The Tao says, Fang is born and dies, and Fang dies and is born, and the ghost who does evil must be a ghost who dies with grievances, hatred, and resentment, and this ghost is the ghost who asks for his life in the yang world.

After living for 30 years, I can't say that I have seen all the joys and sorrows, love and hatred, but there are countless such stories in my memory. I remember that at the beginning of the epidemic, in a community very close to my home, a 95-year-old self-employed male boss quarreled with his wife because of bankruptcy, and in a fit of anger, he brutally hacked his wife to death and his three children were also hacked to death. After committing the murder, I jumped directly from the 25th floor, and my friend sent me photos of the scene, a blurry pool of flesh and blood...

Since ancient times, it is difficult for Qing officials to decide family affairs, and conflicts from within the family are often the most fatal and distressing.

Xiaowen is an ordinary rural girl, although she is only 8 years old, poverty has given her a maturity beyond her years. Both parents are ordinary farmers, and two older sisters also dropped out of school early to do odd jobs in the town to support the family.

In the 90s, the concept of preference for sons over daughters in the countryside was still relatively heavy, and if any family did not give birth to a son, then they had to find ways to get a son, exchange their daughters, and go to poorer places to buy... It's a matter of doing anything! Xiaowen is the youngest and the two older sisters above, because they did not give birth to a boy, there were many quarrels in the family. Xiaowen's grandmother is busy every day with home remedies and inquiring about which family has more sons, just to be able to hold her grandson. And Xiaowen's parents know that the family conditions are too poor and they already have three daughters, so they can't afford to raise another son, so the conflict between parents and grandmother is getting worse.

"Wen Mother, I asked for a home remedy from your second grandmother in Qiaotou, and I heard that eating it can improve the chance of having a son."

Grandma Xiaowen walked briskly from outside, and said to Xiaowen's mother who was washing clothes as she walked. Xiao Wenniang continued to wash her clothes and replied without raising her head.

"Mother, I'm so old, and the girls are not young anymore, and the previous home remedies are not less to eat, but they still don't work."

"The previous may not be right, I can still take it while I'm not dead or born! Our family can't stop the incense! ”

"Mother~ How many years have you been here, why haven't you figured it out yet! The girl left one at home, and it was okay to recruit an aunt. ”

"How can you say that, you child! No matter how good the door-to-door uncle is, it can't compare to the biological one! Just do as I say! ”

"Mother~ It's not that you don't know the situation of our family, how can you have the money to ask for another one, how to raise it?"

"You don't raise me! When Sanya finishes elementary school, can't you also make money? This..."

"Mother! What do you say? ”

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The voices of the two become higher and higher as the topic deepens, and there is a possibility that it will evolve into a physical conflict. At this moment, Xiaowen's father pushed the door with a hoe, and before he entered the door, he already heard the noise in the house, and his tired body and mind were instantly covered with a layer of haze.

"Can you stop arguing! Are you afraid that your neighbors won't be able to see enough of our jokes! ”

Daddy Wen threw the hoe to the ground and yelled loudly. Grandma and Xiao Wenniang were interrupted by this roar, Xiao Wenniang got up and wiped her hands on her body, glanced at Xiao Wen's father, who was angry, lowered her head and wiped her tears and ran back to the house.

The quarrel was forcibly stopped again, but everyone was holding their breath.

In the evening, the family was gathering at the table to eat dinner, Xiao Wen's father was drinking stuffy, and the pressure of life in the past few years made him more and more addicted to alcohol, and he had to be half-drunk every day to fall asleep. Grandma Xiaowen didn't speak, and turned around and walked out of the house after eating quickly, only Xiaowen and her two sisters were eating seriously at the dinner table.

"Xiaowenniang, I've boiled the medicine, I've taken it all, don't waste it, drink it while it's hot."

Grandma Xiaowen held a bowl of boiled medicine in both hands and handed it directly to Xiaowen Niang.

"Mother~ I don't drink!"

Xiao Wen Niang paused for a moment, first glanced at Xiao Wen's father, who was still drinking, and then raised her hand to block the medicine bowl handed over, and said firmly.

The air was quiet all of a sudden, looking at Grandma Xiaowen, whose face was changing color a little bit, and Daddy Xiaowen, who was drinking, finally spoke.

"You girls go out for a walk after eating, and you have something to talk to us."

Xiaowen and his two sisters listened, wiped their mouths, got up and walked out. This kind of thing is not once or twice, every time there is a quarrel at home, my sister will take Xiaowen out, because adults don't care if their words hurt people when they quarrel, and whether they will hurt the people around them.

"Bang~" With a crisp sound, there was noise and crying behind Xiaowen...

When Xiaowen and her sisters returned home again, there was no longer any quarrel, and the quiet and scattered fragments of white porcelain bowls in the house interpreted the scene just now. The three sisters said hello to their father and mother and went to bed, but they didn't see their grandmother, but they saw that their grandmother's room was closed and the yellow-brown light was on.

Xiaowen, who had no dreams all night and got up early in the morning, wanted to go to her grandmother's room to find her shoes to wear to school, but after knocking for a long time, there was no response. The knock on the door quickly attracted Xiao Wen's father, he knocked on the door in confusion, shouting to open the door, but there was still no reaction in the room, Xiao Wen's father suddenly felt bad and kicked open the small wooden door.

"Ah~ Mother... Mother~"

Then a scream broke the silence of this ordinary morning, and Grandma Xiaowen hanged herself, a hemp rope was wrapped around the girder at one end, and Grandma Xiaowen's head hung at the other end.

When the neighbors heard the sound, they all ran to Xiaowen's house, and everyone helped to put the body down, the person was already stiff, his face was pale, there was a slight bleeding from the corners of his mouth and nose, his tongue showed a small section, and the most terrifying thing was that his eyes were not closed...

On this day, Xiaowen and his two sisters' eyes have not been dry, my mother was a little frightened and couldn't cry anymore, and my father hit the wall in annoyance, and if it wasn't for the people in the village to stop him, his head was already bleeding.

"People can't be resurrected after death, the old lady can't think about it, you can't think about it."

"Yes, this may be fate, this girl is still young, and she has to rely on you two to support her."

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The people in the village wiped their tears and persuaded one after another, and Xiaowen's father looked at the three daughters who were at a loss on the side and his wife, who was already overfrightened and a little demented, gritted his teeth, and stood up.

The funeral was held smoothly with the help of the villagers, and the grandmother was also buried in her own field. Although Xiao Wenniang has come to her senses, she has become more silent than before.

In this way, a whole year passed, and on the day of Grandma Xiaowen's death, Xiaowen's father went to the grave to burn paper money for Grandma Xiaowen before it was dark in the afternoon. After the end, I went home early, and for a year, although some of the gloom emotions were diluted, no one wanted to mention it again, and Xiao Wen's father's alcohol addiction was getting bigger and bigger.

"Xiaowen and her father, you also drink less, you have been to the hospital several times this year because of drinking."

At the dinner table, Xiao Wen Niang said to Xiao Wen's father, who had already drunk half a catty, Xiao Wen's father didn't say anything, but he also put the wine glass aside. After being full of wine and food, Xiaowen's father went back to sleep in the house, the house in the countryside is not big, there are only a few in total, since Xiaowen's grandmother died, Xiaowen's father and mother moved in.

This night, Xiaowen's mother tossed and turned, looking at the beam not far away in a trance, as if she could see Xiaowen's grandmother hanging on it and dangling, it may be the reason for the death day, Xiaowen Niang thought secretly.

Just when she was about to fall asleep, Xiaowen Niang suddenly saw something fall from the beam in the house, she fixed her eyes and took a look, Mom~ It was actually Grandma Xiaowen's head who stuck out her tongue and didn't close her eyes!

Xiao Wenniang sat up with a spirit, staring at her eyes and panting, listening to the snoring of the man next to her, where are there any heads, it turned out that she was dreaming, Xiao Wenniang exhaled a long breath and lay back again.

Just after midnight, the moon was obscured by a cloud, but the sporadic moonlight still came through. Xiao Wenniang turned around, and suddenly found that there was a person standing in front of her, Xiao Wenniang closed her eyelids slightly and opened them again, and found that it was Xiao Wen's father standing in front of her.

"What are you doing in the middle of the night?"

Xiao Wen Niang asked in a low voice to Xiao Wen's father, and saw that Xiao Wen's father didn't say a word, so she stared at herself. Under the moonlight that is scattered from time to time, Xiao Wen's father's eyes actually reveal a strange light.

Xiao Wenniang's back suddenly felt cold, rural people generally believe in gods and ghosts, plus in the abnormal facial expression of Xiao Wen's father, there is a faint appearance of Xiaowen's grandmother.

"Her father, you, what's wrong with you?"

Xiao Wenniang sat up slowly, her voice was a little trembling, and then there was a silence, and suddenly, Xiao Wen's father pounced on Xiao Wenniang, and there was a hoarse voice like an old lady in his mouth.

"I want grandchildren... I want grandchildren..."

Xiao Wen Niang screamed, blocked Xiao Wen's father's hand with both hands, and shouted for help. Xiaowen and his sister, who lived next door, immediately rushed over when they heard the sound, pushed open the door and saw that their father and mother were scuffling together, the two sisters immediately stepped forward to fight, and Xiaowen ran next door to find a neighbor.

The neighbors were brought by Xiaowen several adults, and everyone stepped forward together to pull Xiaowen's father away, Xiaowenniang had many scars on her body, shrunk to the side and cried tremblingly, Xiaowen's father still made a hoarse voice like an old lady.

"I want grandchildren... I want grandchildren..."

The people present were all creepy, because judging from the voice, it was very similar to the voice of Grandma Xiaowen, who had been dead for a year.

Since that day, Xiaowen's father has fallen into a state of madness, which has made it even more difficult for the already not wealthy family. With the help of the villagers, Xiao Wen's father's madness improved slightly, but the onset of the disease was still more than the time when he was awake. Especially in the second half of the night, Xiao Wen's father, who was locked in a small room, let out a hoarse cry like an old lady from time to time.

In the 90s, the concept of rural and superstitious was widespread, and there was no effective treatment for this disease, so I could only go to some goddesses to see, but after looking for a few, I shook my head, saying that the old lady was too obsessed and resentful. Unless there is a man in the family, it can be completely solved. Helplessly, Xiaowen's family really can't afford to raise a boy anymore, so they can only live like this.

Blessings are incomparable, disasters are not alone, one night half a year later. When Xiaowen's father fell ill again, he drank two bottles of pesticides in one go, and died of anger before he was pulled to the hospital.

In less than two years, Xiaowen lost two relatives in a row, and both committed suicide, which plunged the whole family into a gloomy and heavy atmosphere. Xiaowen also became silent, and the two sisters couldn't stand it and went to work in other places, leaving Xiaowen and her mother at home. Xiaowen Niang was also a little mentally broken under the successive blows, but every time she saw Xiaowen, she still worked hard to live.

Heaven punishes the suffering, I don't know if it is fate or resentful ghosts.

At the end of the year when Xiaowen's father died, Xiaowen's family was getting together to eat, and after nearly half a year of recovery, the family finally recovered a little bit of vitality. The two sisters also made some money, and Xiaowen Niang also rarely smiled, and everyone happily ate while planning their future lives.

It was another moonless midnight, and Xiaowen who got up to go to the toilet found that there was a conversation in the room where her grandmother lived, she walked over curiously and pushed open the door, only to see her mother hiding in a corner of the room in a very strange posture, and her mouth made different sounds from many people.

"Come on~her mother~ drink this medicine and give birth to a son..."

"Mother, son is not filial~"

"I want grandchildren... I want grandchildren..."

"Stop arguing! Isn't there a shame! ”

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This strange scene made Xiao Wen wowa cry, and the two sisters were also woken up, and hurriedly ran over. The three sisters gradually separated from their mother's mouth, which was the voice of the dead grandmother and father.

The next day, the eldest sister told her elders about the situation, and the uncle of the family immediately took Xiaowen Niang to see the goddess. After a period of treatment, the condition has improved slightly, but the body is no longer good, and some heavy physical work can not be done.

Xiaowen dropped out of school after graduating from primary school to work, Xiaowen's mother also died when Xiaowen was 16 years old, and the hospital said that it was terminal cancer. Fortunately, with the death of Xiao Wenniang, there has never been a similar situation in this family.

Very seriously, this is a real thing, Xiaowen is my elementary school classmate, according to the family lineage I have to call her aunt, her house is just across the road from my house. When the accident happened, my mother went over to help, and Xiaowen's eldest sister had a good relationship with my mother, and they are still moving around. Xiaowen and her second sister have now married far away, and they don't usually come back much, but what they have heard is not bad, and Xiaowen also gave birth to a dragon and phoenix fetus.

The world is impermanent, and we come into the world with different fates and tasks, as if these were arranged. But there are no absolutes in everything, just like the old saying, you can enjoy as much happiness as you can endure, so don't give in lightly! Because what the future holds, you can only rely on yourself!