On the eve of Yang Xiaozhen's wedding, the badge of honor of the IOI event finally crossed the Pacific Ocean to He Dongfan's hands.

The size of a one-dollar coin of the badge is golden, and the reverse is clearly engraved: To Ning Xin.

Yang Xiaozhen's wedding was held in a church in the south of the city.

That day, Ning Xin was very busy, and He Dongfan was only in the same frame as Ning Xin in a group photo, with several people in between.

The rest of the time, he could only look at her from afar.

She wore a cherry blossom pink one-shoulder long gauze skirt, the upper body fit tightly, highlighting the collarbone and waist slender curves, the skirt was several layers but very smooth, the fabric had its own pearlescent effect, half of the gestures were light, half smart, and the gauze skirt was sparkling.

He Dongfan had never seen her like this, and he couldn't take his eyes off.

At lunchtime, He Dongfan and Ning Xin took a look, but they didn't even say a word.

In the afternoon, Ning Xin was busy preparing for the dinner again, He Dongfan couldn't stay and went with him, running around and choking tired.

It was the first time he knew that the wedding was so cumbersome and tiring.

But the bride and groom are really enviable.

He Dongfan has participated in many weddings, and even the prosperous weddings that cost hundreds of millions, but he didn't have this feeling.

When Yang Xiaozhen and his husband swore to each other in front of priests, relatives and friends in the church, making a solemn promise for life, He Dongfan looked at Ning Xin, who was standing aside.

At that moment, the newlyweds seemed to be informing heaven and earth and all the gods that they were going to be together and would never be separated again.

It's so sacred that people yearn for it.

At the dinner in the evening, He Dongfan was arranged to eat, and Ning Xin followed the bride to toast.

Later, a girl who had spoken a few words in the afternoon found He Dongfan and asked him to go to the lounge, and Ning Xin was drunk.

When He Dongfan passed, Ning Xin was lying on the dresser, her bare shoulders and back lines were beautiful, and a pair of butterfly bones were so beautiful that it made people reverie. And Yang Xiaozhen held a water cup next to her to help her pat her back and ask her to drink some water.

He Dongfan ran over and panted slightly: "Sister Xiaozhen, how is Teacher Ning?" ”

"I just had a drink, I don't know who mixed the wine with the drink, and she accidentally drank it." Yang Xiaozhen said, "I still have to go out to toast, please take care of her." ”

He Dongfan nodded, reached out and took the water cup in Yang Xiaozhen's hand, and knelt next to Ning Xin on one leg: "Teacher Ning, drink some water." ”

Ning Xin tilted her head, revealing her eyes.

She looked at him and smiled.

She put on makeup today, her eyeliner was hooked upwards slightly, her eyeshadow was the same pink as her clothes, and she also pasted a lot of shiny things.

But her eyes are very loose and charming.

A kind of lazy charming, not deliberate.

It's really drunk.

Ning Xin buried her head in her elbow again, and said uncomfortably: "I don't drink water, I'm dizzy, I want to sleep." ”

He Dongfan put down the water glass: "I'll take you home." ”

Yang Xiaozhen was not very relieved to see Ning Xin like this, and made a suggestion: "Or Ning Xin will stay in the hotel tonight, I will open a room for her, I am afraid that she will vomit in the car like this, and it is too far away." ”

That's fine, too.

Yang Xiaozhen walked aside and called the hotel manager to arrange a room.

After a few minutes, a hotel waiter knocked on the door and said that the room was ready.

The two girls helped Ning Xin up.

As soon as Ning Xin stood up, paused, and stumbled lightly, He Dongfan raised her throat and just wanted to step forward, she stood firm again with the support.

Ning Xin shook her head, her gaze slowly swept around, and finally landed on He Dongfan not far away.

She raised her arm slightly, withdrew from the little sister's hand, and slowly walked towards He Dongfan.

She looked at him, stopped in front of him, tilted her head slightly, and looked at him deeply.

She had a crooked bun on her head and a flower that could not fall off at the moment, as she was now in an unsteady posture.

Her cheeks were white and crimson, her eyes watery, and then she slowly leaned forward.

He Dongfan hurriedly took half a step forward and caught her.

It was different from the year when she took the initiative to hug him, and it was also different from the last time she took the initiative to throw herself into his arms.

This time, he was really, literally hugging her, his arms around her body, his palms on her body, bearing her weight.

She's thin, soft, and very... Fragrant.

The little sister hurriedly stepped forward to help.

He Dongfan swallowed his saliva, took the initiative to let go of his hand, and didn't dare to hug it again.

But Ning Xin was unwilling, and turned her wrist to easily struggle away from her sister's support. She directly circled He Dongfan's waist, and her voice was crying: "I just want him... As long as he ......"

Did I hear me right?

He Dongfan was so made by Ning Xin's actions and words that his whole body was full of blood rushing to his head, his hands were empty in the air, standing like a wooden stake, he didn't dare to have the slightest frivolous idea of taking advantage.

Yang Xiaozhen was a little devastated when she saw Ning Xin drunk like this, but she didn't expect that she usually behaved like a Buddha, and she would take advantage of men when she was drunk.

She hurriedly went to pull her: "Xinxin, you are drunk." ”

Ning Xin's forehead was against He Dongfan's neck and shook his head: "I just want him." ”

With that, she tilted her head, her head pressed against his shoulder, and the hand around his waist tightened with strength.

This time, He Dongfan really heard it clearly and clearly.

What she did say was, only! Want! He!

Is this what drinking courage?

Is this a drunken confession?

He Dongfan had an irregular heartbeat, his throat was dry, and he couldn't help but swallow another mouthful of saliva.

His empty hand slowly fell, one hand around her waist, the other around her back, fingertips tightened.

Her back was bare, and her skin was delicate from that of a man, and her thin back bones fluctuated slightly from her breathing.

He Dongfan's fingers trembled, and his palm went down, encircling the part with the clothing.

He tilted his head: "Sister Xiaozhen, I'll take her to the guest room, you go to the guest room first, they have urged you several times." ”

Yang Xiaozhen glanced at Ning Xin, there was really no way to reason with someone who was drunk and crazy, and besides, she was drunk now, and her fists were afraid that she would not be able to control them, so she might swing them up.

She nodded: "Then you take care of her first, and I'll come when I'm done." ”

After getting the consent, He Dongfan didn't hesitate, directly hugged Ning Xinheng, and said to the hotel waiter: "Let's go." ”

The room is on the eighth floor of the hotel, and there is still some distance from the elevator.

The hallway was narrow and dim, and there was no one there.

The thick carpet hid the footsteps, and He Dongfan could see the pink gauze skirt that had been kicked up for walking.

She leaned against his chest, her eyes closed, her hands still hooked around his neck.

She seemed to be very uncomfortable, her eyelashes were moist, and her eyelids trembled slightly.

He Dongfan didn't hold back, raised her body up, and pressed her into his arms a little tighter.

It's really a long distance, and the waiters are worried that He Dongfan can't hold it, so they can't help but speed up their pace.

When I was about to arrive at the guest room, the waiter took out the room card early, ran over in a few steps, swiped the room door with a 'ding' sound, and inserted the room card into the card slot.

He Dongfan went in with Ning Xin in his arms.

This is a simple double room.

He Dongfan put Ning Xin on the bed while hearing the sound of the room door closing.

He put a pillow on Ning Xin's head and wanted to pour her some water to drink, but Ning Xin grabbed her as soon as his hand was withdrawn.

Ning Xin's eyes were half-open, her eyes were moist and blurry, and she muttered, "Don't go." ”

He Dongfan had never heard Ning Xin's voice like this, and his whole heart was soft and numb. He immediately half-squatted on the side of the bed: "Don't go, I won't go." ”

He said this, but Ning Xin still grabbed his hand and didn't let go.

She took his hand, leaned close to her cheek, closed her eyes gently, crystal tears slipped out of her eyes, and begged in her tone: "Don't go, you don't go." ”

He Dongfan was a little overwhelmed, holding his breath and wiping away her tears with his left finger.

Her tears were cold, and her cheeks were hot.

He Dongfan blurted out: "I'm not leaving, I'll always be with you." ”

Ning Xin let out a weak 'um' and repeated: "Forever... Yes forever. ”

He Dongfan thought she didn't believe it, raised his left hand with an empty head, and swore excitedly: "I will always be with you, mine will always be... It was the last moment of my life, and I was always talking! ”

Ning Xin held He Dongfan's hand tightly, rubbed her cheek against his hand again, and whispered: "We want to buy a house." ”

He Dongfan nodded without thinking: "Buy." ”

"Buy what I like."

"Okay."

"The decoration is also something I like."

"Of course."

Ning Xin sniffed, tears seeping out of her closed eyes, bringing more crying: "Furniture is also what I like." ”

"Don't cry." He Dongfan was distressed, and wiped her tears helplessly, "Listen to you, listen to you, don't cry, I don't know what to do if you cry." ”

"We, say okay... Say yes. ”

He Dongfan nodded and coaxed her: "Okay, I remember, I remember everything." ”

"Say it's a lifetime."

"Good, for a lifetime, forever!" He Dongfan promised.

"Then why are you... Why don't you catch me? Why are you..."Ning Xin's emotions were out of control, gasping rapidly, humming and crying, "You didn't catch me......"

A layer of fine sweat appeared on He Dongfan's head, and his left hand immediately attached it to wrap Ning Xin's hand, clenching it slightly: "Catch it, catch it, don't cry, don't cry." ”

Ning Xin hugged He Dongfan's wrist, her fingers trembled, and she cried: "I don't blame you... I don't blame you, it's I who hurt your heart when I said those words, I know that you will be sad when I say those things, I'm sorry... I'm sorry. ”

He Dongfan didn't quite understand, so he could only comfort her along the way: "I'm sorry, no." ”

Ning Xin opened her eyes, her eyes were more energetic than just now, but they were full of sad water, and her shoulders trembled with sobs: "Those words are not sincere, I'm sorry." ”

He Dongfan's heart was in turmoil, and he was in a fog.

What sentence is not sincere?

Don't buy a house again?

Ning Xin's eyes flashed: "I didn't blame you, I didn't blame you for Dad's affairs, never." ”

Daddy's business...

He Dongfan's eyes were stunned, his back was stiff, and there was a sense of pain.

He reached out to brush away Ning Xin's falling hair, held her moist cheeks hard, and panted heavily: "Ning Xin, you can see who I am." ”

Ning Xin didn't answer him, just cried and said, "Mom died because... It's because of me. If I could care more about her, if I hadn't slept that day, if I could talk to her more, if... If ......"

But there is no if.

"Mom, mom won't..."Ning Xin's tears rained down, her voice choked and twitched, "Mom won't kill herself." ”

The word suicide reached He Dongfan's ears, and he couldn't care about anything.

He hugged Ning Xin and took her into his arms.

He felt her remorse, her pain, those... It seems to be all transferred to his body.

He soothed her in a hoarse voice: "Don't think about it... Don't think about it, it's all gone. ”

Ning Xin shook her head, and her voice was muffled in He Dongfan's arms: "Mom, because I died, my school registration and school status are gone, I have nothing, woo, nothing." ”

"You have me now, and I will be with you." He Dongfan's voice trembled hoarsely, "I will always be with you." ”

"I'm sorry I hurt you by saying those words, I'm really sorry." Ning Xin grabbed He Dongfan's shirt, "I'm afraid, Sheng Yu, I'm afraid ......"

Sheng Yu, these two words, like a sharp blade piercing into the skin, straight to the heart.

The heartbeat stopped instantly, and it was bloody.

There was no pain, so numb that I didn't feel any pain.

He Dongfan just closed his eyes, and his chest fell together, which was extremely obvious.

Every word that Ning Xin's crying voice said twitched, but He Dongfan heard it very clearly: "I'm afraid... I'm afraid that after I leave this world, you will blame yourself and be too sad, so I said those words to leave you, I was... I was ......"

Memories like that are too painful.

He Dongfan slowly opened his eyes and gently pushed Ning Xin away.

He looked at her crying and asked, "What did you say?" ”

Ning Xin didn't answer, just lowered her eyes and looked at her left wrist.

On the thin wrist, a pink latte art is tied.

He Dongfan thought in confusion in his mind, he had never looked at her left wrist, where she was more often wearing a white sports bracer.

There's nothing strange about that.

But the conjecture in his heart at the moment scared him.

He wanted to confirm.

He raised his hand and untied the tied bow, and the pink latte art instantly fell on the white bed.

He flipped her hand over, and a thin scar on her wrist was pink and slightly protruding.

Ning Xin was still sobbing: "Later, later, I didn't have the courage to go to you, I didn't want to be a person by your side who could only ask for it forever, you were so good, you did so much for me and for me...... I don't know, I don't know what I'm going to be to be to be qualified to come to you, I've worked really hard, hard... I—I'm tired, I'm scared of ......."

He Dongfan's eyes were red, staring at her wrist without blinking, and his fingertips gently rubbed the raised mark, as if to check whether it was real.

That's warm.

Indelible.

Indeed, it is true.

So back then, she broke up with Sheng Yu because she planned to leave this world.

"Sheng Yu." Ning Xin sobbed softly, her voice much quieter than just now, "If I look for you and explain these things to you, you will forgive me, right?" We—we're going to go back to the way we were..."

She tasted the bitterness of her tears and repeated over and over again: "Isn't that right? … Right? … Right? ……”

She seemed to ask for an answer.

He Dongfan raised his arm and rubbed his eyes roughly: "Yes! ”

Ning Xin looked at him with tears in her eyes, confused and sure.

He Dongfan knew that she was not looking at him.

He let go of her left hand, brushed away the tear-wet hair on her cheeks, nodded with difficulty, and said in a very firm tone: "Yes, it will." ”

Ning Xin finally stopped her tears, slowly closed her eyes, and muttered, "That's it, it's great." ”

She seemed tired of crying, and soon fell into a deep sleep, only sobbing uncontrollably from time to time.

He Dongfan got up, took off Ning Xin's high heels, and pulled a thin quilt on her.

He reflexively sat on the carpet next to his bed.

He rested his hands on his knees weakly, hung his head, and fixed his gaze on the spiral pattern of the carpet, a little dazzled.

He himself was amazed.

It turned out that the person she liked was Sheng Yu, not him.

The truth is that she loves Sheng Yu and has always been.

She didn't like him at all.

He knew it all now.

But there is no loss, no jealousy, not even sadness.

All of them are covered up by the heartache of the cone.

He didn't dare to think how desperate she should have been at that time.

Is she in the middle of the night when there is no light at all, or in the afternoon when the sun is pouring...

Is it a fruit knife, or a razor, or some other sharp weapon...

She must have shed a lot of blood...

She must be in pain... It hurts......