"Myself."

Cang Tao frowned, and he said with a warning: "Ah Yu, don't fool me. ”

"I didn't. It's just that I've only recently found myself. Lin Yu suddenly smiled: "I act according to my own will and move forward according to my own heart." Even in my previous life, when I was happiest with you, I would occasionally ask myself at night when I couldn't sleep: 'Is this really good?' Is it okay to live like this? Have you lived like this for the rest of your life? ’”

"What's so bad about living like this with me for the rest of your life?"

"I'm attached to you."

"It is a matter of course for a wife to be attached to her husband and her children to her parents, so what's the problem?"

“…… But I won't be reconciled. ”

"Unwilling to what?"

"Have you ever heard of a phrase? Cang Liao is full of etiquette, and food and clothing are enough to know honor and disgrace. Lin Yu said: "I have always felt that my luck is not too bad, because I have no worries about food and clothing since I was born. ”

Although the words she used were not in the style of this era, Cangtao could understand what she meant after a little thought.

"But my life used to ...... than as a noble daughter of the Lin family, she has no worries about food and clothing. I live in a strong and peaceful country, I never have to worry about my homeland being invaded, I have many friends, I have the love of my parents and family, and I can choose how I want to live my life. So when I came here...... How do you want me to be willing? ”

"What does Ah Yu want?"

"I want to prove that I am who I am. It's not the crown princess of Datu, it's not the housewife of anyone's family, it's not the Yan family of the king of Beirong...... I am me, this me as Lin Yu, what is the meaning of my existence? What can I do? What exactly do I want to do? ”

"So you use saving Zhu Rongzhan to prove that you are you?"

"No, I saved Zhu Rongzhan just because I wanted to repay his love for me." Lin Yu smiled: "What I want to do...... The thing that best proves that I am who I am and that I am the most meaningful is that I want to change the world. ”

"Ah Yu ......" Cang Tao's eyes showed a trace of consternation, he looked at Lin Yu, and suddenly felt that the beautiful girl in front of him was so strange.

In his previous life, he had also noticed that there was a corner in Lin Yu's heart in a moment of sudden silence and in his lonely eyes when he was in a daze, a field he had never touched.

She was afraid that no one would understand, and even more afraid that she would be harmed, so she preferred not to even try, and simply pretended that they didn't exist.

But he never imagined that what she had carefully hidden was so big, so rebellious, so ...... Ambitious.

He said slowly: "Isn't this goal too arrogant?" ”

"But I saw an opportunity, and I decided to take it. I've run away for three lifetimes, and this time I don't want to run anymore. ”

"What are your chances? You want to support Zhu Rongzhan to ascend to the throne, do you think that with your influence, you can make Zhu Rongzhan agree to exchange markets with Beirong? ”

"I propose the possibility of this cooperation, not because I think you all love me and will agree to cooperate for me, but I have more comprehensive information than you, so you can't think of the possibility of a win-win situation, and I think it is an opportunity."

Lin Yu said calmly: "And...... Yes, I don't deny that it will also make me feel satisfied, and if I can get you to cooperate, and I can prove the value of my existence, I can feel that I can change the world in my own power. ”

"Why do you want to prove your existence by avoiding war? Generally speaking, war is the best way to reflect the value of talent - excellent generals can win victory for the monarch, and wise strategists can formulate strategies for the monarch and win the war, which naturally means your value. ”

"Because I hate war," Lin Yu said categorically: "I think war is the last resort, but you are far from that." You just never care about the lowest soldiers and civilians, and you take it for granted that a light order from the higher authorities will be consumed like some kind of tool. Because in your eyes, the weight of people is not the same, some people are heavier than Mount Tai, some people are lighter than feathers, but in my opinion, people are the same, and every life is extremely precious. ”

Cang Tao said softly, "I know this...... Even with slaves, you have always been very polite. ”

Lin Yu lowered his eyes and said, "I can only be myself in such insignificant things. And it is not his love for me that makes you agree to cooperate, but your nod - it depends on his life that you hold in your hands. Don't you think it's a great opportunity? This is your chance, not mine. ”

"Then why would you like to marry me? The last time you married me, you said that you were unwilling to live like this, but now do you feel willing to marry me for Zhu Rongzhan? ”

"The last time I married you, it was because I decided to live with you in the future, and I decided to give up myself. This time...... Even if I marry you, I will decide to be myself," Lin Yu smiled slightly: "So I don't care. ”

"Marriage is a big event, it's not a child's play!" Cang Tao was stunned and said: "You marry me, from now on in front of the gods of heaven and earth, you are my wife, husband and wife are one divine, how can it not matter?" ”

"This is your concept," Lin Yu still smiled: "It can't restrain me." ”

Cangtao's face became gloomy. He realized that even if Lin Yu married him again this time, it would not be the same as what he wanted.

Reputation can't trap Lin Yu, her heart is still free.

"You said you didn't want to be attached to me...... But how can you survive on your own as a woman? ”

Lin Yu looked out the window again: "There are always some places in this world that are giving birth to a new order. ”

Cangtao was slightly stunned: "You won't be ...... Want to go to those rebel places, right? ”

“……”

"Ridiculous!" He said angrily: "What kind of good people are those people?!" Bandits, thieves, hooligans——! How do you think that's where you go!? ”

Lin Yu lowered his eyes.

"You are not the kind of blind and ignorant person, you must feel that you see hope," Cangtao and Lin Yu I husband and wife, and they also know her character: "Among the rebels, there are people you trust?" ”

Lin Yu sighed lightly: "Yes." ”

"Why do you think he can be trusted!?" Cang Tao said angrily: "Even if he is trustworthy, are the people around him also trustworthy?!" How do you know he's not lying to you!? ”

Lin Yu knew his worries, and in fact, she herself was prepared to be the most pessimistic: "If it doesn't work there, it won't work anywhere else." That was my only hope, and my last hope. ”

"What if it doesn't work?"

Lin Yu looked at him and said firmly: "I'm almost bored with this world. ”