There are not many people in the hospital, and most of them are at home on the first day of the Lunar New Year.

Qingjiujiu was originally going to dispense medicine for Yun Lang, although he has not been too uncomfortable this year, but his body was originally weak, and now that he has finally stabilized, he should also be given a good condition.

But now suddenly I don't want to move.

"Xiao Tao, you go and help me get a basin of water, I want it to be hot."

Xiao Tao couldn't understand her expression, and said in her heart that she should really stop Qingjiujiu in the morning and prevent her from going to the old palace.

Now her face is so white, she is almost distressed to death.

She ran as fast as she could, and came back with hot water.

Qingjiujiu squatted at the door of the Tai Hospital, soaked his hands in the hot water, and constantly scrubbed the palms and backs of his hands.

"Girl, it's hot, isn't it?" Xiao Tao wrinkled her eyebrows and looked at her: "What's wrong with you?" ”

"It's cold, that kid just now, his body is cold, he's six years old, but it's not as heavy as when Marumu was three years old."

When a person dies, he will become heavy, but the landscape is still very light, and there is only a little bit of being wrapped in his arms.

Qingjiujiu does not shy away from the dead, and is not afraid of death.

She's seen too much.

But just now, the child's coldness seemed to linger in his fingertips, lingering for a long time.

She rubbed her hands red, but except for her five fingers, which became wrinkled and skinny, the cold of her fingertips was still there.

It's like being exposed to the cold wind on a winter night, and it can't get warm.

"Don't rub the girl, it's going to fall off!"

Qing Jiujiu was still staring at the water, and rubbed his fingertips unwillingly: "I don't think I can wash it clean, he, it seems that he came to this world because of Yun Lang, he hasn't been treated well for so many years, and even his death was strangled to death by his own mother, if I remembered the existence of their mother and son earlier, I might be able to——"

She doesn't know what she can do, but with such a human life, why does life and death come so easily?

Since she returned to Yanjing, she has avoided thinking about the season banquet, and she has not thought of Qing Xiuxiu once.

Even if it is a deliberate forgetting, people sometimes avoid people and things that bring them bad emotions.

The basin of hot water eventually turned into cold water, but Qingjiujiu's hands were still soaked in it.

Little Peach saw a drop of water fall into it, splashing a small ripple.

Qing Jiujiu hung his head, unable to see his expression clearly.

But that tear is a fragility that Xiao Tao can hardly see.

"It's none of your business!" Xiao Tao was distressed: "At the beginning, the prince didn't tell you anything, and the princess had a lot of embarrassments for you, now, and now, Qing Xiuxiu should die, that child, that child looks like that, death may be a relief, girl, don't blame yourself." ”

If it's even more excessive, Xiao Tao didn't say it.

She actually felt that all this was Ji Shiyan's debt, but Ji Shiyan's people were all dead, and Qing Xiuxiu was also dead now, so she had nothing to worry about with the deceased.

If it was that kid, he shouldn't have come in the first place.

"It would be nice if there was no marrying wine at the banquet in the early season."

She muttered.

"Qingjiujiu's life will not be messed up for a lifetime, and I don't have to, I don't have to blame myself for so many people involved in fate."

Xiao Tao didn't understand why Qingjiujiu called herself Qingjiujiu, but she felt that it was wrong: "It's impossible for people to know what will happen in the future." Girl, do you hate the prince? ”

Qing Jiujiu raised her eyes, her eyes were scarlet, she wiped the moisture off the corners of her eyes, looked at the ripples in the water that were stirred by her, and she couldn't hold her palms tightly.

People in the world say that the mirror is beautiful, and the lights go out when people die.

Her voice was low: "You're right, people can't predict what will happen in the future, so I don't hate him anymore." ”

"Wine."

As soon as she finished speaking, Zhou Tingyue's voice sounded.

He is tall and jade, and he is also a good skin, always patient and gentle.

Xiao Tao breathed a sigh of relief, and when she saw that Qingjiujiu's expression was not good, she sent someone to notify Zhou Tingyue to come over.

Zhou Tingyue approached, fished out one of Qingjiujiu's hands from the cold water, took a handkerchief and wiped it for her, then wrapped it in his palm, and stuffed a caramel candy for her.

The aroma of candy immediately filled the air, and the coldness on the fingertips seemed to dissipate completely.

"If you are unhappy, eat sugar, the child is relieved when he dies, and life is impermanent."

Zhou Tingyue pulled her into his arms and pressed her head around his neck: "The shoulder lends you to lean." ”

When he rescued Qingjiujiu from the mass grave, he was like this, warm and peaceful, and rarely had big emotional ups and downs.

will always say a word to lend you a shoulder when you are sad.

"I'm actually not sad, I just feel that Yun Lang is doing what he wants to do now, and I can only help here, but Xu Bai is dead, Xie Shi is dead, he is also dead, Xinxin and Lan Meng have what they have always wanted to do to do, and the Medicine King Valley is also empty, and I don't want to stay in Yanjing, so I don't know where I should go."

I felt that the whole person was empty, unsettled, and unenthusiastic.

She didn't know where she should go, when she founded the Medicine King Valley, she wanted to give these people around her a home, but now the people in this family are dying and growing up, only she doesn't seem to be moving forward.

"Nothing you want to do?" Zhou Tingyue held the back of her head and guided her like a child: "If you want to go to Wuzhou like Xinxin, then go." ”

Yes, Qingjiujiu still wants to go around and treat patients.

But I also want to turn around and there is a house full of lights behind me.

"Xiaojiu," Zhou Tingyue saw that she hadn't answered for a long time, as if he had guessed what she was thinking, and sighed, he asked, "Are you emotional about Ji Shiyan?" ”

In fact, everyone's death can be said goodbye, because those are family and friends, no matter how sad they are, there will always be a day in the past.

And when a person feels empty, it is when she feels helpless.

There is nowhere to put her soul in it, so she will feel that the five continents are vast, and there is no place where she can stay for a long time.

Zhou Tingyue felt the body in his arms stiffen, but he didn't get a response.

No response is the default response.

Qingjiujiu has been strong for more than a year, and it doesn't matter if she behaves, but in fact, every time she talks about the season banquet, she uses 'he' instead.

How can people who have gone through the world not understand that they don't mention the name because it is a wound, and it hurts once they mention it.

Otherwise, when she was in the northwest, why would she send people to search the mass grave over and over again.

Why never refute people calling her princess, obviously I hated the title of Princess Cheng'an the most in the past.

Why can't you stay in Yanjing City, which is full of many traces of seasonal banquets?

.......

It wasn't until Zhou Tingyue led people into the hall that the footsteps disappeared in the Tai Hospital, and a human figure came out next to the stone pillar at the gate.

The man was dressed in dark color and had a long and jade body.

A passing imperial physician recognized him: "Aren't you the Shen and Lord Shen next to the empress?" Why are you standing here? His hands were frozen red. ”

Shen Qu raised his lips and smiled, his eyes were withdrawn from the main hall, and he raised the medicine bag in his hand: "Come and get a medicine for my majesty." ”

Then you don't need a pestle here, right?

The imperial doctor was a little depressed, but seeing that the emotions on this person's body were not as pleasant as the smile on the corner of his mouth, but a little heavy.

Anyway, it feels very familiar.... It's just like when I met King Cheng'an back in the past.