It rained heavily on Sunday morning, so that when the afternoon sun returned, the air was as fresh as a newborn baby, and the trees, washed by the summer rains, looked even greener in the sun, as if they were about to drip oil; The flowers that are still condensed with water droplets are even more charming in the sun; The grass after the rain took advantage of the moisture of the spring breeze and summer rain, and did not feel inferior at all among the green trees and flowers, showing its own green sparklingly. 

After an afternoon of intense revision, Su Yu and Lin Bei both felt a little tired, and with such good weather, staying in any place at home to rest was not as helpful as going out and breathing in the air like freshly milked milk in the morning. So they went out into the courtyard, breathed in the crisp air, looked at the green trees, the red, purple, and blue orange flowers, and stepped on the green grass, and their hearts became cheerful for no reason. 

"Oh, life is so good! I love all the wonders of nature. Lin Bei closed her eyes and took a deep breath, looking intoxicated. 

Su Yu looked at the butterflies and dragonflies flying among the flowers, and looked at the lives that flashed in the sun, and felt a wonderful feeling in her heart. I think of the dark downpour in the morning, which has now become the source of everything fresh and smart. She thinks that sometimes people really don't need to be discouraged and complain about temporary adversity and setbacks. Perhaps, when you get up from sleep, everything will be fine, and all the gloom will disappear and the sun will be everywhere. Perhaps, all the gloom was for the sunshine of the coming day. 

Lin Bei cheered, shook the tree, touched the flower, and suddenly went to chase a flying butterfly. Then, sitting next to the fish pond under the magnolia flowers, he stretched out for a long time. Su Yu also walked over and sat down beside her. 

"Su Yu, I really hope that life will always be like this moment, without pressure, without any competition for fame and fortune. Just like that, I was able to breathe the air I wanted to breathe freely. ”

"Human beings tend to be proud that they are the spirit of all things and the lord of all things. But I don't know how many things have been lost for this pride, such as freedom, such as happiness, such as comfort, and so on. Every thing you get has to pay a price. Su Yu looked at the swimming fish in the pond and said leisurely. 

"Suyu, what if you really can't pass the exam?" 

Su Yu frowned, closed her eyes, and exhaled for a while before she exhaled and said, "I don't know either, but I must be admitted!" Su Yu said firmly. Lin Bei, I only think about how to work hard now, and I don't dare to think about gains and losses. ”

"Yes." Lin Bei nodded. For a moment, none of them wanted to say anything, they were all thinking about their own thoughts. 

"Su Yu, did you go to find Teacher Gao yesterday?" Lin Bei suddenly asked. 

"Yes, I showed him the published article." 

"Suyu, don't blame me for being troublesome, I don't know about what happened between you, but everyone outside is rumoring about you. Although this is boring, in my opinion, Mr. Gao may not be as simple as you think. ”

"Don't worry, Mr. Gao is a teacher I respect." Su Yu looked at her innocent face and was indescribably moved.

The results of the first mock exam came out, and Su Yu won the fifth place in the class, only 13.5 points less than Lin Bei, who ranked first in the class. And this kind of score can't make her excited, what makes her excited is that she always pulls her in physics, and this time she finally passed, scoring 78 points. Although this is still too far behind Lin Bei, in Suyu, it is already a leap forward. Even the eyes of the "owl" looked beyond the frame and cast an approving look at her. Su Yu looked at that number, and also had a sense of relief that her hard work had finally paid off. Lin Bei shook her hand and said, laughing and jumping, "Suyu, it's okay now, you have finally ushered in the dawn!" Rolling his eyes, he deliberately exclaimed, "Oh, it's a shame, you've become my fierce rival, I have a total score of 13.5 points more than you this time, and 20 points more than you in physics." Ah, if you hadn't missed some math this time, I'd have lost at your hands! Alas, dangerous! It's dangerous! Looks like I'm going to have to compete with you. Lin Bei's sparkling eyes not only had encouragement for Su Yu, but also some meaning of challenging Su Yu, and a trace of being unwilling to fail. 

"I accept your challenge!" Su Yu pursed her lips, and her eyes were shiny and shiny. 

"Am I welcome to participate?" Meng Haolun's voice came from behind. 

"Why not welcome? I haven't looked for you yet?" Lin Bei turned her head and said to Meng Haolun. 

"I'm not afraid to find me, you're only 5 points higher than me this time. I was 6 points higher than you in my last final exam. I'm still better than you!" 

"Ah, why are you so arrogant? How can old accounts still count? Miss Ben lost to you last time, but I won again this time. You think I'm improving, but you're regressing, who do you say wins, who loses?

"Don't be complacent, next time I must regain my championship, don't believe you wait."

"Good! If you have the ability, knock me down, Miss Ben is not afraid of you. ”

"Good! You have to be careful. And Suyu! Maybe we'll both have to knock her down by then!"

"Good! Then the three of us will start today, and officially start the fair competition!" Lin Bei said and stretched out her hand. As a result, the three hands full of enthusiasm and vitality were tightly clasped together.

During these days, it seems that the sunshine rises every day for Suyu and is brilliant for Suyu. A month ago, she represented Longle Middle School in the provincial essay contest for middle school students, and she won the first prize in the junior high school group, and the essay entitled "Flowers and Rain and Sunny Days" was published in a provincial newspaper, along with a photo of Su Yu. So within a few days, Suyu received many letters from readers. This is a headache, in the face of these enthusiastic letters, Su Yu is really in a dilemma, she is very touched by the support and encouragement of those people to herself, but if she wants to reply to the letter, where will she have so much spare time? She hadn't read a literature book for a long time in order to cope with mock exams and fix her short feet in physics, and she hadn't picked up her pen to write anything of her own except for the essay she was asked to write in composition class. In the past, she would always go to Mr. Gao every once in a while to bring back some Chinese and foreign literary masterpieces to read, or a few novels, or a few poetry collections, or a few prose notes. Now, she doesn't dare to touch those things anymore, Baudelaire's "The Flower of Evil", which she borrowed from Mr. Gao three weeks ago, has only read a few pages so far, but she is always reluctant to return it, but she does not dare to read it. 

Su Yu finally came up with a way to deal with the letter, which was to leave the letter unsealed and let Lin Bei help her collect it, and planned to wait until the high school entrance examination was over to read it before replying to the letter.

Lin Bei also very much agreed with Su Yu's approach. Therefore, I always happily receive letters for her every day. Although Su Yu felt very guilty in her heart, she had no choice but to do so. In short, nothing is more important than the high school entrance examination now!

However, Su Yu has done one thing in the past few days, that is, she has sent some articles to newspapers and magazines in various places. 

That day, Su Yu and Lin Bei walked around the campus again. Four girls passed by chattering, staring at them. Walking behind them, several girls began to talk about it. 

"The one who is tall is Pan Suyu." One of them said. 

"Is that Pan Suyu who won the first prize of the provincial middle school students' essay?" Another said. 

"That's her." 

"I have long heard that her writing is amazing, and she is a well-known talented girl in our school, and I heard that her grades are also very good." One of them said. 

"Last time I saw that the latest issue of "Juvenile Literature and Art" also had one of her novels. Really well written. Not only is the text very good, but also very thoughtful and content. One of them said. 

"I heard that she is from the countryside, and her family background is not very good." 

"Her temperament is very good, very literary and bookish." One of the girls glanced back with appreciative eyes, "Look at how good she is, tall and slender. ”

"yes, otherwise how could so many people like her? I heard that there is a boy in the third year of junior high school who runs to their class every day, just to take a look at her, as well as the secretary of the Youth League branch of their class, a talented man in their class, and some boys in other classes, all chasing her in the open, and secretly crushing on her, I don't know how many. Also, I heard that Teacher Gao Wei, one of the four talents of Longle Middle School, also has a crush on her?" "Teacher Gao?" The other three girls all screamed in unison. 

I didn't expect Gao Wei to look deep and steady like this. He is so much older than Pan Suyu, how can he seduce her? I really know people and faces, but I don't know my heart. It's hard to believe that I still worshipped him like that before!" 

"Then maybe you can't just blame him, who dares to say that it wasn't Pan Suyu who seduced him?" One girl objected. 

"I don't think so, do I? She doesn't look like that kind of person. I heard that she is usually very proud, and rarely takes the initiative to talk to people, and the courtship letters written to her by those people, she returns them to people intact. Even if it was a boy who went to their class to see her every day, she never looked at him properly. Another girl retorted. 

"Who knows? Who knows if she's a hypocrisy? Relying on his beauty and talent, he deliberately put on a show?" 

The group of girls was far away from them, still arguing there, while Su Yu and Lin Bei only heard the first few words, but the latter did not hear at all. 

"Suyu, you see that you have become a big celebrity now, as long as the word Pan Suyu is mentioned in Longle Middle School, no one knows that she is the girl who won the first prize in the provincial middle school students' essay competition. The day before yesterday at the school-wide meeting of teachers and students, the president talked about you with such pride as a touch. After all, in so many essay contests, Longle Middle School has not won the first prize, and it has not even won the Excellence Award and Encouragement Award. Su Yu, you are the first person from Longle Middle School to win this award, no wonder the principal is so excited. ”

"Lin Bei, don't make fun of me. Winning the award was just a very fortuitous gain for me. Winning the award is just a windfall, and I hope that all my efforts will be meaningful. ”

"That's for sure. I think that as long as people have to give, they will have gains, even if there is no result for the time being, nothing will be gained, but it will also accumulate wealth spiritually. ”

"Yes. But people are often involuntary, sometimes you want to do what you like to do and have to force you to change your wishes and choices for many objective reasons, you have to abandon your ideals, to cater to the worldly objective facts and environment. When Su Yu thought of herself, she couldn't suppress the troubles and contradictions in her heart. Really, she is not a person who likes to work around for the world's money, fame and fortune, her greatest wish is to live an ordinary life, maybe a pot of tea, a book, a few books, a quiet bungalow, do what she wants to do, read books, write articles, plant flowers and plants. But the circumstances in which she lived did not allow her to live such a life, she had to open a way for herself and her dear mother and sisters and brothers to break free from that established fate, she had to change her ideals for herself, and she had to run in the middle of the world. 

"Suyu, I believe that fate can be changed by one's own efforts. And thou know that what thou hast given up is not a stone, and that thou hast chosen not a gem?" Lin Bei can't understand Su Yu's mood, although she understands Su Yu, but after all, her life path is too smooth and smooth, she takes a road of love paved with flowers and praise, while Su Yu walks a road full of potholes and thorns to fight against life. 

Su Yu sighed wordlessly in her heart. The ripples in my heart rose round and round. 

"Okay, let's not talk about these serious issues. My mom asked you to come to my house for dinner. Lin Bei said happily. 

"Good!" Su Yu's heart was hot. Mrs. Lin treats her well, sometimes making Suyu feel even better than her own mother. Tang Baozhu can't be said to be bad for her daughter, but the tribulations of life have made Tang Baozhu not know what love is. She doesn't feel loved, nor does she know how to love people. Life has dulled the little warmth she had. Life has taught her to be numb, she just numbly endures suffering, numbly to deal with all the changes in life, in her opinion, everything in life is the same, no matter what happens, it will not have much impact on her life and her current situation. Therefore, no matter how much suffering and joy there is to celebrate, it makes no difference to her, because tomorrow she will live the same life. She is a person who has never tried to be loved, cared for, and nervous, and does not know how to love, care, and nervous others. She must let her daughter go to school, because she thinks that reading is useful, that only by being educated can she be effective, and that only with culture can she be a superior person. But she doesn't care about her children's academic performance, nor does she care about their children's school life. She rarely asks about Su Yu's situation at school, and she doesn't pay attention to whether Su Yu is fat or thin, let alone give her any encouragement, if she wants to tell her something, it is to persuade her not to compare herself with others in school, and to save as much as she can, and not to spend money indiscriminately. Su Yu understands and sympathizes with her mother, she doesn't blame her at all, and she doesn't dare to ask how she can care about herself, because her heart has been tortured by life and no longer has the strength to be a warm and considerate mother. But deep in her heart, Suyu still longs for a complete mother's love. Like Mrs. Lin did to Lin Bei, like Mrs. Lin did to herself. 

In Mrs. Lin's place, she received a love similar to that of a mother's love. Every time she didn't go to Lin's house after a long time, Mrs. Lin would stroke Su Yu's head and say pityingly: "Su Yu, I haven't seen you for a few days, you have lost weight again." Learning is studying, but you have to eat well and sleep enough, otherwise you will damage your body, which is not good. often said to her, "You have time to accompany our family Beibei to come back, anyway, our family is small, it doesn't matter if you add an extra pair of chopsticks, as long as you don't mind not being polite to us." And every time at the dinner table, I always picked the good and desperately put it in her bowl. Mother Lin often moved Suyu to tears, and she didn't know what to say. 

Su Yu sometimes thinks, how good is she, Pan Suyu, how good can she get such care and love from the mother and daughter of the Lin family? Every time she thought of Mrs. Lin, she felt a sense of affection and attachment, followed by her mother's indifference to her, but it made her bitter. It's the same human being, and how different is its life and fate! Is this a deliberate complementarity arranged by the Creator of all souls? 

After school that afternoon, Su Yu went to Lin's house with Lin Bei. As soon as she arrived at the gate, Lin Bei tore her throat and shouted, "Mom-I brought Suyu back." ”

Mrs. Lin greeted her from the room with a smile on her face, and kindly took Su Yu's hand, "Su Yu, you have lost weight again." ”

"Thank you, Auntie, I'm fine." 

"Suyu, I cooked your favorite braised carp and fried chicken. White pigeon ginseng soup was also stewed. "Oh, why is it that Suyu likes to eat, but what about mine?" Why isn't there mine?" Lin Bei shouted aggrievedly. 

"Today is to celebrate Suyu's award, but it's none of your business." 

"Suyu, I didn't lie to you, my mother loves you more than me. Alas, this world really recognizes talents and relatives. Looks like I'm going to have to work harder. Lin Bei looked helpless and sad. "It's too late for you to know how to work harder." "Lin Tai'an doesn't know when he will come out. "Dad, why are you so biased?" 

"No way, it's really her who won the award, not you, how can I help you?" Lin Tai'an smiled and said to his beloved daughter, "She won such a big award, it should be worth celebrating her." "I also know, but I'm also your daughter, and I'm still your daughter if I'm smart or not, so I can only blame you for giving birth to me as smart as Suyu, and I'm genetically strong!" As she spoke, her round face puffed up, and her round eyes looked at her father and mother aggrievedly. 

Everyone in the room was amused by Lin Bei's cute appearance. "This kid! It's not smart, and I blame my parents. In that case, you can just cook a dish that she likes to eat," Lin Tai'an said to his wife. 

"Actually, where would I forget her part. I've prepared for her what she likes to eat for a long time ago. Before I could tell her, she started yelling. ”

"It's pretty much the same, I already knew my mother wouldn't be so cruel to me!" Lin Bei said and screamed happily and stepped forward to hug her mother's neck. 

Su Yu looked at this happy and harmonious family. I was envious and sad at the same time, thinking of my parents and my home, and an unspeakable sadness came to my heart for no reason. Thinking that the Lin family's parents were so enthusiastic about celebrating their success, their parents turned a blind eye to their achievements. She still remembers an incident in the third grade so vividly. On that day, Suyu won the first prize in the town's primary school Chinese competition. She excitedly took the certificate to her mother and said, "Mom, I won the first prize in the town's language competition!" Her little heart thought that her mother would praise her, or at least be happy for her for a while. Who knew that she didn't look at the award certificate she held up, but just said lightly: "If you win the award, you will win the award, what is there to be happy about?" Let's cook rice. Su Yu was disappointed for a while, her heart was half cold, and she walked away sullenly with an "oh" sound. It just so happened that Pan Shixiong came back from outside, and she showed him the certificate in her hand. Pan Shixiong glanced at the award certificate and shouted: "First prize, what can the first prize award be for?" Can I give it to you? Can I give it to you? Can I use it for you? I can't raise you, what's the big deal? What are you going to show me for!?" As he spoke, he tore it up as soon as he won the award. Su Yu looked at the torn award certificate, her heart was broken, as if it was her heart, and tears fell down. Who knew that as soon as the tears came, her experience was even worse. As soon as Pan Shixiong saw her tears, the anger in his heart rushed up, waved his hand and slapped her face, and forcibly printed four small carrots on her face. From then on, she never told them about her studies at school. And they never asked. 

Now, I have won the award, but I have to share the happiness with a family of people who have nothing to do with me, but they have to celebrate the success for themselves. Are you lucky or unlucky? Thinking of this, she couldn't control the tears welling up in her eyes. So while turning around to wipe away the tears that were not angry, he said, "Lin Bei, I'll put my schoolbag in the study." With that, he took Lin Bei's schoolbag and turned around and went upstairs. After a while, Lin Bei suddenly remembered that she wanted to go to the room to get something, so she interrupted the conversation with her father and went upstairs. saw Su Yu crying. 

"Suyu, what's wrong with you?"

"I didn't ...... It's nothing. I was just touched by the warmth and friendship of your family. Su Yu quickly shook her head. 

"Oh, I see! What do I think you're up to? I thought it was because of what I was messing around!" 

"How so?" Su Yu wiped her tears, looked at Lin Bei, and said seriously, "Lin Bei, do you know, you are the happiest person in the world, you love your parents; brothers and sisters who are like siblings; And a homely home. You don't have to worry about life; Don't be heartbroken by a rotten copper coin, and worry about every penny; Not to mention the dreadful screams and wails. You don't have to worry about grades. Lin Bei, there is only sunshine and love on the road of your life, and God has rewarded you with all the good things. You have to cherish all that you have! If you were to be me for a day, you would understand what a life without the love of your parents is! You will understand the happiness and luck of having a warm family! You will understand the value of happiness and serenity! So, love your parents, brothers and sisters, love your home, and love yourself!" As Su Yu spoke, tears kept flowing out.

Lin Bei's eyes turned red when she listened. Indeed, how lucky I am compared to many others! She seems to have all the good things, the endless love of her parents, brothers and sisters, the warm family, and the excellent grades. Really, in her life diary, there is really nothing that is not satisfactory. I really came all the way through the sunshine. And the Suyu in front of him was full of gloom and coldness along the way. She always had a cloud above her head that blocked out the sun. Success in learning does not drive away the dark clouds overhead, illuminating a life full of darkness. It's really unfair to live with her. is the same person, the same sixteen or seventeen-year-old young girl full of fantasy, why is the living environment and experience so different? Could it be that this is the so-called fate? Lin Bei thought about it, and couldn't help but sigh, "Ahh 

After a long time, Lin Bei looked at the sunlight outside and said, "The clouds will always disperse, the darkness will not last long, you see, isn't the sunlight outside coming out again?" I just said it was going to rain. ”

"Will the clouds really be a thing of the past, will the sun really come out?" Su Yu thought stupidly.