Chapter 30: Soberness
Satin Yunchuan said slowly: "They said that the imperial court had heavy taxes back then, and after my mother conceived me, she couldn't afford to support me, and the family had no money to buy abortion pills, so they could only give birth to me......
At this moment, he was still smiling, but that smile looked very lonely under the dim candlelight, and Lin Youran sighed for a while.
"In the era when the girl grew up, even ordinary people had no worries about food and clothing, and the elders in the family loved their children. And where we are now, infanticide is so commonplace that it is almost a common thing, and even if it is seen by a neighbor, it may be told something like 'be careful, don't let the government see it'......"
Satin Yunchuan's tone seemed to be narrating a very ordinary thing, looking at her with clear eyes, but the tails of his eyes were slightly red, "From the beginning, I was born with the disgust of others, even if the master brought me back to the Yusheng Gate, all this could not be changed." ”
At that moment, Satinyun Chuan's eyes made Lin Youran feel that he seemed to be no different from others, and he was ...... It was she who didn't finish chasing the original book, so she misunderstood him based on the author's previous description.
Lin Youran didn't know how to comfort him, she patted Sain Yunchuan's shoulder and said, "Even if you were not born with blessings, on the road of your growth, there will always be people who love you, such as your master, and then your classmates, in troubled times, this is already luckier than most people." ”
"That's right...... Compared with others, I really don't have the right to feel sorry for myself here. ”
As he spoke, his eyebrows and eyes were bent, as if he was laughing, but he seemed to be crying, "Let the girl see and laugh, maybe she has never been so close to anyone, and she is so out of shape today." ”
"Really? Aren't there a lot of fellow disciples around you? None of them can get into your eyes? ”
Lin Youran said that he didn't believe it, it was said in the original book that Satinyunchuan was a fragrant dumpling in Yushengmen, from top to bottom, from men to women, there was no one who didn't like him, and it could be described as popular.
"Can everyone around the girl be close to each other?" As soon as Sain Yunchuan asked, it hit the depths of Lin Youran's soul in an instant.
Come to think of it, even if she is so close to the president's sister, her secret has never been mentioned to her sister.
One is afraid that my sister will not believe it, and the other is that I am afraid that she will believe it, knowing that she is just a character who has been made up, so what is the suffering that my sister has experienced?
In short, it's better not to talk about this matter.
Lin Youran thought about it, and suddenly felt a little sad, and after being silent for a long time, she heard Satin Yunchuan suddenly say: "I think Uncle Shi has already warned the girl, and I want the girl to reduce contact with Zai Xia as much as possible." ”
Not a question, but an affirmation.
Lin Youran, who was about to show off the chicken legs, suddenly felt that the chicken legs were a little hot, she put the chicken wings down and smiled awkwardly, "What...... How could it be, haha......"
This panic is really unskillful and emotional, Lin Youran herself feels empty-hearted, she has no appetite for the first time guarding the flesh, and her toes are already buckled in three rooms and one living room.
"The girl doesn't have to feel embarrassed, although she and Uncle Shi grew up together since childhood, they have little contact with Uncle Shi, and it is normal for Uncle Shi to have some misunderstandings about me."
"Yes...... Is it? ”
Lin Youran was skeptical, of course it was the president's sister who believed it, and the suspicion was naturally ...... Herself.
People's personalities are three-dimensional and multi-faceted, and they face different people and things, and their reactions are also different, even if it is Satinyunchuan.
When the president's sister saw what he showed, she should feel that Satin Yunchuan was a weirdo, and she followed her sister's perspective to read the novel, and naturally felt that Satin Yunchuan was a weirdo.
But after actual contact, she can see the other side of Satin, and of course her perception of him will change in her heart.
Could it really be that I misunderstood him before?
Even if you don't get too close to him, it's always okay to make friends, right?
Thinking of this, Lin Youran picked up a chicken leg and handed it to Satinyun Chuan.
"Huh?"
Lin leisurely saw that he didn't move, and directly stuffed the chicken leg into his hand, and then picked up another chicken leg and touched him.
"Hello, this classmate, my name is Lin Youran, are you interested in making a friend?"
Satinyun Chuan was stunned, then smiled, and touched her back with a chicken leg.
"Hah...... Thanks to the girl's dislike, in the lower satin Yunchuan, I am willing to become close friends with the girl, and we will be blessed and enjoy the same difficulties. ”
"Hahaha...... You said, I can make a note of it, I'm going to hug my thighs in the future. ”
"Hug ...... Thigh? ”
"How do you explain it...... It means that you have to rely on Brother Tai in the future. ”
"I see......"
"And there's more...... In the future, don't call the girl, I'm not without a name, and you don't know ......"
"Hah...... Then it is better to be respectful than to obey fate. ”
"Of course, old satin."
"Old ...... Old satin ......"
There were bursts of laughter from Lin Youran's tent, but Zhi Qingxun was always relieved, she saw that the two were getting closer and closer, and her heart was more uneasy, Zhi Qingxun knew that this matter could not be delayed any longer, and there would be a result tonight!
She was about to go to find Shao Yisong, when she saw Shao Yisong walking in with medicine.
"I'm tired of the king again."
Zhiqingxun got up and wanted to take the warm medicinal juice that night, but Shao Yisong dodged his hand, and he smiled: "Why do you and I need to say thank you, sit down." ”
As he spoke, he fed the medicine to Zhiqing's lips.
In the past few days, except for Shao Yisong, who was not here when he corrected the recital, he accompanied Zhiqingxun the rest of the time, especially in the days when she was weak, Shao Yisong was personally fed with medicine and porridge, and Zhiqingxun was also used to it.
She drank the potion spoonful, still wondering if the plan would work.
"Turbidity, what's on your mind?" Shao Yisong saw that she was absent-minded, and said, "You might as well talk to me, maybe I can help you solve it." ”
"This ......"
Zhi Qingxun looked at Shao Yisong hesitantly, and when it came to this, she seemed to have no better way.
After making up his mind, Zhi Qingxun suddenly knelt beside Shao Yisong, "I do have a reluctant request, and I ask the king for permission!" ”
"What is this?" Shao Yisong was startled and hurriedly helped her up.
Whether it is the joy or turbidity he knows, they are all proud people who are like pine and bamboo, and they are willing to perform this great gift today, and they must have encountered a major event that cannot be solved.
Shao Yisong's eyebrows were furrowed, he saw that Qing Xun was drooping his eyes, and he still looked unspeakable, and he couldn't hide the distress on his face.
"What is the matter that is directly said to me, why is it necessary?"
"This ......" Zhi Qingyun hesitated for a moment, and said: "Ask the king to decree that you will be included in the harem, okay?" ”
After she finished speaking, there was silence in the tent, and Shao Yisong was stunned for a long time, his brain buzzing, thinking that he had heard it wrong.
"You're ...... Say what?? ”
"I mean, can you ask the king to decree that you will be included in the harem."
Zhi Qingxun repeated it again, and when her words fell, Shao Yisong only felt that his blood was surging, his face was flushed, and the green tendons on his forehead exploded.
"Knowing the turbidity, you ...... You ......"
"Please agree."
"You're really...... Vexatious!! ”
Shao Yisong never expected her to make such a request, he walked away in annoyance, he hurried back to the king's tent, and couldn't help but want to kick the stones he saw on the way.
He was so angry and angry that even his body was trembling, and his clenched fist violently pushed down the piles of folds on the imperial case, and even the teacups fell to the ground, and with a crisp sound, the folds and fragments of the teacups were scattered all over the ground.
"Your Majesty!"
The guards rushed to hear the sound, but they were shouted back by Shao Yisong, "Without the order of the lonely king, you are not allowed to come in, retreat!" ”
"Yes!"
There was silence in the king's tent, and even a needle could be heard falling on the ground, and Shao Yisong slowly sat on the ground leaning on the imperial case.
He gritted his teeth, as if he was trying his best to restrain his emotions, and his heart was in a mess, wanting to make such a request without informing Qing Xun, what the hell was she thinking?!
used to be gentle and never pushed him to others, but now she took the initiative to expand his harem, is it ...... Did she really not care about him at all?
What is she in her heart?
Originally, Shao Yisong thought that after the two experienced life and death together, their relationship would gradually become as close as before, but now she knocked him to the bottom with one sentence, and even if she usually wanted to be by her side, she had to ask carefully.
When did he become so humble?
Shao Yisong hung his head, his throat was dry, and tears fell on the fold on the ground one by one, blurring the words on it.
Originally...... Even if Huan Rou didn't die, all that was left between them was memories......
"Someone, bring wine!"
As long as he is drunk, these troubles will be temporarily away from him, Shao Yisong knows that this escape will not solve any problems, but he does not want to be trapped in it like now.
He drank all night and drunk all night, and when he woke up, his heart was sober.
No matter how close Huanrou was to him back then, it became an irretrievable past, and she refused to see him again for so many years, and finally came back, also with another identity.
He had fantasized that maybe one day Zhiqingxun would take off all his defenses, tell him the truth about the year, and recognize him, but the reality was that no matter how hard he tried, he might ...... Their relationship can only stop there.
He had sworn in his heart that he would never let her be hurt again, that he would still keep his promise, but that he would never let himself deceive himself again.
Joyful ...... It's no longer the joy of the past...... She is Fang Hate, she is Zhiqing, but she is not his Ji Huanrou.
Even so......
Shao Yisong took a deep breath and drove away the dizziness after the hangover, he once said that it has nothing to do with his appearance, nothing to do with his identity, he wants to get to know her again, so start accepting it from the fact that she doesn't love him.
He rubbed his red, swollen eyes, and suddenly thought that Lin Youran's girl hadn't had much contact with him, and she hadn't even said a few words, so it was impossible to like him at all.
And Qing Xun made that request, maybe he had other intentions, he reacted too much last night, if only he listened to her explanation.
Thinking of this, Shao Yisong suddenly came to his senses, he hurriedly ordered someone to bring water to wipe his face, and just wanted to go to Zhiqingxun to ask clearly, he heard her voice coming from outside the king's tent.
"Please see you if you have something, is it convenient for the king?"