Lin Kongkong had rehearsed countless times in his mind what Bai Chenfeng looked like when he knew the truth, either in disbelief, or with a cold face, or with hysterical questioning...... However, she didn't expect it to be like this.

I didn't expect him to leave her alone in this green water village that she was not familiar with at all, he didn't know if she would be scared without him? I didn't expect him to say that I would never see her again, I didn't expect that one moment I would be a stranger, and the next moment I would be a stranger.

She thought that they had been separated and united for ten years, and there were days and nights, mutual affection, inseparable, affectionate and glue-like. I always thought that it was not her wishful thinking between them, and there was love, otherwise he would not be so good to her, but he loved her more deeply.

Love, her love, how ironic does it seem now? What is deceived is not destined to last long.

She had been sitting on the floor for a long time, and suddenly remembered something, got up and went into the inner room, and lay down on the bed in a trance.

She tried to force herself to sleep, but she couldn't sleep for a long time.

In the early morning, he also pulled himself to get up and overbearingly asked her to sleep with him for a while. It hasn't been long since then, so why has everything changed?

She placed her hand gently on her lower abdomen, wondering if there was a child here. Although she was never pregnant, she still had common sense. The recent vomiting and drowsiness, as well as the fact that her menstrual period had been delayed for so many days, gave her a vague feeling that she might be pregnant.

The emotions churning in her chest were sour and astringent, and she was extremely glad that she hadn't told him, from the initial helplessness to calming down. What if you do have children? There are no more than two outcomes, one is that he will accept her because of the child, and the other is that he forces her to have an abortion.

Neither of these is what she wants, she loves him, she loves him, but that doesn't mean she will have no dignity in front of him. She has a heart, she will hurt, and she will feel sad for her ten years.

My sister's ten years were their childhood and adolescence when they didn't know what it was like, but they got all his love. Her ten years are the best ten years for young women, from the beginning of love to death.

Because she met him late, will she be abandoned and blamed? Although she has the identity of her sister, which is more important, a name or a real person? It was she who has accompanied him all these years, not Ji Mengmeng.

Now, he treats her like this, it's not fair, it's not fair at all.

Who can tell themselves, what's wrong with her? She lied to him, but even if he did, he shouldn't have done this to her.

They have been together for almost ten years, and they can't even get a chance to explain in these ten years? What is he when she is? It's all up to him to decide whether he wants it or not, why doesn't he take responsibility for his actions? As long as she can be with him, she doesn't care about anything, and she doesn't even ask for an identity.

She's not a little girl, she's twenty-seven, she deserves a family, a haven she can lean on. But what did he give her? Abandon like a shoe! She doesn't accept it and never will.

Clearly knowing that she was abandoned, her body shivered uncontrollably, and she felt cold. It was as cold as the year my mother died, a bitter cold that emanated from the bottom of my heart.

Lin Kongkong covered her eyebrows with her hands, she didn't want to cry, she just wanted to make her eyes dark, the darkness could make her think more clearly, but the light would only make her feel sad.

I don't believe he would be so ruthless, the man she has loved for ten years, the man who will hold her in the palm of his hand, but his every sentence is still clearly hovering in his mind.

He said, "I was at that time with you, do you think that because of your cloudy face, I will love you?" ”

He said, "I never want to see you again, liar. ”

He said, "Want me to forgive you?" Unless the landslide and the ground cracks, the four seas are exhausted. ”

……

He ignored her pleas to stay, and even after she confessed the truth, he didn't even give her a chance to explain, he forcibly broke the fingers she held on his arm, regardless of her pain.

Lin Kongkong smiled sarcastically, she hated him like this, she was so ruthless, and she hated herself like this, and she still couldn't let go of his ruthlessness.

She didn't want to love anymore, she really didn't want to, she felt tired and desperate to love him. But why can't you do it yourself? Why can't you be as ruthless as he is? Why......

In the end, she didn't have a single tear, only endless distress. She didn't think about the past anymore, but her brain was out of control, and the scenes of the past jumped in her mind one by one.

When she was seventeen and a half years old and less than eighteen years old, she saw him for the first time, and her cold eyebrows and peerless appearance made her fall in love at first sight.

On his eighteenth birthday, he kissed her and said, "From now on, you are mine." ”

At the age of twenty-three, he left him and went to Switzerland alone.

At the age of twenty-seven, she knew her physical condition and resolutely returned to S City. thought that there would be no more intersections between them, she just wanted to guard him from afar, but later there was still an entanglement that could not be dissolved, and she would never abandon after life and death.

When she thought of all the good things in the past, he gave them to her sister, and she felt distressed and unbearable when she had nothing to do with herself. No one wants to be a substitute, especially a substitute for love. Because, the biggest difference between this emotion and friendship and family affection is that it is unique and irreplaceable.

Whether she wants to admit it or not, she finally recognized the fact that Bai Chenfeng has always loved Ji Mengmeng, a name, an identity, and a symbol have nothing to do with her as a person.

Lin Kongkong got up, packed up all the things related to him in the house, and packed them under the bed. She frowned and thought, what should an abandoned woman do? Looking for life and death? Helplessly smiled bitterly, she didn't die, she didn't want to die, from the moment she was diagnosed with a heart attack, no one wanted to live more than her. Even if it's just one more second, she has to take a good look at the world for a second.

If you don't want me, then I have to live well, since you don't want to see me is what you want, then, I'll give it to you.

She went outside the house, looked at the rice and dishes on the table, and when it was cold, she wanted to fill the heat. As expected, she choked on the smoke for a long time, but fortunately she ended up on fire.

He warmed the meal, served it to the table, took the chopsticks that should have belonged to him, and ate it slowly.

This meal, she ate very carefully, chewed and swallowed slowly for a long time, until the hot meal became cold again. She was thinking, this was the meal he cooked, and he was going to eat it together, but she was left alone.

The crystal water droplets fell into the bowl, and she was stunned, and reached out to touch it, but her face was already wet at some point.

She put down the dishes and chopsticks, lowered her head, and sobbed slightly. She didn't dare to indulge herself in crying, she didn't know if she would lose the courage to persist after she cried.

In the future, she can no longer be relied on, and no one will compromise because of her tears.

Don't cry, don't cry.

She said to herself, restraining the tears on her face, and eating the cold food until she could no longer eat it.

This is the food he cooked with his own hands, and he can't eat it in the future, so he can't leave it behind. Reluctantly ate a few more bites, but it turned out to be left, and she stared blankly at the leftovers in the bowl, recalling it clearly.

In the past, as long as she couldn't eat, he would push the leftovers to him, and he would always finish it quietly without saying a word. also resisted, she only said that you can't waste food, he ignored it, she accused him of disliking her, and he had no choice but to obey.

He used to cook, but at first, she didn't know that he could cook and make it so delicious. Because, before she came to Ji's house, she had the impression that women cooked.

She lived with her mother in a small southern town, very barren and small. Most of the men there were not outstanding, some were even rude, they always spoke loudly to women, and they never went out into the kitchen.

It was her first year of being admitted to F University, military training, and after standing in a military posture for a day, she didn't have the energy to join her roommates to discuss handsome guys, and she lay on the bed tired, her feet hurt as if they weren't her own.

She worked hard to get admitted to F University to find him, who knew that he was so busy, settled for her admission, bought the supplies in the dormitory for her, and never appeared again.

She was missing and awkward, in a bad mood, and didn't even eat dinner. In the middle of the night, he began to vomit and diarrhea, and his stomach hurt so much that he could hardly get up.

At that time, she didn't know her roommate very well, so she endured the pain and called him.

She didn't know if it was because her voice sounded too painful, or if it was something else, but he stammered.

He asked her to wait, and she curled up on the bed to wait, he didn't hang up the phone, listening to the sound of Suosuo's voice over there, inexplicably relieved.

She didn't know how he got the menopausal dormitory aunt, so he let him enter the girls' dormitory in a grand manner, or in the middle of the night.

All she knew was that he knocked on the door before entering, telling his roommates to get up. After coming in, he probed the temperature of her forehead, wrapped her in a coat, and she was even wearing pajamas, and he carried her out.

Emergency, blood test, infusion......

The next morning, he took her back to his rented apartment and cooked her first meal, soft millet porridge and fluffy scrambled eggs. She looked at his serious cooking and felt that she was so lucky to have met a good man.

Fortunate? Scold...... Her idea was so simple. If time could be repeated, she wished she hadn't been greedy and hadn't deceived him. In that way, her youth in the past ten years may be as plain as water, not so much happiness, and not so much distress.

But how can time be repeated?

She couldn't resist the pain in her heart, she had difficulty breathing, and her breath became thicker and thicker, like a fish on the verge of death out of the sea.

The hand was firmly caressed to her heart, and the surging pain made her more and more sober, and she knew that she had a heart attack.

It was difficult to get up, struggled to find the clothes to wear when he went out that day, took the medicine tremblingly, and slowly made a psychological defense line for himself.

You can't remember, you can't think, you can't be sad, she is different from normal people, her heart doesn't allow her to be willful.

Let go of everything that is heavy in your heart, and keep telling yourself that it will pass, and tomorrow will be a new day.