Chapter 21: Telling the Truth
After the banquet was over, Gu Nianxun looked at the moonlight outside the window, and was ready to take his younger siblings to retire, so that his father and mother who had been tired all day could rest early.
"Ah Xun, let Grandma take Ah Chi and Ah Heng down, go to the study with my father, and talk to my father for a while." Gu Zheng stopped Gu Nianxun, who was about to leave, Gu Nianxun was also stunned at the moment, what was there to say to her that her father was anxious to tell her.
The father and daughter went to Gu Zheng's study in the front yard together, but they didn't say anything along the way.
When he arrived in the study, Gu Nianxun looked familiar and unfamiliar is arrangement, although he had been here in his previous life, but the reflection was not very profound, and there was a ravine in the middle. The overall layout of the study is very in line with Gu Zheng's temperament, which is in a high position and deep and introverted.
Gu Zheng sat on the carved Taishi chair made of mahogany, and raised his hand to let Gu Nianxun sit opposite each other.
"Ah Xun..."Gu Zheng called out to his eldest daughter, but he didn't continue, which made Gu Nianxun feel very strange, does his father have anything unspeakable, he doesn't look like a majestic second-grade official in the eyes of outsiders.
"Dad, do you have anything to say to Xun'er?" Gu Nianxun's clear eyes looked straight at Gu Zheng, looking at the eldest daughter's slim appearance now, Gu Zheng's heart was also full of emotions.
"What Dad wants to say is that I recently said about what you have done in the third room for your mother in the afternoon, and the processing and arrangement of the Ah Xun pile pile are very good. But my father felt that he couldn't live with you, and he couldn't stand with your mother. After Gu Zheng finished speaking, he took a deep breath, this was the first time Gu Nianxun had seen his father bow to someone in his two lives, but he didn't expect it to be her daughter.
"Daddy......" Gu Nianxun's eyes instantly turned red, and tears trickled down his cheeks on the Persian blanket laid out in the study. It seemed silent, but it hit Gu Zheng's heart with a bang.
In fact, Gu Nianxun knew that the saddest thing about what Sanfang did was her father Gu Zheng. The younger brother who has been brought up since he was a child, but he is doing things behind his back that hurt his wife and children and trample on his bottom line, which is undoubtedly a betrayal of the deep brotherhood in the past.
"Dad, how can you feel sorry for Xun'er, you are not sorry for anyone, it is Sanfang's own lack of greed, not your fault father." Gu Nianxun couldn't suppress the injustice and excitement in his heart, and said to Gu Zheng with a slight cry.
Gu Zheng looked at the eldest daughter who firmly defended him, and felt very relieved in his heart, his eldest daughter Gu Zheng was not inferior to the princess and noble daughter in Beijing, and she was also the most pure filial piety.
Gu Zheng continued: "Dad should be guilty, for the greed and dissatisfaction of the third room, Dad has always known, Ah Xun, don't forget, your third uncle was brought up by me, how he has a temperament, Dad knows it."
After hearing this, Gu Nianxun instantly froze in place as if petrified. Yes, she thought to herself, her father is the one who knows the third uncle best.
Gu Zheng didn't seem to see the eldest daughter's reaction, and continued: "Your third uncle, his ability is really mediocre, to be a man of success in this life, and to spend his life in peace and stability is actually the road paved by his father, and with his talent, this is actually the best choice." But in his eyes, his father's move undoubtedly killed the path he wanted to take. “
"Over the years, from what he has done, it is not difficult to see his desire and pursuit of a position of power, I have also helped him to deal with the aftermath, and I have also taught, warned, every time I want to be ruthless, but... Sad to feel the level in my heart. “
"How do you put your heart down? The younger brother who was brought up with one hand spent far more thought on him than Ah Heng, the eldest son. Gu Zheng recalled the past, his eyes were slightly red, and his calm face in the past could not hide the helplessness and struggle buried in his heart over the years.
Gu Nianxun understands that blood is thicker than water, and nurturing feelings cannot be easily parted with and abandoned. She was thinking more about her father's unspeakable struggles and pains before.
"Therefore, the reason for Sanfang's arrogance today comes from many internal and external aspects, including your third uncle's own greed and vanity, always thinking about things beyond his ability, and his excessive desire for fame, fortune and glory. In addition, there is the indulgence and doting of me and your grandmother, and the selfishness and provocation of your third aunt. “
"It's always my father's dereliction of duty that hurts my wife and children with what his family does."
Gu Nianxun felt that his father, who had said this, had lost the vigor he had when he first saw him today, and he seemed to have aged more than a decade mentally.
What happened this afternoon?
Gu Zheng woke up from his memories and raised his eyes to look at this eldest daughter who seemed to have become calm and decisive overnight, he knew that what Mrs. said in the afternoon was true, and Ah Xun had changed from the inside out. His eldest daughter, the pearl of his palm, every word and deed, every move is not as good as before.
I don't know how much damage Sanfang caused to his eldest daughter, so that Ah Xun's mental means exceeded his father's expectations.
"Ah Xun..."Gu Zheng's voice trembled slightly.
"Daddy?" Gu Nianxun responded, knowing that there was something in his father's words.
"There is only one reason why a person's mind and character change dramatically in a short period of time, and that is because he has experienced a great event that changes his original thinking. Dad doesn't know what you've experienced, from a delicate flower under your father's wings to a big tree that can shelter your loved ones. But Dad thought, Ah Xun must be... It hurts. “
"When-" The barrier that had been erected in Gu Nianxun's heart since he was reborn suddenly shattered.
But Dad thought, Ah Xun must be... It hurts.
This sentence was repeated in Gu Nianxun's mind, lingering left and right.
Gu Nianxun held his head in pain and squatted on the carpet in the study, the memories of his previous life suddenly flooded into his mind like a tide, and the pain was like a needle pricking his heart.
"Ah Xun!" Gu Zheng saw that the eldest daughter's demeanor seemed to collapse in an instant, and he only felt that his heart hurt to the point that he couldn't breathe, it was him, it was his father's dereliction of duty, and it was he who couldn't bless his wife and children with a smooth life.
Gu Zheng hugged his eldest daughter tightly in his arms, patted his generous palm rhythmically on Gu Nianxun's body, and kept calling Gu Nianxun's name, hoping to pull her back to reality from the pain.
Gu Nianxun was still immersed in that unbearable memory, the unwillingness and humiliation of being beaten into the cold palace, the inhuman encounter in the cold palace, the insults and beatings of the palace maids and eunuchs, and the helplessness and despair of hearing the pain of all the exiles of the Gu Mansion in the north, unable to protect Qiuyi......
The snow in that cold palace was still too cold and too cold.
Gu Nianyuan's carefree pride, the glory of the third room paved with the blood of the long room, and hatred, as if he wanted to swallow Gu Nianxun completely.
"Ah Xun, dad is here, don't be afraid."
Gu Zheng called out again and again, pulling Gu Nianxun back from the pain little by little, and Gu Nianxun, who was trapped in the heavy snow, seemed to hear his father's voice.
Father! He's still here, it's good!
Gu Nianxun's eyes gradually returned to their previous clarity and clarity, remembering everything that had just happened in the study.
"Dad, it's good that you're still here!" Gu Nianxun watched his father hugging him tightly, and understood that the pain just now fell into his father's eyes, and he was afraid that it was also engraved on his father's heart.
"It's all bad for my father, so that my daughter is still living in pain under the wings of my father. Dad was wrong, really wrong. “
A tear fell on Gu Nianxun's hand, hot and hot, burning Gu Nianxun's heart.
Dad, he cried for himself, Gu Nianxun thought to himself.
"Dad..."Gu Nianxun has lived for two lifetimes, but he has never been so overwhelmed like this.
Gu Zheng picked up Gu Nianxun from the carpet and placed it on the word, and then touched Gu Nianxun's head, comforting the eldest daughter who had not yet recovered her senses.
"Dad, is it still possible to gain Ah Xun's trust now?" For the first time, Gu Nianxun experienced Gu Zheng talking to her cautiously.
"Daddy... Your daughter has never blamed you, and your father has always been a role model and pride for her daughter. Although my father is in a high position, he attaches great importance to love and righteousness, and is upright. If it is because of his father's kindness to the third uncle's family, he blames everything on his father, and his daughter is really not worthy of being the daughter of the Gu family, and she is not worthy of being her father's daughter. “
Gu Nianxun looked at Gu Zheng's still red eyes firmly and sincerely.
The pain in Gu Zheng's heart was slightly dispelled by Gu Nianxun's trust and words.
"Dad, I will definitely give Ah Xun and Changfang an explanation, and let Sanfang take due responsibility for the mistakes he has made. About Ah Xun's experience, Dad doesn't ask, Ah Xun will say it if he wants to, and remember it one by one if he doesn't want to say it, there will always be a time for them to return. “
Gu Zheng also solemnly said to Gu Nianxun that it was not so much a word as a promise.
Dad, don't you ask? Gu Nianxun thought, although he didn't think about hiding it from his dearest father, he had already thought of a rhetoric, but at this moment, it was difficult to open his mouth after thinking about the draft.
suddenly felt that her father and mother had no unconditional trust and support for her.
"Dad, do you believe in past and present lives?" Gu Nianxun's sudden words made Gu Zhengleng, who was used to seeing the scene, stay in place.
Gu Zheng's reaction was expected by Gu Nianxun.
"As long as Ah Xun says it, my father will believe it." Gu Zheng said.
Gu Nianxun no longer hesitated and doubted, but firm, beyond the previous firmness.
"Dad, Ah Xun has lived another life." The tears of the previous life seem to have dried up tonight.
Gu Zheng's eyes widened suddenly, his lips trembled up and down, he felt scared in his heart for the first time, and he suddenly didn't want to know the truth.
Being reborn also means that the palm bead he put on the tip of his heart died at a time and place he didn't know.
"In his previous life, Ah Xun was sent to the cold palace as a concubine, and was taken care of by the third room in a heavy snow with Qiuyi...... Took a life. And Daddy and Ah Chi Ah Heng were demoted by Sanfang with a scheme and exiled... The Lands of the North. “
Gu Nianxun briefly described her short past life, as for the details, she really didn't have the courage to let her father know the truth completely, because the truth is always the most hurtful.
Gu Zheng's whole body strength was drained away, and he said nonsense, "No wonder, no wonder..." For a moment, the study fell silent.
For the first time, Gu Zheng felt confused in his heart.