Chapter 20: Whose Fault Is It

While Lan Yue was taking a nap, an extremely heated debate unfolded in the kitchen......

"I said, did you ask Yue'er to come in for a bag?" Lan Tianming washed his hands and was about to help his wife make dumplings.

Xiao Ying is obviously still angry. "Don't call her, let her reflect on it!"

"I don't think you handled this matter very well, you shouldn't have told her that we had read her letter, you should know that such a big child is the most taboo about this." Since becoming the director, Lan Tianming hadn't been in this kitchen for a long time, and he looked a little in a hurry.

"The more taboo they are, the more they should look, why are they taboo? Isn't it because there are ghosts? If I hadn't read the letter, we would still be in the dark and think how innocent she was? Look at her attitude just now, has she ever been like this before? Xiao Ying vigorously pounded the dough in the basin, patting and softly as if she was teaching her daughter a lesson.

"He is indeed a little impulsive today, but that is also forced by you, no matter how old people are, they have self-esteem, and how close people must leave room for each other, otherwise, the string will break one day if it is too tight."

"Lan Tianming, you have something to say, I don't think you are targeting Yue'er, but I think I am stretching you too tightly. You don't have to wait for it to break, you can always untie yourself and leave. ”

"Look at you, why are you so sensitive, always thinking crookedly, now it's Yue'er, I really can't communicate with you."

"If you can't communicate, don't communicate, I think your father and daughter are all the way - weak-willed. The outside world is so exciting, you will be dazzled! ”

"Xiao Ying, when will you be able to speak without a gun and a stick? You weren't like this before? You're still a soul engineer with more than 20 years of teaching experience! ”

"Director Lan, I know you've been annoying me for a day or two, hearing fatigue, visual fatigue, are we coming to the end?"

"Here it is again, here it is again, I remind you many times that this kind of hurtful words cannot always be repeated, there are too many jokes, and sometimes they are forced to come true."

"Isn't that what you were hoping for? The real feeling should stand the test of time and space, the human heart is the pillar of feelings, what is afraid is not the external force that shakes the earth, but the encroachment of the heart ape. Xiao Ying unconsciously slowed down the rhythm of the skin, and her voice was a little sad.

Lan Tianming didn't answer his wife's words immediately, and he felt a faint tremor in his heart.

"Yingzi, you are not yet 45 years old, why do you have symptoms of menopause? You can't always be suspicious. ”

"Yingzi?" What a long-lost title this is, Xiao Ying glanced at her husband in surprise, and a trace of sourness rose in her heart.

Lan Tianming quickly dodged his wife's gaze and continued:

"Yue'er's matter, don't be too nervous, just a letter from a classmate can't explain anything, think about it, her classmates are a little older than our Yue'er after all, it's normal for girls to whisper something out of the ordinary, you haven't communicated with your little sisters about this kind of thinking when you were a child?"

Xiao Ying was speechless. yes, wasn't she secretly in love with the man in front of her when she was seventeen or eighteen years old?

"I also know that the child's growth cannot be stopped, but Yue'er is still young, and we have the responsibility to give him the right direction. By the way, did you say that you should contact Xiaoyue's counselor and communicate about the child's situation, so that she can rest assured that she will go back. ”

"Do you want to set up a front outpost and implement remote surveillance? Don't be funny, after all, there is still a difference between a child going to college and a high school student, and the current university is not the same as ours, and the degree of freedom is very high. Do you think that teachers in universities casually interfere in students' love lives like you? Most of them are adults who are already capable of acting, and many of the young teachers are friends with their students in private, or even love counseling specialists. What age is it now, and which parent is still interested in this kind of emotional problem of chasing after the wind and shadows of their children? In the United States, parents encourage their children to have normal contact with the opposite sex, and children who have not dated the opposite sex by the age of 18 will be laughed at by their peers, and even their neighbors will feel abnormal. After all, he has been out of school and has been in society for a few years, and Lan Tianming's thinking is obviously more avant-garde than his wife.

"Where did you hear all this weird talk? According to you, children don't have to study, and they can fall in love collectively. Xiao Ying looked disappreciative.

"You call raising the bar, learning is learning, life is life, correctly handle the relationship between men and women, remove the mysterious veil of love, maybe you can make the mentality more peaceful and happier, and your studies may be more advanced because of mutual encouragement."

"According to what you say, we should leave Yue'er alone? Let her bring a future son-in-law home? ”

"It's just that he favors a certain male classmate, how can he be connected with his son-in-law all of a sudden? When will your brain be a little more enlightened, not to mention that Yue'er and that shadowless boyfriend have not developed to that extent, even if it really develops to that extent, what can you do? Do you think opposition, blockade and even surveillance work? Didn't your mother oppose us back then? You're not deaf yet. ”

Xiao Ying glanced at her husband, she was afraid of recalling the past recently, and she was often immersed in the confusion and joy of the past alone.

"How else to say that the milk smells and doesn't dry, the age of the hairy girl is that she is not careful and shallow, if she listened to my mother back then, I would not have suffered so many grievances. Not only are they betraying their relatives, but they are also self-made, a pair of boxes and two quilts, plus a weird old lady of yours is all my belongings. Think about it, if the eldest son of the old Wang family who married in the front yard might have gone to a big city by now, at least he would have lived in a high-end apartment with complete water, electricity and heating. ”

Of course, Lan Tianming knew how much Xiao Ying had sacrificed for the Lan family, especially in that era when black and white were reversed, when he was at the lowest point in his life, it was this woman in front of him, who was not charming and outstanding, but was also young and beautiful, who lit the lamp of hope in his heart with her enthusiasm. He was grateful to her from the bottom of his heart, and although he had tried hard for most of his life to find the feeling of heartbeat, he had already decided that he would never leave her for the rest of his life.

"Oh? Looks like you regret it? Lan Tianming looked at his wife with some playfulness.

"I regret it, I regret it so much! That's why I'm nervous, haven't you heard of it? 'Marriage is a woman's grave, love is a woman's execution ground', early love is equivalent to going to the execution ground in advance. ”

"Where did you learn a bunch of fallacies, according to what you say, you will become an old virgin and an old bachelor, and human civilization should not continue anymore. Which pair of young people are not as happy as flowers when they fall in love and get married, how can they be so tragic as you say? ”

"Dig a pit by yourself and jump into it by yourself, and then bury yourself little by little with the years, only the old woman who is half buried in the loess can awaken." Xiao Ying let out a long sigh.

"Awakening? Joke! I see you as a menopausal psychopath. ”

"What do you say? You repeat? Xiao Ying stopped what she was doing and looked at Lan Tianming in a daze. was about to have a seizure, but at this time, the phone rang in the living room...... Xiao Ying ran out.

Lan Tianming swallowed hard, he realized that the conversation had reached an extraordinary period again, not long ago it was because he said something like "menopause" that he had been cold for several days, he didn't know how to accidentally lead the topic here, he suspected that he subconsciously had a gray psychology that stimulated his wife.

I don't know when Lan Tianming began to feel that this home was a bit boring, maybe the outside world was too colorful, or his previous life was too monotonous, in short, since he left the three-foot podium, he could no longer adapt to the two-point and one-line life mode. I remember that when I was teaching at school with my wife, although he was very busy preparing for classes, he still had a lot of time to practice calligraphy and study the inscriptions of the past dynasties. But since entering the leadership position, especially after leaving school and entering the government in the past two years, the time for oneself has gradually shortened, and the concept of going to work and leaving work seems to be becoming more and more blurred. A lot of spare time is also occupied by ushering in the send-off. Especially in the past six months, he has almost been in a state of sealing the pen except for mentioning a few words to the two companies. The ancients said: Scholars, such as also; Such as its learning, such as its talent, such as its ambition. But now, he, a calligrapher who accidentally entered the official career, suddenly has no time to think about the direction of his life, no time to think, and no way to calm down and splash ink. He, the director of the Cultural Affairs Bureau who walked the dragon and snake to the political stage with his pen, seems to be drifting away from his favorite skills. In fact, Lan Tianming doesn't like to socialize, he doesn't like to nod his head with his superiors, and he doesn't like to watch those all kinds of business bosses tend to be charming, but he likes to party with young people, and likes to press red wine or coffee to watch handsome men and beautiful women sing and dance, he feels that he will age slower.

In the past six months, he and his wife have dinner less and less, and both of them have canteens in their units, because they don't have to take care of the children, and three meals a day can be solved in the unit. In addition, Lan Tianming has been socializing a lot in recent years, and Xiao Ying also needs to make up classes and take students on weekends. In fact, even if the two of them are at home on weekends occasionally, Xiao Ying doesn't seem to have much enthusiasm to prepare dinner for him, and the two of them often cook bowls of noodles. And the blandness of the dining table will extend all the way to the bed. Lan Tianming hadn't made love to his wife for a long time, and a trace of sigh passed through his heart, and he couldn't tell whether it was guilt or regret......

When the phone rang, Lan Yue was sleeping on the sofa and huddled together, and she couldn't tell if the ringing was from a dream or reality. It wasn't until she felt someone put her coat on her that she suddenly woke up: "Mom, who's calling?" ”

"It's strange, I don't know who is so boring, hanging up without talking." Xiao Ying muttered.

"It won't be Cheng Yu, I told him not to call him easily. He shouldn't be so reckless. Who could that be? Forget it, I don't want to. Anyway, if something happens, I'll call over. ”

Yue'er saw her mother carefully putting her coat on her as before, and she didn't know whether to laugh or cry.

"Pack up, get ready to eat, hurry up early, don't rush late, and take a night train later"

"Huh!?"

Xiao Ying wanted to talk bitterly with her daughter before leaving, but she didn't know if her husband's sentence of "menopausal perversion" touched her, or because her daughter's aggrieved sleep aroused her motherhood, in short, she changed her mind.

Lan Yue felt that this was the longest meal she had eaten in such a big way, and none of the three of them spoke, all of them were savoring the taste of dumplings so carefully......

"I don't think I forgot to put salt in the dumplings, right?" Lan Tianming, who was cleaning up the table, said in a low voice.

"Yo! It seems that only soy sauce is put in, why doesn't anyone squeak? It's really ......."

Xiao Ying didn't go to the station, before going out, she handed her daughter a note and told her to get on the train and look at it again, her mother's behavior surprised Lan Yue, this is not her usual style. On the platform, Lan Tianming didn't say a word about the turmoil in the letter just now, but just told his daughter to grasp every experience in life, what should come will come after all, don't give up what should be pursued, and ask your heart about everything, so as to reduce regrets. Before getting into the car, her father put a bank card in the inner pocket of Yue'er's backpack and told her that she would buy a mobile phone first after returning to Xiping, so that she could call home at any time.

The train moved, and Lan Yue saw that her father's figure gradually moved, and her eyes were moist.

"Dad! Spend more time with your mother! Lan Yue shouted loudly, and Lan Tianming nodded vigorously with a smile.