Run, run, run, run

Don't dwell on it

Please. Leave me alone.

Masumi run

The snort became heavy, and the ground beneath his feet began to soften, and his steps became more and more weak.

The shadow behind is looming,

That eerie feeling made her back chill,

That beautiful new world, in the distance, across the blue sea, in the distance under the clouds,

But it's too far

She no longer had the confidence to go to the other side

"Come here!"

In front of me, a small boat suddenly appeared, and a fishing line with a book hanging from it was thrown from the boat.

The book opened and turned into a life vest.

However, before catching the fishing line that melted into the sky and could not be distinguished,

Her eyes were engulfed in darkness——————

Whew-

Ichijo Masumi wakes up from a nightmare, her light pajamas wet, revealing her beautiful curves.

Wiping the sweat from her forehead and chest, she looked out the window at the dark ocean.

"The Old Man and the Sea" was lying next to the pillow, the headphones also fell on the pillow, and the single song "The Old Man and the Sea" was still looping in the mobile phone.

She didn't go to the temple fair or watch the fireworks, so she chose to read and listen to songs in the room alone this afternoon.

After turning the last page, she fell asleep.

That's why there will be fishing lines and a sea of clouds in my dreams.

She dreamed of that incident again, and that incident until the end, she didn't have the courage to ask why.

This is also the reason why Ichijo Masumi has become a "shame of one".

All sorts of failures, all sorts of ridicule, can't compare to that.

From that moment on, she realized that she seemed to have been born to be bullied.

Isolate her and save her - this routine has been taught twice in her 16 years of life.

The air in Class K is getting worse and worse in a year, and she has been a doctor for a long time, so she naturally has a suspicious person - Kiyoichiro Yasaka.

The man who always had his friend in his mouth, she clearly felt his disgusting covetousness.

The reason why she is so sure is because the people who are still pestering her after she refuses, so far, there is no such thing as a good person.

After she was isolated by Class K, only he was Kiyoichiro Hasaka, and he was still shushing herself.

That hypocritical smile is creepy.

How can I get rid of this person?

A name came to mind -

The thanks in the bookmark, did he see it?

Because the handwriting is not very good-looking, it is definitely not as good as what he wrote, so I didn't write too much, and I had more to say.

But if she just said it on LINE, she didn't think it was right. But to her face, she always can't control her sense of distance and emotions.

The shallow still water is a peculiar existence.

He is a trustworthy person, and after misunderstanding him twice, he still chooses to enlighten himself regardless of his previous suspicions.

The ginger lily fragrance placed at the door, the umbrella deliberately left behind on a rainy day, the olive branch that refused the Konoe family, and the disgusted eyes he looked at himself all became a sense of security.

This sense of security does not require her to say things against her will or to cater to other people's opinions, and she can calmly refute without worrying about any conflict, which is a state that makes her feel unrestrained.

What's more, music doesn't deceive, and there is a tacit understanding of music between her and him.

Ichijo Masumi believes that people who like moonshine will not be bad people.

After playing with Tsukimi Futami that day, Asama's sentence in LINE made him take out his phone repeatedly and read it dozens of times.

[Flowers are not opened for florists, people have their own moons. 】

And that sentence-

[Please make your own world climate, the four seasons.] 】

When people encourage each other, it is easier to get rid of loneliness.

Although I hated his high-minded, didactic tone.

But there's no denying that those words have power, the power to try to teach her something and push her forward.

Even though he wasn't a friend, he began to believe what he said.

Is there less mental exhaustion?

Do you have the courage to face yourself that you will only run away?

In a simple world, seeking change and happiness?

She had never remembered these past truths that made her sick so deeply.

Rational, kind, and boundary-minded Asama still water, this is someone she has never met.

Indeed, there is no need to maintain false friendships. And excessive anxiety can only hurt yourself.

Chiyo Konoe doesn't seem to be taking herself seriously anymore, so let's focus on what a small person should focus on.

Practice, compete, read, or try to make a friend in a more proactive way...

There are fewer gains and losses, and many answers, those that must be done, will automatically appear in front of you.

Ichijo Masumi took a shower, and the whole person was a lot more sober.

I asked the student council for the room number of Asama, and changed my clothes in front of the mirror.

Let's go, discuss with him the experience and problems of reading books in the past two days, and by the way, ask him how to face Kiyoichiro Yasaka.

Yes, just to talk about the problem in person.

Ichijo Masumi said to himself.

June 25, night, Tokyo Bay.

Inside the Fuji Will cabin number [3006], Masumi Ichijo sat in a corner of a room that was less than 20 square meters, his gaze moving with Asama's figure.

On the small round table in front of her were two cups of tea with ice cubes, which crackled in the tea.

"I've finished reading this book."

Ichijo Masumi placed "The Old Man and the Sea" on the edge of the small round table, and the book was so thin that it took her only five hours to read it.

"So what?"

"Any other books like this to recommend?"

"What you should read in the next book, you have to ask yourself."

"Why?"

"It's best to ask yourself about this."

"But I don't know."

"I really don't know how to read some classics."

"What are the classics?"

"Classics are works that can give you great education and inspiration in terms of imagination, observation, and sensibility. Judge for yourself, there is a lot of content on the Internet. If you feel that you can read it, if you can't read it, it means that the time is not yet, so don't force yourself to read it. ”

"Oh"

Ichijo looked at the boy who was still wearing a hat in his room that night, and thought he was a little peculiar (pretending) too much.

"By the way, aren't you going to change something, Asama?"

"Change what?"

"A change of lifestyle, perhaps, would be a little more popular? There will be more people who come to your relationship counseling department for consultation. ”

When did I show that I wanted to be popular?

Also, is the way you show kindness by transforming others according to your ideas?

The education of the five regency family may be really problematic.

Asama took a sip of tea, casually opened a borrowed "The Old Man and the Sea", and said,

"One, people who are qualified to talk about independence, they are people who can allow regret, stupidity, ugliness, hypocrisy, giving no return, etc., only in this way will you get rid of internal friction and gradually become a soft, relaxed and relaxed person. What kind of dissatisfaction do you have with me, this dissatisfaction only makes you uncomfortable, and does not affect my satisfaction with myself. ”

One remembered the video posted in the class group - Asama still water descended from heaven and killed the seniors and won the first place.

"I don't mean that, I mean, you're obviously better than many people, why don't you show it more actively and naturally?"

"You're still too much of an evaluation in the world of accidents."

But didn't Adler, who is admired in "The Courage to Be Hated," mention the idea that the importance of human beings depends on their contribution to the lives of others? It's easy for you to contribute to the group and get praise, right? ”

"On the contrary, I am a collectivist opposition, and I don't need other people's evaluation, and you pay less attention to what others say about you."

Ichijo Matsumi's mind was instantly filled with those bad reviews, she looked at a piece of ice that melted into the shape of Go, and said in a low voice,

"Isn't it time to face your own problems? I hate being evaluated, which is a manifestation of low self-esteem. ”

"I do have an inferiority complex, but most of it does not come from comparing myself to others, but to [my ideal self], which does not discourage me, but rather a way to spur me on. It is important to learn to evaluate yourself objectively and figure out where you stand, which will allow you to quickly find your problems instead of having to be reminded by others.

"In addition, the separation of topics should also be clarified. Don't take the initiative to interfere in other people's issues, and don't let others interfere in your own issues.

These views are also in "The Courage to Be Hated", and it seems that you have also read Adler's "Inferiority and Transcendence", and this kind of extended reading is very good. So, my advice is to read the books that you should read thoroughly. ”

Ichijo Masumi also took a sip of jasmine-flavored iced green tea,

"I always feel that what you just said is easy to ignore or even cover up your own shortcomings."

Asama looked at one and thought she was very strange, obviously hating fighting, but showing a backlash in front of herself.

Apparently she was offering her a way to face problems alone, but instead she was talking about group life.

Is the second Hachinami Ayano?

"There really are no absolutes, just like the people who wanted to win the other day, but in the end they only pursued to win the argument.

"One, whether it is you or me, if you want to successfully build your own inner world, the most important thing is to recognize yourself. Among them, the real motivation is not the pressure from oneself or the outside world, but the real motivation comes from the pursuit of happiness, interest and even ideals from the depths of the heart. ”

Ichijo Masumi was confused,

"Even if you recognize your imperfections?"

"Well, whether it's color blindness, polio, or Diogenes's syndrome, or thirst, there are imperfections in the human body and mind.

"There is no such thing as perfection in this world. It is precisely because all people lack something that corresponding beauty is born. If all human beings were equally perfect, it would be nothing more than a predetermined harmony. I don't think that's beautiful. On the contrary, the Venus of Milos and the goddess of victory of Samothras, their inadequacies are more human.

"The deliberate pursuit of the incomplete, the handicapped, the abnormal, is an inhuman pathology. It is more important to face up to the deficiency, to think about what kind of lifestyle to use, to accept how people perceive this deficiency, and to think about how to deal with this deficiency, and finally to ensure that you are not knocked down by this deficiency.

"I recommend that you watch "The Old Man and the Sea" because I think Hemingway can always give better answers. Santiago is a man who lives his own life, and he also faces incomprehension, failure, and hunger, which are the inevitable deficiencies caused by his pursuit of big fish, but he does not suffer from this lack of suffering.

"So, there's nothing wrong with striving for perfection, but getting used to imperfection, whether it's someone else's or your own—not stumbling over it—is the key to building your own world."

The question about the second book,Unknowingly,Answered by Asama。

The reason why the old man went to sea is by no means completely summed up by the word courage, but the calmness of the lack and the pursuit of ideals.

I'm trying to digest what Asama just said.

Asama took a look at the time.

"Okay, I've already answered the questions about the book, if you have any questions in the future, try to ask them online. It's getting late, I'm going to sleep. ”

Ichijo Masumi bit his lip,

"I have one last question."

Asama took off his glasses, rubbed his eyebrows, and was silent for a long time, and Ichijo Masumi stared at him in a daze.

"Say it. Having said that, there is a fee for consulting with me. For the specific price list, I will send you your mobile phone tomorrow. ”

"Well, that's right"

Ichijo Masumi explained Yasaka's harassment of himself and her suspicion of him to Asama in detail.

Yasaka, who has "I have a lot of friends", gives Asama a feeling that he is a little more sophisticated than Ei and others.

Asama was only found in the class by Ichijo the day before, and Yasaka came to declare sovereignty the next day.

So, what he wants is to get into a family?

Kiyoichiro Ichijo, this name may really give him a greater boost.

But a family won't allow it.

Or is Yasaka a man of the Konoe?

Probably not, if it is, it can only be said that they are too well disguised.

"Did he say he liked you anything?"

"He said at a piano competition, he was attracted to me. I don't know if he was a spectator or a contestant, I just remember that the game was won by Konoback and I cried like a fool. ”

The confession awakens the subject's painful memories.

"Shouldn't it be a joy to have someone like your playing?"

"It was because of his entanglement that I couldn't join the piano club."

"In other words, he is constantly destroying your stable place, so you chose to hide your name and create a four-hand piano club in the literary club building?"

"That's 50 percent of the reason."

"And then he provoked a conflict between you, your friends, and the rest of the class this month, and after you lost all your friends, did he win favor by comforting you?"

"Well, I'm pretty sure he did it. Once, in gym class, I went to the equipment room to get equipment and was almost injured by a basin of mud, and he was the first person to rush to help. If it weren't for the loose laces and escaped, maybe I would have been carried by him to the infirmary. However, even if it is exposed, it is useless, and most people prefer to believe him. ”

This Yasaka is really evil in doing things.

"Generally speaking, finding a boyfriend that the harasser can't mess with will have a good deterrent effect. But this method is not suitable for you and him. How to stop him from pestering you, it is best to start with his motives. I happen to know his brother, so let me ask you first. For now, it is advisable to remain firm in your refusal and let more people know that he is causing you trouble. ”

"But he's the kind of person who refuses, the more energetic he gets. Most of the people in the class thought he wanted me to fit in, and I was the kind of withdrawn person who didn't know what to do."

The people in Class K are right.

"Can you beat Yasaka? The eldest lady of the Five Families knows some fighting skills. It might be useful to give him a little bitterness. ”

Shaking her head, she repelled violence and conflict.

"I can't do it."

"Then ask your family for help. Let the Ichijo family talk about the Yasaka family.,Anyway,You're not married.。 ”

Ichijo Masumi shook his head,

"I'm already in a state of refusal, I've lived up to the expectations of my family, you can treat me as someone outside the family."

Asama spread out his hands, and he ran out of ideas for a while.

"Seiichiro Hasaka is very popular in Class K."

"Well, to be exact, Yasaka is very popular throughout Yinghe, and even outside of school."

"Have you ever considered that by supporting other people's romances with him, he would have no time to care?"

A true clear eye lit up,

"Can you elaborate?"

"Do you have any money?"

"How much do you want?"

"It's not me who I want, because to let Yasaka focus on other things, you need money to get everything done. Naturally, the more money, the better. ”

"I still have some savings, 7 million."

"Hmm. Briefly tell you about this strategy of encircling Wei to save Zhao.

"First of all, he organized his personal support group in Yinghe and surrounding schools, launched a fixed daily support activity, and blocked his door at home, school, and classroom doors; Second, try to get his phone number and spread it to all support groups, make harassing calls to him, and make his phone hot; Third, through the support group, I went to touch the Internet celebrities on Twitter, such as [Yokohama Meteor, Ryo Yoshizawa, Nakagawa Daishi, Yamazaki Kento, Kimura Takuya. How can there be my brother handsome], let him endure the cyberbullying of other idol fans; Fourth, submit anonymously from a third-party perspective, publish what Yasaka did to you on the Internet, don't need much evidence, just fill up your emotions, and start creating more rumors about him stepping on multiple boats at the same time; In the end, the idol collapsed the house, and the support group fought back, to create public opinion that seemed more real.

"Obviously. This could have caused terrible mental damage to him. So, even if that's the case, are you going to continue? ”

“.”

"Just throwing bricks and stones, solving the people who create the problem, is also a way to solve the problem. In short, you don't have to worry about the consequences or anything, anyway, you're one, he's just Yasaka. ”

Asama then shrugged his shoulders, indicating that he had just made a joke.

Isn't it said to support other people's love affair with Yasaka to divert attention?

For the first time, Ichijo Masumi realizes how terrible this man who rejects Chiyo Konoe can be.

If he wanted to, he could easily destroy the current [Ichijo Matsumi].

Ichijo Masumi immediately subverted the order of attribute labels that Asama had put on him in his heart.

At present, the first place is - [Generous].

The two of them discussed some of the details of building their own world, such as how to maintain a balance between Ketch and Disenchantment.

Before leaving, I sighed in my heart,

Why did he stay in the Relationship Counseling Department?

Could it be because of that Fujiwara love?

(End of chapter)