I usually don't pay attention to health, I finally paid the price for this, they all said that there must be a cause and effect, usually pretending to be too much, it is a matter of time before I am retributed, I knew that I had a heart problem, but I didn't care at all, I should play, I should drink, three cups of coffee and energy drinks a day, my heart finally couldn't bear my torture and launched a rebellion against me. I had made an appointment to go hiking in Yubeng during the Spring Festival, but in December, I fell, and it was the kind that couldn't get up, heart disease caused cerebral infarction, my left limb didn't obey the call, I lay on the bed, let alone hiking, I couldn't even stand up, I sent the news of my illness to the group, saying that the itinerary for the Spring Festival can only be determined, at this time I was optimistic that I could recover soon.

Amei said, "It's hard for me to imagine how hard it must be for a person who likes the outdoors to lie in bed!" She said that I like to read, so she immediately bought me a kindle online, so that I can keep my heart on the road when I can't go on the road, and repeatedly asked me which hospital I was in. Linlin and Linlin wanted to come to see me, but during the epidemic, the hospital was not allowed to visit, which dispelled their plan to come to visit.

I stayed in the hospital for half a month, followed by a long and painful recovery, although this disease is not as life-threatening as cancer, but it is more painful than cancer patients, there is no hope, I never know when I can stand up, I can go out, there is no hope, there is no future, even death can not be done, that painful days, Amei always chats with me every day, telling me that suffering is an alternative growth in life, people who have experienced hardship can see a more beautiful scenery of life, when your life is at a low point, then every next step is upward, Believing that you can overcome all difficulties, aren't you adventurous? You will think of this as an adventure in your life, and after this ordeal, you will become braver, come on! Although I know it's chicken soup and I don't eat chicken yet, there's no denying that the chicken soup is delicious. Amei helped me strengthen my confidence that I will definitely get better, and there is a plan to complete the tour of China in the future! In those days, I was restricted by nurses in a wheelchair when I went upstairs, and they were afraid that patients would go to the roof of the building to practice light exercises. I smiled lightly, I won't jump off the building, I'm going to go around China. Illness didn't make me die, didn't it just save my life to toss?

The medical staff wouldn't let me leave the ward, but I was never an obedient person, and I always looked for an opportunity to get out of the room and go out into the sun to soak up the sun. At the insistence of my family, friends, and myself, I got back on my feet and walked out, albeit with an ugly step. In the past, I often coaxed that I was a person with a heart for the world and would never feel lonely, but after I got sick, I couldn't go anywhere, I couldn't do anything, and I knew that I would be lonely too.

I remember that more than a month after I got sick, I just got discharged from the rehabilitation hospital, Amei flew to my city, we stayed in a hotel together, and then every morning Amei accompanied me to the hospital for acupuncture, I was rolled into a hedgehog on the hospital bed, Amei sat next to me, even the nurses envied me for having such a good friend, who came thousands of miles away, and accompanied me to the hospital every day, which was the happiest day after my illness.

But Amei also has her own affairs, she can't always be with me, how happy we are when we get together, how sad we are when we are separated. After she left, I often dreamed that she was close by, and when I woke up, I realized that it was a dream.

I also understand that the ups and downs of life are the normal state of life, and smooth sailing is not the life I want, otherwise why would I let go of a good life, but, I suffer on the road again and again, if I can't even bear this little suffering, then there is no need for my life to continue. When I was sick, my brother-in-law worked tirelessly to take care of me, my brother took care of all the treatment expenses for me, Amei put down her own things to accompany me, my relatives and friends did not give up on me who was disabled, what qualifications do I have to give up myself. Suffering is the credit I have to take in this class of life, and I must answer the paper carefully and give a passing score, otherwise I will only have regrets in my life. No one wants to have regrets in their lives, I can't and I don't want to.