Qi Mu laughed, laughing loudly, and the laughter was particularly crisp in the cold winter night. Laughing and laughing, he suddenly cried, Ah Huang seemed to see that he was sad, and he stepped forward and leaned Qi Mu's leg.

It was on this ordinary night that Qi Mu's emotions that had accumulated for many years poured out little by little.

He seems to be isolated from everyone, but in fact, he is not isolated by others but by himself, he has not had a good time at all for so many years, and he has learned to stay away from the crowd and protect himself in the injury after injury.

He said to Ah Huang, "I have a mother. ”

He smiled: "This is strange, don't people have mothers, there is only one mother." ”

"When I was nine years old, my mother said that she would take me back to my real home, at that time I didn't understand the meaning of this sentence, but later I understood, she wanted to send me to my father's house, she was not right, where she was there is the real home, it is just Qi Jingnian's home."

"She also said that I would live well in my new home, and she was wrong again, and I was not doing well at all."

"She said, Qi Mu, you always have to grow up, you have to learn to live without your mother, Ah Huang, she has never understood that I can grow up well with my mother, and she has a hard time without me."

He sat on the floor and tightened his coat, Ah Huang snuggled up beside him and tilted his head to listen, the winter wind and chill came to him, and the dim street lights fell on them. Qi Mu said a lot in the cold night......

At the age of nine, he was sent to Qi's family.

It was a sunny day, and her mother was holding her hand by the fountain, and the little Qi Mu looked at the fountain in fascination, and the water column gushed out from the top of the statue's head faster or slower.

After a long time, her mother squatted down and touched her head, and there was an emotion that Xiao Qi Mu couldn't understand, she pointed to the big house in front of her and said: "Qi Mu, the front is your real home, you will live well there, better than now." ”

Qi Mu shook his head in confusion, and he asked, "What is a real home?" Is that our new home? ”

Mother: "It's not us, it's just Qi Mu's new home, Mom can't be with you all the time, Qi Mu, you always have to grow up, you have to learn to live without Mom,"

Later, Qi Mu was dragged by a strange man, and he cried and shouted to the big house, to the so-called new home, a house that seemed to be magnificent on the surface, but was actually gloomy.

He cried on the sofa for a long time that day, and after a long time, Qi Mu's biological father Qi Jingnian appeared, and he hooked Qi Mu's little face and said, "It looks like his mother." Nothing else.

There were three boys about his age, and they lived together. There is a person who claims to be a mother to take care of them, there are many rules, food and sleep are silent, there is a lot to learn, etiquette, sports, foreign languages and so on. You have to be obedient and excellent, if you don't obey, you will be beaten, if you don't study well, you will be beaten, and if you make mistakes, you will be beaten.

When he grew up, Qi Mu knew that Qi Jingnian and his current wife Liu Yue were married by a business, Liu Yue was infertile due to an accidental miscarriage, the two had no relationship, and Liu Yue was unable to have children, Qi Jingnian raised women outside, and the woman gave birth to the child and handed it over to Liu Yue to teach, and claimed that it was her child.

So there were three or four boys who got together, and they trained these boys, whoever is excellent, will have the opportunity to stay in the Qi family as a successor, and the survival of the fittest will be natural selection. is young but has a ghost in his heart.

Qi Mu is different from them, they have lived in this family since they were born, they don't know what maternal love is, and they have never felt it.

Qi Mu came to this house at the age of nine, and he felt what they didn't have, and he experienced what they didn't experience. As they racked their brains to stay, Qi Mu thought about how to escape. He just wants to grow up quickly so he can have the ability to find his real mother.

One night, the boy Qi Ming had a high fever that did not go away, and he was still unconscious after taking medicine, and the other two boys did not pay attention to each other at all. Qi Mu shouted back and forth in the huge house, but no one answered. It was a weekend, and every weekend night, the maid at home had a holiday, and there was only the uncle who guarded the door. There was a raging storm outside, and no matter how much he knocked, the uncle's door was still tightly closed.

He wanted to call that person only to find that he didn't know the other party's number at all, so he dialed 120 in desperation, and the doctor said that Qi Ming would be burned stupidly later, and Qi Mu was fortunate that he called in time.

But it was this phone call that put him through more than a month of captivity, alone in the small attic.

Qi Jingnian and Liu Yue have repeatedly banned unauthorized phone calls without their permission, let alone outsiders at home. In this way, Qi Mu's palms were beaten red, but Qi Ming didn't say a word, and in this way, Qi Mu was locked up in the small attic for more than a month, and Qi Ming never saw him in the future.

Still, he does something without hesitation, and the result is the same every time, he helps others, and others look at him coldly. Gradually, Qi Mu became less talkative, and he began to stay away from the crowd and protect himself from the crowd.

When he first went to high school, Qi Jingnian called several of them over, and he said: "Except for Qi Mu, you can all go and live the life you want, and I will give each of you a sum of money and a few real estates." ”

Qi Jingnian pointed to the materials on the table: "Here are some adopter information, you can choose the family you want, you can contact my assistant if you encounter any difficulties in your life in the future, but it is best not to contact." ”

Qi Mu felt that it was not good to be the heir of the Qi family at all, and he had to marry the arrogant and unreasonable Liu Zixin. Qi Mu rescued Liu Zixin, and when she fell into the water, the other party gave him a slap after she was rescued, saying that he was a hooligan, and Qi Mu was speechless. The other people always looked flattering to Liu Zixin, and Qi Mu couldn't wait to stay away when he saw her.

After saying this, Qi Jingnian left, and a week later, everyone had to go their separate ways.

That night, Qi Ming invited Qi Mu to speak in the garden, and Qi Mu saw what he was planning, but he still went. Qi Ming asked him a lot of questions, and Qi Mu knew everything and didn't hide anything. He knew that Qi Ming was recording, and he knew where this recording was going.

He said that the Qi family is a hell, he said that Liu Yue is like a vase, her role is just to make the family look normal, he said that Qi Jingnian is always self-centered, and everyone is a pawn in him.

Qi Mu said a lot, he knew them too well, so he knew what words would provoke the other party.

Sure enough, when he woke up the next day, he was criticized for splitting his head and covering his face, and then Qi Ming stayed in Qi's house and Qi Mu left.

Qi Ming said: "Some things can only be obtained by unscrupulous means. ”

Qi Mu said: "I didn't want to stay, even if you don't do that, I will explain to Qi Jingnian to let you stay." ”

Qi Ming was puzzled: "Why?" ”

Qi Mu said: "People will break down if they stay in this kind of place for a long time, and I don't want to break it." ”

Qi Ming said, "Qi Mu, you are too stupid. ”

Is it stupid? Those who can't hear the music, think those who dance are crazy. It's just that I want something different.

After leaving the Qi family, Qi Mu found an ordinary family life by himself, his indifferent personality was still the same as before, and he didn't like to make friends, and he only had his first friend after meeting Li Wei.

After talking for a long time, Qi Mu got up, he patted the ash on his body and said to Ah Huang: "You send Lixia home, I'll send you home, let's go." ”

He felt that Ah Huang must also want someone to accompany him home, just like he didn't like a person.

In the night, Qi Mu is no longer alone.

At that time, Qi Mu often asked Li Wei to eat skewers during the entire winter vacation, saying that he was eating skewers, but he was actually going to Huang.

When he met Li Xia, he found a close position to listen to the other party and Ah Huang Nian, Qi Mu swore that he didn't mean to listen, but overheard it, Ah Huang sent Li Xia home, he sent Ah Huang home.

When Li Xia was not there, he squatted and teased the dog, in Li Wei's words: "Qi Mu, I think you are more patient with the dog than with me." ”

Qi Mu: "Of course, because it doesn't talk as much as you. ”

Li Wei: "If it can speak, would you like to be friends with it?" ”

Qi Mu: "We were friends. ”

Li Wei: "No, Qi Mu, what do you mean?" Are you calling me a dog? ”

Qi Mu: "......"

After the second semester of the second semester of the second year of high school, Qi Mu found out that her name was not Lixia, her name was Li Xia.

The two had been in the same class for half a year, but Qi Mu couldn't recognize each other, and he didn't blame him, and the whole class didn't know anyone except Li Wei, who estimated that he didn't know anyone.

He looked at Li Xia's homework book in his hand, and then looked back at Li Xia's back, Qi Mu thought to himself that she was right, Ah Huang's friend was Li Xia, not Lixia.

Every time they meet, to be precise, they don't meet but just meet, every time they meet Qi Mu, they can only see each other's backs and hear each other's voices, and they have never seen each other's faces, he is always careful for fear of being discovered by the other party, so he doesn't care about the front face at all, he only dares to secretly turn his back to or look at each other's backs, and watch each other and Ah Huang go home.

If Li Xia hadn't been talking to the person next to him today, he would have heard a familiar voice and know that Li Xia was that girl, his good friend Ah Huang's good friend.

Qi Mu's thoughts were withdrawn from his memories, the insects on the table crawled back and forth, and Li Xia's sentence "I help them because I want to help them, not for them to help me." Some things are too careful, it's better not to do them, and it's tiring. ”

Qi Mu was suddenly relieved, he didn't want to care about the things that Qi Ming had done to him and the things he owed.

At the moment when he chose to help Qi Ming, he didn't think that the other party could repay him, but he just felt that he should help. People can decide what they want to do, and we can't decide how others want to do it.

Those things that you are obsessed with will only pull you down, so it's better to look away.

Qi Mu asked himself if he had to do it all over again, would you still be able to call without hesitation on that rainy night?

He didn't think twice, he would, and he would call as many times as he came.

After the evening self-study, the classmates walked out of the classroom one after another, Li Xia and her table Wang Wenwen sat on the seat without moving, Qi Mu waited for a while to see that the other party had no intention of leaving, he got up and picked up his schoolbag, and asked when he passed by Li Xia's side: "Still not leaving?" ”