Chapter 15 I am standing on the edge of the network
When I was nine years old, like any normal child, I was fascinated by the unique charm of online games. In that wondrous world built of pixels, I can transform into an all-powerful warrior, or a wizard with boundless intelligence, or even a calm explorer. Unlike the constraints and pressures of the real world, the game gave me a sense of liberation, an opportunity to escape from my daily chores and studies.
I was deeply immersed in this virtual world, and this feeling made me hide from all the things I didn't want to face, whether it was boring homework, heavy chores, or even people I didn't like. I indulged in every detail of the game, enjoying the fleeting pleasure of every victory, and the nervous pleasure sparked my nerves like a spirit.
I silently told myself in my heart, "This is my world, my world." I can do whatever I want, I can be whoever I want to be. There is no responsibility, no pain, only endless adventure and endless joy. That's what I'm after, that's what I'm after. β
Deep down, however, I knew that this was just my escape from the real world, and I had found a kind of temporary refuge in this virtual world. It doesn't change reality, it just makes me forget about the things I don't want to face for a while. But even so, I still enjoy it, because in this virtual world, I found myself, I found my true self.
Even though I was immersed in the virtual world of online games, I knew I wasn't just a child. I'm obsessed with gaming, but I understand that it's not all of my life. Even with the fleeting joy of feeling in the game, I knew that I needed to make a dide to real-life knowledge. I need to learn, I need to know what I'm passionate about, so I can differentiate myself from others.
At that time, I had a thirst for knowledge burning in my heart, and I always wanted to be ahead of others, but this lead was not to suppress them, but to use what I learned to help those in need. At that age, I was full of curiosity about the world and had an endless thirst for knowledge. I want to know more, understand more, and then, I can use that knowledge to do something meaningful.
"I'm going to surpass them," I said to myself, "not to prove that I'm better than them, but to help them." I want my knowledge to be my gift to others and a tool for me to contribute to this world. β
At that time, even if I was looking for joy in the virtual world of the game, I did not forget my love and responsibility for the real world. That unique me, even though I was in the game, never left the real world.
Although I admit that this idea may be ridiculed by many in today's society, or even considered naΓ―ve or unrealistic, I still hold on to this belief. I know that in life, we often face various difficulties, we may need help from others, we may lose direction in life, and even at some point, we may feel hopeless about life.
"Maybe people will laugh at me," I thought to myself, "maybe they will think I'm a dreamer, someone who doesn't know how to survive in this world." But I know that what I want is more than just survival, what I want is to help others and make their lives better. β
I firmly believe that when we are in trouble, there will always be someone who will step up to help us. This person could be a friend of ours, it could be our family member, or it could be a complete stranger. No matter who they are, their help will give us hope and give us strength so that we can keep going.
"Who doesn't want someone to lend a helping hand in times of difficulty?"