Shu Yin left.

Lin Yu was lying on the bed, although sleepy, it was difficult to sleep.

After repeating this, she couldn't help but start to get anxious, wondering if she was wasting her time.

If you know that you can't sleep, you should have set off in advance, so that you can get closer to Jingshi earlier.

As for rest, when the body can't hold on, it will naturally be so sleepy that you can't open your eyelids, and then you can sleep at that time, and you can naturally get rest, which is better than working hard like now.

But now it's too late to leave.

It's getting late, the night road is dangerous, and at least we have to wait until dawn tomorrow to set off.

She couldn't sleep left and right, so she simply got up and planned to go to the yard for a walk and blow the wind.

Unexpectedly, as soon as Lin Yu pushed open the door, he saw a familiar figure standing in the courtyard, looking at the moon in a daze.

"Resignation?"

Chen Ci turned his head, a little surprised: "Hasn't Ayu slept yet?" ”

"Why didn't you sleep?"

"I ...... Can't sleep. His gaze looked at the main room, where Zhu Rongzhan rested.

Lin Yu walked up to him and made a joke: "You don't want to kill him now, do you?" ”

Chen Ci looked at Lin Yu and smiled.

He didn't answer, but only smiled, Lin Yu didn't know what he thought, that smile suddenly made her feel a little panicked, "...... You're not trying to kill him, are you? ”

"It's fine."

"What do you mean it's okay?" Lin Yu sighed, "You...... How did you feel when you saw him? ”

“……”

"This should be the first time you've seen ...... Prince, right. ”

"yes. For the first time, Chen Ci smiled self-deprecatingly: "In my previous life, I was just a small official, and a person like the county commander was already a noble person like a heavenly man for me, let alone a prince?" ”

Lin Yu asked softly, "What do you think of him?" ”

"Nothing special." Chen Ci said: "Ah, it turns out that this is the prince." That's it. ”

Lin Yu suspected that he was hiding his true thoughts, and couldn't help urging: "Let's be specific." ”

"I really don't have any special feelings," Chen Ci laughed, "I just think, huh...... The crown prince, the son of the Son of Heaven, the future Son of Heaven...... Son of Heaven, Son of God...... That is, two eyes, a nose, and a mouth can also be poisoned, injured, and killed. It's no different from the lowliest. ”

"Because they're all people."

"Yes, they are all human beings, but the fate of everyone who is destined from birth is so different."

The two were silent for a moment.

Lin Yu raised his eyes and glanced at Chen Ci, seeing that he was lowering his eyes, not knowing what he was thinking.

She took the initiative to ask, "Don't you have anything to ask me?" ”

"Hmmm......"

"You should have heard it all behind the screen, right?"

"Hmm."

"Don't you wonder why the prince said that?"

"If Ah Yu doesn't want to say it, you don't have to tell me."

"Even if I don't say it, you should be able to guess it. You said that you have spent a lifetime with me, just like a dream of Nanke, and I have had such a dream more than once. I dreamed of you for the first time, and then I went into the second dream, and in the second dream, I was scared. ”

Chen Ci looked at her.

"Because of the events of the first life, I was scared, I was afraid that I would be disobedient and end up implicating innocent people, I was also afraid that I would be killed by my family again, I was afraid that I would have nowhere to go...... So, I decided to forget about you. ”

Chen Ci lowered his eyes.

"I'm sorry. I'm not as determined as you think...... I'm not as good as you think. I gave in, I obeyed my parents, I married Zhu Rongzhan and became his crown princess. ”

"It's me who didn't protect you." He whispered, "It's my fault. ”

Lin Yu shook his head, "It's that I don't measure myself, it's that I'm too self-righteous...... In short, in my second dream, Zhu Rongzhan was later deposed, and I was demoted to a concubine with me, and the two of us depended on each other for a few years, and then, someone wanted to get rid of Zhu Rongzhan, so they designed me as bait and killed him, and I died because of it. ”

"Zhu Rongzhan remembers this, just like I remember our dream."

"Yes."

"He doesn't know he's your second dream?"

"I don't know."

"Will you tell him?"

"If necessary."

"What about Li Ying and King Beirong?"

"Li Ying is not. King Beijon is the third dream. ”

"Because you want to find a way out," Chen Ci whispered, "you want to find a way to live." ”

"Yes."

"King Beijung...... Didn't they protect you either? ”

"When I was in Beirong, Zhu Rongzhan was still deposed, and within a few years, Da Tu announced that he was sick and died, and the young emperor took the throne, Beirong was therefore ready to move, Cangtao was unwilling to provoke a war, which caused the dissatisfaction of his subordinates, and they forced him to kill me, completely turning his face with Da Tu."

"He agreed?"

“…… Maybe? I do not know. Without waiting for him to make a decision, I tried to escape, but failed. ”

"It is almost impossible to escape from the Beirong cavalry alone on the grassland."

"Yes. And I've been through so much, but I never thought about coming back to you. ”

This sentence sounded a little cruel, Lin Yu didn't want to hurt Chen Ci, but he felt that he had to make it clear.

She gritted her teeth and relented, and for a moment felt as if she had stabbed him with a sword.

But Chen Ci's tone was as always, as if it had not been affected in any way: "So you went to find Li Ying this time?" ”

“…… Be. ”

"It's my fault. ”

"How could it be your fault?!" Lin Yu said in disbelief: "It's me who is cowardly, timid, selfish, and wants to take shortcuts to live an easy life......"

"Who wouldn't?" Chen Ci smiled: "Who wouldn't want to live a relaxed and happy life?" ”

Seeing Lin Yu's sad face, he smiled slightly, approached her and said, "It's my fault, it's not easy to be a woman in this world, I should have taken the initiative to come to you, I should have tried to prove to you that I was worthy of being relied on by you, but I ...... He is also cowardly, cowardly, selfish, and self-righteous. I don't dare...... I can't promise that I can make you live a better life, so I thought about staying away, hoping that someone else could make you happy. ”

He raised his hand, touched her hair, and gently touched her cheek: "...... You must have suffered a lot. ”

For some reason, Lin Yu's eyes were sour, and tears fell.

Chen Ci hugged her into his arms: "I'm sorry, I'm just here now." ”

Lin Yu wrapped her arms around his waist, she could feel that she was completely embraced by the man in front of her, and his gentleness made her can't help but clench Chen Ci's clothes.

He added, "It's all my fault." ”

"You're good," Lin Yu disagreed with him and took all the problems on himself, "You're very good to me." ”

"Then ......" he asked with some hesitation, "Why did you give up Li Ying this time?" ”

Lin Yu hesitated.

She didn't want to hide anything from Chen Ci, but was it really necessary to tell him all the things Li Ying had done?

It was not easy for the two of them to reach a cooperation, is it necessary for Chen Ci to know that Li Ying had killed her?

She whispered, "...... It's nothing, it's just that after a while, I suddenly found that it wasn't quite suitable. ”