Su Yu is now like an arrow that has been tightened and is ready to leave the string all the time. She didn't have the time or energy to bother with anything unrelated to the exam. She was studying almost lifelessly. I often study late at night, and the next day I get up again before dawn and study hard at dawn. No matter how Lin Bei and Mrs. Lin persuaded her, it was useless. Mrs. Lin cooks fish porridge and meat porridge every day to supplement her nutrition, and stews different nutritional soups for them to drink every day, but Su Yu's face is still pale, her lips are still not bloody, and her body is still thin. But Suyu didn't have time to pay attention to this, she only knew that the moment that would decide her fate was coming soon. 

After the third mock test, the days have passed on my fingers. 

Ten days, six days,...... Two days. I don't know why, two days before the exam, she suddenly became nervous. She was suddenly so afraid that she would miss, that she would suffer from gains and losses, and her heart became restless. She began to eat poorly and slept steadily. 

The day before the exam, her aunt suddenly came back from the city to see her. Tell her not to be too nervous during the exam and to believe in her own strength. And said: "Do your best to take the test, I know that you have done your best, even if you really fail the test, it doesn't matter." There can't be only one way in the world. But I believe you, and you can do it!" He patted her on the shoulder: "I'm waiting for your good news!" Before leaving, he specially told her not to read any more books in the past two days, and to rest well. 

My aunt is gone, and originally, after listening to so many words of encouragement, I should have felt a little calmer. But for some reason, on the contrary, she felt more nervous and scared. She was so scared that she wanted to run away, and she even whimsically hoped that there would be a sudden earthquake tomorrow! She tried so hard to calm herself down, but the more she tried to calm down, the more it felt like there was a drum in her heart, and it was pounding in it. She was restless all day long, sleepwalking, everything seemed to be real and not real, as if it were a dream; And she also seems to be awake but not awake, and seems to be asleep. That night, she only drank a few mouthfuls of porridge and couldn't eat anything. The fish fillet porridge that was supposed to be delicious was like boiled water to her, and it didn't taste at all. 

That night, she only read the book for a while and couldn't read it anymore, she only felt that her heart had never been annoyed and irritable, like a ball of cotton stuffed in her heart, and like a little rabbit jumping in her heart. This is a phenomenon she has never had, no matter what kind of big things happen in the past, how difficult the problem is, as long as she picks up the book, her heart will slowly calm down. She's not a breathless person. But tonight, what's going on? She was always uneasy and remembered to get the admission ticket, to water the pen, to set the alarm clock, and to ...... Anyway, she just couldn't sit there quietly. Holding a book, I always flipped through it here and there, and felt that the contents of the book were all familiar, but suddenly I felt that many things were not proficient enough, so I couldn't help but pick up the book again, but after reading a few pages, I was out of the book again. She couldn't stand or sit right, so she simply circled around the room. 

Lin Bei had been paying attention to her, but she didn't speak, but her eyes were quietly looking at the book. In fact, she didn't know what she was watching. Later, she couldn't help it, "Suyu, what's wrong with you tonight?" 

"I always feel very annoyed and stuffy, my heart is beating chaotically, and I am always restless." After a pause, she looked at Lin Bei, who was sitting there reading a book, and asked strangely, "Lin Bei, aren't you nervous at all?" 

"I'm not nervous? That's weird! I started getting nervous a month ago. Although there are countless big and small exams, when I think of the high school entrance examination, my heart still straightens. However, anyway, the left and right sides have to be tested, no matter how nervous or calm, there is no escape. Therefore, it is better to take the test calmly, and it will not be so hard. Just being anxious and nervous won't help, it will only make the exam worse. So, I'm really not nervous right now. Suyu, don't keep thinking about the exam, just treat it as if it were a normal thing we have to do tomorrow. We just have to do it with our hearts and do everything we can to make it perfect. Even if you really can't do it, there's nothing you can do. I think you and I have done our best in this matter, and we really have no regrets or guilt. I still believe in our strength, I should believe in myself!" 

"Lin Bei, you are awesome!" 

"Actually, you just care too much about this exam. Suyu, the high school entrance examination is equally important for anyone. But I really don't think it's necessary to think of it as an all-or all-or-nothing struggle. Suyu, think more exciting things, and don't always think in bad directions. Think about your strengths and strengths, and you won't be so nervous. After Lin Bei finished speaking, she sighed inexplicably, "Alas, actually, I will persuade you, how can I read the book myself?" Alas, it looks like we're not going to read those dry textbooks tonight. But now it's only seven o'clock, it's too early to go to bed, we are not very interested in TV, there is no moon for walking, and it is dark outside. She stood up, fingers wrenching as she walked back and forth. It's been a long time since we've been in the study to read a novel. We're going to go there tonight and read a novel for the night, so that our nerves can relax. What do you think?" 

This proposal was immediately approved by Su Yu. So the two girls ran happily to the study as if they had suddenly been liberated. Walking to the door, Su Yu turned back again, took an alarm clock on the table, and shook it to Lin Bei, "It's safer to have it, so as not to forget to sleep when you get it." ”

Lin Bei patted Su Yu, "You are still careful!" 

As he spoke, the two of them had gone into the study. The study is filled with all kinds of books. All the books are sorted and arranged in separate volumes, like a small library. Because three generations of the Lin family have a hobby of collecting books, Lin Bei's grandfather was a rural teacher here before his death, and he is also a well-known cultural person here. Almost all of his life's hobbies and savings were spent on buying a variety of books. Lin Bei's father was influenced by his father since he was a child, and he also liked to collect various editions of books. In Lin Bei's generation, although that kind of attachment has been reduced a lot, she still keeps adding new books to the study. Lin Tai'an often proudly said that this is the treasure of the Lin family. And what attracted Su Yu to keep running to the Lin family was indeed the books in this room. 

They each took a book and sat down in their chairs to read it. Usually, as soon as Su Yu enters here, she has to ask Lin Bei to urge her several times, and even use strong means such as suddenly turning off the lights, such as forcibly pulling her up, etc., so that she can put down the books in her hands and walk out of the study. But tonight, she was really abnormal. She had been sitting there for less than half an hour, and her mind had slipped away again, and she was disturbed by the heart that seemed to be about to breathe. She was so forcibly controlling herself that she could barely sit there. But though her eyes were fixed on the words in the book, God knows where her heart had drifted. 

finally stayed up until it was time to go to bed, and both of them immediately dropped their books and ran back to their rooms to sleep. Su Yu's eyes were closed, but her mind was always awake and abnormal, and she didn't feel sleepy at all. She came up with all sorts of ways to fall asleep, first reciting some long poems, and then starting to count the numbers, calmly counting from 1 to 1000, and then calmly counting down from 1000 back to 1, still very clear-headed. She's starting to hate herself. In the end, she simply didn't think about anything, didn't do anything, just lay upright, closed her eyes, and felt the irregular heartbeat of her "ding dong". In fact, she really didn't feel so nervous in her heart, she really didn't think about anything, but she just couldn't sleep. She envied Lin Bei's even breathing sound and envied her deep sleep. That night, she stared dryly until four o'clock in the morning, when she fell asleep dimly. 

Pan Suyu and Lin Bei had slept for a while, and when they hurried to the examination room, the exam had already started for more than half an hour. The invigilator refused to let them in. They were so anxious that tears flowed down their eyes, and they begged bitterly: "Let us in." Please! We studied so hard and sacrificed so much for this exam. Please give us a chance!" But the two hard-hearted invigilators were not moved by them at all, and not only did they not let them in, but they also drove them out fiercely. "Don't, don't drive us away! Don't ......" Su Yu sat up from the bed with a cold sweat all over her body. It turned out to be a dream! She gasped and stroked her heart. I looked at the alarm clock at the bedside: it was only five o'clock! The exam didn't start until half past eight, and it was still early! So she lay down again, but she was no longer sleepy. Staring at the white ceiling, imagining that there were countless sheep there, counting them one by one, the more chaotic they became, and their hearts were becoming more and more chaotic, but their eyes were wide open. The sheep could not be counted, so they began to recite the poem again, and at last it was six o'clock, and it seemed that there was some noise downstairs, and she could no longer lie down, and crept up gently. 

"Good morning, godmother!" 

"Good morning! Su Yu, why is it so early today?" 

"I couldn't sleep, so I got up." 

"Don't be so nervous, you should sleep better and more soundly during the exam. How can you take the test if you don't have the spirit?" 

"I'm not nervous, I just can't sleep." 

"Don't think about it so much, you ate so little last night, and now you're hungry, right? I'll cook breakfast for you. ”

"Okay, I'll be your assistant." 

It was only half past seven, and Su Yu and Lin Bei went to the examination room. Before leaving, Mrs. Lin patted them on the shoulder, "The Bodhisattva will definitely bless you with a smooth exam and a title on the gold list!" 

"I hope so!" Su Yu said in her heart. 

Languages are easy to deal with. 

In the afternoon chemistry test, Su Yu felt a little dizzy, and her heart was empty, and she felt like she was beating a drum. The reaction equations, the steps of the experiment, and the properties of quicklime, which are usually too ripe to be cooked, are now as vague as smoke, seemingly absent, wanting to come and go, vaguely elusive. As a result, when the bell rang, she still had a big problem to do. "Oh my God, it's over!" Su Yu left the exam room in despair. 

After leaving the examination room, Su Yu's heart seemed to be filled with lead, but she didn't want to affect Lin Bei's emotions, so she forced a smile at her. No matter how unsatisfactory you are, you can't bring them to your friends. That day, she barely drank a few mouthfuls of porridge. It still makes Lin Bei's mother and daughter worry about something. 

After dinner, Lin Bei was desperately reciting politics. It's been a habit for her. She rarely watches politics, and always tries to make up for it in the last day or two. This temporary result will certainly not be ideal. So the political science teacher once spot-checked Lin Bei's comprehensive test materials that were prescribed to be done. Who knew that she only did five multiple-choice questions. The teacher was so angry that his eyes were stunned, and he really wanted to criticize her severely, but he swallowed a mouthful of saliva, not only did he not lose his temper, but said to her with a smile: "Lin Bei, do you usually spend your time reading books?" Annoying! This trick is really vicious and treacherous, embarrassing Lin Bei like something, her face was red and blue for a while, and she was speechless. After that, she really put away her heart and endorsed seriously, and then scored an unprecedented 91 points in the mock exam. She was really not interested in politics, and after a while of heat, she slowly reverted to her old ways. Time spent in politics is always minimal. 

Now, seeing that the fire was about to burn to her brow, she had to force herself to carry it. Who knew that tonight the more and more she memorized, the more she memorized it, and she still couldn't memorize it for a long time, so angry that she threw the book away, and said angrily: "If you don't memorize it, let it be bad." If you can't pass the test, you will be pulled down!" 

Su Yu was also staring at the book in a daze, and the words in the book seemed to have turned into chemical equations and chemistry test papers in the afternoon. Her heart throbbed when she thought of the miserable test paper. Seeing Lin Bei lose her temper, she didn't make a sound, just looked at Lin Bei quietly, quietly picked up the book that Lin Bei threw on the table, and handed it back to Lin Bei. 

Lin Bei glanced at Su Yu, and suddenly said faintly, "It would be nice if we all had special functions." ”

"What's wrong?" 

"Then I can read your answers through a few walls, or I can see the books and materials at home, and then pass the answers to each other with my mind, then we will definitely be able to pass the test, and we don't have to worry about it anymore. How nice that would be!" His eyes were full of fascination. 

"Don't be whimsical, even if we have special functions, we won't use them. Hurry up and read a book. She asked Lin Bei to read, but she couldn't read it at all. She doesn't know what the high school entrance examination is for, she and others have sacrificed so much for this, but what is it for? Is it to climb the ladder of life? For the sake of future glory and wealth, or fame in the world, or, more simply, more directly, so that you can learn the means to make a living in the future? She didn't know what she was for. She is not a person with a strong sense of vanity, and she really looks at fame and fortune very lightly. In herself, she really reads because she wants to learn what she wants to learn, to enrich herself, not to be an empty shell. The exam is just a test of your mastery. However, this time the high school entrance examination is different. She knows one thing deeply, that is, the success or failure of this exam will determine whether she has the opportunity to continue her education in the future, and maybe even affect the fate of her life. The thought that she was going to leave school, leave her teacher, and throw herself into the middle of the world alone, fighting for survival, her heart pumped tightly. It is easy to give up any glory and wealth and a long future, but she has the opportunity to study and the desire to go to school, but she can't rest assured. But because of this, she will look so nervous in front of this exam, and she will suffer from gains and losses. 

Three days passed quickly, and when Su Yu handed over the political test paper to the invigilator, not only did she not feel the slightest joy in her heart, but she felt like she had been hollowed out. She didn't think about anything, didn't want to do anything, and sat in her seat stunned for a while before slowly floating out of the classroom under the order of the invigilator. Lin Bei was already waiting for her at the door and asked her, "The exam is finally over, how do you feel, it's not your feeling about the situation of the exam." ”

"The Void." Suyu said simply. 

"That's right! I've been thinking about an adjective just now, and that's how it feels. Tired and tired work is for these three days, and when I didn't take the exam, I hoped that that life would end soon, and now it has finally become a thing of the past. I feel like there's nothing left now, nothing to do. But I felt very tired and tired, and my heart was as empty as a blank piece of paper. Lin Bei said and shrugged. 

Empty hearts, empty eyes, empty people. Everything is empty. Su Yu was at a loss in her heart. 

That night, they excused themselves to be tired, and after eating the sumptuous dinner that Mrs. Lin had prepared for them, they went to their rooms. Instead of memorizing books and formulas, what else do you need to do in your room? They looked at the desk that sat there late into the night, and it felt strange. There was no need to read, so they closed the door and went to bed. They were indeed very tired and tired, but no one felt the slightest sleep. For a long time, my eyes were still wide open. The two of you look at me, I look at you, smile bitterly, and simply start to reminisce. Memories are the best topic to talk about. In the past three years, there have been too many beautiful and interesting memories, Su Yu wrote limerick poems to make fun of the "thin pole" in the class, the chemistry teacher did experiments in class, and the result was covered in quicklime, as well as their friendship with Meng Haolun, and the endless jokes and emotions between them...... Of course, while talking about these interesting things in life, they will not forget to thank the teachers who have cared for and cared for them in the past few years, and they still can't help but burst into tears when they talk about how the "Alarm Clock" showed love in Suyu's fainting incident. And classmates, that kind of pure and harmonious friendship is still touching and unforgettable, although there are also unpleasant things, such as how to create rumors about them out of nothing, but everything has become a thing of the past, and those baseless rumors have become beautiful memories. …… At last, as if everything had been said, they were still watching, and they began to talk about poetry and fiction and prose, about Jane Eyre, about Tess, about Bacon...... It wasn't until the dawn had penetrated into the room through the window screen that the eyelids of the two grew heavier. 

They slept until one o'clock in the afternoon, and Mrs. Lin was worried about what had happened to them, and at twelve o'clock, she couldn't help but go upstairs to see them, and when she saw them sleeping soundly, she was relieved. Seeing them sleeping soundly, he couldn't bear to wake them up, so he let them sleep. 

It was as if they had a long, beautiful dream before they woke up. Look at the wall clock on the wall, it already points to 1:48. I couldn't help but look at each other and laughed. 

Downstairs, Mrs. Lin was knitting sweaters on the sofa, and when she saw them coming down, she smiled and said, "You guys finally came down?" I thought you were going to sleep until tomorrow morning!" 

"Mom, we only slept at five o'clock in the morning today, and we have only slept for a little more than eight hours now. That's the standard sleep time for teenagers!" 

"I didn't go to bed until five o'clock. So what are you doing in the room?" Mrs. Lin asked in surprise. 

"Speak." 

"Talk? You see each other every day, why do you still talk so much, can't you finish talking?" 

"The words come out of the heart, and the things we have in our hearts are all over the world, the north and the south, the customs and customs, and there are many words. Besides, Su Yu and I are good friends and sisters, and we will always have endless topics to talk about. I won't say anything else, it's just that your bad words about you, old mother, are enough for us to talk all night. ”

"Yo, so you said bad things about me until five o'clock in the morning? It's hard to believe that I got up early in the morning and cooked you a lot of delicious food, but you didn't get up until now to speak ill of me. You have a good conscience!" 

"Yo, you don't say it's okay to eat, but as soon as you say that, my stomach grows. I won't tell you, I'm going to brush my teeth and eat!" Lin Bei screamed and rushed into the bathroom to brush her teeth. 

During the meal, Su Yu ate two bowls of preserved egg and lean porridge in one go, and she could already eat white rice and some lighter and softer solid foods, so she ate half a bowl of white rice and several dishes. Even she was shocked when she finished eating, she had never eaten so much in one go, and her appetite had never been so good. 

With Lin Bei's help, Su Yu moved all her luggage home that afternoon. 

The next day after Sook returned, she went to work at the factory in the town and did a summer job. In the past ten days, in addition to work, she has been waiting without food and sleep.