Ning Xin was extremely hopeful, that day, He Dongfan was not ridiculing her.

She really said she loved him.

After he took that video.

She said she loved him and said forever.

Although, she has always felt that love does not need to be said deliberately.

But if she hadn't expressed it to him, wouldn't... I can only regret it......

Ning Xin cried a little out of breath.

Long.

She wiped away her tears, looked at the computer screen, took a deep breath, and clicked on the album folder next to it.

With just one glance, Ning Xin closed her eyes. 𝙢.𝙑🅾𝙙𝕋🆆.𝙘🅾𝙈

She buried her head, and the tears she had just contained burst again.

In a silent sob, she remembered the origin of the photo.

It was the year they were together, Christmas.

She said she wanted to take a picture and said, 'Wouldn't it look better if it snowed?'

So, he instructed her to squat under the Christmas tree in the mall, reached out and grabbed a handful of foamy artificial snowflakes and held them above her head, and slowly let go.

He said in a very slow tone, 'Isn't it snowing?'

Ning Xin opened her eyes, her fingers wiping away the blur in front of her.

On the computer screen, she was wearing a black coat with a caramel-colored scarf around her neck, her head tilted slightly sideways, and the 'snowflakes' were falling from top to bottom.

A distinct smile tugged at the corners of her mouth, her eyes closed at the unexpected 'snowflake', and her shoulders slightly raised.

She looked so happy.

So happy.

That's 'I'm doing well' that she doesn't have to prove.

Ning Xin's fingers controlling the mouse trembled slightly, and he clicked 'Next'.

She stood sideways at the gate of Jade and University;

She leans on her back to the cupboard and holds a freshly made Coke chicken wing in her hand;

She lay on the couch and slept with her eyes closed;

She sat on the carpet and read a book;

She stood in the street full of New Year's flavor, hanging one hand and holding a puppet in the other;

She sat at the table, arms outstretched, with small cakes and sumptuous dishes;

She nestled on the couch, pink roses in her arms covering the lower half of her face;

She was outside in the dining room, with lamb chops in her hand and a bulging mouth, but she frowned and glared at him......

these photos.

There is something she knows.

There was something she didn't know.

There is clarity.

There are blurry ghosts.

One by one, they were all in the past.

She rested one hand on the mouse, one hand over her mouth and nose, looking through the past.

Belong to their past.

The memories and pictures that came in a flood made her cry, and the corners of her mouth were still upturned.

Suddenly, Ning Xin looked stunned.

The photo on the computer screen shows her building a castle that doesn't look like a castle with a group of children on the beach.

Ning Xin was stunned and continued to flip through the next photo.

There are several photos of her traveling to the island.

Yang Xiaozhen...

Yes, it's her, it can only be her.

These photos are the only ones she has.

There is more connection between them than she thought.

However, Yang Xiaozhen said that He Dongfan was not doing well.

Why is there an error in the information?

What went wrong?

Ning Xin couldn't figure it out for a while.

She continued to flip through the photos

She's in the gym;

teasing children at Yang Xiaozhen's house;

Travel to Guicheng......

And also!

Photos of this trip to the country!

If those photos were passed on by Yang Xiaozhen, then where did this photo come from?

The photo of the country was taken in the stadium, in the direction of the auditorium.

In the photo, before the game started, Ning Xin stood in the team and repeatedly reaffirmed the precautions with the participating young players.

Ning Xin stayed on this photo for a long time.

What was surging and burning in her heart, she couldn't figure it out.

Her fingers stiffly clicked 'next'.

In the back, there are photos of the gymnasium.

The shooting distance is too far, and Ning Xin is in the photo, which is the size of a sesame seed.

If you weren't familiar with someone, you wouldn't be able to tell which one was her.

These photos have little value information.

Ning Xin's fingers clicked quickly, and the similar photos flipped through one by one.

Ning Xin suddenly had a spirit.

The face that flashed just now...

She hurriedly stepped back.

A total of two photos, with him.

One is that he twisted the corner of the national flag with both hands and smiled at the camera.

In the other, he is holding the national flag and looking sideways at the playing field, his expression is obscure.

Ning Xin's stiff fingers moved, regaining her ability to move on her own, and she reached over, her fingers gently brushing the computer screen.

The dry, stinging eye sockets began to moisten again.

She lowered her head and calmed down for a moment before continuing to look at the photos behind her.

Without him.

Flip to the last one, and there is no him.

None of him.

He was in that day's game.

Did he go because of her?

Ning Xin told herself not to think about such shameful extravagance.

But these photos really prove it.

She felt as if she had found a lost box, but she didn't know if the contents were still there.

She didn't even dare to open it and ask for verification.

Wrong.

It's not lost and regained.

She didn't want it.

It's herself......

Lose.

Regain.

Expectation.

Shameful.

What the hell is going on?

Ning Xin was tormented.

Holding back her choppy emotions, she exited the album and opened the last unnamed folder.

Inside are blocks of gray text boxes, in sequence.

Today in the East Second Ring Road, I saw a person's back, just like you!

I might have been stupid enough to look at your back and not call your name.

chased to the coffee shop, only to find out that he had made a mistake.

The rented bicycle also broke the handlebar, lost money, and was unlucky!

You won't be in Yuhe, right!!

……

Last night, Lao Xu received a call that his father was urgently admitted to the hospital, and in the middle of the night, he asked the dormitory manager to open the door and went to the hospital.

Lao Xu didn't come back to class the next day, and in the afternoon, Lao Li and I went to the hospital to see him, his father had a tube in his nose, and the flesh on his arm was rotten, and he smiled and asked Lao Xu to take us out to eat.

TD I almost cried!

We didn't go to dinner, but we left later.

On the way back, I remembered that my aunt was in a bad situation at that time, and you were the same.

I miss you so much today.

On the National Day, I reported a tour group with Lao Ding, and the traffic jam was blocked for a day, but the scenery was very beautiful.

There are really a lot of people.

None like you.

Today I went riding with Lao Li, there was no one there, Lao Li and I rode for more than an hour and didn't meet a person, and we were all empty-hearted.

Later, when I got on the road, there were big trucks coming and going, the sky was full of dust, and I couldn't open my eyes, and when I went back to school to take a shower, the water was all black.

Hahaha.

I don't think I'll ever see you again in my life.

People still have to have expectations!!

……

My birthday present! It's you!!

Why are you still hugging people? Are you responsible? You just hug it!!

If you confess this kind of thing, you should come to a man.

……

The badge of honor is meant to be used to confess to you.

If you don't confess it, it's far-fetched to say that it's a birthday gift for you?

I will always be with you.

A woman's mouth, a deceitful ghost!

……

My girlfriend!!

……

I'm dead!!!!!!!!!

When the hell will it be given to me! I want to go crazy at all!

Oh my God!

You don't even know Pink Lychee!!

What do you want me to say later!!

……

It's really raining here.

is a city you won't love.

I don't like it either.

I almost got into a fight, and those people reported that the group took me for a fool!

I was bullied and lost my job, did you know?

……

On the night shift, he met two compatriots who were robbed and heroically wounded.

Forget it if you get hurt.

I'll keep the money.

Ning Xin, I'm in a little pain.

My uncle came here today, and my aunt asked him to come to me.

He took me to a wedding co-branded jewelry show, and I was bored to death.

But there is a wedding dress that is very beautiful, called 'My Thousand Kisses Fall'.

When I went back, my uncle handed me a check, but I didn't ask for it.

Surrender, there are no two words in the dictionary.

……

Seeing your picture, you're having a good time.

Will you miss me?

No, I guess.

Old Xu's father passed away.

Ning Xin, you were alone at the time, were you sad?

Guicheng, I haven't been there.

It's a lot of fun.

Go later.

I shouted so loudly that the whole audience looked at me, and you didn't look back.

I still hold the national flag to cover my face, and I do this more.

You won't forget my voice!

You're pretty cute today, you want to stomp your feet when you win the game, and you control it, but I see it, cute!

……

The pages of text are not called a diary, but more like occasional essays.

Short, but terrifyingly vivid.

Ning Xin seemed to see all of He Dongfan's emotions from above.

Those disappointments.

Those expectations.

Those delight.

Those agitations.

Those mourning.

Those embarrassments.

Those thoughts.

Those pathos.

Those self-pitying......

There was once a person who, all those years, had been looking for her.

His liking didn't start later.

After separation, it never faded.

The computer screen is stuck on the last paragraph of text.

Ning Xin vaguely remembered the high 'cha' on the playing field.

She was engrossed in the game and didn't think much of it, but in retrospect, she had a very familiar voice.

The picture of the meeting that day came back to mind.

How the hell did he pretend to smile easily, talk to her, eat with her, take her to the hotel...

Now that he thinks about it, the scenery he unintentionally mentioned, and the inexplicable proposal to meet Xu Jing, he was very clumsy and wanted her to stay for a few more days.

At the hotel, what kind of mood did he say, 'Why are we friends?'?

And her responses hurt him a lot.

At the time, she felt as if she couldn't let go.

Because when she kept asking him how he was doing, he didn't even ask about her.

It turned out that he didn't ask because he knew.

He knows it all.

Ning Xin remembered that when He Dongfan left the hotel, he had a very chic back.