I praised Shen Bingwang's leadership and self-criticism on the summary of the day, which won Shen Bingwang's approval, and wanted to understand me, and had the same frequency topic, telling me and Zhang Yujun about his past.

Zhang Yujun is an extremely shy boy, one year older than me, why do you say that he is a boy, he can't open his mouth to talk to people, even if he speaks, it is a very small voice, living like a little girl's shyness, and the embarrassment of squeezing toothpaste when asking and answering.

He is a social phobia in this situation, he has never socialized with anyone, he has always grown up under the protection of his father, installed aluminum alloy windows steadily, went home after installation, chatted on the Internet, and had his security field on the Internet.

Unlike me, I first wanted to be quiet and unwilling to get along with others because of family noise, and then because of the vulgar topics of my factory colleagues, I was disgusted and unwilling to associate with them, so I lacked activity and became unsociable, and the emotional backlog of long-term solitude could not be released, and I had social barriers.

So I am anxious to express myself, release myself, and gain the trust of others with a sincerity, so as to achieve the purpose of communication and break down communication barriers.

As long as someone comes to sit with me, I am very happy, as for whether I can become friends, at this stage, I have not considered it, someone asked me to explain it to me, I am afraid that where it is missing, I don't understand, others don't understand.

Whether it is me or Zhang Yujun, they are both weak in front of Shen Bingwang, so the strong man is willing to tell the weak about his experience, so that we can avoid detours. I just think that Zhang Yujun is also weak, and I want him to have the courage to speak, encourage him to speak on stage, and keep telling him how I started to have the courage to interact with people.

So it constituted that I told stories to Zhang Yujun during the day, and two hours before going to bed after taking a bath, Shen Bingwang told us two stories, forming two of his little fans.

Zhang Yijun likes to listen to his history of drug abuse, romance and prison affairs, and I want to learn from his family history and social lessons, so I talk about it every day until cell 407 is disbanded and he is sent to a fixed prison.

That night, Shen Bingwang pulled me and Zhang Yujun to his bunk and talked carefully.

He said: "You two are not as active as Xiao Zhou and Xiao Hao, you can't speak and walk in society, you must be unsociable, and you are likely to suffer a big loss, understand the two of you, so that you can prescribe the right medicine, who will come first?" ”

"I'll do it first." Seeing that he didn't speak, I spoke.

"My dad is a worker on the construction site, bricklayers, reinforcing steel workers, plumbers, carpenters and so on, mainly reinforcing steel workers, working in other places for a long time and rarely at home, come back for the New Year or two.

In my sixth grade, junior high school and senior high school, that is, junior high school, high school entrance examination, and college entrance examination, my father came back to accompany me for a whole year.

My dad is thirteen years older than the second master, and my house was demolished when I was in the fourth grade, and the second master was still young and had just entered the society, so it was still very difficult to divide the infrastructure into two houses and two suites, and it was inevitable that my parents would quarrel occasionally.

In the sixth grade, my dad gave the second master Zhang Luo's marriage, and also spent a lot of money, the second master is also an honest and untalkative master, the second aunt gave birth to a child, and wanted to write her name on the head of the household, but my father did not agree, because the head of the household has not yet been transferred to the second master, and he originally planned to transfer the house to the second master, so he will definitely not agree, and the second aunt has come to my house to quarrel.

In the third year of junior high school, our village was in the limelight of demolition again, the second master and the second aunt were in a divorce lawsuit, the second aunt asked my father to transfer the head of the household to the second master, my father was worried about the transfer to the second master, and then the second master transferred the house to the second aunt, and finally transferred the house to the second master, they divorced the marriage, and the second aunt came to my house to quarrel more frequently that year.

In the third year of high school, the rumors of the demolition of our village were more powerful, and it was a coincidence that the second aunt was going to come back to remarry, in short, it gave people the feeling that the second aunt was running for the house, whether this was the case, I don't know, anyway, the main source of quarrels in the family is the second master and the second aunt.

My mother is patriarchal and doesn't say anything to me, every time my dad fights, he will have grievances to tell me, and when he sees that I didn't do my homework, or I didn't come home on time, he will make fun of me, and always compare me with my second master, so I'm very annoyed and don't like to talk to people.

When I was a child, I had no ability to resist and could only endure it, and in my third year of high school, after the college entrance examination, I couldn't stand it and was so angry that I didn't go to college directly. The cause is still the matter of the second master and the second aunt, and then there is the problem of college tuition, my father and I quarreled very much, and the more I talked, the more outrageous it became, it was nothing more than saying that I should study hard or not, and I would spend so much money to study in college, and I would be as heartless as your second master.

After work, I am responsible for filling down jackets in garment factories, mainly duck feathers and wool, and I have done them in electronic factories that make mobile phone speakers, cameras, routers, and speakers.

What topics can you know in the factory, assembly line operations, one radish and one pit, just do your own process, I am more accustomed to being alone.

I also tried to do a sales job, and I asked a classmate to help me find a channel, he was a medical representative, and he introduced me to his client, she was the store manager, and she was originally arranged for her to interview me, but the manager came to interview me.

Before entering the factory are relatives or something directly brought me in, never interviewed, the interview is very nervous, the manager asked three questions, you briefly introduce yourself, what is your career plan for yourself, what kind of development do you plan for the company.

I was so nervous that I trembled and spoke, introduced myself and said what I had since I was called and how old I was, I didn't know what to say, I was stunned and couldn't speak, and the next two questions were asked, and my nervous head was sweating, so I told you to go back.

The failure of the first interview made me feel frustrated for a while, and I continued to work in the electronics factory, unwilling to live a comfortable life, and once again mustered up the courage to find a sales job.

Submit a healthy development limited company on the online recruitment, the threshold is low, and it is different from what I imagined, it is a nail fungus direct store, to put it bluntly, it is to promote nail fungus products and give people the work of medicated manicure.

I thought about it or did it, because the customer group is all literate people, who would spend 20,000 or 30,000 yuan to treat nail fungus? Do you want to continue to visit the store for a year or two for treatment?

White-collar women, business and public relations personnel, women in their thirties who love beauty, retired eighty or ninety year olds, calligraphers and painters, university professors, government cadres, scientific and technological research and development personnel who dedicate themselves to the country, and so on.

What is the purpose of treating nail fungus in this part of the elderly? It's to talk to someone, their children are not around, most of them are abroad, and I am at best a listener to accompany the conversation, listening to their life experiences.

I would never have imagined that I would be able to talk to such people, such as scientific and technical personnel who study trains and fiberglass, calligraphy and painting artists, economic professors, company chairmen, etc. So I like to listen to them, and I can broaden my mind, and what we talk about learning a skill can only be used as a means of making a living, not technology.

These old people are very tough, up and down five floors, there is no elevator, they buy their own food every day, they are not short of money and companionship, and some are even 95 years old, I am happy to be such a listener.

The good times didn't last long, and my physical desire became stronger and stronger, so I tried to go to the KTV club to indulge myself, and experienced the pleasure of hugging left and right to rub oil.

My life is too lonely and comfortable, I always listen to the terrible news of online loans and naked loans, and many students commit suicide, I don't believe in this evil, I decided to try and make mistakes to break this tranquility.

I accepted the matter of taking an online loan, and got along with this stumbling woman for a while, spending a total of 100,000 yuan before and after, my own savings of 40,000 yuan, online loans of more than 40,000 yuan, and personal friends borrowing more than 20,000 yuan.

The income from the nail fungus shop is far from being able to pay, so I naturally realized the result of the collection, so I told my dad, I know that the family has no money, but I don't know that the family has no money to this point, if I knew, I would not choose this time to try and make mistakes.

Because I never cared about anything in my family, I didn't know about my family's income, and I didn't interact with any relatives and sisters.

In the past two years, I don't know a lot of things that I don't know, except for the death of my grandfather, I don't know anything else, my dad had surgery for liver cirrhosis, my grandmother had surgery for a big neck tumor, and my sister didn't know about it until she was a child, which means that the family's savings have been spent.

My dad must be that angry, I didn't spend much money for my family, and I still owe money for online loans, the question is to ask me how to spend the money, I just kept silent, I can't say that I play with women and prostitutes, at least I won't say it at that time.

I was mentally prepared and fully accepted my father's anger, he asked me to quit my job and go home, and I also accepted it, and it was quite easy to work as a warehouse manager in my hometown knitting factory.

I told my dad that there are a total of four online loan platforms, and the first two months are more than eight or nine thousand per month, as long as you repay it on time, no problem.

My dad has no choice but to choose to accept, but the family also owes money to the outside, and I have four platform repayment dates, there are four dates, every date to talk to my dad to ask for once, my dad has to borrow from others once, I feel guilty, once at a time to be too embarrassed, simply tell my dad if you want to pay it back at once.

My dad also agreed, and then I contacted the customer service of the flower core platform, saying that I wanted to repay the loan at one time, and then I found that the amount that needed to be repaid was not what the salesman said, the earlier the repayment the less, I was equivalent to repaying the loan two years in advance, and the total amount of repayment was only more than 3,000 years less.

Huaxin platform has business in mobile phone stores across the country, and its credibility is higher than that of other platforms, and I have used this platform to buy mobile phone installments, so I believe in this platform, if it is a loan shark, let alone other platforms.

I refused to pay it back, and made it clear to my dad that there would be no consequences, that is, endless collection calls in two or three years, and even possible door-to-door, as long as I didn't answer the phone, ignored them, and waited for them to sue, this is the best way to avoid losses.

The reality of the end is cruel and out of control. ”