To appreciate myself, at a young age, I found that any activity in my hands was extremely focused and meticulous. At the end of the last class at school, I would get up and walk around the classroom in the twilight of dusk, as if I could hear the echoes of daytime frolic echoing in my ears. Inspect all the windows in the class one by one, gently caress each windowpane, and then carefully close them, as if drawing a complete end to the busy day.

I placed each of the chairs in the classroom exactly on the desk, and when the wood touched the wood, it was like adding a beat to a serene symphony. What I do may seem insignificant, but for me it brings a sense of peace and contentment.

When I see that others are not clean, I silently help them clean up. It's not that I think they're negligent, it's just that they want to make my beloved environment cleaner and more comfortable. Every time I see the cleaned floor, I feel a wonderful peace welling up in my heart.

Once, the class teacher praised me for closing all the windows in the hallway every night at the class meeting. His words shook my heart slightly, and it turned out that my actions had not been ignored. However, he didn't know that it seemed to me to be a trivial matter. I smiled softly in my heart, not many people know, but that doesn't matter, the important thing is that I get the satisfaction and joy of doing these things.

One day, I had a bold idea – I wanted a computer. Then, and even now, that price is a bit prohibitive. I remember that night, sitting on the couch in the living room, facing my parents who were confused, I firmly expressed my wishes. They were silent for a moment, looking at my resolute eyes, as if trying to understand my decision.

Fortunately, my grandmother generously provided me with a large sum of money to help me make this wish come true. I remember that day, my grandmother held a thick bill in her palm, and her eyes were full of anticipation and encouragement. I carefully took the money, filled with gratitude. At the same time, the younger brother also got a touchscreen phone from his mother that his mother no longer used, which was ahead of its time at the time. His eyes sparkled with excitement, as if he had discovered a new continent.

That computer seemed to be an important node in my growth. Since then, I have been in contact with the wider world, learning more and being more aware of my direction in life. In the beginning, I was just playing simple games on that computer, and I couldn't even read most of the Chinese characters on the computer screen. However, every click of the mouse, every click on the keyboard, it is like opening the door to a new world, which makes me feel extremely excited and excited.

Ever since I got a computer, my world has changed upside down. I found myself starting to become more and more lonely and less willing to talk to people. Computers have become my haven of escapism, and games have been my unique way of healing. I found that it was only by immersing myself in the world of the game that I was able to forget about the distractions of the outside world for a while and relax the tension in my heartstrings.

Sometimes, when I'm feeling down or trying to escape something, I turn on my computer and enter that familiar virtual world. There are characters I am familiar with, there are tasks I challenge, there are traces of my laughter and tears. I started playing the game very seriously, as if it was a part of my life. If the game doesn't go well, I'll be carried away by my emotions and smash some computer accessories to the extreme, releasing my emotions that have nowhere to put them.

However, the computer also brings me fun and pride. I would invite my friends to my house and let me show off my computer and my achievements in the game in front of them. At that time, my family was one of the few families that had a wireless network installed. Every time I turn on my computer and connect to the Internet, I feel incredibly proud and satisfied. In that era of lack of Internet, my home's wireless network seemed to be a bridge, connecting me with the world and giving me a window to look out.