293: Is My Life Finished (1)
Lin Kongkong finally waited for the day of the prison visit, in order to make herself look better, she did not choose dark colors, but specially chose an off-white maternity dress and a light blue coat.
She stared blankly at herself in the mirror, a little like an illusion of another world. Since returning to City A, her mood has been bad, and she doesn't want to remember the past, but she can't forget it.
was so heavily suppressed, she felt that she already had a sense of vicissitudes, or was it full of devastated vicissitudes......
People are wonderful creatures, and when they are in pain, they once thought that they would not be able to hold on. But after that time, you will find that after a long time of pain, you will become numb, and numbness is the first step in recovery.
After a few tosses, she seems to have fully accepted the facts, and even if there is still no sunlight ahead, she will continue to walk.
When I packed up my mood and went out, I saw Kang Chenyi, who was waiting at the door by car, staring at her hair for a long time, as if she had discovered a new world.
Lin Kongkong was very displeased with his move of paying attention to his hairstyle, slanted at him, and said angrily: "What do you see?" I've never seen a beautiful woman! ”
Kang Chenyi's warm eyebrows and eyes were covered with a layer of helplessness, with a bit of flattering praise: "The new hairstyle is very beautiful." ”
Lin Kongkong went straight to the car and ruthlessly debunked: "You really don't want to panic, people like me can see that they are exposed." ”
"I never lie, and this time too."
Kang Chenyi said what he said from his heart, although short hair is not as beautiful as long hair, it looks more vibrant. Especially for her now, this kind of vitality is particularly important.
The two were silent all the way until the car drove into the men's prison in District X of City A.
Although this is not the first time she has been here, it is still a little repulsive to touch here. She always felt that something invisible was pressing against her, so she didn't blink her nervous eyes, and she was on high alert.
"Can you calm your mind? You're too nervous right now. ”
Lin Kongkong nodded while unbuckling his seat belt.
Still the same as last time, the prison guards led them through the dark corridors. It's really dark, it doesn't seem to even see the light, only a long road, and a cold that can invade people's pores.
Only then did she realize that her courage was so small, she didn't dare to take heavy steps, and she didn't dare to pant loudly. It was as if the slightest sound would trigger something she feared.
"Don't be afraid, there's me." With a gentle voice, a warm, dry hand shook hers, sending wisps of warmth to her cold hand.
She looked up at the person around her, his gentle and soft smile, with the power to calm people's hearts. She lost her mind for a moment, because the scene was familiar.
Not long ago, he also accompanied her to visit the prison in this way, and there was an indescribable emotion in her heart, which made her suddenly quiet and less afraid.
Still in the same scene as last time, she sat in a chair, saw her father through the glass, and walked towards her.
Compared with Ji Zhongliang, who was slow and full of vicissitudes last time, the father she saw this time was much quieter, but his spirit was very good. Although the eyes are not as sharp as before, they are very peaceful and calm.
A thin layer of mist appeared in Lin Kongkong's eyes, and she calmly picked up the microphone: "Dad, I've come to see you." ”
"You've lost weight......" Ji Zhongliang looked at her and said gently.
"I'm not thin, maybe I cut my hair short, so my face looks smaller."
When she said this, she was a little coquettish, and she smiled like a big child, Ji Zhong's conscience warmed, and he smiled rarely.
"Dad, are you okay in there?"
"It's okay, you...... Coming alone? ”
Lin Kongkong knew that he was knocking on the side and asking, her current relationship with Bai Chenfeng, she felt that there was no need to hide it, so she replied bluntly: "I broke up with him." ”
Ji Zhongliang's expression was a little strange, neither comforting nor worried. It seems that his current attitude towards the relationship between the two of them is ambiguous.
Yes, he is ambivalent and wants both them to break up and for them not to break up.
There are many reasons why I hope they break up, such as the two families are too deeply entangled and it is a feud; For example, Bai Chenfeng's personality is too arrogant and not suitable to be a lifelong partner; Another example is that their acquaintance is not simple enough, and love is mixed with intrigue and calculation......
And there is only one reason why I hope they don't break up, that is, his baby daughter likes Bai Chenfeng and likes it very much, so he has to do it.
"Why break up?"
"I knew some things, and I figured out some things, and I wasn't suitable for him, so I broke up." Lin Kongkong's expression was very calm, without a trace of sadness, as if he was telling someone else's story and had nothing to do with himself.
"You have the right to decide what life you want, and Dad has no other requirements, he just wants you to live well...... It's easier. ”
His pause revealed his guilt for his daughter, who had been caught between her father and lover for so many years, and it was indeed not easy.
Lin Kongkong's nose was sour by what he said, and he said with a little cry: "Don't worry, I will live well." ”
Ji Zhongliang didn't react much, only looked at her lovingly: "Is the child about to be born?" ”
"Well, it's going to be two months."
Ji Zhongliang was probably really happy, and said one after another: "Good, good, good, great, the Ji family has a queen." After being happy, he looked at his daughter with a serious expression: "You raise a child alone......"
"No problem, I was ready to be a single mother from the moment I decided to keep him."
Ji Zhongliang nodded again and again: "You are very strong, like your mother." ”
Since Lin Kongkong asked him last time, he knew that he loved his mother very much. I didn't understand their emotions before, but now when I hear him say this, I feel that there are many ways to express love, and what belongs to them may be to lock each other in the depths of their hearts.
Don't mention it, don't forget it.
"Do you remember what she looked like?"
Ji Zhongliang's eyes instantly became long, as if he remembered something a long time ago, "Of course I remember, since the encounter on the edge of the West Lake, I haven't forgotten it." ”
"Me too, but what I remember is that when she was dying, she said let me come to you...... It's smiling. ”
"I am a failure to you...... These days, when I'm locked up here, and with a lot of free time, I always think about the past. If time could be turned back, I would not want those things outside of my body, and I would just guard your mother and your sisters......"
Since childhood, there is a father, a mother, and a sister, they are a family of four, and they can live happily together, and their mother doesn't always have to cry secretly alone, and she won't always be so sad......
I never dared to think about this kind of life, because the more beautiful things are, the more afraid I won't get them. She couldn't help but start sobbing softly: "Mom will be very happy if she hears your words." ”
Ji Zhongliang felt that he had said a little too much, and with such a heavy body now, she shouldn't think about these things anymore. urged her: "It's almost time, go back quickly!" ”
Lin Kongkong wiped his tears on his face casually and pulled out a smile: "I'm sorry, Dad, I finally came to see you, I couldn't help ......"
"I saw Kang Chenyi, he came with you?"
Lin Kongkong turned his head and saw that he was sitting not far away, then turned his head and said to his father, "Hmm." ”
"Can you give me a few minutes and let me have a few words with him?"
Lin Kongkong looked at his father with strange eyes: "What do you have to say to him?" ”
Ji Zhongliang didn't speak, only looked at her with gentle eyes, Lin Kongkong was seen by him for a while, so he reluctantly turned back to Kang Chenyi and said, "You come here, my father wants to talk to you." ”
Kang Chenyi, who was originally sitting leisurely, sat up with a straight posture when he heard her say this, looking very serious and serious.
Lin Kongkong saw him sitting there and urged: "I asked you to come over and listen to the phone, what are you doing sitting stupidly?" ”
Only then did Kang Chenyi react, he had a momentary short circuit in his head just now, as if he was stupid. At this time, he couldn't care about his image, he could only ignore her disgusted look, and Baba stepped forward to listen to the phone.
Lin Kongkong reluctantly gave up his seat to him and stood next to him.
Kang Chenyi picked up the phone and called politely: "Uncle Ji." ”
Lin Kongkong didn't know what his father thought of this "Uncle Ji", anyway, she thought it was weird. But when I think about it, he used to be called "Mr. Ji", but now that his father is in prison, it is ironic to call him so again, and it is not surprising to call him "uncle" in terms of age.
When Ji Zhongliang faced Kang Chenyi, he was not as gentle as he was just now, and his tone was not even kind: "Young Master Kang, I remember that I talked to you about my daughter before, and you refused at that time, what do you mean by being so close to her now?" ”
Kang Chenyi was not annoyed by his aggressiveness, only looked at Lin Kongkong slightly, and said gently: "We have some private matters to say, can you avoid it?" ”
Although Lin Kongkong didn't know what his father had just said, looking at his expression through the glass, his tone should be unkind. Kang Chenyi was not only annoyed, but also asked her to avoid it, saying that she seemed to be an outsider, although she was reluctant, she was not good at relying on it.
As soon as Lin Kongkong left, Kang Chenyi replied to Ji Zhongliang respectfully: "Let's not talk about the past, now I'm pretty sure I like her, and I'm sure I want her to be happy, so you don't have to worry about anything." ”
"She's the only pearl in my palm, I've been hurt a lot before, and I don't want her to be a non-human again. If you can't give her happiness, stay away from her and don't provoke her. ”
Kang Chenyi smiled helplessly: "Even if I want to give her happiness, she won't give me a chance, she ...... It's an idiot. ”
Ji Zhongliang's eyebrows were furrowed, and his eyes were like electricity: "What do you mean by this?" ”
"That's what you think, she didn't come out of the shadow of that relationship, and she still loves ......"