night

Standing at the entrance of the second floor looking out to sea, Gardelia turned her gaze to the signs of approaching behind her.

"Kem, it's unusual for you to call me that."

"Isn't it bad?"

Kem carried Blackie on his back and grimaced as Gadelia lined up.

"Not bad, just a little unusual"

"yes, this is probably the first time I've actually summoned only Gardelia."

"Let's get down to business now, because we're planning to have a girls' party after this."

"You behaved well every night"

"I have a lot of things I want to ask Miss Sirona"

"Moderation."

"Yes.

In the morning, Kem realizes what he missed in the fight with Iris. I can't do anything on my own to overcome it. It's not about your technique or your body, it's about your heart. Even Kem knew that just worrying wasn't going to solve the problem.

"Good insight and helpful"

"Simply put, what you lack is self-confidence, what do you want me to get?"

"I've heard Sirona say that it was hard for Gadelia to control her mental power before, didn't she?

He thought that if he had heard that controlling Gadelia's mental power must be more difficult than Cam's, he might be able to find a clue to correct Cam's bad habits.

"yes, I hated failure more than I do now. Maybe that's because of that, when I lose in battle, my power gets out of control and I can't sleep at night, which is so frustrating. “..”

His power gets out of control, hurting not only himself but also those around him. As a result, he was placed under the restriction of "forbidden to fight until he seized power." Even if you become the master of the battle castle, you can't fight, you can only watch. I was also frustrated and wanted to run away again.

"Now that I think about it, I'm still a kid"

"Actually, I was a kid at that age."

"yes, yes, I've been young."

"And?"

"Because I hate losing, my biggest frustration is that I lose without fighting.

If you can enjoy the fight itself, even if you lose, you will feel like you enjoyed it first, so the chances of getting out of control will decrease. Of course, since he hates failure, he can't get rid of it, but he can reduce it.

The sea breeze ruffles my hair. Gadelia used her powers to stop her hair from becoming coarse.

"It was Miss Sirona who suggested that Miss Sirona teach me the joy of fighting. And the depth of the battle"

"Like Sirona"

"Yes of course, I can't do it right away, I don't have experience yet"

"Is such a young lady now one of the Four Heavenly Kings?"

"Yes, because I put in a lot of hard work, and it wasn't until I started working hard for a year or so that I really enjoyed fighting, and during this time, I gradually understood the joy of fighting. I was able to control my power very well, though. ”

Gadelia has been able to control her emotions because she has become accustomed to fighting, including results, through hard work and victory and defeat in battles again and again. By communicating with Pokémon, he realizes that he is a trainer and becomes less emotional. As a result, there were almost no fugitives.

"When I became the master of the Battle Castle, I finally understood the 'real joy' of fighting."

"Really interesting?"

"You can't understand it right now, because you need real power to enjoy the game, you still can't understand real power, you can't understand it"

As Gadelia said, Kem has yet to discover the true joy of fighting. In addition to not being good at fighting, he also knew that he didn't enjoy as much as them, because he knew very well that his immaturity was due to the high ranks around him.

"Interesting, right?"

"Yes, especially when you and your Pokémon are exactly aligned in their intentions and work perfectly as a team"

"That's good."

The current Kem Pokémon are able to sense Kem's intentions, but they think exactly the same way about each other, and they fit well in battle like I've never experienced before. But when you think about it, it's also a no-brainer, and about two years ago, when Kem was a college student, he began serious about fighting. In this short period of time, although he was not talented, he had reached the point where he could be on an equal footing with the head of the gym. Two years to get this far is enough for him.

"Kem's little black seems to be very motivated."

As if to affirm Gardelia's words, Tassie and Blackie burst into tears as they hit Cam's head with their front paws.

I gave up, regardless of it, because it didn't want to get off at all, but obviously I liked the collective.

"Surprisingly belligerent, isn't it Kem's little black?"

"Because I like to move my body."

"Huhu, then I have to hurry up and become a real person"

"No errors"

"I admit you can get stronger, I'm sure"

"Oh, thank you."

Gardelia, one of the Four Heavenly Kings, said. I had a strong feeling that I wanted to somehow change this negative thought about myself.

"Since you are the partner of my good friend Miss Sirona, you can't let your abilities be half-baked"

"I know"

"In addition"

Gadelia muttered and continued.

"What's the matter?"

"Don't stop there, say what you want to say."

"I don't want you to tell me."

"It's a pity that I've been more obedient lately."

"Of course."

"What?"

Gardelia sighed as if she had given up and made up her mind.

"I think of Miss Sirona as my sister, and I also think of Kem as my brother."

Unlike Gadelia, who bullied herself with a straight face, Kem was surprised that Gadelia said this in a shy manner, and spoke out without thinking.

"I don't get along well with my parents, of course, it's good, and I'm grateful to my parents. I don't really have much to do with them, though. "So I can't say we have a good relationship."

"Really"

"That's why almost no one other than Cochrane is as close to me as my family.

Looking at the night sea, Gardelia remembered the past. He received a gifted education from an early age and had little free time. Parents only talk about themselves and their abilities. Come to think of it, every time I fail, I get out of control, partly because of my loser personality, but also because I want to be taken care of.

"During this time, I met Miss Sirona. Miss Sirona treats me very well, she treats me without worrying about my identity, which makes me happy as if I have an older sister. So, very

"Because you're a good-hearted person, Sirona."

"You too"

"Me too?"

"Yes, you are indeed a blunt, unfriendly, clumsy, unobtrusive person, and the kind of person who talks too little things and nags me to sleep."

"You're almost insulting"

He muttered to himself, not knowing if he was going to praise himself, but Gadelia said another word to Kem.

"However, he is very sincere and serious. A lot of what he said was out of concern for me, and he looked like a clumsy older brother. So I don't want to say that the people I admire are wasting everything they have. "It's been built up, even him."

Keim didn't answer.

In his opinion, the reason why he doesn't believe in himself and doesn't care about himself is because he believes that "if I don't do this, I can't improve".

In fact, when I became Shirona's apprentice, I realized that most of what I did was unnecessary. That's why I deny myself more and value the words of others more.

However, this behavior is not pleasant for those who care about Kem and Pokémon. Moreover, everything Kem did was not in vain. Compared to what I've accumulated in the past two years, it's probably still small. Maybe less. Probably not necessary.

But it was not in vain.

If he thinks it's a waste, it's a waste of the four years he spent traveling with Hei and Masamo in the Hoenn region.

I'm lost.

Little gain.

My lack of talent was exposed.

However, Gardelia said that it was not a mistake, and it was not in vain.

For the sake of Pokémon and, above all, for his own sake, he asks Kem not to deny himself.

"Didn't I say that? Don't make Sirona sad."

"I know"

I don't think it's a bad thing to be strict with yourself, but I guess it's not good to go too far. Although it is not physically demanding, it is very mentally demanding.

Thinking of this, Kem also looked at the night sea.

All you can hear is the calm sound of the waves.

ーー

After listening to Gardelia's story, then Shikimi and Alice's story, I took a shower and went back to my room.

"Welcome back"

"Can you stop being quiet in your room?"

"Is it too late?"

"It's also true."

Kem didn't speak again, as if he didn't care that much despite complaining.

I sat down in the office chair provided and turned to face Sirona.

"What are you drinking?"

I got it from Mr. Cochrane. ”

"Wouldn't it be nice to be here?"

"Yes.

"As expected"

I took the cup that Sirona had handed me and drank a little of its contents.

"How? Hear everyone's story. ”

Kem placed the glass on the table and began to speak.

"There are some differences in form, but I think everyone has their own beliefs, or rather pride. It seems that they believe in what they have built so far and believe in themselves that their Pokémon believe in. ”

"That's right, everyone has a core, and they all face Pokémon."

"Sirona, you must have noticed my distrust of yourself."

"Yes. But don't get me wrong.

"I know.

"I believe in you."

"The person I trust the most in this world is Sirona, and the person I can't trust the most is myself."

I say it's nothing, but this way of being is quite distorted.

How many people in this world have the spiritual strength not to believe in themselves, to constantly deny themselves, to maintain a decent spirit, and to grow into a decent person?

He didn't deny himself all the time from the beginning. However, it was because of having a talented older sister and someone close to Daigo that led to my end.

Of course, Kem himself is not bad, and neither are his sisters or Daigo. In other words, just bad luck.

"Do you hate to say things like that?"

Kem said, leaning his glass. Shirona is not very fond of negative behavior. He's not hated it to the point where he doesn't want to hear it, but he admits he doesn't feel good about it.

Shirona said as she stroked Togikis beside her.

"It's not like that, I think it's a little too negative, but it's also your virtue to be able to doubt yourself correctly."

At least as a scientist, I need this kind of thinking. Doubting whether the assumptions and logic they put forward are really correct, and using the necessary evidence to prove it is a necessary action for the scholar. Keim's ability to accept other people's words and actions and logic, and then transform them into his own, can be said to have the thinking circuit of a scholar.

"Do you doubt yourself?"

"Strengths and weaknesses are two sides of the same coin, for example, strengths are the ability to act cautiously, or slow judgment, whether it can be an advantage or a disadvantage, it depends on the situation." Time and situation. ”

“… I see."

"However, when it comes to Pokémon battles, your skeptical spirit is a weakness. It's not good for your Pokémon or for you. ”

Pokemon battles require fast and accurate instructions on the spot. Interpretations between trainers can also be a factor in determining victory or defeat, but in general, victory or defeat depends on the difference in abilities between Pokémon and the accuracy of trainer instructions. First of all, the battles that need to be read are not necessary, unless they are at the level of the gym director or above, and they are not necessarily necessary.

"Gardelia told me. I don't want the people I adore to be rude. I think Pokémon must feel the same way. “

Tilt the glass and pour in the brandy while stroking the chin sitting on the little black leg. Blackie let out a small cry and seemed to be in a good mood. In addition, Mukhokhawk's Bashamo, who was leaning against him, also naturally screamed softly. Mukhok just yawned, and Lucario, who was meditating, didn't say anything, but I'm sure he felt the same way.

"You trust me."

They believed in Kem, so they followed him. He should have known that he was a man worthy of believing in him, but he didn't. I only look at my past, not at the presence that is with me in the present.

"Hey, can I ask why Shirona is silent about my question?"

After drinking the contents of the cup, and then pouring more of the liquid from the bottle into the cup, he said with a slight burning head.

I'm sure knowing the reason will help in the future. That's what I thought.

"The reason why I have not said it is because it does not convey the essence of what I am saying, and I believe that none of you who have come here can understand it correctly. That's all I can say. "Technically, you can do whatever you want, but unless you're aware of spiritual things, it's pointless. That's why I didn't tell you until you hit the real wall. ”

"Really"

If you just do what others say, or you realize it and then consciously fix it, then the effect will be split into two parts, and the room for improvement will change.

Shirona trained as a trainer and scholar without affecting Kem in the slightest. That's why I didn't say it.

It's true that I wasn't aware of it, and even if I was told, it's hard to say if I would have taken it honestly. Keim thought as he sipped his brandy.

"I'm in love with a troublesome man"

"Yes. I don't think it's easy. ”

Realizing this, Kem shrugged.

Shirona turned her gaze to Kem and said clearly.

"But it's also a great talent for such a suspicious, untrustworthy person to work hard every day."

Shirona continued.

"It's not anyone's fault that you're in the situation right now. Don't blame yourself for anyone's fault. If you continue to do this, one day you will stop. ”

"Earlier, Kem said, 'I'm the most unreliable person in the world.' You've been able to keep going because you believe you're slowly but surely moving in the right direction, right? ”

"I just want to do what I think is right and live what I think is right."

If I have nothing and achieve nothing, I want to live with integrity and style. That's it.

"That's good. Try to live your life in the right way, and as a result, you are growing in a positive way. It's really great that you're trying to live the right way. I'm starting to like that part of you. "of"

However, Sirona is fascinated by this lifestyle.

As long as we are human beings, we often think that the rule of life is not "right" but "comfortable". Even Sirona had such moments. Such a life is inevitable for anyone.

However, Kem is rightfully strict with himself, so he lives on the right footing. Sirona felt that such a way of life was both noble and beautiful. That's probably one of the reasons why I was attracted to Kem.

Seeing that he was powerless but doing his best, Sirona's heart was intrigued.

"Oh, really?"

Keim's answer was lackluster.

His face was flushed, his eyes drooping, presumably drunk. On top of that, my head was dizzy.

Since some time ago, the speed has been quite fast. Looks like you're drinking more than usual. Although it was recommended by Sirona, Kem must have had a lot of ideas in mind.

"Yes. Your lifestyle is cool. ”

“… Oh no.

"For example?"

"Shirona and Daigo and my sister, right?

After all, the presence of his sister is very important and powerful for Kem. The closest and strongest existence to oneself. For the young Kem, this must have been some kind of so-called "symbol of strength".

Shirona has never met him, but Daigo's presence seems to be an important factor. In fact, Kem and Daigo are the same age, and they interact a lot during their travels. In this case, Kem spent four years collecting gym badges, while his friend Dai Wu took the title. I couldn't help but feel inferior and envious.

"Yes. You're jealous. ”

"I am..."

"I admire him for not only being able to communicate with his Pokémon, but also to fight alongside them and accomplish great feats. Just like a child longs for a Pokémon trainer, I can't give up that craving. ”

"Because that's cool, isn't it?"

"That's what you really mean."

Maybe it's because he's drunk, and his heart is full of true intentions that he doesn't usually say.

Shirona asked Cam, who was leaning back in her office chair, to stand up and sit down on the bed next to her.

"I can do it too, I want to tell you Angel"

"It's okay, you can do it"

Sirona said as she hugged Kaim's wobbly body and rubbed his back. Sirona listens carefully and accepts Kem's true intentions, which overflow like nonsense.

"It's impossible for me, everybody says I can do it even if I'm a villain, I want to look back, I don't want to give up, but I can, I, no matter how hard I try, I can't get stronger." I think I'm thinking about it too. ”

"Nope. It's not like that. You've gotten stronger. Pokémon know this too. “

"Ah, Shirona and I dare to overcome a lot of things that we couldn't overcome before, I'm so happy to be with me, thank you."

"You can overcome any obstacle. It's nice to see you trying to change yourself and overcome it. So please love yourself and yourself. ”

Kem did not reply. When I looked at her, she was already asleep peacefully with her eyes closed.

"Can't you hear me?"

This time, I asked Cochran to source sake to express Kem's true feelings. Kem is not honest, so he rarely speaks with his heart like Alice. He seems to have done a little in front of Pokémon, but the words hidden in his heart are not spoken.

Even such a Keim sometimes shows true intentions when drunk.

She has a troublesome personality and must use alcohol to express her true feelings, but the person who falls in love with her is none other than Shirona herself.

"If you can make success a habit, you'll grow. You can do it. Let's work together. ”

I put the sleeping Cam's head on my lap and stroked his head. Bleckie and Bashamo approach Cam, who is sleeping soundly. Hei used Kem as a pillow, and Bashamo leaned back on the bed, hugging his arms.

"Your master will surely become a better trainer than he is now.

Sirona smiled and gently stroked Hei and Basha Mo's heads.

"Mistress Haimeng, Mistress Alice said that the people of Sagar have contacted you and want to visit the Yongpo Immortal Pagoda."

In the middle of the night, Cochran knocked softly on Cam's door. The power came on, but nothing was happening inside. A few hours earlier, I had given Shirona some brandy, thinking they had all drunk and fallen asleep, but the door opened from the inside.

Standing in front of the door was Lucario of Keim. Lucario didn't say anything more and turned his gaze to the bed.