Chapter 116: The Idea of Suicide

Maybe everyone is not pure, everyone has their own dark side. Lu Jing's jump, is it really that simple? If she chose to understand her life because of Zhen Hua's departure, then she should have ended it seventeen years ago, but she survived tenaciously and survived to this day, but she still chose to end her own life, why is this? Zhen Hua didn't think about why this happened, because Zhen Hua had no time to think about this kind of problem, anyone who saw a person jumping off a building in front of his eyes, the visual shock would block his thinking, and it was impossible to associate the suicide of the person in front of him with the conspiracy, but he was wrong, because what he didn't know was that Lu Jing's death was actually caused by Wen Zixin, who was still sleeping, Zhen Hua would not have thought of it, let alone suspect Wen Zixin, so he could only be a fool, and his position between the two women could only be a fool, Because he couldn't do anything other than pretend to be stupid, and it was impossible for him to suspect that Wen Zixin was brewing a conspiracy to take people's lives when he was with him.

Of course, if Wen Zixin learned that Lu Jing was dead, she would also be a little sad, in fact, Wen Zixin didn't want Lu Jing to die, all she wanted was Lu Jing's departure, leaving forever, but she didn't expect that her own approach was to let Lu Jing go directly to another world, although this is also an eternal departure, but her original intention was not to want Lu Jing's life, but the matter has come to this, and she will find out when she wakes up. She naturally won't regret it, anyone who touches her is hateful, she should be hateful, she has been in a high position for too long, and she won't care about the life of a person who is hostile to her, maybe the only person she is ashamed of is Zhen Hua. She knew that Lu Jing's feelings for Zhen Hua were the same as herself, so when Zhen Hua and Lu Jing were together, the hot emotions she felt were impossible to fake, but she destroyed them with her own hands, would Zhen Hua hate herself? I don't want to know the answer, Zhen Hua doesn't allow a trace of filth on her hands, so she has no blood on her hands, and all the filth is borne by Zhen Hua alone, so if Zhen Hua knows that she single-handedly planned Lu Jing's death, everything that may make her afraid can happen, so she is an eternal secret.

No one knew except herself, and neither did Lu Jing. In fact, she didn't do much, she just stayed in the room next to Lu Jing, and the room she was in and the room where Lu Jing was, the balcony was interconnected, which was originally a design to split a suite into two rooms, and the location of the bedroom was next to the balcony. Wen Zixin didn't do much, but opened the balcony door of his room and Lu Jing's room when Lu Jing didn't notice it. So the bedroom of the two rooms is not soundproofed, this is the practice of making Lu Jing retreat, but she didn't expect Lu Jing's temperament to be so strong, and the last jump was something she didn't expect, but she would not pity or be timid because of this, these emotions cannot appear, because she is Wen Zixin, she has the capital to occupy Zhen Hua, and she also has the power to execute the women around Zhen Hua. She can not care about Lu Jing's life, because in her opinion, this is an ant.

In Wen Zixin and Zhen Hua's long-distance love run, Lu Jing's role is not a fierce ant who is not afraid of death, trying her best to intervene and block the pace of the two, but what is the result? It's just a mantis arm blocking the car, for so many years, there is actually only Lu Jing who has been injured, and Zhen Hua and Wen Zixin live in an ambiguous state, and they are safe, if it weren't for the sudden illness of a serious illness, there is no place for her in Zhen Hua and Wen Zixin's script, seventeen years ago, she tried her best to win a legal identity when the two had a gap, but it was already her best result, and she should be content to be able to occupy a place in the relationship between Zhen Hua and Wen Zixin. She has done what no one else can do, but she is limited to this, and it is impossible to go one step further and replace or surpass Wen Zixin's position, but she still has delusions, so after Wen Zixin crushed those senseless delusions, she saw the reality, so she chose to end herself, there are too many mistakes in this life, so she is unwilling to continue.

Last night's Lu Jing, who had not slept all night, heard the conversation between Zhen Hua and Wen Zixin clearly, without missing a word, even Wen Zixin's words of collapse were so real, at that moment she even thought that she had won, she had won Wen Zixin. At that moment, Wenzi's heart was hysterically vented, like a weak person moaning incompetently, she was immersed in the fantasy of joy, she thought that she could have Zhen Hua completely, but then, she heard the voice of failure, the voice that knocked her into the trough, those words of cathartic love, she didn't think it would come out of Zhen Hua's mouth, but it was clearly Zhen Hua's voice, she couldn't believe it, but she had to believe it. At that time, Lu Jing was comforting herself, the two of them were in love with each other, and she was the one who intervened, so she could pretend not to hear it, although the lingering sound next door made her annoyed in every way, but she endured it, she knew that even if she rushed over, she couldn't do anything else except completely drive herself out of Zhen Hua's life circle, so she could only endure it.

She didn't fall asleep all night, thinking about what she should do from here. She learned from the conversation between the two that Zhen Hua's time was running out, but before that, she didn't know anything, her heart was conflicted, she was Zhen Hua's justifiable girlfriend and ex-wife, Wen Zixin didn't have any reputation, but why? Wen Zixin knows everything, but he is like a fool. Wen Zixin hadn't done anything before tonight, but what about herself? paid the whole youth, but Wen Zixin got a perfect love, but he was empty of people and money. Yes, Zhen Hua and Wen Zixin have achieved positive results, and she doesn't know how many ups and downs they have gone through, but she knows that the happiness of these two people is based on their own pain, so she is unwilling, but she also knows that her unwillingness is so ridiculous in front of Zhen Hua and Wen Zixin, because they don't pay attention to themselves at all, and even Wen Zixin can't remember his name until now, in Wen Zixin's heart, he has never been qualified to be a rival in love, maybe Wen Zixin is conceited, or maybe because of his inferiority.

What can she do? She couldn't do anything, she listened to the lingering sound from next door, her mood fluctuated, she wanted revenge, but she knew that in the face of Zhen Hua, she couldn't have the heart of revenge at all. Maybe I can die with him. This is a terrible thought, originally it was just a flash in her mind, but the memory of the conversation between Zhen Hua and Wen Zixin repeatedly surfaced in her mind, she thought that Zhen Hua's time was short, and she came up with such an idea again and again, no one is sparing her life, and so is she, fourteen years ago, she walked before the ghost gate, and she had no heart to seek death again, because after that time, she was afraid, but now, she let go of the fear of death.

The so-called seeing through life and death is not applicable to her, because she is simply aroused to win, she wants to win once, even if it is only this time, she is willing to take this life, Wen Zixin does not have this kind of courage, she can be sure that a person standing in a high place will not easily choose suicide, because they can't let go of everything they have, but they can, they have nothing else but Zhen Hua, since Zhen Hua is leaving now, so what else does she have to be nostalgic for? It's gone, it's all gone, she can go without worry, but Wen Zixin can't, so she will win this game, Wen Zixin has no capital to compete with.

So she made up her mind, if Zhen Hua woke up early in the morning and didn't come back, she secretly followed, and committed suicide in front of Zhen Hua when Zhen Hua closed her eyes, if Zhen Hua came back early in the morning and pretended that nothing happened, she would also accompany Zhen Hua until the last moment of her life, and go to Huangquan with Zhen Hua, but if Zhen Hua came back early in the morning just to break off with herself, she jumped down directly, maybe it was just a flash in the pan, but after all, there was a moment, and she was the most important thing in Zhen Hua's mind. So in front of Zhen Hua, she ended her life. This may be stupid, but she is already carried away by love and has become a madman, she is desperate, so how can she care? Maybe in her opinion, it is worth exchanging her life for this moment of affection, because she has been pursuing it for too long, but she still can't get it after all, so at least there must be a moment, this moment Zhen Hua's heart belongs to hers, this is enough, and she will not die with regrets.

Dozens of days later, Zhen Hua also passed away, and she was the one who won at that time, she lost everything in the yang world, so she met Zhen Hua in advance in the underworld, this is the only way for her to win Wen Zi's heart. As a woman, being bound by a relationship for too long, in fact, death is also a relief. Maybe Wen Zixin's trick succeeded, but the only thing Wen Zixin missed was her desire to win and the fierceness of her temperament, otherwise she wouldn't have committed suicide. Perhaps forgetting the ten years between them, and in the past ten years, their personalities, identities, social status, and even social circles have undergone drastic changes, and what they have always relied on to maintain their relationship is the bitter memories of those lost youthful years, but the memories are fragile, and they don't know how long it can survive under the gossip, contempt, ridicule, and even malicious attacks of the world. In fact, everyone and everything, just have a clear conscience, don't force it if it's not yours, anyway, what leaves is the scenery, and what is left is life.

And if there is fate, if you miss it, you will come back; If you don't have a chance, you will leave if you meet. There are reasons to get together, there are excuses to leave, there are no ifs in life, only consequences and results. Death is not the end, but the beginning of another relationship, maybe Zhen Hua and Wen Zixin have completely let go of all the mustard, time will tell them, simple like, the longest; The company in the ordinary is the most reassuring, and some things seem to be nothing more than this now, but at that time, it was really a person who survived it second by second.