Chapter 388: "Demon"
After Tang Ze finished saying this, Maori Kogoro's expression went blank.
And Tang Ze's rather damning words were not all to stimulate him, but also partly because of feelings.
Fei Yingli, who opened her own law firm, is a very powerful lawyer, known as the "queen of the legal world" who has won 100% and has never lost a lawsuit.
The income of a top lawyer, the income of a top lawyer who never loses a battle, is unimaginable for workers who work on a daily basis.
However, even if Fei Yingli, whose income has reached this level, it is impossible to afford a gambler.
For gamblers, no matter how much income and savings there is, it is about 0, because gambling for a long time will lose, and gamblers do not have the situation of "gambling a few times and stopping". has experienced and seen so many gambling games with millions of dollars, and money has gradually become a number in their eyes, and he will really regard gambling as the same as stock speculation, "business and investment that can make some money".
It is this mentality that prompts them to try to turn over gambling at the first opportunity, no matter how many times they fall into this giant pit, once they have money in their hands.
If you gamble, you can't get out, there is always a stupidity that will take root in their minds, however, gambling for a long time will lose, there is no winner.
This industry takes advantage of the weakness of human nature, so that the people who sit in the bank make a lot of money, so that it has developed to the extent that some places use it as a pillar industry......
"You used to be a criminal policeman, and you are a police officer who seriously entered the police academy and received systematic training." Tang Ze looked at Maori Kogoro's eyes seriously, "You used to protect the people who were born and died, and after leaving the police force, you chose to become a detective, and you must have had the impact of a long-term police career...... Why would such a policeman allow his life to slip to such a point? ”
Tang Ze's sentence is partly a sincere question.
Maori Kogoro didn't leave his former post in embarrassment because of some professional negligence or fault.
Although both have a long history of drinking, the situation between him and Tang Ze in his previous life is very different.
Tang Ze would drink heavily, mainly because he had no desire to survive. A person who is active on the front line of the most dangerous and coexists with lies and dangers every day suddenly becomes a waste person who can't stand up and can't take care of himself.
And what about Mori Kogoro?
Hearing his question, Maori Kogoro's expression was unusually gloomy.
He took out the cigarette case, knocked out a cigarette, slowly picked up the lighter, and used it two or three times before he succeeded in lighting the cigarette.
“…… Well, you're not kidding, Ran is seriously worried about me, and I already feel it. In the midst of the smoke, he said sullenly, "However, it may be difficult for young people to understand a few words of uncle's nonsense...... Have you ever been confident that you can do a good job, thinking that you have given a lot, and there is no reason why you can't get what you get, but you really have the experience of making a mess of things when things come to an end? ”
Tang Ze, who was not young at all, looked at his tiredness, which looked especially sluggish in the sun and smoke, and understood the current rhythm a little.
It seems that Maori Kogoro was so moved by his words that he began to want to talk about the midlife crisis.
"You're right, I used to be a police officer, and it's not like I'm boasting, I'm not bad." Mori Kogoro laughed twice, and his laughter was full of self-deprecation, "So I thought that I could also be a good detective, a good father and a good husband, but I thought to myself that I couldn't do it before because of my busy police life, which made me unable to leave my energy to my family, and thought that my relationship with Eiri was becoming more and more blunt, and I couldn't balance the relationship between family and work." But really wait until I'm no longer a police officer...... I just realized that some people are not good at doing things by nature. ”
The reason for losing his job, or even exaggerating, the excuse, the discovery of his fear—
Some people really can't learn to maintain intimate relationships and run a family well.
"So, you're starting drinking?" Hearing this, Tang Ze received a little bit of the other party's meaning, "In order to escape this cruel status quo?" ”
"yes...... You should assume that these are all excuses that my failed uncle has found. Biting the cigarette holder, Mori Kogoro replied vaguely, "The main responsibility for the breakdown of my relationship with Eiri lies with me." After resigning from the police force, I worked as a detective at will, receiving few commissions, and making less money than the rent of the café downstairs, but my office was downstairs from my house, and all of this was in the eyes of Yingli.
"Her career is getting bigger and bigger, her own law firm is getting better, and I'm more and more like a private investigator. I felt uncomfortable, I felt pain, I quarreled with her more and more, but the office was downstairs from my house, so I felt more and more pressure, more and more afraid to go home, and slowly ......"
He inhaled deeply, inhaled the bitter smell of tobacco into his lungs, felt the dryness of his throat, and closed his eyes slightly.
And then it was out of control.
When he woke up from his hangover again and again, he looked at the messy home, looked at Fei Yingli with an angry face, and looked at Xiaolan with a frightened face......
He was more and more afraid to go home, to face all this, and to indulge in it more and more.
Because, if you don't continue to do this, if you don't continue to paralyze yourself, you will have to face the fact that you have done so many things wrong, you have messed up so many things, and the family that should have been perfect is broken step by step......
People will instinctively seek advantages and avoid disadvantages, and fear and avoid facing themselves.
"I didn't know until I really tried it...... Some people are not suitable to be fathers and husbands. Kogoro Maori concluded.
"Perhaps, that's the case...... But Mr. Maori, a senior police officer I knew, told me when I said that I didn't think I was fit for the police profession and had given up on that dream, 'There is no such thing as a police officer, only whether you are responsible or not'. I want to tell you that now, too. ”
Tang Ze sat up straight, and some vague figures flashed in front of him.
There is no doubt that there are Amuro Toru and there are ...... In his lowest time in his last life, despite his busy work, he persevered to see his seniors every day.
With a nostalgic smile, Tang Ze whispered: "There is nothing suitable for being a father and a husband. You think you're a failed uncle, you don't think you're able to handle family relationships, and even because of these reasons, you're addicted to a bad life and can't quit those harmful things......
"It's just going to be a vicious circle. Man is a social animal, and man's perception of self is formed in constant contact with other people, and we can't see ourselves, but can only use others as mirrors to constantly check our own appearance. The more you see the bad part of yourself, the more you should try to see it, find it, and eliminate it......"
Tang Ze, who was deeply understanding, raised his face and showed a smile of deep sympathy.
Of course, he knew that he couldn't get up after falling to the bottom of the valley, and that there was only a bare wall around him, and no matter how hard he tried, it seemed that he would only fall into a more desperate situation...... Whether it is others or oneself who is responsible for this dilemma, a dilemma is a dilemma, and it will make people fall into the mud.
He received enough patience and kindness at that time.
It was true that he could not stand up, but with the help of so many people, he walked strongly.
Embarrassed, crippled, unable to return to society and unable to return to order, he can no longer be the person he used to be.
But I went down and didn't fall at that time.
So......
Karasawa leaned forward and stretched out his hand to Kogoro Maori, who was stunned behind the table.
"We're all willing to help you, and we're all convinced that Kogoro Mori is a good cop and a good detective – as long as you don't give up first." With a solemn face, Tang Ze straightened his arm, "What about you, Uncle Maori, are you willing to accept our help and fight against your bad self?" ”
Mori Kogoro looked at his palm in a daze.
The look on his face was quite complicated and difficult to understand, but looking at Tang Ze's gaze, it slowly softened a little.
So, before he gave an answer, Tang Ze knew his answer.
【Cooperation Mori Kogoro】
【Arcana: Demon】
[The devil symbolizes depravity and desire, but the chains that hold Eve and Adam are never tightened.
Indulging in material pleasures and forgetting the sublimation of the self is destined to be a less positive tarot...... But isn't the monster thief of the heart supposed to fight and wrestle with desire for a long time until he finds out the true "heart"?
The devil will teach the fool to coexist with desire, always be vigilant to himself, always be wary of arrogance, and embrace the path he has chosen, and always remember that at this moment he is willing to hold an umbrella for others. 】
[Acquired ability: "Third-rate Detective" (the observable content of the third eye has been added)]
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