my hands first! It hurts! I can't breathe anymore. ”
Agunn cuckled, put her down, and began to try to untie the rope.
Galbi stood on tiptoe and looked around, asking, "Where's Daddy?"
"He's looking for kids. Deanna came to our rescue. ”
"Why did he go to the children instead of us?" Where's Seff?" Her voice sounded disappointed, or perhaps unappreciated.
Deanna said, "Oh, it's not like that. He didn't send me to save you. He believed that Aguna could handle it all alone. He sent me to bring her a letter. ”
Aguna stopped and tried to untie the rope, which was clearly tighter than needed. "He's bringing a letter?" What's that?"
"He told me not to have any ideas."
Deanna expected some reaction, but Agunn and Gabi only smiled half-heartedly and looked away.
"What does he mean by that?" She asked. "What kind of thoughts?"
Gabby giggled mischievously, and his eyes twinkled, and he said, "Daddy thinks he has funny jokes, but he doesn't."
Aguna also had a happy smile on her face. She said, "Don't have any ideas! What a horrible person. Instead, "I pray for your peace, my love" or "I swear I will let you return to my arms before dawn". No, he said, "Don't have any ideas!" That bastard. He'll know how much I think. ”
"I have an idea, Mom." Galby laughed harder. "I'm going to pee on his wine secretly"
Deanna didn't know how to react to hearing such a comment from a graceful little princess like Gabi, but Agunn roared and laughed, and said, "You dare, you little mouse!" I also drink. ”
In Deanna's experience, the men would happily make rude jokes and the women would frown and complain, but she suspects that Aguna doesn't pay much attention to etiquette, which is part of her charm. Who knows where Galby learned his elegance and demeanor? It's a mystery.
Deanna had free time to wait, she walked over to the wall of the house where the two men were hiding inside, and punched hard through the wall. It knocked off a piece the size of her torso. She glanced inside, and although it was dark inside, she looked at the men holding the door and said, "I've had enough of the calm." Chase me and my Sephie again, and I'll kill you like a monster that kills you, only more chaotic and slower. Then she spat into the room, snorted, and turned away.
She's Seffy. She said it almost without thinking. She can do that. She could keep him until the end. She could ignore those thoughts......
Once Aguna was convinced that Galby was largely uninjured and ready to go on the road, she picked up her knapsacks from the horse's carcass, some strapped over her shoulders and others around her waist, six in all; Then she removed the saddle, which turned out to be a piece of leather over the blanket. She thrust the folded blanket into Gabby's arms with a thud and said, "Can you take it?"
"It's not too heavy."
Deanna asked, "Have you found your charm, Agun?"
"They're in this box." Aguna said, patting one of her school bags. "It's underneath the other, and they look exactly the same. Oh, don't look at me like that! I'm not simple. I was terrified. ”
Deanna nodded at the surprise acknowledgment, then looked away, indicating that it was okay.
Soon, Aguna was satisfied, because she had gathered everything she wanted to take with her, and she said, "It's time to go."
Deanna asked, "Do you want me to take a horse to ride?" They have more of them somewhere. ”
"That's a good idea, but what do I feed it with?" Let's go. ”
Deanna nodded, and walked out of the fortress with them.
What the hell are those big wooden walls for? They were made of wood erected and tightly tied together, which seemed to require a lot of work, especially in such frozen ground, where wood was best used to make a fire so as not to freeze to death. If you think about it, how could there have been trees in the first place? Do they grow without leaves?
On their way back to the gate, Agunn asks Deanna to pick up a burning lantern, which makes their way easier to find. Despite the darkness and the marks of people coming and going everywhere, there was only one person who left bare footprints: Deanna. They can track it all the way to the campfire.
As they follow the sloping path back into the woods, Gabby and the wolf sca
A few steps ahead of them. The bird child sat on her shoulder, leaning against her neck, wrapped in Gabi's thick brown scarf, and they kept talking.
Will Sephie make a friend? He needed one. It's not good to be alone. Maybe that will help him...... He needs the children around him to play with. Once or twice he had tried to play a game of pretend with her, but her mind wasn't there. He was very disappointed, and she didn't sleep in the middle of the night, feeling like she had let him down.