Cheng Yu, who is immersed in campus life, is not very aware of his father's emotional changes, and his communication with his father is limited to the field of literature, or his mother's manuscripts. Cheng Xiuyuan is pleased with his son's talent, but also worried about his persistence and stubbornness. Cheng Yu inherited his mother's kindness and simplicity, but did not inherit his father's calm practice. The son has a temperament that neither he nor Wenxiu has, wild with shyness, impulsive and tenacious. Therefore, his father has always been very careful, which is why he has not continued the strings, even if he has been intimate with Yayun in the past six months, it has always been in her apartment.

Since the party on the third day of the first lunar month, Cheng Xiuyuan has been looking for an opportunity to have a showdown with his son to get married, and the child who lost his mother early is understandable about his stepmother's sensitivity, so he must find a suitable opportunity to talk to him, he thinks that the child is now an adult, and it should not be a problem if the communication is done properly. He had considered various ways of talking, but he never expected it to be this way, which was really frustrating.

"Yayun, why don't you go home first, I'll call the driver to send you, it seems that I need to talk to my son, I think he will understand, it's not easy for you to say it here."

"I'm not leaving, I'm the one who broke through, Xiuyuan, we're almost husband and wife, no matter what the problem, we should face it together."

"Xiaoyu is still a child after all, why bother to be angry with him?" Cheng Xiuyuan felt like he was being squeezed into the cracks, in a dilemma. He wanted Yayun to stay, because he didn't want to let her down again. He Cheng Xiuyuan is a person who is good at beginning and finishing, since he has decided to accept Wu Yayun, then he will be responsible for her no matter what happens. But at this time, he wanted her to go again, because he couldn't bear to see her in an embarrassing situation.

"Aunt Yun, you stay, you never have to leave, it's me who should go." Cheng Yu didn't know when he had already packed his bags and stood coldly among the three people. He felt that everything in front of him suddenly became strange, this place did not look like his home, and the middle-aged man in front of him did not look like his father.

It's been five years since his mother died, why doesn't Cheng Yu understand his father's hardships? His relationship with his father can be divided into four stages: before the divorce, his father was his role model, his idol; Later, his parents divorced, and his father became Chen Shimei in the play, and he became an executioner who could kill people with feelings; Later, when his mother fell ill, he saw his father's endless love and care for his mother; When his mother went, Cheng Yu deeply felt his father's heart-wrenching repentance and longing. The father and son finally let go of their previous suspicions, and in the past four years, the generous father's love has repaired Cheng Yu's broken heart. His father was very knowledgeable, and he not only became the enlightenment of his literary path like a living dictionary, but also a mentor and friend of his like-minded interests. In the past year or two, he has thought about his father's love life more than once, and vaguely feels that Aunt Yun, who always helps him in the newspaper, is a good candidate, but he never expected that Aunt Yun was his father's old lover 20 years ago.

Today's scene is unacceptable to the stubborn Cheng Yu no matter what, as if his heart has been greatly insulted, and there is an indescribable sense of loneliness in his heart, "This is never my home." He thought, "I have to leave!" ”

Cheng Xiuyuan felt a kind of pressure from the moment he decided to accept Yayun, the pressure of public opinion, and the pressure of himself, but the biggest pressure was his son. In the second year of Wen Xiu's death, Cheng Yu took the college entrance examination and did not perform well, only exceeding the first line by 80 points, which was really far from his dream of the Literature Department of Peking University. Cheng Yu did not follow his father's advice to repeat his studies and applied for the local university by himself. Cheng Xiuyuan knows very well the sensitive and paranoid inner world under his son's smart and resolute appearance. He is reluctant to stimulate his son until he tries love himself, he wants him to have a healthy emotional experience and understand the importance of responsibility as a man. Therefore, he put off his love life again and again. However, he owes Wu Yayun too much, no matter whether he loved him when he was young or not, now that he has been together day and night for eight years, even a piece of ice should be covered. Besides, he Cheng Xiuyuan is also a man, how can he easily extinguish the flame burning in his heart?

Cheng Xiuyuan felt that his son's eyes were shooting at him like a sharp sword, he didn't dare to meet them, Cheng Yu's eyes were too much like Wenxiu, and he felt a lot smaller in front of such eyes.

"Xiaoyu, we should talk about it, some things are not as you imagined."

"Needless to say, I should have thought that today, you fell in love eight years ago, right? No, maybe even earlier! Divorce because I went to school, it's just an excuse, right? Why deceive the kind mother, she loves you so much and never swerving, I'm right! ”

"Xiaoyu, you can not understand today's events, but you shouldn't doubt my feelings for your mother, time has spoken for itself." Cheng Xiuyuan was surprised, he thought that his son was just instinctively resistant to what he saw today, but he didn't expect that he still knew about the past.

"Really? What does it mean? Does it mean that you are a noble father who sacrifices himself for the sake of responsibility, or that you are a hypocrite who is comfortable between old and new love? Cheng Yu looked disdainful.

"Presumptuous! What do you say about me? I really didn't expect you to say something like that! Cheng Xiuyuan suddenly stood up from the sofa.

"Xiaoyu, can't you think of your father like this? He has lost a lot of things for your mom and for you. "Grandma is a little tired of it.

"I know, I was a bane when I was never born, without me, my father would not marry my mother at all, maybe I would have stayed with Aunt Yun and flown together, without me, my mother might have lived a peaceful and stable life in the mountains, instead of dying of depression. Without me, what kind of wind and snow should you be today, Qingqing me? However, don't worry, I have no right to interfere in your personal life, I have grown up and can no longer stand in the way of your determination to pursue happiness like a stumbling block! ”

His son's words ruthlessly set off Cheng Xiuyuan's long memory, and he didn't know how much Xiao Yu knew about the many entanglements of the previous generation. The child is too smart, it is not easy to be a smart child, perhaps, at the right time, there are many things that should be known to him, but what good is it to know? It can only increase the child's worries and sorrows.

"Xiao Yu, go back to your house, don't say such nonsensical words again!" Cheng Xiuyuan was really a little angry, he stood up and crushed the remaining half of the cigarette into the ashtray.

"I'm sorry, Xiaoyu, I know that I am the least qualified to speak in this family, but if you still admit that I am Aunt Yun, please listen to me. You can misunderstand Dad, you can despise me, you can hate me, you can think of us as despicable liars, hypocrites. Life is complicated, you may encounter unexpected coincidences, and you may pursue a lifetime to nothing. However, we have no right to blame the god of fate, nor can we erase the trajectory of life that has been formed. That's why I've been waiting for so many years......"

"Aunt Yun, you don't have to play such a profound word game with me, I understand the reason, I don't want to debate, I just want to be quiet now. Later...... Grandma and Dad will leave it to you, so you can do it yourself. Cheng Yu quickly turned around and walked to the door.

"Where are you going? Xiao Yu! Grandma Cheng staggered out.

"Go where I'm supposed to go!" Cheng Yu ran downstairs without looking back.

"Xiuyuan, you go and chase him back, it's so late, where can he go?"

"Mom! Let him go, school is about to start anyway, so it's better for him to be alone and quiet. A wave of dizziness hit Cheng Xiuyuan, he sat back on the sofa heavily, he touched his forehead with his hand, and felt weaker than he had ever been.

"Why don't you stop him, you see, the child doesn't even wear an overcoat, he will get frostbite."

"Auntie, give me the clothes, I'll drive after her." Yayun took her clothes and walked out the door.

"No need, do you think he'll ask for the clothes you sent Mom?" Cheng Xiuyuan rekindled a cigarette and inhaled it vigorously. "Mom, don't worry, Xiaoyu is already an adult, and it's not a day or two to stay outside. Besides, you don't know that he has been running away from home since he was 12 years old, and when did he not come back safely? The more than 100 miles back to the countryside can't bother him, what are you afraid of? ”

"You ...... Alas! Grandma Cheng reluctantly entered the kitchen.