[The sky is still overcast, but the pouring rain has stopped at some point.] 】

[You walked lightly and lightly on the muddy mountain road, and your thoughts were complicated. 】

[In the past, you thought that death was a lively thing. 】

[Because as long as someone dies, it means that your family has another business, and the father who has made money will take you to the town to buy sugar gourds to eat. 】

[In addition, at that funeral, it was even more lively to beat gongs and drums, and every midnight, there was a special master who was responsible for cooking so many bowls of hot tofu noodles, which was your favorite. 】

Therefore, your perception of death is never a bad thing. 】

[Until today, your heart is clogged and your nose is sour, and you really understand that death is really a very sad thing. 】

[At this moment, you really want to explore what the true meaning of death is. 】

[You open your mouth and ask the master who carries the coffin beside you, what is death? 】

[The old master held a peeled cigarette gun in his mouth, shook the cigarette pouch in his hand, and then took a puff of cigarette with a snap, and then smiled and said: 'Okay boy? Why do you ask this? Dead is dead, what else can it be? ’】

[When you heard the words, you had to ask another master who carried the coffin, what is death? 】

[The old master was stunned for a moment, and then smiled and showed a mouthful of yellow teeth and said: "Death is nothing, everything is nothing?" ”】

[After speaking, the old master glanced at you and felt that you didn't seem to be satisfied with this answer, so he scratched his head and said, "Oh, look at it, isn't it raining a lot?" When the sun comes out tomorrow, all the rain that has fallen, including the rain stains that have fallen on the ground, will be gone, and there will be no trace of the rain again, isn't it like a person is dead? ”】

[Hearing this, you can't help but be slightly stunned. 】

Is death a rain? When the rain is over and the rain disappears, is it dead? 】

[You don't know if this statement is right or not, but you silently remember it in your heart. 】

When you got home, you asked your father again, what is death? 】

[Your father was stunned, and looked at you with some surprise, it seemed to be a little surprised, but how could you ask this question as a teenager. 】

[He did not rush to answer, but thought about it and said:

"Actually, there is never a single and correct answer to what death is, what do you think it is, it is.

Over the years, I have traveled north and south and held many funerals, and everyone behaved differently before they died.

Some people feel fear of death, I once saw a prisoner in the Yamen of Huangqiao Town, after learning that he was about to die, knelt on the ground and wept bitterly, his face was full of fear, and he cried out to the heavens and the earth to beg not to die.

I have also seen people who are unusually calm and free when faced with death, for them, death is just a journey to go home, and then set off at a different destination.

I've also seen people face death with a smile, and I remember that person said to me that death is not a loss of life, but a step out of time. ”】

At this moment.

Chen Zhixing, whose thoughts had already fallen into chaos, suddenly sobered up briefly.

"Death."

"It's not the loss of life, it's the time that has been lost?" Chen Zhixing muttered to himself, thoughtful.

Vaguely, he seemed to grasp something.

The next moment.

His mind was in chaos again, merging into the image.

[Hearing your father's words, you can't help but lose your mind. 】

[You never thought that your father, who couldn't write big characters, would say such a level of words. 】

Then your father looked up at the sky, sighed, and continued:

"Death is never terrible, think about the good, in fact, it is to metamorphose into a butterfly and return to the sky; It is the snow that melts into the water and returns to the earth; It is a drop of water that sinks into rivers and oceans, and has since merged with the whole world.

People will suffer from gains and losses in life, and suffer endless torture, but once they die, they will never lose anything again, and that's good. ”】

After your father finished speaking, you couldn't help but nod your head as if you didn't understand. 】

[Spring goes to autumn, and the white horse passes through the gap. 】

[In the blink of an eye, years have passed. 】

[After several years of hard work, you have gradually become calm from the hot-blooded hairy guy at the beginning, and you can be a coffin bearer with peace of mind. 】

[Over the years, you have taken charge of many things for your father. 】

[During these years, you have sent away many people. 】

[There are young people and girls who are obviously in their youth and their lives have just begun, there are old people who have worked hard all their lives and are dying, and there are high-ranking officials and nobles who are rich and have power and wealth in their hands, there are too many. 】

[Among them, there are many people who have made you feel regretful, obviously that person is so kind and vigorous, but he said that he left and left. 】

[And one of your little friends, who also left after a serious illness, you cried so much that your eyes were swollen from crying. 】

[Time passes slowly, and you gradually grow. 】

[Perhaps because you have seen too much life and death, you can gradually become calm and indifferent to death. 】

[Your perception of death is also getting deeper and deeper. 】

[In your opinion, in fact, the vast majority of people, while they are alive, have already died day after day. 】

[The so-called death only stopped the days before that.] 】

[Death has never been a constant word. 】

[It's like a person who passes by you, maybe that passing by is the last time you will meet him in this life. 】

[Do you think that perhaps the real death is to disappear and forget forever in the hearts of those you really care about. 】

[Spring goes to autumn, time turns. 】

[In the middle of winter again, your father suddenly fell ill with a serious illness, and then his physical condition deteriorated sharply, and in just a few days, the whole person was as old as if he was dozens of years old, with gray hair, a thin body, and sunken eyes. 】

[A sense of death permeated him. 】

On that day, you knelt before his bed. 】

[You have seen too many people before they died, and you know that your father is going to die and leave completely. 】

[At that moment, you thought that you had already seen through life and death, and you couldn't cry, and you couldn't cry like a man. 】

[Your father trembled and stretched out his old and thin hand, gently wiped away the tears on your face with his rough fingers, and then smiled and said:

"Don't cry, do you remember what Daddy told you before? Death is not terrible, nor is it the opposite of life, but it is eternal as a part of life! ”】

[In an instant, you were stunned. 】

Death is not the opposite of life, but lives forever as a part of life! 】

[Original. Life and death, never separate! 】

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[This midwinter, your father didn't survive after all. 】

[Year after year, it turned out to be really a pass. 】

[According to your father's last wishes, he said that there have been too many funerals in this life, and it can be summed up in one word, tired. 】

[If he dies, he will be carried directly to a better place and buried, and those things will be less tied. 】

[Not to mention the loss of life and money, there is no peace after death. 】

[You obeyed his last wish, and did not make a big show, but found a location on the sunny slope and buried him in it. 】

[On that day, the snow was falling, and the sky and the earth were covered in silver. 】

[You wear linen and filial piety, carry the coffin, and walk towards the mountain. 】

[The cold wind is biting, the cold is into the knife, you carry the coffin, step on the snow-covered mountain road, leaving one deep and shallow footprint after another. 】

[In your life, you have carried many people's coffins, but you never thought that you would end up carrying your father's coffin with your own hands. 】

Then, with a hoe, you cut the snow and dug up the ground, and then panted and carried his coffin inside. 】

[My father lay quietly in the coffin, as if he had fallen asleep in the past, but his face was a little pale. 】

[A trace of frost and snow fell on him, and on his eyebrows and eyelids, crystal ice flowers appeared. 】

[In his life, he has not praised you much, and even the communication between your father and son is very small, even if there is a dialogue, he is scolding you for all kinds of carelessness, you can't do anything well, and you will not be able to do anything in the future. 】

[When you were young, when you heard him say these words, you would always quarrel with him, and your heart was angry, why didn't your father, say those two good words? 】

[But now, when you look at your father lying quietly in the coffin, how much you hope that he can stand up and scold you like in the past, even if you are bloody, you will definitely smile and will not argue with him again. 】

[However, there is no longer such an opportunity.] 】

[The master next to him wiped the mouth of the cigarette gun, and then threw the cigarette pouch and the cigarette gun to you. 】

[You squat on the grave, let's smoke a cigarette. 】

[The old master said on the side: "Okay, don't blame your father for being so strict with you back then, our generation has never read any books, and we don't know what big truths, we are all first-time people, first-time fathers, who knows how to teach children?] But we all know that we will leave earlier than you in the future, so why don't we take care of you while we are still there, and teach you everything we know? Otherwise, we will not be relieved if we die. ”】

[You smoke a sip and don't reply. 】

[Later, you took one last look at your father, then sealed the coffin and covered it with a pinch of soil. 】

[When you descended the mountain, the footprints you left in the snow were already covered with snow, and there was no trace. 】

[Everything looks like it hasn't been before.] 】

[You can't help but be stunned, and you have a new understanding of death. 】

What is death? It is the end, it is the farewell, it is irretrievable, it is the hand that can no longer be held, the temperature that can never be felt, and the sentence 'Dad, I'm back' that can no longer be said. 】

[Death is like an eternal beacon, no matter where it goes, it will eventually turn towards it.] 】

[In a trance, you look back at the sunny slope. 】

[The snow is falling, the lonely tomb is standing, the white soul banner is blowing in the cold wind, and the yellow paper is rolled up by the wind and drifts into the distance. 】

[After the spring of the next year, spring flowers will bloom on this hillside, the sun will shine, and endless new life will break through the soil from this hillside. 】

Only those who sleep in the earth will never wake up and truly pass away. 】

[When I returned home, you always looked blank, looking at the room where no one was holding the lamp, looking at your father's clothes before his death, even the bowl that was specially used for eating on weekdays, and the cabbage he hoarded in the cellar during the New Year. 】

[For some reason, you couldn't help crying at all. 】

[At this time, you really realized that your father was really dead! 】

[Time passes slowly.] 】

[Without a father, you become extremely lonely. 】

[Although you didn't have much communication with him before, but there was no communication, as long as he was there, everything was actually fine. 】

[And now, he is gone, and no one will turn on a light and heat a bowl of rice for you in advance when you go home. 】

[You feel like you have completely become a child abandoned by the world, and have turned into a drop of flowers in the vast world. 】

[You can't help but have a new understanding, it turns out that in this life, once your parents die, life becomes a way back. 】

[Do you even think in your heart, will the end of death not be nothingness, but a reunion after a long absence? 】

[Time passes slowly.] 】

[After your father left, you took over your father's funeral business in an all-round way, and it was not until this time that you really supported a family, and you couldn't help but rejoice that your father was once meticulous and strict with you. 】

[It is precisely because of the strictness at the beginning that you are now able to deal with things calmly. 】

[However, although your family is good, because of the industry you are in, it is still too taboo, so you have been crowned for several years, and there is no matchmaker to say goodbye. 】

[Until you were in your twenties, the princess at the entrance of the village found you and said that the Xiulian girl in the next village, do you consider it? ] 】

[You have been lonely for too long, whenever you see other people's homes brightly lit and join the team in pairs, why don't you envy it? ] 】

[You didn't nod your head in agreement, nor did you shake your head in refusal, but just spit out two words softly: "Look.] ”】

[Wang Po left with a smile, and one early morning after a few days, she led two people here. 】

[Walking in front is a middle-aged peasant woman with big shoulders and a round waist, a dark face and skin, and a vigorous walk, who looks like a leader in farm work. 】

[And following behind is a fair-skinned, delicate-looking, thin-skinned, low-eyed, timid girl. 】

[The peasant woman who walked in front of her was pulling her, and complained impatiently: "You sick ghost, go faster, if you can't marry again today, you will roll up and leave, and your brother and I will not have time to take care of you." ”】

[The girl responded timidly and walked forward, but she had to take a breath from time to time, and at a glance she knew that her physical condition was not good. 】

[She is Xiulian. 】

[My parents died early when I was a child, and then I lived with my father's cousin in this room. 】

[She was born weak, and when she was a child, she had been living in a firewood house, and she contracted wind chills and lung diseases, not only could not do anything, but also coughed badly when it was cold. 】

[In a village where the population is labor, Xiulian is almost extremely unregarded by her family, and her cousin's family has long wanted to throw this oil bottle out. 】

[It's just that this family is in every household, and the woman will hold up half the sky, who is willing to find such a sick seedling to come out, and find it unhappy for their own family? 】

[So, the two of you, who are almost equally abandoned by the world and full of unconfidence, meet like this. 】

[She raised her head timidly and looked at you. 】

[The next moment, the two of you are slightly relieved. 】

[Although the two of them had already made a plan in their hearts as early as the beginning, as long as the opposite side was not too bad, there was nothing to pick. 】

[But more or less, there are still some worries in my heart after all. 】

[Xiulian heard that people who are engaged in the funeral industry often have physical deficiencies, and when she is on the road, she can't help but imagine in her head that the person who is close to her today will be an elderly leper head who is lifeless and has acne on her face. 】

[But what I saw you was a tall and handsome person, although you didn't look very handsome, but you were also dignified, with sword eyebrows and starry eyes. 】

[Almost instantly, she turned red, lowered her head, and immediately couldn't help but think in her heart, such a person would really look down on such a sick seedling? 】

[She couldn't help but feel uneasy in her heart. 】

[And you, the moment you see her girl, you know in your heart that you have to be her! 】

[It doesn't matter if you fall in love at first sight, or if you want to see it, I have to say that this woman in front of me who is so white that her skin is shining and her appearance is delicate and gentle, no one can stand out in these ten miles and eight towns. 】

[For other families, begging for a daughter-in-law is to ask for a laborer, and what they want is to have a big waist and be able to do farm work. 】

[And for you, all you want is a woman who can at least look pleasing to the eye.] 】

[As for whether this woman can do farm work?] 】

[To tell you the truth, the wealth accumulated by your ancestors for three generations, coupled with your own efforts over the years, is second to none in the entire Huangqiao Town. 】

[So, while the matchmaker and the peasant woman were chattering endlessly, and the spit stars were flying, you directly took out ten taels of silver from your cuffs and pressed it on the table with a 'pop'. 】

["A mother, ten taels of silver? The peasant woman's eyes widened, and a wave of disbelief welled up on her face. 】

[This is ten taels of silver, if it is exchanged for food, it is enough for their family to eat it for a year. 】

[So, without any nostalgia, the peasant woman took the matchmaker and left happily. 】

[And you and Xiulian glanced at each other, and the two laughed in unison. 】

[Because you both know it.] 】

[In this brightly lit world, you have your own home. 】

[You and Xiulian got married. 】

[I didn't inform anyone, and I didn't go to the scenery. 】

[I put a bright red 'Xi' on the window, then changed the bed and new bedding, went to the town to buy a new dress, and we were together.] 】

[That night, the red candle was shaking, and the two of you sat at the head of the bed, eating candy together, and couldn't help but giggle together while eating. 】

[As you all know, outsiders are secretly discussing you, saying that one of you eats dead people's food, and the other is a dead ghost, and there is a lot of gossip. 】

But you don't care. 】

[The matter of living is for oneself, not for others to see. 】

[Only if you are really annoyed by what you say, you can say: "Tonight, I will let the friends of Yizhuang go to play with you." ”】

[As soon as these words fell, they immediately frightened those people and their souls. 】

And you can't help but laugh dumbly. 】

[The days after getting married are very dull, and there are not as many ups and downs as in the biography, and they are vigorous. 】

[However, those ordinary days are the greatest happiness for the two of you. 】

"You've got a home. 】

[You are no longer alone in this world. 】

[Every time you get up in the morning, someone will make you breakfast and dress you. 】

[You go home every night, no matter how late you come back, there is always a light on at home, there is always a bowl of hot rice hot in the pot, hot over and over again, there is always a person, regardless of spring, summer, autumn and winter, leaning on the threshold and waiting for you to come back. 】

[She will bring you hot water and gently scrub the mud and dirt off your body with a towel. 】

[The quilt is no longer cold, and the change of clothes no longer has to worry about not having time to wash, and even a small yard has been opened in front of the house, a group of chickens have been raised, and a vegetable has been planted. 】

[Xiulian is frail and sickly, and she can't do more farm work, but she is also trying to help you, not only to keep the house in order and clean, but also to help tie paper people, paste paper horses, and weave clothes at home when you go out to work. 】

[At this moment, you finally understand, what is life? That's life! 】

[Of course, people are mutual. 】

[You are also good to Xiulian, in terms of food and clothing, although she is frugal by nature, for fear that you will spend more money, but you still give her the best no matter what you are. 】

[Suddenly, the women in the village went from being sour at the beginning, gradually evolving into silence, and finally into envy that could not be concealed on their faces. 】

[Everyone is saying that Xiulian, a hard-working person, could not imagine that she could fly on the branches and become a phoenix and find such a good family. 】

[During the halfway period, there was also Xiulian's cousin-in-law, who saw that Xiulian's life was getting better, and her heart was not divided, and she wanted to come over to find trouble. 】

[You directly called out to the other coffin bearers, paper makers, horse pasters, suona craftsmen, etc., and went to the sister-in-law's house overnight, hung paper figures at the door, beat gongs and drums, blew mourning music, and made a big show. 】

[The sister-in-law's family was shocked and frightened, didn't this funeral for the living curse their family to die early? 】

[Looking at the eight coffin bearers who followed you, holding a flat shoulder and a round waist, and rushing out with a firewood knife in hand to prepare for a desperate cousin-in-law, he silently took the knife back, and instead sealed a red envelope for you, and sent you back with a smile. 】

[For a while, no one dares to disturb your life. 】

[Within a few years, Xiulian gave birth to a child for you. 】

[The child was born with a tiger head and a tiger brain, her complexion, eyebrows and eyes are like her, and her face and facial features are like you. 】

[Watching the birth of a new life, you can't help but sigh, it's so good.] 】

[You have already gone through half of your life, and the life of this new life has just begun. 】

[In this world, some people keep dying, and some people keep being born. 】

[Between life and death, you vaguely, as if you have grasped something. 】

[Life and death are not controllable, but the life in between can be controlled. 】

[The taste of the world is pure joy. 】

[Time is like an arrow, time is like a shuttle. 】

[Time is never forgiving. 】

[In the blink of an eye, spring goes to autumn, and twenty years have passed. 】

[Twenty years, you have become old, your body is not as good as before, your hair has turned more than half white, and you can't even lift the coffin. 】

[Your child has already gone to Beijing to take the exam, and he hasn't come back for many years. 】

[In your life, you almost lived the same life as your father, but the biggest difference is that you did not kill your child's dreams. 】

[He wanted to study to gain fame, although you knew that the possibility was very small, but you still supported him to do it without hesitation. 】

[Not for anything else, just for him to live his own life.] 】

[In the funeral work, you rarely interfere anymore, and someone below will naturally take care of it. 】

[Most of your time is given to Xiulian. 】

[Only at this time did you understand that in this life, parents and children are all passers-by, and only the person next to the pillow is the one who supports each other and walks through a lifetime. 】

[Actually, you never know if you have ever loved Xiulian. 】

[But all this is no longer important, because Xiulian has long become the water to drink and the food you want to eat in your life, and it has become a habit that has been integrated into your daily life. 】

[It's just that her lung disease is getting worse and worse.] 】

[When you are young, you can still carry it with your body, but when you get older, all the functions of your body begin to decline rapidly, and everything will naturally be unbearable. 】

[At first, she only coughed violently, but later, she was out of breath, and every time she coughed, she coughed up a lot of blood. 】

[You spent a lot of money for her, and when you got to the back, she cried and shouted, telling you to stop spending money for her. 】

[Because if she dies, there will always be living people who will continue to live.] 】

[But if the money is spent and she is gone, what will happen to the living? 】

[It's late autumn again.] 】

[She couldn't hold on any longer and collapsed on the sickbed. 】

[Suffering from illness, she can no longer find the shadow of the white moonlight in her body. 】

[On the contrary, every breath she takes is torture, and every word she says is torture.] 】

[Every day I spent in the world was extremely painful. 】

[On a late autumn morning, the weather that had been gloomy for many days finally cleared. 】

[A round of warm morning sun rises from the horizon. 】

[However, the sun rose and a new day came, and Xiulian's life stopped yesterday. 】

[She's dead.] 】

I feel like I've been a little sick lately, well, I have to change it!!

Then, it's only twenty minutes until September, everyone votes for the monthly ticket, let's rush again!

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